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| 02:41am 20/06/2003 |
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mood: lost music: Send me a Angel - Deadstar Assembly
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GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just want to fucking die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ugh, I am in the most fucked up mood Its unimaginable. Christ, I cant stand this not being around him. Its pure fucking hell...Its like...you feel like you've lost that person yet, you dont know and there is that one dim chance and gleam that they will be there to pick you back up so soon... they are right there, yet so far away. Yet there name, pic, anything that reminds you of them is torture. To the point where you want to pull out your hair and sing show tunes till the take you away to the rubber room with chickens,shiney things, needles, peptobismol, pink fuzzy things and neil diamond. Sometimes I wake up and say that he will be here waiting for me, but I know it will be another damn day of waiting, hopeing that he will be there. Why can't i just wrap my arms around him and say everything will be okay and its all better now? God...... I must sound nuts... ah fuckit i am fucking nuts....I love that boy......ugh.... bye |
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