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stats [10 Apr 2007|01:35pm]
anaelisa
H:5'5
CW: 125
LW: 108
STGW: 113
LTGW: 102

I was mia from ages 13-17. When I was 17 I was admitted into the hospital then 11 months in a residential facility. It's been two years since I graduated from that place. My weight has been "normal" these past two years but I know I am much fatter than I should be. I am out of shape and chubby. It's gross!
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hello. [02 Mar 2007|06:20pm]

_candystars
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | tell me-p diddy ft. christina aguilera ]



Name: gina
Age: sixteen
Location: new jersey
Are you Ana/Mia/COE/Bulemorexia/etc.?: bulemorexia
How long have you had an ED?: about a year and a half.
Height: 4'10
High Weight: 110
Low Weight: 95
Current Weight: 104
Short Term Goal Weight: 95
Long term Goal Weight: 90


i know that everyone believes that short girls are skinny but we have a harder time at maintaining that. well, i do anyways. its hard for me. ana has been a pretty bumpy road... sometimes i have an occasional purge. my cravings get in and out of control and i hate it. i hate being compared to girls that are skinnier than i am, and well, comparing myself to them as well. i have INTENSE anxiety issues and i always feel that people are talking about how chunky i am and how fat my legs are... it really makes me hurt.
and my ana hasnt helped me all that much. it gives me some strength tho. the strength to have a disease, a disorder and not tell people about it. its a battle, it is.
and sometimes i break down and cry. when i cant cut calories or when i cant fast. i literally break down and cry and lead myself into a depressed state that lasts for days.
its so hard... so hard.
but im not gonna stop. and i want to be strong...
and ill be here for anyone that needs help.


here's and update for me that ive copied&pasted from previous journals:
so as of right now i have not eaten anything besides a hash brown today, and that was for breakfast.
and strictly to make it so that i dont fall asleep in class or pass out.
because i refuse to eat anything else today that consists of anything besides carrot sticks and crackers, unless ill have a way of getting rid of it.
so thats it for today, right now.
i think im gonna go for a three day fast, thats my goal for trying to start over.
and then ill get into a longer one.
so i'll update later.



much love and blessed be.
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The scale is not my friend. [03 Oct 2006|01:46am]

endlessoblivion
It's been days since I lost weight... and I actually think I gained some. Since I've been moving and stuff, there have been too many people around for me to be in control of things myself. I try not to eat while I'm at work, or any time I'm alone... and I walk to work whenever possible... My daily cold showers help a little bit I think...

I don't know what's going on. After we move I'll have my own bathroom, so I can purge easier without being disturbed. I'll have a more private room so I can keep all of my "tools" in there (my low calorie foods, my thinspiration, my food journal, the scale I'm going to be getting...) but I still have until Saturday before we move.

Please, someone, offer me some words of advice for the next few days...
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new, but only in one sense. [01 Oct 2006|05:45pm]
exxodus
Name: molly
Age: fifteen
Location: virginia
Are you Ana/Mia/COE/Bulemorexia/etc.?: ana
How long have you had an ED?: about four years
Height: 5ft3, 63 inches
High Weight: 170
Low Weight: 145
Current Weight: 159
Short Term Goal Weight: 145, my lowest
Long term Goal Weight: 100, or the holy double digits, 99

every weekday i eat no more than two hundred calories worth of breakfast: low-fat oatmeal with cinnamon and a banana, or high-fiber bread with a slice of ham and cheese, something to get some protein or fiber in me. (fiber/protein = not as hungry later!) then, no lunch, but a snack afterschool: usually the veggies that i brought for lunch with no-cal mustard. when i'm thirsty, ice water, and lots of it. if i'm hungry but i've already ate, low-cal hot chocolate or low-cal low-sodium broth fills me up.

i weigh myself every saturday morning. if i've lost five pounds or more, i let myself eat pretty much anything, as long as it doesn't total more than a thousand calories. if i have lost less than five pounds, i follow the same regimen.

it's not hard to eat as little as possible. sure, it maybe be dizzy and tiring, but that's what the caffeine pills are for. i've lost eight pounds in the past week. i'm doing great, girls, and i haven't even been hard-core dieting for that long.

don't you love it when everything goes your way?
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New here... [06 Sep 2006|11:09am]

endlessoblivion
Name: Oblivion
Age: 16
Location: Reno, NV
Are you Ana/Mia/COE/Bulemorexia/etc.?: Ana/Mia
How long have you had an ED?: a month or so
Height: 5'4"
High Weight: 255 :(
Low Weight: 225
Current Weight: 225
Short Term Goal Weight: 180
Long term Goal Weight: 102

I need help... I know I'm disgusting and I need to get things together but I'm so lost and whatever...!! Any help would be much appreciated.
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[18 Jun 2006|10:09pm]

thin_wishes
[ mood | discontent ]

Hi,
Name:Vicki
Age: 15
Location:Michigan
Are you Ana/Mia/COE/Bulemorexia/etc.?: Ana
How long have you had an ED?: just starting
Height:5"1
High Weight: 130lb[sick]
Low Weight: 109lb
Current Weight: 118lb
Short Term Goal Weight: 115lb then 110lb then105lb
Long term Goal Weight: 105-100lb

someone please help me, i'm just starting and it's summer so i need it bad but my parents watch me constanly and notice when and what i eat i'm a polo vegat. so i only eat poultry.tips and any information you could give me would help me so much

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Need weight loss support!!! [26 May 2006|10:17pm]
plc101
Does anyone post here anymore? I haven't in a long time, but I desperately need motivation and support. Here are my disgusting stats: 5'3" CW 136; GW 120. I need help, motivation and support!!!
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[20 May 2006|07:24pm]

hatebeingme
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New [08 May 2006|02:57pm]

xemilyjx
Name: Emily
Age: 19
Location: PA
Are you Ana/Mia/COE/Bulemorexia/etc.?: Ana
How long have you had an ED?: 1 year
Height: 5'8
High Weight: 202
Low Weight: 160
Current Weight: 198
Short Term Goal Weight: 175
Long term Goal Weight: 150
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stats - new girl! [04 May 2006|11:39pm]
blueyellow
[ mood | rejuvenated ]

Name:
Age: 21
Location: SYDNEY,AUSTRALIA
Are you Ana/Mia/COE/Bulemorexia/etc.?: EX ANA, NOW MIA
How long have you had an ED?: 8 YRS
Height: 156CMS
High Weight: 58KGS
Low Weight: 43KGS
Current Weight: 55KGS
Short Term Goal Weight: 45 KGS IN 2 WEEKS
Long term Goal Weight: BONETASTIC

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my poem [04 May 2006|11:34pm]
blueyellow
[ mood | blank ]

people look,stare, then comment.
do they not understand just how uoset i am?
my mind is already screwed up
its like being hit in the throat with a ram

after each meal i face the big white hole
and slowly slide my fingers down my throat
my body releases the food i ate five minutes ago
and then suddenly i give the big white hole a vomit coat

day after day my obsession gets worse
i must continue to do this killer of a habit
otherwise i think i will get obesely fat
and spread as quick as the wild rabbit

i slowly start to wither away
shrinking down from size 10, 9 then 8
my friends and family start to get worried
they pat me on the back and say "im worried bout ya mate"

i tell them its alright, and not to worry about me
then i ignore them all and continue with my way
my life will carry on with my habit
i lose my energy day by day

maybe one day i will just die
so i wont bother anybody anymore
my days are long and antagonising, a killer in each one
at least when im finally dead i'll no longer be a bore

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my poem [04 May 2006|11:21pm]
blueyellow
[ mood | blank ]

people look,stare, then comment. do they not understand just how uoset i am? my mind is already screwed up its like being hit in the throat with a ram after each meal i face the big white hole and slowly slide my fingers down my throat my body releases the food i ate five minutes ago and then suddenly i give the big white hole a vomit coat day after day my obsession gets worse i must continue to do this killer of a habit otherwise i think i will get obesely fat and spread as quick as the wild rabbit i slowly start to wither away shrinking down from size 10, 9 then 8 my friends and family start to get worried they pat me on the back and say "im worried bout ya mate" i tell them its alright, and not to worry about me then i ignore them all and continue with my way my life will carry on with my habit i lose my energy day by day maybe one day i will just die so i wont bother anybody anymore my days are long and antagonising, a killer in each one at least when im finally dead i'll no longer be a bore

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[03 May 2006|04:22pm]

nike_jessica
age 19
height 5'6
hw (highest weight) 152
lw (lowest weight) 132
cw (current weight) 148
stgw (short term goal weight) 130
ltgw (long term goal weight) 108

Yes I'm new!
I have had my ups and downs as everyone I guess. Right now I'm in a little bit of depression and feels like someone always watches me and my behaviour. I'm scared of food but Its like something forces me to eat and just eat bad things. If you have any tips I be glad for everything!
Planning on a strictly fasting period. Have to clear my mind!!

Hope you all doing great!!
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ok i think its been a good year or longer maybe since i was here [08 Mar 2006|11:35am]
_xfuctupchick17
but i remembered i had this journal and joined this community
and i figured it would help me with my current problem

i need to lose as close to 10lbs in a week as i can (yeah right)
and i need to lose hmmmm
about 55lbs in as little time as possible

i need suggestions on how to go about the 10lbs
and if i continue that way, an estimated amount of time for the 55lbs

im going to start going back to the gym in about a week because im going out of town so keep that in mind, and ive tried purging before and i just cant do it anymore and i dont get away with it easily so ....

and im super desperate
a lot of things are coming up for me and im sick of having no self control
im in it for good until im at my goal weight this time
i need a change in my life and im so sick of saying "ill start tomarrow"

thanks in advance sorry if this was random i dont know where else to turn :(
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new member [21 Dec 2005|08:23pm]
_rotfromview
i dont really know the lay-out for
this, but i'll give it my best shot

ed: past mia, current ana
cw: 103.5lbs
lw: 92lbs
hw: 120lbs
stg: 98lbs
ltg:85lbs

today:
-100 calorie thin crisp chips ahoy
-crackers
-eggsalad
-salad
-apple

plan for tomorrow:
-apple
-clemintine
-mixed fruit
-salad
-granola
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[20 Oct 2005|01:00pm]

starfishcoffee
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PLEASEEE! [17 Oct 2005|12:04pm]

that____girl
help me out and join my community if you love Rachel Bilson/Summer Roberts!!!
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rachel_b_fans
JOIN!
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[16 Oct 2005|10:19pm]

autumnxashes
Name: Casondra
Age: 17
Location: Las Vegas
Are you Ana/Mia/COE/Bulemorexia/etc.?: Bulemorexia
How long have you had an ED?: around three years
Height: 5'3"
High Weight: 107
Low Weight: 94
Current Weight: 103
Short Term Goal Weight: 98
Long term Goal Weight: 90
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FYI (x-post) [27 Sep 2005|09:57pm]

that____girl
if anyone needs a fasting/dieting buddy or just wants to talk, share tips, feel free to IM me anytime you see me on!

globesandmaps77

THiNK THiN!
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If only others didnt butt in...I could be free [04 Sep 2005|11:30pm]
lilsportsmonki
Well, today was OK. I felt sick mosta the day though...my sis washere...and mother made us eat 3 meals...yuck. I was so so tempted to purge...but I didnt want anyone to hear...and I dont wanna get trapped into that cycle again. I exercised a little...but not enough...I am fearful of mother yelling at me for over-exercising. I eat like 2 mouthfuls and am full...my brain is screaming to stop...what the f*** are you doing...you have already had more than you need...you compete cow taking more than you deserve. So slowly I try force the rest down...it is so hard to swallow and the food tastes bland, heavy...like cardboard...tough to swallow against a gag reflex. I wish I didnt take up so much space...I am aware of my excess...bearing down on the earth. And...I start school tomorrow and I have nothing to wear...nothing looks good on my FAT. If I try be a little trendy the clothes look bad...and everyone can see the fat...but if I cover in many layers...well...that isnt exactly a healthy first impression to give others? I just dont know what to wear...I wish I could fast...like I want to...I crave that purple tinge and the numbness inside...the spacey head...and the strength I gain from knowing that I am the one in control...I have the gift of enough will-power to be free of needs. *sigh*
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