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[28 Mar 2004|11:49pm] |
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I AM 47% GOTH!  Goth ny night, normal by day. Deep in my heart I know I am evil, but not on the company's time. I do need to eat. |
I AM 56% PUNK ROCK!  The intelligent punk. Tuff and Smart. I may be able to maintain a train of thought long enough... What the fuck was I talking about? |
I AM 70% EVIL GENIUS!  Evil courses through my blood. Lies and deceit motivate my evil deeds. Crushing the weaklings and idiots that do nothing but interfere in my doings. |
I AM 20% GEEK!  I wanna be a geek. But I'm not. Why would I even want to be one. Do I think it's fun? I should try writting an online test application at 1 am in my underwear |
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[28 Mar 2004|11:18pm] |
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Been gone for a while. Went to Hali last weekend and ended up being there until Tues cause the car broke down, it was a good break although I wish I had taken school work with me so I wouldn't have been behind when I got back. Oh well, kind of my own fault. Anyway, things with Cheryl are better. We had a big talk and she's doing better, Jason has stopped acting like a crazy person and her only problem now is Sarah and Lynds talking behind her back. Which is so ironic because I lived with Cheryl last year and I will tell anyone she is the nicest person I have met in my entire life. She would do anything for anyone. And I understand that they don't want Jason around all the time, but you can't solve a problem if your not willing to talk about it. I mean how does Cheryl fix something she doesn't know is wrong? It's pretty much impossible.
So, school is going to be done for the semester in about 2 weeks minus my two exams, but they aren't until the 19th and 20th, so I'll have 2 whole weeks. :) Then Intersession and Summer session are coming up. Everyone thinks I'm crazy for going to school in the summer, but #1 everyone I know who has got better marks and #2 noone will be here, which makes for a lot less distractions. I'm kind of excited about not having to work all summer. Matt wants me to go home for the summer and I told him if he could get me a job for over $9 an hour I'd think about it. haha, he says he can, since he is supervisor in dehidrates at McCains, but do I want to work shift work all summer at McCains, even to hang out with Matt? I don't think I do. It'll be a lot more fun here. Never know though, I've been known to decide to do crazy things at the last minute. :) Anyway, time for bed. Even though I slept all day (migrain) I'm surprisingly tired.
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[17 Mar 2004|01:15am] |
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The craziness that has taken over my life is indescribable. I feel like everything is falling apart. Jasons obsession with Cheryl has come almost to a peak I would say, he's really starting to scare me. Actually, I shouldn't say start, it is scaring me. Cheryl isn't herself anymore, she's reverted into this little shell of herself and won't talk to us about anything. I'm trying to get her alone, but Jason never leaves even though she promised he wasn't staying the night anymore. I understand that after Paul killing himself she is afraid for anyone who gives her even an inkling of a thought that they might do that same. But I feel that Jason is doing all this just for attention, I don't know anyone who tried to kill themselves that took all the pills and alcohol and announced it to everyone. I understand that it's a cry for help, but he promised to see someone and still hasn't gone. Cheryl needs to stick to her guns or this whole thing will never end.
I don't know what to do anymore for anyone, not even myself. I'm starting to feel depressed again but I'm trying so hard to stay normal so that I can be there for Cheryl. But worrying about her is what is making me feel so shitty. She's acting like everything is ok and Sarah and Lynds keep telling me hoe much better she's doing, but I know she's not, I can feel it. She's acting ok in their eyes, but I know it's a lie. I just want to talk to her all by herself and make her tell me everything and try to help her.
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[11 Mar 2004|07:31pm] |
Havn't written forever, school is just getting nuts. I hate it. It seems like it will never end, and doing Intersesson and Summer session is not going to help in the least.
I'm talking to Calvin on MSN right now. I'm kinda mad at him, after our big pact to be good and him saying he was going to faithful to Michelle he is now telling me that he picked up a couple of girls since I saw him last. Guys are fucking jerks. I guess I just don't understand why guys need to have girlfriends to fool around on. Either get rid of her and live your life or keep her and stop cheating and bitching about her. Just needed to rant.
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[18 Feb 2004|12:37am] |
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PS: SO sorry I havn't been writting or commenting a lot...... give me another week and a half and stuff will be back to normal. School is so crazy right now and then next week I won't be writting cause Jen will be here.
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| 3 days till Jen is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[18 Feb 2004|12:28am] |
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I hated highschool and it just seems sometimes like I havn't left. Just moved to a different place and ironically it's the same person causing all the stupidness. I think I'm just going to stop dealing with it and start just being like, yeah, kiss my ass. Anyway..... I dropped to classes yesterday. Yikes!! So I'm doing 3 this semester, 4 in Sept and then 3 in Jan again next year and then I can graduate. Finally!!! My prof in one of the classes that I dropped was a total freak, he couldn't put anything on the sylabus cause that would be the nice thing to do and we had a different essay or something every week and I'm a very 'plan ahead' kind of person and can't get things done when it's like that.
Anyway, my wrist is killing me and I can't type right anymore..... maybe it's bed time.
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[10 Feb 2004|01:36pm] |
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I will buy u a new life - Everclear |
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Wrote the LSAT, now I just have to play the waiting game for the marks. It says it will be atleast three weeks before I get them, so the begining of my March break.
I think I might go to Texas for March break if Doug and Edna aren't busy, all my friends are going to Florida and just can't comprehend why it's too expensive for me to go ($530 w/taxes and hotel incl.). My parents were thinking about it, but they thought too long and now the price went up $100. And it's a nice thought that we won't spend a lot of money there, but lets be realistic, between alcohol and food, you're up to $1000 and then you have souveners and shit. Anyway, if I can go to Texas, everything is payed for: food, flight, place to stay and Doug and Edna spent over $100 on me last time I went so I'd be all set. Anyway, needless to say, my friends will be having fun without me over the break, it sucks, Florida would kick ass, but I know they won't just sit on the beach with me for 7 days (that's all I want to do, and wouldn't cost a lot).
Anyway, that was quite the rambling, I have a lot of work to do before Jen get's here. Only 11 days now..... I am so fucking excited!!! I can't wait!!!!
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[06 Feb 2004|10:06pm] |
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So Yesterday - Hillary Duff |
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I know this sounds totally stupid, but my Dad just called me to with me good luck on the LSAT tomorrow! It sounds trivial, but my Dad doesn't call me, he never talks to me unless I'm at home or I call him so it really means a lot to me because sometimes I think that he doesn't care at all. Anyway, I have to get back to studying..... I just had to write that.
PS. I'm really worried that I'm gonna do bad....
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| Crayness...... |
[04 Feb 2004|12:02am] |
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Coming Clean - Hilary Duff |
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It's been FOREVER since I wrote it seems. Casondra had the babies, she named them Asia and Braden (I know I spelled that wrong). Anyway, two very healthy babies. I'm very happy for her. :) In other news, school has started to kick me in the ass! I feel like I'm so behind, I have a paper due tomorrow and a midterm and I write the LSAT on Saturday, which I am totally freaking out about.
We've also been out way too much in the past week and a half, it's been fun, but I feel like I'm not getting anything done. On Sunday we were drinking for the Superbowl (Our team won, yay!!) and then next thing you know we're at the bar, oh and yeah, I picked up. His name is Jamie and he's friends with Lynds and Sarah likes his friend. I don't want anything with him, but it was fun. :) I feel like such a slut sometimes cause I'm totally planning on picking up Thomas if I see him on Thursday..... haha. Anyway I'm totally burnt (tanning bed) and very uncomfortable so I think I'm gonna go shower.
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[28 Jan 2004|12:22am] |
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Your Winter - Sister Hazel |
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Went to see the Butterfly Effect tonight. It was really good, and it was nice to get out of the house and do something for myself. I feel like I just don't have enough time for myself anymore. I have so much school work and I've been visiting Cas in the hospital and everyone just seems to want something from me. I need a few good days all to myself. ha, yeah right.
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[26 Jan 2004|11:41pm] |
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Want you back - Mandy Moore |
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I'm so glad I went home to work this weekend, I made $75 in a day, which for me is good. So yay! :) And I was there when my friend Casondra went into labour (she's having twins!) Actually she didn't know she was in labour, she was just telling me how uncomfortable she was and stuff and I told her I was sure she was, and she called the hospital and they said she was. So she went to the hospital and they brought her to Freddytown in an ambulence and then gave her stuff to slow her labour. So now she's stuck there in slow labour bored and uncomfortable. I feel so bad for her!!! I went up yesterday and today to visit and tomorrow Stephen and I are going to go see her. Anyway, all I've been doing other than that is school work, I have a midterm on Thurs and an article review due tomorrow. Speaking of which, maybe I should go read the article. haha!
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[23 Jan 2004|01:47pm] |
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I'm going home this weekend, I have to work tomorrow, nothin wrong with a little extra money. But everyone is trying to get me to stay, they're even reminding me that Nick and Daren are going to be partying at Cheryls tonight (I have a thing for Nick) and it's driving me crazy!!! They know I can't stay and all they're doing is making me feel worse about going home. And the other thing is too that I really can't go out tonight even if I stay, I've been coughing so hard all morning that I had to leave class because I was pissing off my prof. Anyway, on a better note, I think I'm going to Grand-Manan (sp?) next weekend with Sarah, I've never been there, it'll be fun I think, nice change of scenery.
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[20 Jan 2004|11:38pm] |
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I was sick yesterday and still am today, didn't go to any of my classes. I'm feeling pretty bad about not going to my psychology seminar, but I figure better to take a day off and get better than push it and be sick for like a whole week.
Tensions are currently running a little high in my house, Tracy was quite upset by the fact that I didn't go outside and help shovel the driveway. I was going to because I didn't want this to happen (I knew it would, Tracy's a bitch) but Erin said not to worry cause Steve is here and we only have three shovels so he would take my place. I kind of thought that since I didn't go to school because I was sick that I shouldn't be out in the snow shoveling. Makes perfect sense to me. But Tracy doesn't see it that way, because you know, I'm sure she'd go shovel if she had the flu. Anyway, that was about the it of my day, spent the whole time on the couch watching taped reruns of Buffy and drifting in and out of sleep. Hopefully I'll be feeling better tomorrow, can't miss my Lifespan class or I'll lose marks.
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[11 Jan 2004|11:22pm] |
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John called today to see if I wanted to go see a movie, I said no though cause I had stuff to do, and honestly, I have no intrest in him at all, actually, he kinda repulses me cause he's uber-gay. Anyway, we cleaned the whole kitchen, went through everything and organized it, and then we did the basement. It was crazy. Now I'm taking a break from my readings for this week. I was talking to Stephen today and we decided we should get back together (we've been broken up for 5 years) just as a joke, so now he's my pretend boyfriend (and I can tell John that I can't hang out with him). Travis tried to get me to go down to his place last night, but I didn't, I was good. I'm not good with saying no to Trav, so yay for me on 11 days into my New Years resolution (to not fool around with guys that I'm not dating). *lol* I had the weirdest dream last night, Stuart was in it and we were at a dirt biking track, and then I was in the mall and I kissed my friend Casondra and then Joel caught us and was really mad and I was so confused and then I realized I was dating him and we went outside and worked things out. It felt so real it was crazy, but it is so weird because I didn't even hang out with this guy, Joel, in highschool, he's two years younger than me and I havn't seen him for 6 months and have never had a crush on him. I don't know where his appearence in my dream came from. It was so random. Anyway, I have to go read more...... text books should come on audio tape. :)
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[10 Jan 2004|11:26pm] |
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Me vs. The Worl - Halo Friendlies |
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Having kinda a weird shitty night. John stopped by to get his shirt that I puked on New Years eve and asked me to go see a movie tomorrow with him (total weirdness). I said I dunno. I went over to Barretts with Cheryl and everyone. Lyndsay was being a total psycho, didn't want anyone touching Barrett even though he wants nothing to do with her. It just drives me crazy cause we've known Barrett way longer than her and we all flirt with him, we mean nothing by it and she just needs to get the idea that he doesn't want her. And then Vicki told me that if I was going to the bar I needed to get rid of the 'Sailor Moon' pigtails. Fuck, I don't get why I keep getting shit on because I don't dress and do my hair exactly the way everyone else does. Is it a crime to have my own style? Apparently. Cheryl sais that she's just stupid, but it just bugs me, I can't help it, cause we're supposed to be friends. Anyway, time to go watch a movie with the roomies.
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| Yay!!! |
[10 Jan 2004|01:07am] |
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I got the TV I was supposed to get for Christmas finally. How exciting!! :) Going to a party at Barretts tomorrow I think. Should be interesting since Lynds is calling in sick to work to go...... I'll explain the whole thing later, now it's time for bed. God I wish I wasn't so damn tired all the time.
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| Quizzes..... now time for bed...... |
[09 Jan 2004|12:30am] |
Which deadly sin do you represent? (Angel Sanctuary Pics)
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You are a Vampire. You keep to yourself a lot and
make people think you don't need them. You
somtimes put up a false front to run people
off. To those that get close to you, know you
as someone they can trust and confide in.
What Mythical Persona are you?
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Your fairy name is Thorn Hailglitter. You are a
protecter of the lonely. You live in brambles
and blackberry bushes. You are only seen in the
light of a shooting star.
what's your fairy name
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You are Moon Fairy! You are usually alone. You are
very mysterious and have a beautiful voice. At
night you sing to your one true love to rescue
you from your lonely life. You have very few
friends but they don't understand you at all.
What is worse is that you don't know how to
explain who you are in words. So you sing of
your soul to the one who will save you.Your
tears become the stars and they twinkle as your
heart surely does.You can feel that you are
different from others. You can feel your soul
shine just a bit brighter than others. This is
not just your imagination. Your soul does
indeed shine brighter than others which is why
they don't understand you. You are prue to put
it simply. True to your heart you are not a
follower, you are a leader. Do not worry your
prince will come one day. Remember that when
you cry, the world loses some of its radiance.
What type of Fairy are you? plz rate :)
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[08 Jan 2004|12:52am] |
| I am the Coquette The ability to delay satisfaction is the ultimate art of seduction - while waiting, the victim is held in thrall. Coquettes are the grand masters of the game, orchestrating a back-and-forth movement between hope and frustration. They bait with the promise of reward - the hope of physical pleasure, happiness, fame by association, power - all of which, however, proves elusive; yet this only makes their targets pursue them more. Imitate the alternating heat and coolness of the Coquette and you will keep the seduced at your heels. Symbol: The Shadow. It cannot be grasped. Chase your shadow and it will flee; turn your back on it and it will follow you. It is also a person's dark side, the thing that makes them mysterious. After they have given us pleasure, the shadow of withdrawl makes us yearn for their return, much as clouds make us yearn for the sun. |
What Type of Seducer are You?
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| Wanting to sleep..... |
[07 Jan 2004|12:20am] |
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I'm so tired, I can't sleep. I want my old matress back, not that I think it would help so much, but I liked it better (it was actually my brothers and he took it back). Anyway, all I've been doing all day is waiting in line for this or that, it's driving me crazy, and I'm supposed to go to the doctor tomorrow, but it'll just be more time that I have to wait. Grrr.....
Cheryl and I rented a movie tonight, Under World, it was really good. It was a nice break, and some time to bitch about Lyndsay, which I know is mean, but she's a freaking pathological liar. She told us this big story the other day about seeing Spencer (her ex) and how horrible he looked, and told us a few days later her prof told her he dropped out. Guess who I saw today? Spencer!!! and he was coming out of a class (obviously didn't drop out) and he actually looked really good. She's just driving me nuts and I can't help it. Anyway, going to go try to sleep again..... hopefully the doctor will help me tomorrow.
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