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Monday, January 10th, 2005
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2:24 am - CAR BITCHES!
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So yea (look up) I GOT A CAR BITCHES! Its not the best car and their were like 5 (oh wait all) other cars I would have picked before my Saturn SR2 but oh well it gets me around. Xmas was great this year I made out well with many gift certificates, $$$ toward a car and a beautiful braclet (thanx babe). New years was great at my grandfathers 80th bday party mmmm grandpas famous fudge and meat pies yum yum. But I made a BIG ass mistake by choosing to go to crawfish's party and not Scotty's. There was so much drama thier that had nothing to do with me but somehow I got dragged into all of it. I drank on my medication (I was not supposed to drink for 28 days), got drunk as shit off 2 weak ass mixed drinks blacked out and spent the entire next day puking my fucking brains out (thats putting it mildly). Next time I think I shall listen to the DOC. I have been studying my GED book and oh boy I didnt know I was a stupid as I obviously am.....that shit is HARD! By this time next year I should be ready to take the test lol. But other than the drama w/people at work and the fact I might have cervical cancer (PWFM says to make a gyno apt. pronto), things have been going good. I think that not drinking for as long as I have has made me alittle less depressed (long, lol 28 days oh boy am I a alcholic).
What changes I want for 2005............
1.Stop smoking cigg.
2.Stop drinking as much and take better care of myself
3.Be a better GF/Daughter/Friend
4.Start putting myself before everyone else (in the end it is only me)
5.Get my GED
6.Keep my job
7.Be a overall happier nicer human being to EVERYONE no matter how hard that will be
8.Eat more
9.Learn how to cook
10.Start drawing and doing more artistic things in my spare time
11.Get a tan cuz my white ass needs one
12.Start exercising and running
13.Enroll myself in community college
14.Get a APT. so I can stop living on the couch
15.Make somemore friends (the ones that r actually good for u)
16.Find out where I want to go in life
17.Save money
18.Communicate better with Justin
19.Stop being so depressed and worried about stupid shit (life could be worse)
20.STOP biting my nails and cuticals
21.And maybe just maybe go meet my real father before he gets out of greensville correction center(jail)in 2010
**wow this new years resolution doesnt look much diff. than last years...hopefully it will not be the same for 2006**
current mood:  tired
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| Sunday, December 19th, 2004
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2:38 pm - WoooHooo Im not a teenager anymore!
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Well what a great b-day I had this year not as wild as some of the old ones but much chiller and way less drama.
Went to a friends and got wasted off much beer and JD then went out to eat at Dennys w/some people from work...Fun Times! Went to Scottys apt. on Friday, killed off the rest of the JD and majority of the beer and chilled w/some people I have not seen in a long time and was introduced to 2 new drinking games (one was kinda lame but the 2nd will deff. be used). Then I got me gift from Kristina last night :) best of all a gallon of So-Co......yum yum! And out of all the people at work who I was not expecting a gift from I got a 1/8 from - - - - - (no names mentioned), who hasnt even been working there that long?? Im going to Justin's company X-mas party tonight and im sure I'll have just as much fun there as I did all b-day weekend long. Thanx guys for all the $$$ u spent on me and my gifts you will be greatly compensated when all your b-day's arrive!
ONE YEAR AWAY FROM 21
current mood:  energetic
current music: The used CD K burned for me
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| Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
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2:28 am - Bush wins!
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So yea Radford was a intresting place. Halloween was insane there was a party at almost every house. Every night I got completely wasted and totally blazed. You would think that I would have loved it considering that I am such a party animal but I don't know I guess I just thought frats would have been diff. I like more social enviroments like playing beer pong or cards not smooshed up against people I dont know sweating and not being able to hear. Then to top all it I kinda felt left out or that I wasnt welcome there (typical girl stuff), I almost got lost and met some really creepy perverted people. I spent way to much money while I was there and way too much on my outfit. I kinda wish I would have just stayed home and went trick-r-treating so atleast then I would have some candy and would have been able to see saw with Justin like I wanted to (that bastard got to see it). Mom told me today I owe her $600 for car insurance on the galant........wtf how is it so high and per month, so um there goes all my money I have been saving for a car of my own off to my mothers car she is never planning on selling me. Other than all this SHIT my life is going farely good and I have been getting along with my parents and actually doing what is told of me. Time for bed I think I shall get up kinda early tomorrow and maybe go to the gym.
BUSH wins yea for the war and his re-election
Nea for being against stem cell research and against Pro-choice
F:Your Beauty lies
in Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.
You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even your
appearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may look
innocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the same
time. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit of
everything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with the
guys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost a
different person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you know
exactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. You
enjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable you
are.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, Light
Tones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Expression:
Half-smile
Gemstone:
Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Sign:
Gemini Planet: Mars Hair Color: Red
Eye Color:
Brown
Quote:
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current mood:  hungry
current music: the election on t.v
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| Friday, October 29th, 2004
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1:58 pm - Radford for spook night
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So I am headed off to Radford in less than 10 min. for halloween with Gina and Amber.This will be intresting, my first experience w/collage life :) Hopefully I will not get raped and contract a STD considering 1 in 5 people have some type of disease there. Oh well I guess I will have to watch my drinking when its not just me and the girls. Wish me luck
Ill tell u all the juicy details when I return until then.....
HAPPY HALLOWEEN ALL
current mood:  excited
current music: Dashboard confessional-lovers go
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| Monday, October 25th, 2004
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1:29 am
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Hmm taking a break from the alcohol....a much needed rest.
My cousin Joey is going away to the NAVY tomorrow to go live in a submarine (that sucks).....u will be missed.
So yea yet another job I HATE! I started working at Glory Days and left O'meara's because I thought that it would be equal opportunity since it's a brand new restraunt and we all started at the same time....man was I wrong. My manager Jeff is old so of course he has to give all the older people w/kids-n-stuff more money, the better sections, better shifts and better everything including treating them with more respect and leaniency (can't spell). I have been a waitress at like 10 diff. restraunts, that means prob 20-30 diff. managers, 10 diff. closing and opening routines, and the most important of all 10 diff. mircos (computer systems). So its not that im trying to brag because im the SHIT but I am the SHIT for a reason (look up). I want to be treated just as equal as those old hags! And when I come in on time and open the restraunt for them and dont call out ever I think that deserves some fucking respect...what do u think? So oh boy r they going to have a rude awakening when they dont have me to open and r stuck putting a new person on and they have no clue what they r doing......guess who got the last laugh bitches!
So on a better note...........
I meet a really cool girl named Gina I work with she is basically exactly like me in like 20 diff. ways that im not going to list cuz I dont have all day...but yea she's awesome. Justin and I started to chill again and wow I dont think we have gotten into any fights (what a suprise) oh well im happy, even though we r not back together :(
Oh well life is good. I will hopefully be getting my car soon then I will not have to worry about bumin' a ride anymore (that will make a whole lotta people happy). Oh well I got a lot more to say but im tired i'll catch up with ya'll later......peace
current mood:  nostalgic
current music: We all live in a yellow submarine
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| Tuesday, September 28th, 2004
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2:10 am - welcome to my world of alcoholism
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Doing what I know how to do best....................partying/drinking/then partying and drinking some more, yippie
I think they have classes for people like me, but fuck it pass me another!
current mood:  high
current music: Jimmy eat world
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| Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
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1:25 am
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I want to kill all the bus boys... grr taking all my money and I bus my own tables. Had a great time at Matt's party over the weekend. Hooray for sex on the beach, Grey Goose and Bud light. Liam and I wooped ass on the beer pong table racking in 4 wins in a row I wonder how that happened considering I was wasted when we started. HAHA we r the bp champions....yea not really we normally suck. Saw Nathan who I havent seen in like 2 yrs. and hes got a kid, kinda intresting how all the people I have not seen since High school all have kids now. What were they thinking?
All I have to say about the people who do webdesign is they r some smart mothafuckas cuz I have been working in the HOTMETAL PRO 6.0 user guide (bought for $1000) and that stuff is so complicated and confusing. I think in order for me to make a webpage I would have to go over this 300 page book like 12 times just to get the first page set up. Im not stupid despite what u all may think but it took me about 5 hours to get threw 25-30 pages...yikes right?
Oh well time for bed
later...
current mood:  accomplished
current music: too late to care
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| Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
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11:45 pm
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Work's been going great and I have meet alot of new chill people I would like to call my friends.
Brandon just had his baby and he looks exactly like him....thank god cuz his baby's momma is butt.
I got my camera developed tonight with the pictures of the 4th of July last yr. and they were funny as shit but some were kinda sad (remenising on the past......ok done) One day maybe i'll accept whats going on around me and move on but for now im just living my life day to day working,meeting new people, partying and being a regular 19yr girl.
Tomorrow I got work at 3 so goodnight beautiful people I'll catch ya'll later......peace
current mood: high
current music: Ashlee Simpson- peices of me
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| Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
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3:41 pm
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You have a free soul! As all the souls go, yours is
the most free-spirited and adventurous. You
like camping, hiking, or interaction with other
people. Your a social butterfly, but not
because of your style, but because of your
willingness to communicate with everyone. You
probably have close friends who can rely on you
because you always seem to know whats going on
in the world. You love music and are
free-spirited and someone fun to be around. A
born leader and great explorer-dont ever
change-the world needs more people like you.
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current mood:  blank
current music: danzig
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| Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
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3:40 pm - WORKin is GLORIfull
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Fridays - Fosters
Hungary - Heineken
Aussie - Amstel Light
Rob - Rolling Rock
Lapointe - Labatts Blue
Cooks - Corona Light
Marinated - Miller light
Crocadile - Coors Light
Meat - MGD
Before - Bud Light
Sipping - Smirnoff Ice
On - O'Douls
Ice - Ice House
Cold - Cider Jack
Corona - Corona
Bottles - Budweiser
Sunday I get to have 4 of my friends/family come to my work to eat for free...boy am I gonna make someone real happy :-)
Gettin my car this weekend im so excited. YEA 4 ME!!!!
At Eastern Motors Your Jobs Your Credit
current mood:  giddy
current music: Monkey Dish
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| Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
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5:40 am
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Life is BORING and so am I
current mood:  weird
current music: Thrice-The artist in the ambulance
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| Thursday, July 22nd, 2004
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8:45 pm - To Do List.........
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Get a job
Get a car
Find roomates and a place
Get enrolled in community college
Pass my GED
Work on my web design software
Work out more/Run
Start drawing in my spare time
current mood:  annoyed
current music: Brand New-#2
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| Monday, May 24th, 2004
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12:20 am - The AUTO
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I am completely BUMMED! I just found out that Autopilot Off will be playing at the Warped tour....a big HOORAY for the states they r playing in cuz VA is NOT one of them.....tear.
I am going to put in my 2 weeks notice at O'Shittys tomorrow. Got offered a job at Synergy as a teller by a reg. of mine for lunch.....she thinks I have PERSONALITY (only if she knew it was a extremely weird one HAHA)!
Moving out soon...yippie 4 me it's about damn time, right?
My friend Nick offered for me to move to South Beach FL with him and his girl but thats alittle FAR plus she's got a kid and that means NO SMOKING.
I am currently shopping around for the perfect roomates so if u think u can fill the job hit me up (smokers only-or someone who will let me smoke in the house thx).
Oh and if u r willing to relocate to the beach (any one except OC) that would be great cuz I am trying to live there for the summer then maybe come back here in the off season.
Got my hair done the other day and I LOVE IT! A body wave and bangs that i part one the side..if u haven't seen me yet all I can say is HOT!
HERE IS THE LINE UP OF THE BANDS PLAYING A WARPED TOUR...the ones in capital I really want to see!
WASHINGTON D.C NISSAN PAVILLION LOT AUGUST 4TH:
ALLISTER
Amber Pacific
Anatomy of a Ghost
ANTI-FLAG
ASG
Atmosphere
Audio Karate
AVENGED SEVENFOLD
BAD RELIGION
Billy Talent
BOUNCING SOULS
Boys Night Out
Brazil
Break the Silence
CASUALTIES, THE
Chronic Future
Code of the Cutz Stage
COHEED AND CAMBRIA
Days Like These
Dynamite Boy
Erks, The
Faith Called Chaos, A
FLOGGIND MOLLY
From First to Last
GUTTERMOUTH
Halifax
Hidden in Plain View
International Noise Conspiracy, The
Lars Frederiksen & The Bastards
Left Alone (BBQ BAND)
Lennon
Letter Kills
Matchbook Romance
Melee
Montys Fan Club
Motion City Soundtrack
MUCH THE SAME
New Found Glory
NOFX
Over It
Planet Smashers
Reeve Oliver
Rise Against
Rufio
Saosin
Silverstein
Simple Plan
Spell Toronto
STORY OF THE YEAR
SUGARCULT
TAKING BACK SUNDAY
Tiger Army
Tossers, The
Underminded
Washington Social Club
YELLOWCARD
--WHERES AUTOPILOT OFF SOMEONE SHOULD SEND A MEAN EMAIL! AND WTF HAPPENED TO THURSDAY?
--OH AND WHERE THE FUCK IS MY NEW AUTOPILOT OFF CD MIKEY?? I GOT TO LISTEN TO 3 SONGS BEFORE I LEFT IT IN UR CAR AND NEVER SAW IT AGAIN :( Dan and Vie better not have BORROWED it cuz i knew they wanted to and it MY cd damn it! MINE all MINE!
current mood:  pissed off
current music: Bob marley- Babylon System
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| Thursday, May 6th, 2004
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8:32 pm - UNDERRATED-----
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I waited patiently for you to come around,
and I sacrificed my sanity to keep from breaking down.
I always thought of you and forgot about myself,
but the only one you care about is you and no one
else.
I used to be so naive.
You never cared about me.
Now I see that I can't achieve everything that you
want from me.
Honesty was all I asked but you just let me down.
Countless times I gave you the benefit of the doubt.
You think that I'm a fool and you'll get away with it.
But this time I'm not so willing to forgive and forget
I used to be so naive.
You never cared about me.
Now I see I can't achieve everything that you
want me to be.
Feeling unappreciated
Dedication? Understated.
Everything is so complicated,
I think that I'm underrated.
You said you could handle it.
You said "Go ahead and quit".
Now you'll finally get your wish,
so just try not to choke on it.
Feeling unappreciated
Dedication? Understated,
Everything is so complicated.
I think I am underrated.
You said you could handle it.
You said "Go ahead and quit".
Now you'll finally get your wish,
so try not to choke on it.
current mood:  full
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| Thursday, April 29th, 2004
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8:08 pm - Songs............
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This map hung up on the truck stop hallway door
is looking worn and I can hardly read it anymore
I feel like I'm a speck thrown on the map
and I can't help my urge to laugh
I never used to feel like that
Well I'm half awake half a world away
all my past mistakes and every wasted day
I wouldn't have it any other way
I'll try through my haze and half shut eyes
to count up all the reasons why
I should be back at home tonight
Half awake half a world away
all my past mistakes and every wasted day
proves that I'll never change
I'll always stay the same
I wouldn't have it any other way
"Looking Up"
You figured this would be easy.
You figured this should be natural.
It's just what you need but too much keeps getting in
your way.
You know it's never that easy.
You know it always gets complicated.
Now you're frantic, suspicious, and you pay a price
for everything
It might be the only chance you get.
After a life time of regrets, it finally looks like
things are looking up so don't look down.
I don't want to see you falling.
You thought you would have all the answers,
but what's right now seems to be all wrong.
You're fed up. You give up. You've come too far for
far too long.
Too much is expected of you,
so are you going to make the right decision now?
What's left for the loyal?
You're empty-handed once again.
It might be the only chance you get.
After a lifetime of regrets, it finally looks like
things are looking up so don't look down.
I don't want to see you falling down.
What's left for the loyal?
I don't want to see you falling down.
Don't want to see you falling down.
"Missing The Innocence"
I wish I wasn't waiting.
This place gets smaller everyday.
We all have characters and we know the parts we play.
We're actors and actresses,
that's all. Please take me away.
I just want to start over.
There are things I'd like to change.
I miss the innocence,
when the doors all stood wide open.
The sun's gone down on better days.
If I let you know, nothing can last forever.
I never thought everything would change.
If I let it go, nothing can last forever.
I never thought everything would change.
Well, maybe I did. Just not today.
I never thought that things would change.
I miss the innocence.
"Pin The Tail On The Donkey"
As I kick myself again,
and I try to pick myself back up again,
Don't want to make the same mistakes.
Always the first with an excuse,
but it's when you're cornered by the truth.
Sometimes it's easier that way.
As you turn away
As you turn away
When realization stares you down,
And you swear you've come to terms, I'm wary.
I've seen it all too many times.
I've seen it all too many times.
It never made much sense,
So I always had to stop and second guess.
Defeat myself before I start.
Comfort seems so far away.
Peace of mind is just a luxury.
Forgetting is the hardest part.
As you turn away
As you turn away
When realization stared you down,
And you swear you've come to terms, I'm wary.
I've seen it all too many times.
I've seen it all too many
It's not what you say that matters,
It's not what you say that matters,
because anyone can say those words to me.
You say I lack compassion,
but that's when my first reaction
isn't how you wanted me to be.
As I kick myself again,
and I try to pick myself back up again.
Don't want to make the same mistakes.
"Spring Training"
I found you falling into old routines,
As you layed the final straw across my back.
Familiar with the ending,
The sickening returns,
And I've come to find out the equation stays the same.
Every time I think it's different,
You turn and face me with the truth.
With your eyes so blank and distant,
But that's nothing new, and looks more like the habit is breaking you.
I should know better than to trust myself.
When guilt and failure bring me back.
I take the beatings for you.
You never felt the fall.
It's been hard to tell who been sicker all along.
And it is hard to stay indifferent,
As you fall apart in front of me.
Then I choke on the resentment,
But that's nothing new, and it looks more like the habit is breaking me.
We all break down and we break the promises we make.(x3)
We all break down.
We all break down.
"Bite My Nails"
Is this part of the game you play?
Do you try to make me feel this way?
You try to sell me something
that you don't believe.
For you it's easier this way.
I never did hear you complain.
So now I stand aside,
bite my nails while you decide.
I wish that I could hate you, but I can't.
I wish that you would vanish,
but you're too hard to forget.
I won't do it if it isn't right,
but you're not willing to compromise.
You think you've got me figured out.
You think you know what I'm about.
I don't think you would be surprised,
you have to know how hard I've tried.
And after all the time we've spent,
would it be something you would regret?
Would you feel the need to stay,
or turn your back and walk away.
I wish that I could hate you but I can't.
I wish that you would vanish,
But your to hard to forget.
I won't do it if it isn't right,
But your not willing to compromise.
I wish that I could hate you I can't.
I wish that you would vanish,
But your to hard to forget,
I won't do it if it isn't right,
But your not willing to compromise.
"Dawn To Dusk"
Fed up, knocked down.
Withdrawn from everything that once was comfortable.
So much for routine.
You're weighted down, sinking.
Swimming against the stream that once carried you
home, took you to the place where you belonged.
I thought I heard you crying out.
Crying Out.
I thought I heard you say goodbye.
Sat goodbye.
It doesn't matter where you are,
your shadow is close behind.
You know your reflection doesn't lie.
You see a tired face through sullen, sunken eyes.
A portrait of regret.
It won't let you forget.
Still tangled in the net you thought you'd left behind,
just to find you can't run from yourself.
I thought I heard you crying out.
Crying out.
I thought I heard you say goodbye.
Say goodbye.
It doesn't matter where you are,
your shadow is close behind.
You're wearing down, but still the same.
Dawn to dusk..
Day to day.
You stagger on, shrouded in shame,
still haunted by shadows.
They're calling your name.
I thought I felt you reaching out.
Gasping just to stay alive.
Your shadow just gets longer as the sun falls from the sky.
"Friday Mourning"
A desperate breath inhaled, then it leaves you.
Hollowed out, and you struggle to feel something.
Abandoned eyes that drowned in the disbelief and
doubt, when you woke up Friday morning.
It still seems so surreal.
These scars should slowly heal.
I remember when you kneeled, you didn't say goodbye.
You knew she wasn't gone.
You whispered,
"Until we meet again, you'll be
watching me, I know.
Please save a place for me and when I'm finally
called back home, I'll see you smiling there."
The angels in your bedroom softly sing her name.
It's getting easier to sleep now.
So you feel some comfort, but still it's not the same.
But it's better than the twisted silence.
It still seems so surreal.
These scars should slowly heal.
I remember when you kneeled, you didn't say goodbye.
You knew she wasn't gone.
You whispered,
"Until we meet again, you'll be
Watching me, I Know.
Please save a place for me and when I'm finally
called back home, I'll see you smiling there."
You woke up Friday morning.(x4)
current mood:  relaxed
current music: LESS THAN JAKE-"gainsville rock city"
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| Monday, April 12th, 2004
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1:31 am - All Smiles
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I am one lucky gal
:) that smile is one you have not seen in awhile
and I have the BEST friends a girl could ask for
Thanx guys for making me so super-happy and being here for me when i need you
I LOVE YOU ALL!
*super jealous of ash*
she got booty 4 times today :(
booty for her none for me
can we say SEXUALLY FRUSTRATED
gotta run want to write more cuz I got tonz to say but Brett's here bout to go chill at shawna's apt. play some spades and gettin D R U N K
current mood:  crazy
current music: Godsmack-moon baby
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| Monday, March 22nd, 2004
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4:40 pm - inpatiently waiting
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Justin dumped me cuz i went to a party and didnt call him plus he thinks I call 2 much....he's probably right though I didn't treat him very well 4 some reason??? Partyed at Mikes on Sat. and saw Trevor eww la la he was looking sexy as shit like he always does. The band is getting better and better and now that Mikes the bassist they seriously rock! Went out on a date last night with a guy I work with (Bryan) we had lotz of fun, went to Philidelphia tavern and got drunk with Sean, Kendra and John then got some 22's and rolled back to my place and had some laughs out in the RV. Work was GREAT today we have 7 new people in training and eww baby r some of those guys HOT! Got a ride home from this guy Aaron and he is fucking fine as shit. Blue eyes blonde spiky hair the prominit jaw line and looks like he's got a sexy ass body from what I saw of it. He drives a nice ass expensive pimped out car, goes to college, listens to the same type of music and seems really intrested in me :)...he wanted a hug mad propps for Jess, yea me
Spent a shit load of money last week, I need to start saving more of it
I got 4 shoes, a tee, purse, wallet, body suit, kahkis<----cant spell and some more stuff
Was really depressed about the whole relationship thing but things r looking better 4 me
It's kinda a good thing he broke up with me cuz he didnt treat me right, he spent all my money, trashed everything I own and broke my heart and well I can do better than that
I really want to be his friend but I don't think that can happen now :( not only cuz of me but cuz I don't think he would like seeing me with other guys even if they r just friends
J is hurrr right now bout to go get my hurrrrr did
lol
peace
current mood: anxious
current music: anti-flag - rotten future
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1:18 am
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Im high and horny
current mood:  horny
current music: Rage-bullet in the head
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| Monday, March 1st, 2004
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1:54 am - Good times...
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I had a great time on friday tripped my ass off smoked some homegrown out in the boonies with some crazy people i knew from work...sweet sweet thanx Joe and Rob. Saturday partyed at Scottys and got wasted :) didnt black out and Holster didnt get kicked out :). Tonight I went a got a 1/8 and a 24pack parked and got fucked up....overall im pretty fuckin blazed right now. Got work tomorrow at 10am......better go to sleep
This weekend ROCKED!
current mood: high
current music: linkin park-3 on the new album
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| Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
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12:18 am - My Love
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I'll always try my hardest to make you happy even when you dont want me to
Thats my job to be there for you and have your trust in times when you need me the most
I may not always be there in the flesh but I will always be there in spirit
You can always bet on that
Only if you saw how special you are in my eyes
I don't care what people think about us
If they truly cared then they would see my love and let me be happy
I can't change the people or my thoughts and emotions
But I can be sure to think of you always
I wish you would just let my love flow into your heart
Make a home and make you happy
So you can truly love me back
Like I truly love you
I love you and nobody can take that from me
I know he's not perfect
But he tries so hard for me
And I thank God that he isn't
Because how boring would that be
It's the little imperfections
It's a sudden change in plans
When he misreads the directions
And we're lost but holding hands
Yeah, I live for little moments like that
When he's laying on my shoulder
On the sofa in the dark
And about the time he falls asleep
So does my right arm
And I want so bad to move it
Because it's tingling and it's numb
But he looks so close to perfect
That I don't wanna wake him up
Yeah, I live for little moments
When he steals my heart again and doesn't even know it
Yeah, I live for little moments like that
I love you Justin :-)
current mood:  blah
current music: checkin that out now...
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