Thank you's and such   
09:18pm 31/03/2005
 
mood: thankful
Since I haven't said it before, I'm going to say it now (in no particular order):

Thank you David, for bring a bright light into the darkness that is my life...I don't know if you know how much you have/are doing for me...but thank you -- I am sorry for that which I have done to you in the past, and thank you for putting faith and trust in me again -- I love you...truly and deeply am in love with you.

Thank you Sunny, we've been through alot...but we always pull through in the end -- though our friendship may be tarnished occationally, there is no better rust-remover than laughter and tears, and we've shared both many many a time -- I am sorry for all that I have done to you...you are still and always will be my dearest best friend -- I love you...no matter what curves I throw at you, remember that.

Thank you Trevie, I know that what happened between us made a rift, as I feared it would...but I still love you, big brother -- I am sorry for what I did to you, I knew it was wrong...I hope that one day we will be able to be true siblings again, without all that crap between us -- we had a lot of great times just talking and listening, I miss having someone that'll listen like you did -- I will always love you as a brother, as an equal (or possibly as one better than I)

Thank you Duvy, we've had our spats and fights, but always out of love for the other, always out of caring...we've both been through alot of similar bad times, and have always had the other to be there and just listen and occationally lose their temper -- I am sorry for any time I was a hypocrit or anytime that I was hurtful to you...you will always be my brother, someone whose shoulder I can cry on who I know will tell me that its all going to be okay and that you'll kick his ass, all I need do is say the word -- I love you...I will always be here to talk to, to listen, to argue with, to yell at...and I'll take it all...and still love you

Thank you Lizzy, we might have our disagreement and opposite view points, but we still somehow find a way to put up with each other...we still see something in the other that we lack in ourselves...you show me what its like to care too much for the world outside and I teach you to care only for the world inside -- I am sorry for any and everything I've said against you, any time that I didn't stand up for you to the best of my ability -- I love you...you've worried about me and my mind far too much for your own good

Thank you Katie, you and I have a strange relationship...we both understand the other...we both know how to keep the other from doing stupid things...we've saved the other's life and changed the other's life -- I am sorry for any times that stupid boys got between us, that something silly took away from us -- I love you, for all the craziness in you and all the stories you tell me...you listen to me too...and you worry and care for me

Thank you Mom and Dad (and the rest of my close family), you raised me the way I am...I would never want anything different than that...sure there were things I would've liked to change...but thinking about them, if they would've been different I wouldn't have learned all that I did -- I am sorry for any and all the lies I have ever told you -- I love you beyond belief and never let anything I say or do make you doubt that

Thank you to all of my old friends whose names I haven't mentioned, you are far too numerous but all equally important in my life...I am always here to be an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on -- I am sorry for anything I might have ever done against you or said to offend you -- you are all dear to my heart

Thank you to all my new friends, I have learned something unique and important from each of you...though I may not know you very well yet, I shall enjoy "assimilating" you into my "collective" mind -- I am sorry to those of you I turned away before fully giving you a chance

Thank you Joe, although you may not want to speak to me ever again, I still care about you and consider you a deep friend...you and I were engaged for a year, that should speak for something...I was not with you only because I could not have David again (that was not even a remote thought on my mind)...I loved you then and part of me will always love you, just not as deeply as before -- I am sorry for all the hurt I caused you, I hope one day you will be able to forgive me and come to charish the friendship I will forever offer you

Thank you Jim, for everything that you did to me, I can never hate you...I learned alot from you and from our relationship...I can tell you that there will never be an "us" again, but I would like to remain casual friends, someone to talk to and rant to randomly...and laugh with every now and then about stupid things from the past -- I am sorry for ignoring you, I was only afraid that talking to you might reaffirm your old hold on me, but it cannot, I am beyond that spell -- I will always care about you as a friend, and I will always tell you when you are doing something stupid (without feeling bad about it either)

And for anyone who I have not mentioned, thank you for all you have done for me, you are not forgotten


THANK YOU ALL for caring about me, worrying about me, and wanting what is best for me. Your opinions do mean alot to me, even if I chose to not do as you think I should, even if I still make mistakes you warn me about...I do respect and thank you deeply for your opinions. I love you all, never forget that. When I am on my deathbed, I hope to return to this note and read it aloud (with many additions, not only of people, but of things of which I love you all for).

Peace and good night, my dear dear friends.		  
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