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| Monday, April 11th, 2005 |
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| i miss blurty so freakin much. | ||
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| Sunday, March 6th, 2005 |
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mmm. i am in the mood for a journal entry. tonight i was driving home for work, and looked up to the east and saw these beautiful clouds. and realized that it was lightening. at that moment, i was listening to this reel chill song on the Schneider TM album and i just felt so.. zen. i dont even know what that means but it just seems like a word to describe how i felt. and the whole way home i was praying, thinking "please, God, let it rain." i dont know why i feel like i needed that rain so bad. like, i need it to complete me. to give me a rebirth of sorts. i dont know, im probably being dumb but i just wish it wouldve rained. i wouldve been so much happier. after the song ended, i just wanted to shut my iPod off... turn the radio off and drive in silence. i just turned it way down. i dont know. i never do. i feel like i have an enhanced sense of smell... its the wierdest thing. all day today and last night i was able to smell things that no one else could. well, i dont know if they couldnt but it felt completely unique to me. i think that is part of the reason i needed rain. to smell it. to be okay... god im wierd. last night i called evan. i doubt he remembers our conversation, but it still felt nice to speak with him. it felt like old times. i hope that someday we will go on a walk like we used to. or go for a drive like we used to. man. i wonder how many zillions of gallons of gas that boy has spent on me. i would like to think they were well spent, however. i almost started crying friday night because i found the mix tape. it was in my pseudo-glove compartment. now that i have a cd player in my car, i will never be able to listen to it. how lame am i, prefering a tape player to my trendy cd player. well, i might have to have Evan make it into a cd for me. but i doubt he would. saturday night consisted of: tee shirt. sun mart. a tube of cookie dough. being evasive. sun mart. a toothless homeless man. a jock party. being d.d.'s calling boys. i cant wait for later when i can talk to those i love. send a kiss my way, i'm feeling blue and confused. |
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| Friday, February 25th, 2005 |
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pretty sure livejournal equals crap. for some reason, it isnt coming up and anyway it is always under some kind of repair to the system so you can naver comment on anyones entries or post your own. it angers me to the max. so i am here because i am feeling inspired to write. today i had to work until 6, went to kaylene's birthday party, and then came home to write my psychology paper that is due at 10pm tonight. so now, its done and im just chillin. i am dead tired and should honestly just hit the hay and be done with it, but melissa is supposed to call me and we are going to hang out. i wont die if she doesnt call me, but she is supposed to. i am contemplating calling up clara and seeing if she wants to go to petes with me, but i dont know if (1) i am in the mood to party with her (2) its okay if we go and (3) if she's up for it. well, she probably is but you know. i am pretty much just in the mood to sleep for a million years. thats right, a million. but of course brian has to be watching a movie that is extremely loud because he cant properly enjoy a movie unless it is shaking the walls and breaking glass. so no sleep for me for the last week or so. poop on it all!! i am so tired and delirious right now... and i have been for a while. last night at work this kid had a "can of peanuts" that when you open it, this springy snake thing pops out of. and it was hilarious to me for some reason. i laughed so hard i cried. and of course as i am laughing, some lady answers the phone, so im trying to do my intro and i just keep breaking out into peels of laughter. im trying to apologize and bite my tounge and get through it but i bet she thought i was absolutely nuts. it turned out she wasnt the one i needed to speak with so i was able to get off the phone, but i was dying. it was seriously THEEE FUNNIEST. i couldnt control myself. i took the longest break afterwards so i could get myself together, but all matt had to do was show me the can and i would break out laughing. it was TERRIBLE. does anyone actually take the time every one's entries if they are longer i know when i'm skimming through i dont. and i feel bad because i wish i could take the time to, but really i dont want to. okay, i am a bum. i am going to talk on the internet for thismuch longer and then i am going to put on jammies and flop in my bed. listen to ipod? possibly. have a body in my bed? possibly. |
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| Wednesday, January 12th, 2005 |
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| i never wanted to live this twice. | ||
| Tuesday, January 11th, 2005 |
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hmmmm... so i'm pretty much freaking out about my grades. If i manage to get my American Lit grade up to a c+ i will have a 3.9 weighted, 3.7 not. 3.9!!! not cool. im trying to LETTER HERE!! if i can get it up to a b, then i will have 4.0 weighted, 3.8 not. jeeze. i am realllllly angry. when i was gone, she never told me what we missed so i missed quizzes and stuff that i never made up because she didnt tell me about them. so i am kind of screwed! im a little angry pants. so i partially sold out, because i got a Lj, but only because i want an easy way to keep track of everyone's journals. if everyone just had a blurty, it would be seven thousand times easier. anyway, it's carnivalkitten so add me. :D i am dead tired. so anyway... thats all. |
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| Monday, January 10th, 2005 |
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so im sitting here in computer applications, and i think im going to shoot myself. this is seriously, the most boring class-- ever. we're reviewing for the final and she is crazy. who knows what she's even talking about. i dont understand. no bigg i suppose. last night i started bringing in some of the boxes from my car. they are just a bunch of stuff from my dad's house when we had to clean it out.. its been in there since october. i feel bad because no one can ride in my car but honestly, i just havent felt like bringing it all in and going through it all... there's just so much. i found this box of cards from when i was born, and when i was one and two years old. i found this one that was from my mom and dad. i just started crying because it said "love mommy and daddy." in all of my recollection, ive never seen a card like that because my parents have been divorced so long... it was just really emotional for me. i guess it sounds stupid, but its just me. i suppose that's all for now. a lot of stuff has been happening lately... so ill just go. :) |
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cold.| Sunday, January 9th, 2005 |
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| Thursday, January 6th, 2005 |
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love love love love love love love love love love love? i hope and pray so. |
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hungry.| Thursday, December 30th, 2004 |
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i just completely disassembled my paper shredder, and then put it back together. i feel so gritty and accomplished!!! *biggest smile ever!* |
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content.| Wednesday, December 29th, 2004 |
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well. i have a minute before lane comes over to update. a ton and a half has happened since my last actual entry... too much to write in this short amount of time that i have. i'll definitley have to fill you all in. here's a short list: (0) got a sexy hair cut. (1) started going out with Lane. (2) took the psat. (3) dad committed suicide. (4) got into the one act. (5) started getting good grades on diff pre cal tests. (6) took state 2 years in a row. (7) got new cheerleading uniforms. my life in a numbered list. so far. |
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| Sunday, December 19th, 2004 |
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| yes. i am alive. i dont know when i'll be able to post next but im here for now. | ||
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| Sunday, November 21st, 2004 |
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im back and better than ever. well, almost. let me suss out this code and hopefully this layout will be grand. for now. i have another one i'm working on getting up and running. i want to start journaling again, as long as you guys will read and leave me comments ;) . no really. anyway, should i start writing again?? I want to! :D thats all for now, Scarletto Bean |
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| Monday, October 25th, 2004 |
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| Sunday, September 5th, 2004 |
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this is the ever so often "im not dead so look at me post crap" entry. ( quizzes and convos ) |
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| Monday, August 16th, 2004 |
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Post your completely honest opinion of me as a comment to this entry. Please post anonymously, and don't feel afraid to say whatever. I want you to be brutally and completely honest. Write as much or as little as you want, but if you're reading this, I want you to comment. p.s. i turned off ip address logging. not that i know your ip address, but i hope you feel more comfortable posting whatever. i want you to do this! |
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| 108% capacity! woo!! | ||
| Saturday, August 14th, 2004 |
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| i really doubt the sanity of those who shop at hollister. so i went in there today looking for a specific shirt i had seen there way back (back when evan and i were practically inseperable). so i go in there, and its not where it used to be so i head to the sale piles, and there are these idiot girls everywhere digging through the piles with thier friends. that doesnt bother me, what bothers me is the girls who were bigger than me, even, and were like "i have to have an xtra small. that wont fit me." and i wanted tho throw up because the extra small wouldnt have fit around my leg to act as a legwarmer. everyone in the store was just a big idiot and i ended up leaving southpointe with a pair of jeans, and lots of anger. end of story. update later? maybe. | ||
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| Friday, August 13th, 2004 |
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| just say no to crushes, scarlett. JUST SAY NO! | ||
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