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Blurty for queenie.
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| Sunday, October 12th, 2003 |
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I'm losing my best friend and nothing is done about it. no signs of appreciation, talks of resolution, but nothing is done about it. i wish she could take a walk, a lonely walk in my shoes. i stumble and fall, and its hard to get back up, especially... when she's what pushed me down. |
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| Thursday, September 25th, 2003 |
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i was just out for a walk with my best guy friend, (we havent had one since summer...*sad*) but we just walked for an hour...it went by so fast!!!! oh man i luf him so much. i mean my god, we ALWAYS have those moments, where u know you say one thing and ur friend will say the exact same thing at the exact same time. yeah we had that...we finished a whole sentence together! LOL we're THAT connected. and on a relationship level, we think the same way too! like, we wanna be in a relationship for the long run, we dont wanna be in it for the F*** (his werd not mine) and then thats it. so its weird, everyone tells us we're perfect for each other, and i think we know that (well i do anyway) but u know...there isn't that attraction...i think he hot/cute n all but i dunno we're such good friends, it doesnt cross our mind to ever break that friendship. ---am i making sense? well off to sleep!<--yeah its early but im so tired for some reason... |
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well i havent posted in a long time now! just been so busy with freakin school. i basically had a major breakdown on my immune system this past week. lack of sleep...which led to (MAYBE) stomach ulcers or sour stomach, whatever it was...it was painful. but to top it all off, over the weekend i had to deal with some friendship problems, we're gettin better by the day. there should always be honesty in a friendship cuz then you never know what might happen. i wrote something to her (like a poem) cuz i couldnt tell her how sorry i was. i just hope she realizes, after all the friends she may go through, i'm always here no matter how i get treated cuz i'll never forget how she was there for me when i really needed it, and i'll never forget the times when we were realyl close. well after all that shit, i'm better now....just having a rough september...no one said life was easy right? school's been a bitch to me lately, i've failed my first 3 tests....i mean im sorta worried but i know i can bring it back up if i work hard. but its just too damn much....cuz i have to balance the homework mark as well. thank god there are people to socialize with at school (notice i said socialize...) otherwise i dunno what to do. and i met a new girl (well a frd introduced) she's so cool, and she's in my homeroom apparently! lol. i admit, when i first saw her i thought she looked really ummmmm bitchy. but after i got to know her she was pretty nice, i mean a lil on the quite side (unless u talked to her) but she's just so funny lol. she had just moved down here from vancouver too. i think i'll have a good year this year, i mean despite that i dont like a couple people, i'm making new ones or im befriending them at least. and i guess you could say im more outgoing then last year, and people notice me. its hard to explain. man i nearly tripped when a frd grabbed my hat! cuz my hair was tied and my hat wouldnt come off when he tried to pull my hat..so i was like "dragged" along with it. lol it was funny but damn...i have the worst balance in the world! i swear! labello is the best chapstick stuff ever! |
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| Tuesday, September 9th, 2003 |
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kkk i typed a whole shitload of rants, then i somehow magically deleted it...out of my own control.... FFFFUUUUCCCKKKK. okays so i'll just put down the stupidest thing i heard today said by a 9th grader. prepare urself----> "if you're jewish does that mean ur an isralian"........................................ |
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| Thursday, September 4th, 2003 |
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okays well ummm i had my second day of school today, really boring! y'know first week type of stuff. but yeah i already got in trouble 3 times for talking in class...pfffft no biggie tho the teach only wanted me to turn around and. lol she knew me by name by the end of the class LOL. oh well. i know she's a cool teacher cuz her and my favourite teacher both are in the english department and teach older kids so tis all gravy. i'm so freaked out about math tho, i didnt have a very good semester last year and now im screwed. like not cool at all. *sigh* and then i have socials...yeah woopee to that. learning about war, i just hope we dont do the stuff we did in like grade 8 and 9 (cuz i have that same teacher). and then i got CAPP (career planning stuff) and its mixed in with the grade 12s. sounds dandy haha, i hope there's not much presentation type stuff cuz that would just suck since im not a presentation type person. bleh. what else... hmmm OH well there are quite a couple of new kids at the school, obviously other then the grade 8s but alot more new seniors. it's funny, the lounge was always taken over by the seniors, and now we get to be there. hahaha tho i dont really go there. the crowd is close---u basic popular crowd type thing. but anyways...the 2nd day of school and it feels like i've already been there for MOONNTTHS! how will i survive hahaha well gotta read for english...cuz im in english enriched now! *rolls eyes* |
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| Sunday, August 31st, 2003 |
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Bloodshed Your tears I can taste So full of anger So full of sorrow Feeling defaced You bleed physically When I see you I hurt emotionally “Can’t you tell me what’s wrong?” You shake your head in pain “Is there any way I can help you?” You nod your head with silent tears “what can I do?” and you wrap your arms around me I get the picture You want me to hold you closely. I look into your eyes And they plead “don’t let me go” Please don’t say your goodbyes I’ll miss the way you greet me “hello” Your blood I can see All red like wine The white of my shirt and crimson in your veins Together, they intertwined Your blood I can trace The scent is so rancid. Not even the strongest fragrance can replace. You tremble with fear Not knowing what to do If you reveal to me what’s wrong Maybe I can help you. Your blood I can feel All over my hands Out come your sins That was hidden beneath your skins. Don’t cut your life away Just fight the temptations ‘Cause one day it’ll be worth it and you’ll be here to see a better day. |
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| Friday, August 29th, 2003 |
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my day was fucking awesome today!!! well even though it was really groupie-ish lol well it was more teenyboppish. so anyway it was basically a free concert that was put on in vancouver. shawn desman, sky, and lillix were the acts...instead of giving my whole time there, i'll just say what happened with each act----they each did a autograph signing session....  kkk i'd just like to make it clear, sky's members are not named SKY!!!! which alot of the fans had trouble figuring out. lol yes ppl they *actually* have names, which would be Karl (the lead singer) and then Antoine (the guitarist). okay so the show was awesome, the songs were great, big mixture of sounds which was cool. i enjoyed the acoustic version of "love song" ALOT! *2 thumbs up* then they played a couple of other songs from their newest album "Picture Perfect". So it was time for autograph signing .... lol my friend and i cut quite a number of ppl off lol at least they didnt knotice. So my friend and i got to the front lol, i was pretty mellowed out not all talky and shit. basically all chill. Then i get to Antoine, man are his tattoos colourful! Anyways i guess when he's sitting he gets sight of boobie areas LOL (jk) but yeah i was wearing my sagittarius sleeveless shirt and he's like "heeeyyy ms. sagittarius" lol signed my shoe and i asked for a hug---he said "of course girl!" (it was a good hug too! not like how i saw him hug the other girls that were ahead of me) so then we exchanged "how are you's". Then i get to Karl, he said "whatsup" and all that jazz. signed my shoe, and i asked "can i get a hug?" then he's like to antoine "u know every time i hear that i think of 'can i get a what what'" then he stars hummin the song. when i asked for the hug he's hugs me and says "aww u so pretty" LOL. so i still havent gotten a picture of the fellas, and i didnt wanna keep the others waiting so i was like "hey can i get a picture with u guys" and simultaneously they're like "SURE!". they were behind a desk, so antoine said "sit your booty on that table" and i was pretty much facing the crowd, and ppl AWWWW-ED me?!?!? lol no joke. well not all but i heard some 'awwws', sky is pretty good when heard live! i never really got to talk with lillix, cuz i had to stay in line for shawn desman (lets just say i had a plan) and i was also talking with the chick that worked with lillix at the merchandise booth. so my friend went to get the pictures and her wallet signed. but instead of talking to lillix, i did end up talking to the drummer's [kim] mum! and 2 other relatives of the band. they were so nice. lillix girls are quite the pretty in person  so after a while, shawn desman comes out. yeah like party on! lol *rolls eyes* girls are nuts over that boy! lol i admit he's cute in person (esp. in his baby blue velour suit, hat, and glasses) he's quite short too i'd say about 5'6-5'8...anyways lol i never got to talk but i got his signature on my shoe. fans thought it was weird lol w/e they were like whispering "a shoe?!?!?" i dont see what the big dealio is, i mean my shoe was semi-clean white and it was signable! but his bodyguard somewhat scared me away, and the whole autograph session seemed so rushed so i didnt bother to even talk to him. unless i was one of the last ppl in line that'd be different. but i was at the front. *shrugs* i was pretty satisfied that i got my shoe signed so i left, then i told some girls (that i ended up talkin to in line) whether we should try waiting in the back (cuz they wanted to like take pictures WITH him, which no one was allowed doin) so we were there for less then 15 mins, and ummmm shawn's brother had come out (i didnt know at the time that it was his brother) but my friend and i decided might as well go and get that last picture of the film roll. so we down there, listen to girls talk to him n shit. no offence to em' but it really seemed like they talked to him cuz he was related. lol or cuz he was cute. but i went cuz my friend thought he was an amazing dancer. so we're like "hey can we get a picture" and he's like "sure" had my arm around him, same with him around. then im like "whats ur name" (i honestly didnt know) and he said daniel and i introduced myself blah blah blah. shook his hand!...he has soft hands LOL i know thats weird but he does have soft hands! basically outta all the girls that i *saw* i was one of the normal ones along with my friend, like we never screamed and said "I Love You" and went nutso for any of the acts. well its not that the girls werent normal, but i mean like i was pretty chill and relaxed. on the way home she got all giddy n happy after meetin shawn desman lol. and im like "dude calm down, he's just a guys" My friend thinks there's something wrong with me cuz i'm not easily starstruck lol. but we decided that i would be if i ever met good charlotte! wells thats all that happened today and my feet hurt. so immma go sleep now...hopefully these acts end up coming back cuz i'm so there at the shows! list of stars/important ppl i've met: [1] Sky [2] Lillix [3] Shawn Desman [4] An employee for mtv canada |
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| Wednesday, August 27th, 2003 |
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I was just watching the episode of Friends, where rachel turns 30 and it does the flashback where the other "friends" turned 30. I love the one where Phoebe turns 30, cuz she finds out that she's actually 31 LOL (sucks). She says how it sucks that she's wasted a year and that she's wanted to have the perfect kiss and meet portugese ppl before she turns 31 and that she couldnt do that anymore. Then she's all depressed and walks home, and on the way, Joey says to the others that he's gonna walk Phoebe home. So he catches up to her and tells Phoebe to close her eyes, and he kisses her which then he says "now you can cross one off your list, plus i'm one-sixteenth portugese" aww how cute is that...man i've always loved joey lol so cute! man my toe hurts....and i dunno what i did to it. Well tomorro i'm going to metropolis to watch a mini-concert for free, its got shawn desman--lillix---sky. pfffft im not a big fan of either but they're okay, its not like i hate em' but i do love shawn desman's song "spread my wings" hehehehe i wanna learn that song on the guitar one day. hopefully i'll get to meet him too. peace! |
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I glance at your way. With my eyes so curious, Wanting to go through your thoughts I gaze into your eyes And I feel like I know you But yet I see a stranger When you say one thing Do you sometimes mean another? You sit there Looking out the window You look so alone No feelings are shown. I sit down by your side You look my way All taken by surprise I glance into your eyes And see the shades of gray This I wonder why. I want to know what you are thinking. |
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| Tuesday, August 26th, 2003 |
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well i went to the PNE today, damn so fucking expensive! but i think i might look into working there next summer! man i went on this one ride (it was my 4th ride) and it went upside and turned round and round repeatedly and went SUPER fast.....i nearly passed out and threw up afterwards....i didnt get up and move onto the next rides til like 30 mins later. it was weird. but i was cool afterwards. i went on this one ride called "the inverter" and i sat beside this lil boy, he was soo adorable!!! he's like "i've been on all the rides!" and before we left the ground and into the air he was like "are you ready"...o man it was so cute. and to top it off at the end of the ride he's like "woohoo i beat my record" and im like "dude whats ur record" and he's like " TWENTY TIMES!" what a lil boy eh, 20 times on that thing. he was too cute. he'll be pretty when he grows up. But yeah im so tired from all those rides....i can't really pick a fav either. It was so weird tho, outta all places i saw a (sorta) friend. first thing i see when i walk into the theme park i see him and wave...his friends were lookin at me funny....and that aint cool. what a coincedence i saw him, i understand that i saw him at the mall once but thats it!....i mean PNE is like an hour drive away from where i live!!!! tis all good tho, he's a cutie, super funny i wanna have english class with him again. speakin of school i hope i can get my courses right, i still gotta talk to the counsellor. i hope that i'll have a good year at school too. *sigh*. i'll only be stuck with these ppl for 2 more years (counting this one). its not that i hate em' but some of them can be a real bitch in the ass. its horrible. i shall be different and be nicer and not so shy this year! maybe that would help.... i know i shouldnt have talked to my friend's boyfriend, he's like "u should go out there and get a boyfriend! make things happen!" now he's got me thinkin about it... grrrrr but aw man its so sweet what he's gonna do for her when him and her and her mom go to victoria! im so glad she found someone that cares so much about her. now i need to find someone like that. o man on thursday i think im going to metro and then maybe to meet shawn desman.... can't say im really excited cuz im not THAT into shawn desman, though i admit i luve that "spread your wings" song. lol but my friend LOOOOOVES him. so we go together! *Thumbs up* |
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| Saturday, August 23rd, 2003 |
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well its 2AM and imma sleep soon cuz i gotta wake up at like 7..oh fuck that... grrr lol i just realized i'll only have like less then 5 hours of sleep. Well anyways today i went to the mall and surprisingly i didnt buy anything and i had 80-something to blow...well not really i was actually saving up but i COULDA spent it if i wanted to. but anyways we (just a friend and i) were hanging out there for a while. and then we went back to her house and then just chilled watch tv.. i did her nails!!! so pretty i put lil stars on em'. Then her boyfriend came (we'll call him J), and it was the first time i've met him (they havent been goin out for long). and omg he is the coolest boyfriend of hers i've ever met. right off the bat i got talking to him it was great. he's sucha cool guy. a recent grad too. he jewish! (like her so tis good) and i dunno if its just me, but most of the jewish ppl that i know, are soooooooooooo outgoing... if not outgoing ---- i'd say really nice. lol god my best friend is jewish and my closest guy friend [even tho we not THAT close, i see him once a while] is jewish (we'll call him V). The funny thing is J is best friends with V lol what a coinky dink. So we were all having dinner and stuff having fun talkin and all. and then i was saying how V can eat alot then all of a sudden J's fone rings...and it ends up being V LOL. it was all too weird. so then we ended up having him over, and it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun, he just got back from new jersey so he was tellin us his stories n stuff. and then we went down stairs to have some dessert and we ended up sitting there for like 2 hours talking and laffing...so great.. it all seems boring but it was great!!! i like to call em' the jewish 3. lol...at one point my friend and her boyfriend were saying how me and V would be so cute together, and we look at each other and then we both say "we've heard that one so many times" well not the exact same thing but the asnwers were similar...and its true!!! so damn true! me and him have been mistaken as couples for quite a while at school. it was fuct up man. but i guess i sorta like him?? he's likeable! thats it. lol i think i could go as far as friends with benefits rather then going out. but oh well he's a good guy, and smart...always there for me. and knows how to hug!!!! enuf about V i sound like im in love with him. Anyways when the boys were leaving, lol, J was like "dude put her arm around her...and he instead leans in behind me against the wall, the 2 friends looks and me and him...and is like "you 2 should go out" (even tho they're joking but semi meant it, V has a gf) and then J was like "give her a kiss" and then V does the kissing sound lol its cute! lol and then J was like "GUILTY CONSCIENCE" lol...oh damn it 2:25AM...shit stupid ppl on msn talkin to me lol...well im outs i'll write more tomorrow...maybe... oh hopefully we go drinking on sunday!!! lol last time before school starts... |
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| Friday, August 22nd, 2003 |
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bleh today was bland dull boring *sigh* but i did do cool stuff to my nails!! maybe i'll take a pic of it in the morning, my camera is fuct so the colour only shows in daylight but when in regular lighting its black and white...all quite the confusing for queenie but oh well at least i have a webcam! i added the lil jewel thingies.....hahaha so much fun! right now im deciding whether i wanna go to seattle with my mumsies and dadsies on saturday. DOES ANYONE WANNA LEND ME THEIR PUPPY TO PLAY WITH!?!? hahaha i wanna get a new dog but the problem is i dont wanna go through what i had to go through this year (my precious dog passing away). today i saw "exposed: kelly rowland" and she had her lil yorkshire terrior mocha...oh so adorable! and tiny too! made me want a dog again *boohoo* it was sooo cute. i miss my dog [i love you wherever you are!!!! may 26, 2003] if i **ever** get another dog i think i'd name it after the GC band member, Benji. Not only is the band member cool, i think the name is soooooo cute!  so i took my pic and fiddled around with the colour. well its 3am and i gotta go take a shower and sleep, i gotta effin wake up at 11 tomorro and call my friend to see if we're still on for the beach. man 11am, thats the earliest time i've woken up at during this whole summer...*sigh* i gotta get back on schedule, school's startin soon...*rolls eyes* watching cooking show "ken kostick!!!"----how do i put up with it? i dunno |
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| Wednesday, August 13th, 2003 |
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lol i just put on my Backstreet's Back cd...t-hee i admit underneath all this hip hop, rock/alternative, and ummm punk/rock... i have my share of liking the backstreet boys! c'mon man when they first started i was like 7 or 8 years old, they were my first cd [i wasnt into music that much back then, just had the radio lol] man it was the good ol' days knowing the words to every song and if i didnt i'd fake it LOL. i'll always have that spot for the backstreet boys lol though i think the name 'backstreet boys' should be cut outta the picture---paa.chaa they're all old and 3 are married now. How they have grown...*sigh* and how i have grown to love other music cuz of them. well i gotta go change and get ready... peace p.s "that's what she said" has gotta be my favourite song---brian's voice just sounds oh so pretty in that song. |
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| Wednesday, August 6th, 2003 |
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it's been a while since i posted....finally its raining. for the first time in like a month and half its effing raining! but yeah i gotta talk to lewis so it was good! hehehe we talked how we're gonna go shopping then gonna go skydiving and after that he's gonna treat me to a dinner, and then we go clubbin.. oh how we can't forget the clubbing! haha its great to be talkin to him again! oh how i missed him so *sigh* lol. i can't get over the fact that its raining now! pffft it hasnt rained in a long time....well anyways my best friend should be coming back soon!!! yay! w00t w00t! hope she brings me back something nice lol jk jk. oh but yeah another friend came back from europe! she showed me her tattoo, its pretty damn nice. all perrty and colourful. hehe i was thinkin about getting a tattoo! my mom and i were in the car talkin about it for a brief moment. i was saying how tattoos arent considered much of a gangster type thing (in hong kong, back then when u had a tattoo u were known as a gang member) and i said, "i wanna a tattoo, with my chinese name" and she's like "where would u even get it tattooed on ur body?" NORMALLY thats not what i would hear her say, instead she would start saying "nope not under my roof" and go all lecture-y on it. but yeah i think i just gotta get the money, get her to sign permission papers *AND*...of course wait til im 16 (sigh.. its in december dammit) so okay...i want a couple tattoos. my [1st] my chinese name [2nd] a cross [3rd] star(s) [4th]sagittarius sign w/ either english OR chinese word that says "sagittarius". tattoos are such an investment! lol i've been doin some origami for the past 2 days or so....folding little stars i've made AT LEAST 400 some stars lol. it looks pretty cool! hehe i have alot of time on my hands when im bored. im getting pretty quick at the technique of folding little bitty stars lol im tryna fill a whole basketful by the end of summer, but sadly i dont have any more fancy schmancy paper! eek!. im in a paper crisis!!! nooooooooooo lol and i thought i'd mention this now, i love good charlotte...i mean i always have like since last year (too bad not earlier cuz i was too young and naive pfffffft always into whats popular) anyways i've been listening to alot of their music cuz i always make a list and replay the songs again and again and again and again...so yeah u get the idea, and basically i love em' to death now! lol man they were what i always listened to in math class...never got bored of them! anyways... hopefully one day i'll meet them. [i would never do anything to meet a celeb, seems kinda freaky deaky to me] speakin of celebs, what wonders me is how ppl who are expectin to meet or see a famous band/person/singer (w/e) ask for autographs! i mean really?!...wouldnt you want a PICTURE instead!?!? i mean u can't LOSE a picture, but you can easily lose an autograph (unless ur weird and u frame it)....ehhh its a wonder of mine... well im out i should be sleepin its 3:40 maybe i'll stay up another hour and catch a re-run of saved by the bell! lol i found out they run 2 shows on every week day at 4 am lol. what a discovery eh! {man i remember when i had the biggest crush on zack morris...so cute!} |
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| Monday, July 28th, 2003 |
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i didnt sleep til 6am yesterday...it was so damn bright lol. but anyways i was thinking yesterday and i came up with this thought--->better yet let's call it 'literature'.
...i dunno what to title it. maybe "Backpedal"...eh who knows. i'll think of something =D |
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hey well i dont have much to say cuz i can't have much to say...gotta go to bed soon its 3:41 in the morning right now! well basically i won't be able to talk to lewis anymore, *boo hoo* really gonna miss that kid. what a special lil guy. [sigh] but i'll be okay, he has my number eh if he calls, then he calls. if he doesnt, then lol i can't do nothin' about it [you win some, you lose some]. today when i went to dinner, we drove past a movie set---i'm so curious as to what they were filming hmmmm *thinks* i know Halle Berry is supposed to be in town for "CATWOMAN" and then there's Johnny Knoxville [NOT for jackass...i dont think so anyway] and Vin Diesel, and Scooby Doo cast and Robin Williams...there's prolly more but that's all i can come up with. but yeah that's all i can say for now..gotta go! *quote for today:* "Our lives are not determind by what happens to us, but how we react to what happens; not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst...a spark that creates extraordinary results" -Anonymous |
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| Wednesday, July 23rd, 2003 |
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I have officially finish the "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix". man despite that this is a fantasy fiction type book, i think its so well written...and when i mean well written i mean that she[JK Rowling] can really keep a a reader in suspense! i finished the book in...one month and 2 days lol...imma slow reader. *shrugs* damn i know this sounds corny n all but i literally shedded a tear (only one) when i read the chapter where the__blank__person dies. he/she was my favourite character too! but i think its how JK Rowling wrote it, was what got to me most. anyway yeah that's about it. HOLY SHYT! i dunno, but if "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix" got made into a movie (i heard not all the books wud be made into movies) then it will be a very long ass movie!!!!!!!! but anyways... my day was pretty good. i went out around 3:15pm went to guitar lesson first----it went well the teacher thought i was pretty good [w00t to that!] lol we didnt play much, i just learned the first line's notes...eh he said i was good pfffft! then i went to the dentist--got sum bad news---i have 3 cavaties. and fuck that's so stupid i dunno how that happened, well i do but still in a span of what 1 year or so?!?! i've been brushing my teeth every day i wake up and brushing every time before i sleep! i'm so afraid of getting the needle to freeze my mouth. its not the pain that scares me...i just have that phobia of needles. i would get all antsy talking about them (sometimes) and its just blah. but anyways i went to the gym afterwards...and holy shit was it packed -=damn that aerobics thing=- then i came home and ate! yum yum =D my day was so bland and boring. ugh. i wish i had a job, cuz then i could work and be kept busy---AND---i could make some money. i dont like being bored, sure i have my moments of relaxation but i like to be kept working, except when it involves a lawn and flowers; that stuff [gardening] isnt for me. i was at the mall the other day, and o man i found the perfectest pair of pants for me! it was from GUESS and it was black but it's 98 bucks. i mean holy shyt it looked so nice, i could be worn casually or u know pair with a nice go-out dressy shirt. dammmmmnn made my butt look good too! LOL well it did! i hope i can go to the mall sometime this weekend and persuade my dad its a cool pair of pants. i dont understand my dad, sometimes when we go out he insists that he'll pay for something [but then its usually something really original and unique...or weird LOL] but then when i drag him out he refuses to spend money and he'll use so many excuses!!! i just dont get it =S another thing i really want was from BELOW THE BELT and its an EckoRed royal blue terry-cloth suit. oh damn it was nice. but the whole suit costs $220 itself...tax NOT included. *sigh* why do i have to be so into nice clothes. i mean im not interested in brands n all that jazz but they often do have the nicest clothes (style wise) well i'm outs gonna go talk to my friends on msn now peace! p.s oops for spelling mistakes. |
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| Monday, July 21st, 2003 |
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what a funny movie!!!! hehe billy crystal...and robert de niro---->anyway my day was pretty stupid...my brother and mom got into a fight in the fuckin car BAH, wut shocked me the most was how it was with my oldest brother, i mean my mom and him always get along! man it was harsh. i swear my family is dysfunctional!!! hopefully those 2 will be alright. it was just weird how i was minding my own business in the car with my headphones on and suddenly they start screaming at each other. i dont even know what they were yelling about...probably over something small. tsk tsk. so when we got home i watched some tv and then i fell asleep listening to music LOL. then before i knew it, we had to go out to dinner, and not so surprising...my oldest brother didnt show up. but anyways got home watched some tv. talked on the fone a bit. lol a couple days ago i had talked to my sorta ex, long story short..he asked me out, i said yes [guess i was just being nice] and we didnt see each other for the 2 weeks we were 'dating' and he broke up with me. eh i wasn't hurt...but anyway back to the point i was talking to him, we were on webcam for like 5 mins and he was like "damn your fine" and then he asked me to smile [given that i wasnt smiling at the time] and so i did cuz i couldnt help it, then he's like "now i remember why i went out with you, i love your smile". BAH he's so stupid. at least he was a good person when he asked me out...after that he just turned bad started stealing n all that bad stuff. what can i do eh? a mistake is a mistake. and he was my mistake...its him that kinda make me more aware. i was talking to lewis a couple hours ago, and i donno if its my mind playing games on me, but i think he's the sweetest guy on earth, even if he is taken and that i've only known him for like oh...less then a month! but that's beside the point lol. i was glancing over something and i came to something he said to me once when i was pretty bummed out. he said... L: knock knock me: who's there L: frown me: frown who? L: don't FROWN because you too pretty and you're still pretty when your upset but your sooooo much prettier when your smiling so swing your mood! [i said i was having moodswings LOL] now i know that was corny n all but it made me smile and laugh, it prolly made my day! :D lol and i dunno what it is, im sure he's just as nice but when he's talking to me and then sometimes he just disappears (on msn) when he's online the next day he apologizes! not that im offended lol its just ... different. lol. We havent talked to each other in a span of like 3 days or whatever [trust me that seems like a while cuz we always talked at night for the longest time] but anyways he was like "i never get to talk to you anymore" and i said "sorry, im here! u never get to talk to me anymore?" and he said "no its my fault, yeah like i havent actually talked to you for like ever" man i swear its like we're best friends! lol we had a funny moment... u know where its just all fun lol im sure everyone gets those. but this is how it went...mind u i just watched RAT RACE! me: seth green is my hero lol! L: he's kool me: and ur my hero too! lol not many ppl are my heroes u know hehe L:: and i'm one of them? me: like totally! L: lol so....do i have a superheroes name? me: ummmmm booby! (his actual name is bobby) L: lol thanks me: LOL L: -=don't fear Booby to the rescue!=- man i laffed so hard my stomach started to hurt! he's a great guy. we've talked on msn for less then a month always on webcam...and i admit i dunno him in person! but he's a friend's best friend. so its not like he's a total stranger. i know i've mention this before but he has this million dollar smile like oh wowie! great kid, his girlfriend's one lucky gal!...err did i just say gal..eek! i meant GIRL! [LOL] man do i have a day ahead of me tomorro, i was supposed to practice my guitar even though i've only had ONE class, but i was suppose to get a book and learn a lil bit off of it, but i've been bad and procrastinated! eek! that isnt good y'know. so tomorro i have to go out and get the book, and then head out to the gym and come home and lock myself in the room to get an idea of the guitar lol...bad bad me. *tsk tsk* well i'm out gona finish reading the harry potter book! ALMOST DONE NOW! w00t w00t *P.S oops for spelling mistakes!---and "ANALYZE THIS" is my new fave movie! |
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well we [me and my friend] went to the metro, and obviously the first thing i do is go to WEST49 (that's a no brainer) and sadly the brown Manteca DC shoes were all size 5. I wear a size 6. BUT! i did end up finding a shoe, it was the on sale globe chet thomas V in navy. pretty darn sweet. they were a lil more pricey but i got em' like about 10 bucks more. it was weird, before i was dropped off at my friend's i told my mom i wanted to buy shoes, and in hopes of her giving me money...SHE DID! i dunno what provoked her but she gave me the money! and normally she doesnt...but i'm grateful =D so after i bought my shoes we went to MAC, i didnt get to buy that eyeshadow----but i did put it on, hehe the make up person lent me the brush! no q-tips for me! lol. then afterwards more looking around n stuff...i never ended up finding anything good for my brother, tis his birthday soon! eek! but yeah we headed back to my friend's place ... it was quite interesting "emm eff oh" "it's mofo you idiot not emm eff oh" LOL oh man twas greatness yesterday. havent had sucha good day in a while...OOOOH we had "the michelina's bowl" it wasnt that bad. hopefully on friday i'll be going to the states...not too far tho. probably to the same ol' bellingham...but eh maybe i'll get some abercrombie clothes that i wanted, it's a tad bit pricey for me but it shud be well worth it considering vancouver doesnt have abercrombie. im out...not feeling to well ***here are the chet thomas' that i bought... only their navy coloured***  |
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Blurty for queenie.
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hopeful.
apathetic.
groggy.
enthralled.
giddy.
crazy.
indescribable.
thirsty.
angry.