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Well Easter was almost 2 weeks ago...it was HORRIBLE...joes mothers side of the family is completely RUDE. And my mother is sick and tired of Maria's crap...So my mom called her told her to talk to me the wednesday i see her...which on that day would be the next day...so we can talk and make everything better...The bitch didnt...It's been a little over a week end she still hasnt tired to strike up a conversation with me to tell me that shes sorry. Shes really starting to push my buttons and its pissing me the fuck off!
I went to my fathers on saturday...my aunts and uncle came..thats the only reason my dad had me come...he didnt have any conversation with me at all. Didnt even give me gas money to drive down there!...cheap bastard. But me and joe are doing good...We went shopping sunday and we got a plate and bowl and mug set of 4, so i bought 2. I got nice set of silverware for 4, but joes going to TJ Maxx tomorrow to get another set so it's equal to the plates. And we got a think a 20 piece glass cup set..and a 21 set of kitchen tool things like tongs and spatulas and a whip etc. so i was happy about that.
i dont have school tomorrow, so im going to be bored, gotta wait until saturday to see joe
idk on the phone with joe...
Current mood:
cynical.
...Damn over a month...Its two days until easter and im soo not looking forward to it. I do not want to go to Joes families house one fucking bit...But guess what i am..Because im such a wonderful girlfriend. I am not spending more than 2 hours their thats for fucking sure. So nothing has improved between me and maria. i dont really know if it will ever be the same as it used to be. I know i wont be able to ever see her the way that i used too. Oh well. Thats 100% her fault none of mine.
Well let's see Valentines day completely sucked! Joe didnt get me anything...Couldnt even make me a home made card...I skipped school the day before Valentines so i can make Joe's cookies all day...And it took me allllll dayyyyy. And the Mill House Panda was nothing like it used to be the food was HORRIBLE!..it was cold hard and nasty...They didnt even have the dessert i was longing for, for years! So afterward i told Joe we were going to the mall so i could buy myself a Valentines day gift....And i went out of my way today to make joe alittle easter basket for Easter..I got him Burberry London cologne, and other little candy things to fill the basket up...i bet i wont even get a card =(...cheap ass.'
FINALLLYYY one more quarter until graduation. I cant wait one bit. I just want everything to be over i've been working so hard for the grades im getting everythings so exhausting. But im doing it. I've been working on applying for scholarships..And i'll be so happy if i actually get one. That would be awesome.
South Carolina is about a month away..maybe alittle less and Joe gonna come =) its probably going to be a boring trip but hopefully we'll be taking a lot of pictures lol. And in June me and joe are going to the city for a weekend...we're staying in a hotel going to a really nice cuban restaurant and hopefully go see the lion king on Broadway and we want to go to the Bodies The Expedition which looks really cool...On top of all this im still getting joe his coach wallet for his birthday so this shit is going to cost me a hell of a lot of money. But it will so be worth it.
Well the season finale of Lost is on in 5 minutes so i must WATCH
Current mood:
aggravated.
Holy shit its the first of February its been awhile lol.
Me and Maria aren't really talking, but she got me a birthday gift and i thanked her. I don't feel much negative energy unless me and Joe are laying in the bed which she gets upset about...Haha i wish i could be like...Yahh every time your son comes over we fuck upstairs and my mom doesn't even try to "check" on anything. She's even CAUGHT US FUCKINNN and thinks nothing different of us. Ahhh man i love my mom. lol. I mean come on the boys 18, and I'm 17 and i get more freedom sometimes.
The Saturday flowing my birthday me and Joe went to Danbury and we got my glasses =) Ugh their so perfect. But this Valentines day we decided not to exchange gifts but I'm still going to make a little something, I already know what it is but I'm not going to say it until after he gets it ;). But we're going to go to the Mill House Panda for dinner, a gore me Chinese restaurant...Soooo good.
Me and Cassie have been fucking around with Joe's ex girlfriend on myspace with a fake profile HAHAH we're to fucking awesome...I'll always remember this so I'm not going to bother writing everything down..this shits priceless and she's a fucking IDIOT, couldn't get more retarded then her!
Belle is doing awesome...She's getting so much bigger and she's my love. I love her to death she a big mush lol. I cant wait to see what she looks like when shes all grown up. I hope she doesn't lose her cuddliness.
I finally got my letter back from Dutchess, All i have to do is graduate high school and take a placement test and I'm in =)...I did great on all my mid-terms, my report card should be coming in any day now and i already know in most of the classes I'm passing with A's. Man transferring to Marlboro was the best thing I've ever got to do school wise. I get to graduate early...Kids who have study halls all day cant even get A's in their classes and i have a FULL schedule and i pass with 90's...I don't get it but I really don't give a fuck!
Not much has been going on...I had a scare a couple week ago because my mom changed the date to go to South Carolina and Joe might not have been able to go because he can't miss two days of school. So my mom said that we can leave when I get out of school which is around 2*30...and Joe gets out at 11 so I might even leave school early...So Joe only has to miss one day of school so YAY he's coming to South Carolina with me =) I'm so happy since we're not going on the cruise any more because my moms throwing me a party and getting me a lap top for graduation. With I'm perfectly fine with thats what i asked for...A lap top or cruise. Which me and Joe can save money up for a cruise since by August we'll have almost the same schedule with school so it will be easier to go on vacations. This Saturday I start watching Ron and Marge's dogs again for a week...So thats around a little more than 200$ in my pocket. My dad will probably be moving towards the end of February or beginning of March. And my grandmother was saying how he was waiting until I'm able to drive so I can see him....FUCK THAT, I'm not wasting my gas money and drive more than a hour to see him.
Well todays a snow day and so far there is no snow on the ground lol. Its suppose to freezing rain though. And tonight I'm going to meet up with Joe and go to RED ROBIN...Yummm hahah So good
Current mood:
devious.
Yesterday was my 17th birthday...YAY
I had to go to school because i had finals and midterms all this week =\, but after school joe came over and me bought me flowers and made me a cake that says happy birthday sam i love you =) so that made me almost cry but i held it back because i was wearing makeup lol. Then we went to the DMV and i got my senior license FINALLY =) Then he took me out for dinner at this reallllyyyy nice restaurant called Terrapin! It was really good...Then came home open up my gift i got a ipod nano and other nick nacks. I have to wait until this weekend to get my big gift from joe...Hes getting me Coach Samantha sunglasses =) there lovellyyy
But last saturday my family from long island came up and it was shit...My father only gave me 80 bucks for my birthday which i thought was extremely cheap of him. And my cousin didnt even bother to come because of problems with my grandmother yelling at me taking it out on me and then whining her ass off to me saying how i dont know how hard it is...I've been there done that with my family thinking im on drugs and having to go to school and work...Nothing new hunnyyy
So other than that nothing really is new...my moms side of the family came over saturday night,
Im off all next week in school, i just have to go in for a test on tuesday and thursday =)
Its been a couple days...my mind just keeps drifting off and of coarse i dont write when most of the drama unfolds.
I went over joes house for the first time last sunday on the 6th...She pretended she didnt feel good the whole fucking time and wouldnt even sit at the mother fucking dinner table....AND she took down the picture that i gave her on christmas and the one of me and joe at prom. I was so fucking upset and of coarse joe sticks up for her...
Then joe came over tuesday and everything was perfectly fine of coarse because we werent at his house.
Then i went over yesterday to his house which was out 1 year 5 month day and we went out to dinner right before his mom got home and to avoid me even more right when we were coming home they went to go food shopping and came home when i was gone...
IDK what to even think anymore...Joes been acting so distant and he doesnt even care idk how much longer this is gonna last because i need someone who isnt a mama's boy and is gonna stick up for me when it comes between his mom and me.
Current mood:
angry.
WE GOT A 9 WEEK YEAR OLD GOLDEN RETRIEVER AND SHES JUST THE FUCKING CUTEST THINGGG IN THE WORLD!!
Current mood:
happy.
Happy freakin new year
joe came over after work and actually got off early and surprised me..then we both passed out until 11:45 and waited for the count down and he gave me a lousy kiss =( But then we went to the Alexis diner in newburgh around 1 then he went home =\
Well joe pulled a shitty move and decided to not come with me to my grandmothers yesterday..he had all fucking day off and told me he didnt want to come with me to my grandmothers knowing that if he didnt come he wouldnt see me for the next 4 days...his excuse was that we've seen each other all week...like i fucking care obviously hes a fucking douche and he really needs to step up because im starting to question his feelings for me because its apparently not obvious since he claims he doesnt like to show emotion.
Today was our first day back at school...Actually went by pretty fast then i went to Mcdonalds and Planet fittness to finally go tanning...i got alittle burnt but u only get burnt once when u stop and you'll be fine if u keep it up which hopefully i will. Right now i have a killer head ache and i think im gonna lay downnn
13 days til my birthdayy
Current mood:
sore.
Ahaha..I cant believe that i considered Maria like a second mother to me...On friday she FLIPPED THE FUCK OUTTT because joe didnt spend any time with his cousin because she was leaving while he was at work on saturday...HES 18 LET HIM DO WHAT EVER THE FUCK HE WANTS ...so shes screaming and yelling about how he can see me all the fucking time and how im not the only important thing in the world...Mean while on a regular fucking basis i only see joe 3 days a fucking week...ONLY 3! soo since im on christmas break and he couldnt get that other job for more work...IM GOING TO ENJOY THE EXTRA TIME I HAVE WITH MY BOYFRIEND AND SPEND AS MUCH TIME AS I FUCKING CAN BEFORE HE HAS TO GO TO WORK AT 1. And no one was gonna fucking stop me from seeing him...Its not my damn fault that his cousin wakes up late by the time he has to fucking leave...And the time we did go out together him and his mom got confused on where to meet at the mall...Then i hate to spend 4 hours alone with maria and patsi...And i get mocked and insulted saying i dont let him do shit with his cousin or friends and what do i think hes going to fuck his cousin...
OMG i have to stop now because im gonna go alittle over board. i just can never look at her the same...if she ever apologizes which i dont think she will i dont think i can except it...And if she doesnt apologize idk if i'll even talk to her if she tries talking to me.
So saturday joe came over here..it was kinda awkward so we kinda had a bummy day and slept and watched tv.
yesterday we went to church AHAHA its been months and i actually got joe to tag along then we went to the palisades and went ICE SKATING....that was really fun we only really stayed there for 30 minutes but it was worth the 20 bucks...So we were both STARVING and we went to chili's got a banging chicken sandwich and so did he then we went shopping...Didnt have much luck though i went to target to try to spend my gift cards and got 2 tank tops with short...the shorts dont fit. so i have to send them back.
Joe really wanted a belt buckle and i pointed out a really nice one to him that u liked and he loved it but it was 45 dollars and i can tell he really wanted it but wasnt going to spend that much money on it..So i was like babe i'll give you 10 dollars because i was getting 3 leather belts for 10 bucks and i only had a 20 so i was like w.e i'll give him the change...So he got it and we got home around 6ish ? then hung out for the rest of the night
And todays new years eve and i gotta work on my english project...and HOPEFULLY joe will be coming over after work..and if he doesnt u have no clue how upset and pissed the fuck off i will be.
Current mood:
aggravated.
AHhh it's been awhile...Christmas eve was hectic, joe came over then we went to my fathers house at 9 in the morning opened up gifts and set out for long island. 2 hour drive there and we were only there for about 2-3 hours maybe not even. Went to my grandmothers to open up gifts then went to my grandfathers...the fucker never even said goodbye to me. Fucking bastard, thanks for the 25 bucks. Then we went back to my aunts house were we only stayed for maybe another 5 minutes to say good bye to everyone...I drove back me and joe did really good actually..I was surprised about how easy it was to drive back home. I couldnt have done it without joe tho. So we came back to my house..everyones at my aunt mimi's so i brought my crap inside and you know fucked joe...Then went to aunt mimi's for dinner and gifts and such.
Christmas morninggg yay. lol i got my coach shoes...wrong size though so my mom ordered a new pair because Macy's was a fucking hell hole and not very helpful to exchange or get a new size so fuck them. Got lots of money and gift cards. After gifts i went to joes family..fun lol. Then finally went back to my house for christmas dinner..fillet mignon and french onion soup! I loved my clothes that joe got me although one of the sweaters had a hole in it and when we went to the mall the day after christmas they didnt have it anymore BUT they did have a brown sweater vest that exactly matched one that joe has so i bought that =) Oh and yah joes cousin Patsi is staying until saturday...Fucking bullshit man i dont like change and other people invading on my life..shes nice and all but i rather not deal with anything like that...i dont put joe through it so why the fuck do i have to go through it?
So the day after christmas was crazy i woke up early and went to the mall with joe got lots of clothes and 2 hours later had to meet up with joes mom and cousin...joe was late for work so i had to be left with his mom and cousin for the next 4 FUCKING HOURS! with shoes that are killing my feet they barely even talked to me they kept to themselves most of the time and going from store to store even outside of the mall i was like are u fucking kidding me...it was HELL..So i told joe that im not going anywhere before you have to go to work we're sitting in your fucking bed watching tv by our selves. So thats what we did today...Then finally we got some alone time when maria and patsi left to go to the hospital to pick up maria's brother so we did it before he had to go to work and hung out for alittle....so since 1 i've been sitting at home boredd!
Current mood:
bored.
Thursday was just a regular old boring day...same shitttttt
I enjoyed my day off today...I went to go see my baby this morning and we hung out until around 1 when he had to go to work..Suck =(
We went to ruby tuesdays got a yummy lunch and all that good stuff...tomorrow im meeting him at the mall i gotta return a gift larrys parents gave me for christmas =X lol and joes gonna pick up a sweater thing at old navy which should be cute then were coming back to my house and relaxing for the day before our hectic christmas travels. lol im not looking forward to it but w.e gotta do what you gotta do get it done and over with.
I got big news...im going to have a step mother...Yupp my dad called me yesterday and told me that him and ina are going to get married next weekend...Like WTF and im not invited to their ceremony...What bullshit, typical crap that my father would pull and hes hoping to me moving( hour and a half away) within the next 3 weeks around my god damn birthday!!! Some fucking bullshit.
Ughhh idkkk i wish so bad it didnt bother me and idk why it is he's never been there to begin with so why should this bother me now?
3 days til christmas?
Current mood:
confused.