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yup still hating blackboard over here. This time the computer is telling me I have insufficient funds to print my assignment. I HAVE GODDAMN MOTHER FUCKING MONEY IN MY ACCOUNT!!!! Stupid piece of machinery thinks it knows everything. Grrrrrr.
Yeah so how is everyone!?
I just finished cringing about my lj posts again.
(theres another nail in the coffin)
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[28 Apr 2003|01:39pm] |
So far I haven't fallen asleep today, which is a good thing. So far I haven't done any work, which is a bad thing.
I did talk, well have a posting conversation with some old xf regs which was good. Oh yeah and to Josh which was good as well. I have one word for him.
Buhcaw. No thats not it.
Blackboard is still all crappy and not loading. So I think I will go to Burns tonight and see if it will work then. Meanwhile we needs something to do. What shall it be precious?
lol all these non events.
I suppose I could study since I have 2 tests and an essay due soon. But why would I want to do something like that?
God I can talk crap. And thats not even half of it!
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[27 Apr 2003|10:00am] |
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I finally got round to getting rid of that fucking add me communtity off my friends page. It's good but so many people post it clogs up my other friends.
I went to bed early last night (around 11), like I planned. It started raining so I said yussir I'm going to bed. I woke up fucking early though, 7 or something. And you think I'm gonna do work like I planned? hell no! But thats quite the ok.
It's soo goddamned weird having two fucking journals.
Anyhow. I was in such a strange mood last night. Better than the shit way I was feeling during the day. My phone died so I couldn't message certain people information. :p And then we couldn't find the bus station so dad was starting to get impatient and I was getting annoyed cos he was getting so stressed. I think he felt kind of bad so he shoved $40 in my hand and left.. before I could say I don't need this, I have my own. So yeah. Oh and the bus driver was an asshole.
So now methinks I will have another quiet day. I have a lot of quiet days really..cos thats the exiciting kind of person I am.
meOw
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[26 Apr 2003|08:58pm] |
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Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I'm back good and proper. I can update as much as I want and not have to pay a damn cent. Yay!!!
Anyway after all that excitment, I'm in a real hype hype mood. kICKboxing in the corridors and whatnot...laughing at nothing thats funny...
Yeah so..big update tomorrow. But if you are really curious read the lj
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[22 Apr 2003|11:35am] |
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ahhh so I'm back in the place where I used to live. Hurray. I booked me one of those bus ticket things to get me back to the place where I live now and yeah I'm checkin my emails. Poor student paying to check email and update. How depressing.
Oh yeah so dad dragged me down to the RSA with him on a fricking saturday night, so I sat there feeling kind of out of place and had all these people buying me drinks...I didn't plan on drinking that much, it was no where near enough to get me drunk but yeah I didn't feel like drinking since I have a cold thanks to a certain somebody. Haha. Then Ellie came along and I hadn't seen her for a few years and she apparently wants to go clubbing next time she is in town. Harhar. It made the night slightly more amusing though.
Then more quality time with father, we wwent and watcched the startrek movie. I cannot believe I watched startrek and didn't really mind doing it. Then I did all this other stuff I can't be bothered mentioning at the moment....... but I had a really good surprise! etteluap made me an icon!! See it? Isn't it pretty?!! *dances*
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[17 Apr 2003|07:22pm] |
I was gonna update, but I feel like shit and its my fault..at least partly.
I'll update tomorrow before I got home. *passes out*
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[17 Apr 2003|01:15pm] |
Shit.
I'll elaborate later.
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[15 Apr 2003|03:20pm] |
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1. First Name: Holly
2. Were you named after anyone? People seem to think Holly Hunter, like hell.
3. Do you wish on stars? Not that I've noticed
4. Which finger is your favourite? I don't like any of them, they are all short and fat
5. When did you last cry? At the doctors when I was talking about my grandad dying
6. Do you like your handwriting? aye aye
7. What is your favourite lunch meat? uhhh ham
8. Any bad habits? I think I am a bad habbit, pretty much everything I do..
9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf? None of my music is embarrassing. I bought it because I like that kind of music. I don't care what other people think, you fuck.
10. If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you? Sometimes I think I am my only friend
11. Are you a daredevil? not really.
12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? no one tells me secrets, but no I wouldn't.
13. Do looks matter? You haven't seen me. No looks don't matter
14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? All the fucking time. I can't even speak english properly and it's my first and only language
15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? What kind of bullshit is this. Who would put a pot of gold at the 'end' of a rainbow. Have you even seen the end of a rainbow? That's right cos there isn't one
16. Do fish have feelings? Not when they are dead they don't.
17. Are you trendy? I don't aim to be trendy. I dress how I want to dress, to hell with what you think. If you don't like it though I might wear it more often.
18. How do you release anger? You don't want to see that.
19. Where are your second homes? I guess my mums. I have no room there. She rented it out.
21. What was your favourite toy as a child? I read alot.
22. What class in school do/did you think is totally useless? English. You already know the basics, why keep going?
24. Have you ever been on radio or television? Me and my friend did a radio show when we were at primary school.
25. Do you have a journal? What the hell do you think this is? I have about 3. And not internet ones.
26. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Would I ever?
27. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? I would get killed in one of them....thats why I stopped.
28. What do you look for in a guy? Someone who isn't stupid and that I can hold a conversation with.
29. What are your nicknames? Holls, Holz, Mis, Mistletoe(call me that and die)
30. Would you bunjee? Waste of money
31. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? My shoes don't have laces. Unlacing is the only way to get boots off.
32. What are you worried about right now? Too much to talk about. If you really want to know maybe I will tell you, maybe not.
33. Do you ever wear overalls? Only at work. They are such a pain to take off.
34. Do you think that you are strong? in what way? I'm not as weak as some people..
35. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? Cookies and cream or some kind of chocolate oh yeah and hokey pokey
36. What's your favorite colors? Black, blues, greens, deep purples...smoke on the water
37. What is your least fav. thing in the world? Stupid hipocritic people. They deserve to be shot. So do most politicians. Religion is bad too. So are nukes. And racism, and poor miseducated people. Shall I continue?
38. How many wisdom teeth do you have? I don't think I have any.
39. Are you in love w/ anyone? Type properly. I'm not answering until you do :p
40. How many people have a crush on you right now? Probably no one, but that's not right now that's ever. And I don't fucking care.
41. Who do you miss most right now? People who will actually talk to me and don't mind being around me. People who don't just leave everything pretty much up to me.
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Well I screwed that test up big time.Didn't even getover 60%so that means no rounding up to 100%. Oh well still best 8/10. I've got other tries. They could at least let us seewherewe went wrong. I obviously went wrong prettymuch everywhere. Back tobeing average.
ANywhore. This computerneeds a new space bar. 3 moredays.
I can't believe I watched the bachelor last night. THat is not what I would callquality entertainment, but I was boredashell so I guess that iswhat happens.
*yawn* bet that madeyou yawn. 2 more classestoday. No bio lab. Hurray, I would rather it be no chem lab but still...
God, boring.
Maybe I should start goingto the pub during theday....
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[14 Apr 2003|06:25pm] |
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I was going to make this the same as my livejournal, but then I can't really be bothered doing that. So I will just update here more. Pretty much the same stuff. That seems kind of weird. Anyhow.
The doctor said I had a number of things I could try. Counselling, meds or natural meds like St John wart. I said I would see about counselling after easter, and maybe try the St John wart. I'm just a bit worried it will effect the other stuff I am on right now.
After the doctor, I got there half an hour early!! I went down town and got a few bits and pieces. I also dropped off my film so there might be some interesting pictures on it, most of them were taken around christmas time so I don't really remember what is on there.
I haven't done any school related work today, which is quite naughty of me, but I have been busy getting other stuff done so I guess it is ok. No it isn't ok and I will have to go and do some work later. And I have the feeling mum is going to call me at some stage.
Oh yeah and most importantly I got my bank password so now I can see how much loan payments I have had (hurray I'm in debt)
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[14 Apr 2003|12:55pm] |
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Just wasting me time waiting for the doctor visit. Better go get that other result as well while I remember.
Getting sick of these doctor visits. They don't really help that much. I'm not even going because I'm sick so I don't really see the point.
4 more days until the holidays. yay. I haven't done anywork today apart from turn up to classes and I wanted to get all my notes and whatnot up to date so I don't have to do a whole lot of fucking work on my week off.
Gonna be good going back.
I think I will try to update this journal more often as well. I wish I had more time.
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[12 Apr 2003|02:01pm] |
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I really don't feel like doing any work, yet I am. I will feel better for doing it after I have, I know but.
I dyed my hair red last night. Happy happy.
I'm tired.
I'm boring.
*melts*
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[07 Apr 2003|01:45pm] |
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Went to the doctors and the doctor said...no more monkeys jumping on the bed...
uhh no not really, but I did went to the doctors and the doctor did said that she reckons I'm depressed. Big surprise there. Well actually it kind of was....but then, not really. Probably doesn't seem like it at all from most of my posts. BUT I only post here when I can be bothered....still I don't even put all the shitty things that happen to me/I think/feel/do, or lack of doing on lj. If I did I disturb even more people. (should I care about that? I think not but I still end up thinking it, and I sure as hell know that they think along certain lines as well). All my negativity in particular....
She kept asking me if I have had thoughts about suicide and hurting myself. Honestly. I said I have in the past but I decided I don't want to kill myself, if I can decide such a thing...anyway I decided it wasn't worth it for me...Who doesn't fucking thing about suicide and death? Anyway, she probably has to ask those kind of questions.
Shes making me go back again next week to see if I'm 'feeling better'. Good days are a fucking rarity. I think she is trying to make me have counselling as well. God knows how I'm going to be able to afford all these dr visits and what not. That probably contributes to all this she as well. She also thinks I'm homesick. I have never been homesick in my life, so what the hell!? I suppose theres the first time for everything works like that as well.
On the other hand my other illness, the 'viral' thing seems to be gone. My back no longer aches like hell for no apparent reason...appart from when I slouch, but thats just bad posture I hope.
I miss chat programs..
I could go on for a long while but I suppose I should get on with finishing my piece of shit lab assignment so I don't have to worry about that. One less thing. hurray. ...maybe I will later..
It's raining outside. I wish I was there
how fucking relevant. I love NIN. Might go listen to some later...
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[06 Apr 2003|06:19pm] |
studied all day, about to study some more.
At least I am getting work done.
Constant headaches aren't good. I guess I will tell the doctor about that tomorrow seeing as I'm pretty much feeling normal now. Apart from the headache. uh huh.
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[04 Apr 2003|06:25pm] |
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I could be dead for all they know. Some friends. I've been feeling like shit, healthwise and emotionally and they don't even give a fuck. They probably shouldn't.
Give me chocolate
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[04 Apr 2003|12:02pm] |
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I kind of forgot about this journal.
Besides, all I have to say is that I'm sick. I don't know what is wrong. I would like to know, but I don't think thats gonna happen. I would be good if I got better real soon, but that doesn't seem like it is going to happen either.
Anyway, yeah. The weekend nearly woohooo. I'm trying to be enthusiastic. I won't be going out anywhere due to catching up on school worrk and the I'm so tired all I feel up to doing is sleep.
Yeap, just waiting for lunch now, before I can have a wee hour of sleep before my next class.
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I get to go to Taranaki tomorrow. Would be kind of fun, but its for my grandads funeral.
I'm gonna be missing a week of school. I don't know if I should be going (yes I know its my grandfather and all that) I don't know how I'm gonna catch up on all my work. I could try to get ahead a bit this weekend. As long as I have access to blackboard I should be alright. It's costing mum quite a bit of money for me to be up there as well.
I was rushing all over town today. I would hardly call it rushing actually, first to the travel agents where I found out the guy I was meant to be talking to was out to lunch. So because I was feeling so ill I went to the student health centre and got me an appointment. Basically if my asthma gets worse over the weekend I have to go to the doctor, or take steroids, and that I should try and sleep since I apparently have a bit of a temperature, or lack of one. Can't remember which. I haven't got to the stage of getting to my bedroom just yet. I think I will skip tea, unless it is sooo yummy that its worth not sleeping through. Then I have to pack.
I won't be going out tonight. I ache all over for one and have no energy. Then theres all the work and readings that I should be doing.
I still get freaked out about planes...
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[19 Mar 2003|10:06am] |
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Ugh Mcdonalds interview in less than an hour. Remind me why I want to work there again
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[17 Mar 2003|05:01pm] |
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I slept for nearly 2 hours this afternoon, yet I still want more sleep. Finished my anth readings too - I read them in my sleep. uhhhh
Deep fried moro bars are one of the yummiest things you can ever have, ever.
I called mum. She rented out my room. So I won't be going to that home in the holidays.
Carly was freaking out about this guy who wandered into a hotel room in Hastings and nearly slit this girls throat. Her dad was in the next room and heard noises so went into her room and saw him. He got stabbed a few times, his stomach cut open and whatnot. They still haven't caught the guy though. Hastings is soooo fricking dangerous compared to Mot=pot town. Mums car got broken into last year...and mums partner got stuff stolen out of his car which was parked in the driveway.
Glad I'm in Dunedin where all you have to worry about is drunken students (including yourself) and broken glass.
I feel that about now I should say something profoundly interesting, but that takes effort which I don't think I had. Besides I have already shared my opinions on how the zig zag cigarette paper man looks uncannily like jesus.
So I shall be off, so log. yup log
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