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umm yeah.. i went home sick. well actually i went to A.C. Moore to get materials for the stuff that im making people for christmas. ill probably start that stuff today. if i get the rest of the stuff that is. umm not a lot else to say. chris actually called me last night.. hah. he was bored. he woke me up cuz i was sleeping. whatever. ok well ill update later when theres something more to say. bye
-emilie
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[20 Nov 2003|03:54pm] |
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hmmm i made soap!! im like... hyper.. hah. even though im so sick. and i feel like shit. lol. ummm i want to go out... but mommy wont let me.. and im gonna make motzah balls lol.. i always do that when im bored and sick. and i got me some manchevitz up in herr. umm.. yeah i feel worse than i did before. i guess i should go to the doctor? bleh, i hate the doctor.
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[20 Nov 2003|04:27pm] |
yeah.. i know its simple plan and thats sad.. but EVERY word in this song fits me. its sad..
I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm addict
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy but you left anyway
I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm addict
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway
How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
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ok well chris official said that he hates me.. i went on his screen name for a minute. not even to change anything or mess with it or any of that shit. and i didnt talk to anyone he knew. and he found out and now he hates me. and told me to leave him alone forever
PUNKitty666: what now you hate me?
SKaTeR cK1: YEAH
i remember a few months ago he went on my screen name for a long time. and he actually talked to people. here i went on for a second for no reason and i didnt talk to anyone and he says he hates me. i didnt flip out that bad when he went on and TALKED to guys on my screen name because he did trust me. so yeah thats fucking bullshit. and like he called me before for some reason to tell me he got his hair cut or something..? ok? and now he hates me. fuck him. fickle asshole
yours truely,
emilie
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[20 Nov 2003|06:58pm] |
god... im so upset. and im crying for the first time today. i feel so guilty. he called me a little bit ago just to say that what i did was really fucked up and that he hates me and that hes happy that he broke up with me. god dammit. why did i have to do something stupid like that and for no reason. and now i know that he'll always hate me. i talked to sal before and he said that chris probably just hates me right now and he wont later. and then i called him back like 5 minutes ago to tell him how bad i felt again and he said "i dont care."... i think once in this journal i wrote "i wish i could hate him" or something. and he flipped out and was convinced that i never loved him and was crying and stuff. and he said that he hates me. im so hurt.. and i hope that in time he wont hate me anymore. he was actually starting to be nice to me and now hes being mean again. i know what i did was wrong but when he went on my sn he did worse and i barely got mad even though he was like digging up shit on me. i hope he realizes that. i know what i did was wrong and stupid. but still its not reason to hate me. to be mad at me, yes. but to hate me? no. he needs to swallow his pride and realize that... ok well i dont have a lot else to say except that he broke my heart AGAIN by saying that..
-emilie
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