Date:	2003-04-18 11:23
Subject:	im leaving
Security:	Public
Mood:	discontent

hi thys might be my last entry i bought a new diary a really cute 1 with a heart shape lock n itz so cute. i rather write in there itz better than writting in thys 1 b/c i write in it n e tyme i don't have 2 sign on 2 write in it. so if n e 1 that readz thys n wantz me 2 keep writing leave me a comment n if enough ppl want me 2 keep writing i will. april 4 i had 2 babysit n mark never came back home so april 5 wen he did come back i made him come wit me 2 get muh nailz done 4 the dance on april 12. i c him everyday! we make love wit no condom everyday. but right now we can't make love cuz im on my rag but yesterday we did do it cuz i wanted 2 he didn't even care that i had mah period. i want 2 be wit him 4 the rest of mah lyfe. april 12 was the dance n we went 2gether lyke we will lawayz do. it was the best dance i ever went 2 except the part were he got jealous 2 tymez cuz of my guy friend name sam i don't lyke sam i never will. his a dork a nerd im serious. he never had sex n the only bad thing he did was get drunk 1 tyme omg thatz not even bad. i love bad boiz n thatz wut mark is i love him so much he needz 2 get that throught hes fucking head!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love n lyke him only no 1 fucken else. ok well 2day is me & markz 2month anniversary. well got 2 go cuz my sister needz me 2 call her so bye n remember if u guyz still want me 2 write in here leave a comment.

L0v3 a1wayz,
P1nc3ss





Oh Thank You!

Oh thank you to the heavens for sending down an angel.
My heart, stolen...
But not in vain for I know the beauty will never deceive lie, or hate.
Brought into my life as my soulmate to forever come back to me again as mine and only mine.
Never leave my side and I shall return the favor.
Long walks, sweet kisses and moonlit park strolls.
Ahh...the romance.

Date:	2003-04-02 11:00
Subject:	oh my god wait til u read thys its madd funny!!!!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	what happened to that boy

hey ppl! wutz up?? well my week was good. i was on spring break last week & Mark sleptover the whole wek. i didn't go 2 skool last friday not the friday of spring break but the friday be4 that cuz Marco(my baby) was sleeping over & plus i didn't feel lyke going 2 boring azz old skool. LoL i love Mark so much. I love seeing his ex girlfriend cuz Mark is all mine not herz no more. i love it!!! Frankz sister Nikki lykez Mark and thatz funny cuz shez ugly!! & im hott n shez not! lol he would never date her again. i still don't understand y he would date her n e wayz she seemz kewl but she is so jealous of us she told sum1 that wen ever she seez Mark his kissing his GIRLFRIEND ummm bitch im his girl 4 now n 4 EVER!!!!!! his my whole lyfe i would do n e thing 4 him. n he wantz me 4ever so he'll get me 4 ever wait correcton he has me 4ever!!!! :} 2day during english i wrote on my bookbag in white out,"I Love Mark!" so n e 1 that lykez my man will c it n i hope his x n Frankz nasty azz sister seez it 2!!! ::laughz:: im so mean & spoiled i get wut i want hahahaha!!!!!lyke oh my god on saturday Mark & me were making love lyke alwayz & all of a sudden i felt thys huge unbearable unbelievable can't explainable pain!! he stuck his dick in my fucken azz on accident. i didn't cry til 2am sunday morning. i was so mad we were fighting bout it til 3am. i was so mad that i fell asleep on the floor then he came & slept next 2 me around 5am i got up & we slept on the bed cuz I was getting a sore throat & my nose was stuffy. my butt was hurting was 2 much. yesterday we got in2 a fight because he told Frank that we have sex 1st we don't have sex we amke love & 2nd i don't want Frank of al ppl 2 know that we do n e thing. i hate Mark 4 that. he bought me 2 pink roses. i love pink and i love the roses. pink roses r my fav!!!!!!!!!!! i love Mark im not mad @ him no more. 2day is April foolz day so i wonder wut his gonna do 2 me. ik wut im gonna do 2 him!::cruel smile:: my mom said that she has sumthing 4 me i wonder wut it is. i hope nothing. my mom dodn't do n e thing yesterday 4 april foolz day yea 2day is wednesday. i did the best 1 2 Mark. You guyz know how i told u im bi well thys 1 chick name nikki diff gurl not frankz sister she pr<< i can't spell it so i made it small lol well n e wayz>>> sher lykez me n i told him that i made out wit her n he actually believed me it was sooooo funny!!!!!!!! omg he took it so serious we were holding handz n he started letting go of my hand then i said april foolz n started laughing. i love that boi 2 death. then he still kept thining it was true cuz her n kriste my lez friend kept looking @ us or so he sayz. im lyke noooooo i never kissed her how can i im in love with u. he got me 2. he told me that he came in me i got lyke real scared. he was acting too weird last note so wen i c him 2day im gonna ask him wutz wrong. im not @ skool im @ home lovely old home. im going 2 Markz house after skool or i hope i do. his gonna ask his mommy if i can come over cuz his stepdad is a jerk thatz wut he tellz me. i ove Mark so much i miss him tons i wish i could c him ow. i wish he went 2 my skool he told me taht sum gurlz were hitting on him wen he 1st wen there yesterday was hes real 1st day. so last nte i gave him another hickey while we were amking love n wrote on his bookbag "Wendi Marquez Loves Mark :)" but the smily face was not on itz side. omg everyone im so sad my Teacher Mr. Cohn got laid off that meanz @ the end of the year he can't work @ rb no more. im s sad. I won't see him next year he was actually a kewl teacher. i love him man!!!!!!! but not lyke bf/gf thing lyke friend or older brother. i can talk 2 him bout mark cuz he knowz Mark more than n e 1 in that damn skool. im so mad @ thys 1 bitch of a teacher cuz ik she did thys. fuck u bytch!!!!!! well i g2g juan just imed me n im gonna talk 2 him. his so funny his a kewl azz guy but i never met him his lyke my big brother on line. bye pplz

Princess







title: Hurt feelings
My feelings are hurt do you even care
All you can do is look and stare
The day you told me my world was gone
I can't even think my mind went along
How could you leave me I really loved you so
How come you didn't tell me and you just let me go
I will never forgive you
You hurt me so bad
Even if you talk to me I will get mad
You hurt my feelings don't talk to me
My heart is broken my dreams are smashed
You hurt me so much your a bunch of trash


ok byr pplz i love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!

Date:	2003-03-28 15:41
Subject:	A NORMAL DAY
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off
Music:	girlfriend- b2k

yesterday me & Mark woke up @ 11am. ya lazy again. but i need 2 wake up late itz spring break!!!!!!!! he went 2 the drz again yesterday. so i missed him tonz. i love Mark. we didn't do n e thing but stayed in cuz it was too cold 2 go outside. itz raining outside rite now. we didn't wake up til 1:30pm 2day. ya real lazy. rite now we kinda in a fight im not talking 2 him n idk bout him his playing his ps2. ya we fighting i won't let him read thys n his getting all girly. i really love him & he thinkz i don't he wantz 2 read thys he already does. his such a dorker sumtymez. i love Mark sooooooooooooo much but he needz 2 start believe me lyke soon. i love him more than i ever loved Luis. His my 2nd love. Luis was muh first. on my right foot my toez r cold. omg yesterday @ 1 n 2 in the morning I cleaned my room n moved my bed n sum stuff around. Mark helped me(the love of my wonder lyfe)but we still need 2 clean it a little bit more. i popped my princess blowup chair 2. ::criez:: :'( lol yea that thing cost 30 buckz. Mark thinkz i don't c him haha. Yesterday in the morning we made love it was soo good. We made love 3 tymez yesterday. he is the best ever. Better than nasty Gabe n better than Luis!!!!!!! he is so jealous i have thys pix wit me & Matt wen i was dating Gabe n he just throw it sumwhere on the floor. wut a fucken jerk!!!!!!! i don't know how much more of this i can take. omg im lyke so mad rite now. i can't even think. im going his making me mad!! ::screaming::

Pr1nc3zz



How does it feel

How does it feel??
Tell me how does it feel??
To feel what is really real
What do you feel?
When I treat you this way
Now how does it feel
To feel the way I do
3 years of hell
I just put you through
The anger built up inside
The torture I let pent up
I must release this hate onto you
So how does it feel?
Tell me what you feel
When I release my anger onto you
How does it feel to go through what I went through
Much longer
So much longer
I can never let this go
Fuck you and how you feel
How does it feel
To feel like I do
Relate to me
Because this is real


Thatz all 4 2day bye!!!!!!!!!!!!

Date:	2003-03-26 12:42
Subject:	happy
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake
Music:	Kylie Minogue - Come Into My World

friday i didn't go 2 skool. y u ask? bc i just didn't feel lyke going. yes im spoiled i get we i want. i wanted Luis i got him i wanted Gabe i got him i wanted Mark n look i got him. :] i get we i want lyke u can c. well n e wayz>>>>> friday i went wit Mark 2 get his hair cut n he lookz sooooo hottttttttt. omg!! then we went out 2 dinner 2 Lalo (mexican resturant) after that we took Mark 2 Mikez house. i was sad but i get 2 c him wen ever i want so ya. saturday i spent it wit my mommy. we went food shopping n had fun. wen we got home i put the food away all by myself my mom went sumwhere n i was online @ the same tyme. then we went 2 target a little l8r we walked there itz not that far from mah house itz lyke across the fucking street. lol ;] wen me n mommy were @ target she got me makeup n a cd missy elliott'z new cd. then mark called me n told me that he'll be @ muh house in 30 mintues. so i took another shower but wen i got out n was getting dressed he was here omg i wasn't even ready. so i made him wait out side of muh room til i finished. i put on my makeup so i looked so pretty 4 him. i love Mark so much. i want 2 marry him but im not gonna tell him well he already knowz. we went 2 the park n had fun. sunday nothing really happened me n Mark got in2 a fight but thatz all. monday Mark went sumwhere i 4got around 4 oh yeah i remember now he went 4 a job thing. @ jewel in la grange. then he went shopping wit his mommy who he lovez a lot. then tuesday he went 2 the dr'z 4 sumthing 4 skool. so yea. 2day. right now Mark is slepping on the couch. his so tired we had a bad nite. we met sum freshmen @ the park last nite n they were smoking weed so i left him. u guyz should of been there it was funny. i saw him running so i ran down this street the other way. ran behide this house'z garge(sry can't spell) then i went back around 2 if he was coming or were he went n i heard him walking so i ran back behide the garge. i was scared that sum1 was gonna c me. but no 1 did. i love Mark but he needed 2 learn that im not gonna wait 4ever 4 him 2 come back. if he wantz 2 smoke weed do it wit me or wen im not there. oh ya, im collecting n writing my own poemz n im going 2 put 1 in every entry there'll 1 @ the bottom wen im done writing. n everyone im coming out of the closet slowly n telling every1 im bi yes im bi. i do lyke girlz n guyz i finally admitted that i am. i alwayz knew i was cuz wen i would be wit luis or gabe sumthing felt lyke it was missing but itz diff wit Mark i don't feel lyke n e thingz missing. im washing the dishes a little bit n Mark keepz waking up itz so cute. this morning we amde love again. it was good so thatz y his so tired. plus im checkingmy emailz. i'll write more 2morrow. oh be4 i go i jsut have 2 say is that gabe still hasn't got over me. i know im still on his buddylist i have this felling n i heard sumthing bout sumthing. i have 2 go pi . bi bi.

L0v3 y0u f0r3v3r,
Pr1nc3zz

Here'z my poem:
Lost little Girl

I'm bleeding
I'm broken
So much unspoken
I'm starving
I'm empty
So hurt with in me
I'm pushing
I'm fighting
Though I'll never win
I'm hiding
I'm scared
Lost in a search of someone who cares
I'm hurting
I'm numb
Wil I ever find that someone
I'm confused
So lost
I don't have a way
Unspoken things I will never say
I'm sobbing
I'm crying
I'm a lost little girl
I feel like I'm dying

ok thatz it im outtie~ biye

Date:	2003-03-20 21:46
Subject:	im finally all caught up!!!!!!!! happy happy joy joy!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	sore
Music:	thinking of Markz hottttttt azz :]

SUNDAY(Mar 16)-me & Mark went 2 the park. we had fun. he pushed me in the tire swing & i got sick. i thought i was going 2 throw up. Frisday we went 2 super kmart 2 get cake mix. the cake was so good n soft. he couldnt stop eating it. 2day is muh sisters birthday shez 24 y/o. i love Mark. his mom just picked him up. i miss Mark so much!! ::cryz:: MONDAY(Mar 17)-Mark is coming 2 my house afterskool. i can't wait. i'm so in love with Mark. & i hope his in love with me. 2day is stupid st. patricks day. i hate thys day. i'm kinda tired. i so can't wait 2 c Mark!! i miss him so much. im going 2 skool thys whole week! i might c Mark thys weekend. i hope i do. next week is spring break. i can't wait. i think i'm going 2 c him all week during spring break or @ least i hope. 2day me & Kate were looking 4 Kristine but she left too fast. so 2morrow we'll get her! Kate really wantz 2 beat her azz. : ) I love Mark! TUESDAY(Mar 18)-there was suppose 2 be a walkout 2day after 4c-lunch. be4 5th period but itz gonna be thursday instead. 2day is Mark & I one month Anniversart. I'm happy :) i hope he rememberz. he betta remember!! ummm!! nope he doesn't. im mad now! : / i can't believe it but hez a guy wut do i expect. but itz okay. we made love 2 tymes 2day. i have ACT class 2morrow. i might be babysitting 2morrow but i doubt it. i hope i babysit Saturday so i can get money. : ) I love Mark! WEDNESDAY(Mar 19)-i didn't go 2 skool 2day. i woke up @ 7:20am & asked mah mom if im going 2 skool & she said no so i went back 2 bed. Mark sleptover lastnite. i love Mark. me & Mark got in2 a fight. it was kinda bad. it was bout him lyking other gurlz. im pissed but he doesn't lyke n e 1 besidez me : ) so im happy! i bite him twice. the 1 on his tummy hurt him the most. more than the 1 on his arm. i was mad i had 2 show him. he hurt my right wrist by squeezing both my wrist 2gether. so i had 2 diff kindz of bruisez on my right hand. 1 og them isn't from him. i broke my bed. NOT SEXUaLLY!! u sick ppl! it was funny. herez wut happened: i was standing on my bed & Mark was laying down i told him 2 move his leg so i could bounce off. i bounced on my bed then got off & it broke. i think it broke bc earlier thys year my best friend Anne was jumping on my bed. so now all thatz left of my bed is the mattress & the board thingy under my bed. the news sayz were suppose 2 be @ war but nothing yet. i had 2 take a quiz in my Act class 4 the reading review part. 2day was the reading part 2 morrow is math. we're taking Mark home @ 10pm. we cleaned my room kinda im going 2 clean muh room more 2morrow. wen we were taking my baby home we were playing sumthing & he bite the tip of my ring finger on my right hand. yea, my right hand has been through a lot 2day. LoL!
: ) THURSDAY(Mar 20)-therez a walkout after 4c 2day bc were @ war. i think the walkout is dumb! by walking out they really think the war is gonna stop? ummm, no u dumb azz. Mark is coming afterskool @ 3pm. i'm happy : ) ! im going 2 tell him wut happened 2day during 5th period wen almost every1 walkedout. all the goths/freakz n lez/bi/gay ppl walked out. wen i get home i'm going 2 take a shower & maybe clean my room after i fuck Mark. or he'll fuck me. who ever wantz it more lol : ). were watching a dumb movie in history. i think Mr.Moore has a crush on me or he lykez me more than he should. me n Mark made love n it feel omg!!!!!!! so good. he is the best i ever had.his beeta than luis n especially gabe lol!!!!!!!! he is sooo good. we did it 4 an hour i think. we'll g2g im going out with Mark rite now. were going 2 the park 2 have sum fun itz 9:37pm in mah house now.

L0v3 m3 M@rK,
Pr1nces@

hey every1 look i finally got up 2 date on my diary. lol



:-]

WEDNESDAY(Mar 12)-I got my period(kinda) during 3rd period but not really it only started with cramps. I didn't really get it til 4th period. I told Sam(a gurl) that i know that im getting it. I told her wut i did 2 Mark Sunday & Tuesday. Wen i made him think i was pregnant. She was laughing. Katez nasty azz is going round telling every1 that i stole her ring. OMG! That piss me off. I can't stand that crack head. Y the hell would i want a ring that a crack head had. Shez so nasty! Mark was @ skool. I love him so much. I have 2 work 2day & Mark is coming with me. I have 2 babysit til 11pm. The baby is so cute Mark has 2 leave @ 9:30pm my mom is picking him up. I love Mark oh so very much! THURSDAY(Mar 13)-i woke up this morning @ 6:30am 2 take a shower. Mark is coming afterskool i want 2 look nice. I miss Mark so much. Last nite wen i was babysitting the 1 y/o boy his name is Steven all he would do was cry. If i put him down he would start screaming & crying. So then i had 2 pick him up. Sumthing i wouldn't or i would just let Mark hold him. If Steven saw me he would start crying bc he wanted me 2 hold him. Be4 his parentz left(the father) Steve gave me $40. Then after an hour Heather(the mom) came back bc Steve(the dad) 4got his medicine. Mark was there with me. I pushed him in Keely's room so Heather wouldn't know he was there. She was there 4 20 minutes. I didn't think she was ever gonna leave. After we put Steven 2 bed me & Mark were on the couch & kinda madeout & watched MTV(the music video channel) & watching the movie "the others." I love that movie. Itz scary. This morning after i took my shower i went online & nasty gabe wrote me an email. So i wrote him back. I wish i could talk 2 Mark on the phone be4 i go 2 skool in the morning. I would be really happy. Me & Mark r going 2 the mall afterskool 2 go shopping w. My money i got. Katez nasty azz came up 2 me afterskool(shez in late skool) while i was talking 2 Mark n was lyke(in a scared voice), "I never said that u took my ring." She looked all scared. Lyke she was gonna cry. Shez scared of me. Ik y bc i told every1 if she keepz telling every1 that i stole her ring i'm going 2 beat her azz. I left Mark outside 2 talk 2 her i could still c him. I was watching him. So i guess me & her r kewl. She told me that Kristine told her that she saw me wearing the ring. Yea, okay bitch! I don't wear other ppl's ringz especially a crack head. Then we left. Every1 wantz 2 beat Kristine azz. So do i. Me & Mark went 2 the mall ate then my mom pick us up. We went 2 target 2 get 2 cdz. I wanted him 2 steal Ashani cd cuz i had it but lost it. I just wanted the cd part. But he didn't do it. I bought toe sockz, 2 diff paxz of gum, mintz & Kelly Rowland cd. L8r @ 9pm I went back 2 target 2 get the other cd. Me & Mark got in2 a little fight. He was trying 2 cut himself i took the knife & cut across my tummy & my sidez. Mark got scared. Sumthing else happened that i started crying. I stabbed my hand with the knife. He told me that he loves me & goes u don't believe me & i said no i don't. Thatz wen he started crying a lot. I do believe him. It was so cute wen he was crying. I love wen he cry'z. FRIDAY(Mar 14)-I talked 2 crack head Kristine 2day. I was mad wut Kate said 2 me yesterday that Kristine said bout me. I miss Mark so much. 2day is pie day(math class) in geometry the area of a circle is 3.14 n 2dat is 3.14. DUMB!! But the piez that were the was good. Well only 1 was. I really hope i get 2 c him 2day. His sleeping over mah house 2nite & this whole weekend! I can't wait 2 c him. My dad has 2 Give me money 2day or 2morrow. I'm going 2 get new shoes & maybe new clothes. Wen he gives me money. I love Mark! SATURDAY(Mar 15)-my dad came around 11am & gave me my money. Were going 2 the mall 2day i need new shoez. I got the new Kswiss shoes there pink & Limited Edition. Wen we were @ the mall all these guyz kept staring @ me n Mark was getting mad! They'll all nasty & gross!!!! I love Mark SO MUCH! I got a 1 piece shorts outfit itz cute n blue.

Date:	2003-03-14 13:53
Subject:	yea more fun but not really :(
Security:	Public
Mood:	cold
Music:	i wish u died

I think I'm all caught up but we'll see. We'll c how eventful this weekend really was. SATURDAY(Mar 8)-Frank called this morning 4 Mark. He wants Mark 2 go 2 his house 2 help him wit sumthing. & Mark actually went. I can't believe it. What a fucken jerk. His been there since thys morning. Me & mah dumb azz sister had a fight. & i beat the shyt out of her. Mark was there til 8pm. While i was @ the mall getting muh pictures developed Mark called me. I called home called Frankz house again but the azzhole wasn't there. Mark finally came 2 mah house n I was so mad. Mark wantz me 2 sleepover his dadz house wit him. I got mah stuff ready. We went 2 Walgreen's 2 get my pictures. OMG! Gabe took a picture of my pussy. I can't believe it. They actually gave it 2 me. But i couldn't believe that he took a picture of me lyke that. Then we went 2 his dadz house but wen we got there his dad had moved out. So we walked a few blocks down 2 his friendz house. It was so cold outside. We got a ride home. I love u Mark. SUNDAY(Mar 9)- Mark sleptover last nite. EWWWWWWWWWWW!!! My mom was doing sumthing with thys dude last nite wen we came back. It was so fucken gross! When we got inside i made him sumthing 2 eat bc he was hungry. 2day we made pasta. It was good. & we both washed the dishes. We made love 2 tymes. I love Mark. We dropped him off @ 10pm thatz wut tyme he has 2 be home. His mom was gonna pick him up @ 8pm but i told him muh mom would take him home. I love Mark so much! MONDAY(Mar 10)-Mark is coming to RB afterskool. So i get 2 c him. I'm happy! & were going 2 mah house. I have sum hw but not a lot lyke i usually would have. I can't wait 2 c Mark! I'm so excited. i have a dentist appointment 2morrow. I have 2 wash my clothes 2nite. I think i'm pregnant. Me & Mark haven't use a condom but he never came in me but my period is late well not that late. It was suppose 2 come Friday but didn't. So maybe it'll come this Friday. I need 2 clean my room lyke real bad. I need 2 get my stuff from Gabe's house lyke soon. His stupid dad was suppose 2 come Saturday @ 10am while i was @ skool taking my act practice test but he never showed up. So i guess i have 2 go there 2 get my stuff & Mark is coming w. Me! Me & Mark went 2 Target after eating @ Mc. Donaldz 2 get a pregnancy test. I took the test (the 1st one) @ Target in the bathroom. It came out saying i'm (don't u want 2 know lol) but i didn't tell Mark right away. We walked back 2 my house went in2 my room & i told him 2 sit down then i sat down on my bed next 2 him put my hand on his sexy shoulder while i was doing that he gave me look n look lyke he was gonna cry. He made this sound it was funny. Wen i put my hand on his sexy muscular shoulder i said, "baby, ummm sorry to say but i'm not pregnant," & started laughing. He was happy. He hugged me & told me that he loves me. Then we kissed, we made out for an hour or so. I love you Mark a lot! TUESDAY(Mar11)-i didn't go 2 skool 2day lyke i planned. I told my mom that i don't have n e clothes clean but really i just didn't feel lyke going & plus i wanted Mark 2 sleepover. I love Mark 2 death. I took the other pregnancy test (2 test in 1 box) be4 i stepped in the shower. Wen i got out of the shower i told Mark that i'm pregnant & that i'm going 2 kill mushily by drowning. I started the water lyke i actually was gonna do it. He was banging on the door & trying 2 open it with a knife but all i was washing my face & brushing my teeth. He wanted me 2 let him in. I made him think i was pregnant 4 a very long tyme lyke 2 hourz. I kept calling him daddy & he called me mommy. It was so funny. I washed my clothes & i told him that i can't do all the work cuz i'm gonna have a baby. Then i said, "Mark i'm gonna have this baby in December. He made thys face lyke he alwayz does. Itz so cute. I asked him how he feelz & he said confused. LoL! After a while he started crying. I started 2 feel bad. I wanted 2 tell the truth but couldn't. I started getting scared i thought he was gonna dump me but he said he would never do that. Be4 we went 2 the dentist i told him that i need 2 tell him sumthing. I told him 2 sit down. I asked if he thinks i'm pregnant. I had the test thing in my hand & i said, "Baby i'm not pregnant" & showed him the test. He hugged me & told me that he lovez me. Be4 i told him he kept saying I love you so much. I really love you. It was funny. But be4 i showed him we made love with a condom. We made love for an hour & a half but we couldn't finish bc i had 2 get dress 2 go 2 the dentist. So he didn't lyke that too much. I love him so much. If i don't want 2 make love 4 a long tyme ik Mark won't cheat on me by having sex with sum1 else. I love Mark so much! I miss him! I hope he comes afterskool 2morrow.

Date:	2003-03-11 14:01
Subject:	part 4 of fun tyme yea right not this week (end)
Security:	Public
Mood:	angry
Music:	i was happy but now im mad this isn't a song!

WEDNESDAY(Mar 5)-i didn't go 2 skool 2day. it was snowing lyke crazy last nite & a lot more this morning. i thought maybe skool would be closed but it was still open. Mark sleptover last nite & we made love. so i'm happy! his mom was suppose 2 pick him up @ 1pm but sumthing happened. So he getz 2 stay til 9pm. i have my ACT classes 2nite so his going home early lyke 6:30pm. i love Mark. im going 2 miss him wen we take him home. Act was so fucking boring. i wrote amy a note. i got home mark called so i called him back. we talked for 30 mintues. im going 2 skool 2morrow but i don't want 2. THURSDAY(Mar 6)-i tried 2 call Mark twice but he wasn't home. i wonder were he could be. i trust him i don't think bad thingz lyke i did with nasty Gabe lol haha!!! i asked his stepdad if he knows where he went or wut tyme he's going 2 be home. his stpedad says he doesn't know. that made me mad. i'm kinda mad. i was online n nasty gabe(lol) imed me & told me that his coming 2 mah house 2 give me my stuff & 2 get his nasty shyt. I'm so happy! I want Mark 2 be @ mah house we nasty gabe comes. he'll be out of my lyfe 4EVER!! i got the babysitting job! =} im so happy! i start wednesday @ 6pm. i'm going 2 be watching just the 1 y/o boy. the gurl is gonna be @ her dadz house. i'll be paid $50. i was 10mintues late 2 mah Act class. we were in the library. i went 2 target after my class. i got this really cute new bra & itz pink mah favorite color & sum deodorant & candy lol! I.... FRIDAY(Mar 7)- Mark never called me last nite. wen i got home from target i didn't even try 2 call him. i'm so nad but scared bc ik Mark cheated on me last nite. i have a feeling that im not gonna c Mark 2day but i really hope & wish that i do get 2 c him. i still love Mark & I miss him. I talked 2 Frank during lunch. This kid smellz all the tyme n his fingerz r GREEN> ewwwww does he know how 2 wash himself? no 1 knows where Mark is. I asked his ex gf & all the ppl that know him n thatz a lot of ppl lyke the whole skool. but no 1 knows. im kinda worried. Frank wantz Mark 2 go 2 his house 2 day n this whole weekend but i need my sexy hottie baby Mark @ mah house. Gabe is coming & i can't c him w/o Mark but if Mark doesn't come I'll be more mad. During lunch i gave Frnak my # & he gave me his dadz # where his going 2 be all weekend. I almost passed out bc I know Mark cheated on me. I need 2 take chemsitry 4 my job i want 2 do. this dumb woman won't let me take it. i called mah mo & told her wut happened. Earlier i tryed 2 call Mark from Mr. Cohn'z room during 3rd period. i tried 2 tymes but neva picked up. then during 6th after i had called my mom i called Mark n he still didn't answer. Wen i got home i called him. Frank called me & asked if I knew were he is. then i went online. i just called & hez mom said that his @ mikez. OMG I'm pissed. He rather go 2 sum dudez house then call me! i asked his mom if she could take him here n she did. wen he got here we went in2 mah room & i beat his azz. I pinched, punch, hit, & kicked him. He sleptover. I Love You Mark So Much! I'll write more l8r~

L0v3 @1w@yz,
Pr1nc3zz

by3

i'll write the rest of wut happened later

Date:	2003-03-06 22:08
Subject:	fun tyme part 3 :)
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	watching roseanne

okay i'm going 2 finish from February 28 to march 4th. i'm gonna tell u wut happened. (FEBRUARY 28)FRIDAY-i don't have skool 2day b/c itz teacher institute day. so w/e. i'm glad we didn't mark is back but i'm not sure bout him still going 2 RB. I hope & wish & PRAY that hez still gonna go. i really want muh boi friend 2 go 2 mah skool again. i had a bf @ my skool wen i was in 2nd grade but the rest went 2 diff skools. We made love again 2day. 2 tymes lol. Yea, yesterday was so wonderful. he was so sweet. on February 27,2003 at 9:48pm we made love 4 the 1st tyme. His dick is 6 inches but feelz bigger that that. Gabe I think was bigger but SUCKED!!!
mark is bigger n thicker he has 2 be bigger. He is SOO GOOD!! LoL. He gaveme a hickey & i gave him 2. I love you mark! SATURDAY(Mar 1)-i'm scared that gabe is going 2 throw away mah stuff. I'm going 2 call his house & tell them I'm coming 2 get my stuff soon. And he is getting his shyt back 2. Me & mark went 2 Yorktown. I got this really cute DKNY new shirt & a pair of cute jeanz. Mark says I look so hott & sexy! :) So I bought them. I'm going 2 wear my new outfit the day mark comes back 2 RB if he does go. I love Mark so much. SUNDAY(Mar 2)-I'm so in love. I love Mark so much. I want to marry him but i'm not gonna tell him that. I don't want him thinking I'm pushing him 2 do n e thing. I'm never gonna cheat on him. This gay gurl won't stop calling me. Mark told her 2 stop calling & she still won't. We made love 2 or more tymes again 2day. omy mark knows about my blanket & i showed him. he sayz itz kewl but sumthing makes me not want 2 trust him. Gabe never even knew that i suck my thumb let alone know bout my blanket. I feel more comfortable round Mark than Gabe (kinda) n more safe than Gabe. I love Mark! MONDAY(Mar 3)-No skool again. Mark is still @ mah house. no skool b/c 2day is Casimir Pulaski day. Yeh mark is still Here! I love him so much. but he has 2 leave @ 8:30pm ::crys:: I'll miss him oh so mucho. we made love 2day 4 an hour & a half. & that was the best i ever had in my whole lyfe. i haven't been so happy. mark makes me feel lyke a real princess & I love it. He does everything 4 me. He protects me from n e 1 & he getz jealous itz so cute. I gave him a hickey while we were making love. we did it w/ no condom n it felt soo good. i'm so in love. he doesn't cum fast @ all which is good. i have my act class the 5th n 6th. mark just left. i almost started crying. i'm so sad. i'm going 2 be lonely 2nite. i'm gonna miss waking up & cing him there. i'm going 2 bed. I love you Mark!!! & I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!! TUESDAY(Mar 4)- Mark came 2 skool lyke he said he would. We made out. I love him so much. he almost got in2 sum fightz w/ ppl. wen he saw steve he got mad & almost beat his azz. i got so scared wen i saw mark during 2nd period. i was late to 2nd period bc me & mark were kissing then he left. he came back afterskool. I was so nervous but happy. I might have a job babysitting. I have 2 call the woman 2day. Her name is Heather. I just called her. She has a 1 year old son and a 7 year old daughter. Her daughter comes every other weekend. I'm going 2 met her on Thursday. I saw Doug 2day. He told me that his going 2 dump his gf soon bc she lied 2 him twice. I have 2 call Gabe's house again. I'm gonna ask Sherri if she could take me 2 Gabe's house & I'll give her money 4 gas & the tollz. the woman I called 4 the job is 26 years old. I have a test on thursday in history. i'll write the 5 n 6 n 7 tomorrow. bi bi luv ya 4 eva if u read this whole thang.

L0v3 m3 4 3v@,
Pr1nc3zz P3bbl3

bye

Now i'm going 2 keep writing from feb 18 to the 27. WEDNESDAY(feb 19)-hey u know wat i just realized: if i was still dating luis me & him would of been 2gether for 3 years 2day. wow thatz long. but if we were still 2gether i would be so depress i beat. i wouldn't be so happy lyke i am now with mark! i'm failing 2 classes @ skool. english & journalism. Journalism is so very hard. we have 2 interview 3 ppl in lyke 2 dayz. I'm failing english b/c i never turned in sum stuff. i called mark wen i got home & he's so sexy. i love him so much. i have prep class 2nite & so muchh h/w. it took me freaking 2 1/2 hours 2 finish my geometry. wen i get home from skool 2morrow i'm going 2 call mark i miss him so much. Prep class ws fun but boring. jaun is so kewl. THURSDAY-Mark is coming 2day 2 my house & im so happy! but scared. his going 2 sleepover 2morrow n i'm happy. i can't wait. i love mark. i haven't seen him since he asked me out. Mark asked me out on the phone remember!! mark keepz telling me that he lovez me but i love him more. Jackie gave me her free lunch 2day. I'm not going 2 eat 2morrow. I'm so nervous 2 c him 2morrow. SATURDAY-Mark is going 2 sleepover again 2nite. his huge. his dick is so freaking big. i'm so in love with mark!! I'm never gonna have sex with mark. he told me that he wants me so bad. HAHA!! I'm gonna make him wait. I'm too scared 2 do n e thing eith him b/c his so big. HUGE!! I gave him a hickey, itz big & itz black n purple. he gave me 2 hickey'z.he doesn't know how 2 but im going 2 teach him how 2 give hickey's. SUNDAY-Mark is going home @ 1:30pm. he'z mom just called. she'z nice & pretty. well 2 me shez nice but i don't know how she is 2 him. i miss mark already. he left 20 mintues ago. :( i love him sooooooo much. I LOVE YOU MARK AND I MISS YOU LYKE CRAZY!! I just called him. but he wasn't home. We had fun thys weekend. I'm talking 2 him rite now. his voice is so sexy. I'm bored since he isn't here n e more. i miss MARK so much. his my whole lyfe now. NO 1 is gonna take me away from him. his all mine & im all his. his face is burned in my head. I only want him. I love mark. MONDAY-Me & Mark have been going out for 6 dayz 2day. His moving back here thursday. I'm so happy. he thinks i'm either cheating on him or planning on it. i'm not & never gonna. I love(<333) him too much. I love mark & only him. I hope he loves me lyke he says he does. Lyke i said yesterday no 1 & i mean NO 1 is gonna take me away from him & no 1 Better not even try 2 take him away from me. i'm not going 2 skool 2morrow. i'm so tired. TUESDAY-I didn't go 2 skool 2day. I have been absent 28dayz out of 63 dayz of skool. wen i went online i wrote mark a real long email. i miss mark. I'm so mad @ mark. i wrote gabe a poem(a hate poem) & sent it 2 him. i got him back. i'm talking 2 mark rite now. i'm still mad @ him. Mark was begging me 2 4give him. I love mark but i'm going 2 be mad @ him 4 a while. maybe a few dayz. I hope we never brake up. i will be heartbroken!! i just realized that MARK is a HEARTBRAKER!!!! WEDNESDAY-i didn't eat lunch 2day. i heard sum shyt bout mark thatz i didn't eat lunch. therez a rumor going round that i brke up wit mark. OMGOODNESS!! that really pissed me off plus wat amrk told me, i felt lyking crying. Oh wait no wat Steve told me I really felt lyke crying. i miss mark. I just called him n told him wut i heard n wat happened @ skool. he got soo mad. he was yelling @ me cuz he thinkz i beleive steve over him @ first but then i didn't. so now i feel better. but i still thinm his going 2 cheat on me. I love mark n i will never EVER Cheat on him. I love him so much & too much!! but i don't trust him with his exgurlfriend. lol he jsut saw this n was ewwwww im gonna throw up that gurl is nasty n dirrty. ewww. his words n he also said"BABY I LOVE YOU N I WILL NEVER EVER CHEAT ON U I CAN"T U MEAN THE WORLD @ ME." awwwwww thats so sweet. i love you 2 mark. THURSDAY-i just tried 2 call my baby MArk from Mr. Cohn's room but no one answered. he must of moved already. I wish sum1 would of answered. I really want 2 talk 2 him. I really hope he comes lyke he said he would. OH wait. his not gabe lol!!!! I'm so nervous, scared but really happy. Tonight is the night I'm going to give it up to him. I went 2 Target while he was @ muh house in mah room. I did sum laundry, took a shower & cleaned muh room. Mark WAS suppose 2 meet me afterskool. But he never showed up but he did come 2 my house so im happy. so me & mark r going 2 make love 4 the 1st tyme 2nite. I know itz soon but I can't wait n e more. thatz it 4 2day i'll write wat happened 2morrow or later and finsh the rest of the week.


L0v3 m3 mark0,
Pr1nc3zz l0v3z M@rk0 4 lyf3!

Sorry its long i hope u read all of it. I LOVE MARK N ONLY MARK!!

Date:	2003-03-03 21:12
Subject:	So much has happened n itz all good!!!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited
Music:	MESMERIZE-JA RULE>THIS IS ME & MARKZ SONG!

ok i'm going 2 start with valentine days February 14 n go on the week from then til 2day: FRIDAY-I went 2 skool 2day & @ lunch they had the Matchmakers. I know sum ppl that are on my 2 lists. Mark is coming over 2 nite. I'm so scared. I got him sumthing & I hope he lykes it. I wonder wat he got me. I'm so nervous. 2day a year ago me & my sister had a fight & she slammed my fingers in2 our huge solid wood door. She slammed the door on my left hand(the hand i write with) the fingers she smashed were my index,middle, & ring finger. But my middle finger was the 1 that got hurt the most. SATURDAY-I'm not cing Mark 2day. B/c he couldn't sleepover but were going 2 Gabe's house 2morrow 2get my stuff. He betta give me my stuff. I can't wait I'm so happy. I hope Mark comes wit me wen we do go. I lyke Mark a lot I hope he asks me out soon. I'm sick again. Me & my mom went out 2 breakfest but i couldn't eat i'm too sick. SUNDAY-I was online & mark called so his coming over in a few mintues. Mark is over my house right now. We ain't going 2 Gabe's house b/c my mom wants my dad 2 come with us wen we go 2 his house. Mark is sleeping over my house. I'm so scared. I want him 2 sleepover but @ the same tyme I don't. i'm toooooo scared. i can't breath through my nose. MONDAY-OMG!!! Mark called me & told me that he told his /gf that he cheated on her. he also said that she hung up on him. I told him that he needs 2 call her back. He told me that he wantz 2 brake up wit her 4 me. I asked if he was sure & he said yes but doesn't know wat 2 say. I told him to call me back wen he has done it. I told him that he needz 2 figure out wat his gonna say 2 her. & 2 call me @ 8:30pm but he called me @ 8:10pm n told me that he told her that they should be friendz. She was crying n she hung up on him. So he called me. He goes,"Look wat u made me do." that hurt so i hung up on him & came online. wat a fucking jerk!! He kept calling saying he needs 2 talk 2 sum1 so finally i called him back. I was so mad & hurt. & he goes u didn't let me explain wat I meant. I didn't even listen i hung up again. He called back & said,"please wendi listen, i meant 2 say is, look wat i did 4 u." Yea right fuck u mark. So now me & mark r both single. i'm happy he broke up with her but I feel bad b/c she was crying. but oh well! I told him that he needs 2 call her back & he should go back out with her again. I think he really is going to ask her out again. i know his going 2 ask me out soon. I don't have 2 go 2 skool 2day. I'm not going 2 skool either 2morrow. i'm still sick, i don't feel good, i'm tired, & just don't feel lyke going 2 skool. TUESDAY-I didn't go 2 skool. OMGOODNESS!! Mark asked me out! I'm so happy! :) I can't believe it. Me & Gabe have been broken up for 2weeks 2day. I haven't had sex with anyone for 2 months and sumthing dayz. Gabe was the last person I had sex with. Wen me & gabe were 2gether i never had sex with n e 1 else but him. It doesn't even feel that long. Me & Mark I think will never have sex. I'm toooooooo scared. Plus I don't want 2 have sex anymore I want 2 make love instead lyke me n Luis use 2. :) :) Mark told me that he loves me & that he is crazy over me. AWWW!! That is so sweet & cute. I love him so much. I'm im love with Mark!!! I'm going to 2 call him him 2morrow wen I get home from skool. Gabe sucked @ sex. I had 2 fake everything. I never had a orgasma. LOL> I told Mark!! It was funny. I'll write the rest of the week later. There'z so much 4 u 2 read now.

i'M IN LVOE WITH MARK,
pRINCESS mARKZ GURL FRIEND> LOL

i LOVE HIM 4EVER N EVA

so much has happened sinc ethe last tyme i wrote omg!!! wait til u hear this shyt. but i'll tell u later.

hi ppl who read this. I'm at skool yea isn't that kewl? I'm supposed 2 be writing 4 jounalism. i don't think i spelled that rite but n e wayz>>> i just wrote this one thang but now im writing in my diary. here!!! This class is pretty boring. only 4 months to go be4 this class is over 4 good. i want 2 drop this class but itz 2 late. i talked 2 mark last nite n i think im falling in love with him. i tell him that i love him i do but im getting so seriouly in love with him itz crazy. i really do love him n i hope he really does love me. i feel bad cuz this other guy juan sayz he lovez me i do love him but im not in love with him. i hope he understandz. i don't want 2 lose his friendship but i think after he readz this he's gonnna be mad n call me a bitch. i lyke him a lot but im not madly in love with him. the 5 mintue bell just rang. so i have 2 go 2 gym next an hour omg. but i'll le\ive through it. i remember last year wen chloe had gym 4th n i thought i couldn't have gym 4 an hour that i would die but it feels lyke a normal hour class. im hungry but im going 2 not eat. yes im going 2 starve myself. idk. lol. i hate my body im so fat but no one bel;ieves me. im gonna write later. L8r. bi bi

L0v3 m3 0k,
Princ3s

ok let me finish let me tell you wat happened today. I woke up @ 9 sumtihng. And I felt lyke throwing up. Mark came online from skool. we talked 4 awhile then he had 2 go cuz he teacher says he has 2 yea right. i don't believe him. i hate mark sumtimes. so i was talking 2 him n talking 2 juan @ the same tyme. im kewl lyke taht. lol j/k. i ate sumthing tehn stopped. i have a dentsit app thatz y im not in skool. well i'll write more 2morrow. mark told me taht he loves me yesterday. i couldn't believe it. i loved mark 4 a very long tyme i always wanted 2 tell him but i didn't kow how.

Loveme 4eva,
Princess

Date:	2003-02-11 12:40
Subject:	HAPPY OH SO HAPPY
Security:	Public
Mood:	crushed
Music:	103.5 new kiss FM

Let me tell you wat happened on Sunday!!! Sunday: Otay. I called Sherri and here brother Don answered and told me that she didn't have the cell 2day. She called me back later and I told her everything that happened on Friday and Saturday. She wants to come with me when I go to Gabe's house (was suppose 2 be saturday but now sunday) on Sunday. I asked Mark if he would act lyke his my boyfriend and go with me and show Gabe that I found someone a whole lot better and he said..............(drum roll)........... YES!!!!!! I was so happy. So we were there on my bed looking @ each other. (Oh yeah by the way he fell off my bed.) I felt so weird and so did he (not cuz he fell). He was lyke so nervous. Then I went by him and we layed down. I was so tired that I fell asleep for lyke I think 5 mintues. Then I woke up. He kept moving. He told me that he was so scared and nervous. Scared around me? I can't believe it. And he keep telling me that I'm hott. Then I was telling him that I'm fat that my tummy is fat and he goes no your tummy is so hott sexy lyke you. I was laughing. His tummy is flat lyke I lyke. LOL!! Then I started teasing him. I have this low rider pants and I picked them up so he can see my bikini underwear strip. Then I pulled my pants up higher so he can see the front of my bikini's they say hottie all over and has hearts with fire all over too. Then I put my leg on him and I could feel his dick getting hard it was funny. Then we just looked @ each other. I was surprized when he came. I was falling asleep be4 he came. I got up ate the rest of my fries that were cold. When the doorrbell rang my Mom went to see who it was and she goes "It's Mark" I jumped up and ran to the bathroom to brush my teeth. Then he used the phone to call his Mom. He is soooooo cute!! HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!! LOL!!!!!!! Then arond 8 somthing his Mom came and got him. He kissed me before he left. I hate when he leaves because he looks all sad. Then I took a shower and went to bed. Monday(yesterday): First period(geometry): I told Sheena, Jackie H., and Elyse about everything what happened between Gabriel and me and Mark and me. Elyse was lyke Mark? And Sheena's lyke Mark is so sweet. His a pothead but his sweet. I said his not a pothead lyke he use to be. Sheena said that Mark is one of those guys that are so sweet that not many are and his shy and sweet. Elyse and Sheena said there tried of those type of guys that act all hard ass when there not. I was laughing. Eylse gets wanna be hard ass's and Sheena gets asshole's. I get sweet nice guys that all of them fall in love with me. Gabriel isn't one of those nice falling in love with me kind of guys. Then we stopped talking about Mark and me and Sheena started doing our homework that our stupid ass teacher gave us. I hate him and he hates me. LOL. Second period(child care): Me and Diana were talking about this gurl name Sam. She wears the same pants with the stars on the butt everyday. Tina came in and we were talking bout clothes and how she never went out with a hot gy but I have. lol!! Here comes Sam me and Diana look at Sam and look at each other then start laughing. Tina is lyke wat did I miss and Diana said that we were talking bout how Sam wears the same star pants everyday and Tina is lyke yea and the same shirt every 4 dayz. It was funny. Thne we had to take notes. It was Child care. Were having preskool 4th quater so we have 2 be ready. Third period(journalism): Talked about Mark and my lovely weekend. Lovely my ass. We went into the puter Lab and I had to write my interview about tis club called: Ski/snowbroading. It was hard and this fat girl name Jackie kept trying to write it for me. It was pissing me off. Not Jackie C. or Jackie H. a different Jackie. She's in my Journalism class and this other gurl name Sami thats so kewl. She is different from Jackie she's kewl. Fourth Period(gym): We ran for 5 mintues and I felt lyke my rib was going to bust. It hurt so much. I had to walk. We just done swimming for gym and now were playing Basketball. I talked about Mark to Amy she just looked at me lyke oh my goodness. You kissed him eww. But she didn't act different around me the same. She still sat next to me @ lunch lyke she always does. Jackie C. found my cal. and gave it back to me. Fifth Period(english): I hate English and my teacher knows. I'm the teacher's pet and I hate it. I'm her Favortie student and I hate it. There's only 6 ppl in that class and me and Amy are the only girls and she told me one time that I'm pretty. EWWWWWWW gross. We had this thing due today and I didn't even start it. So I told her that I left it when I really didn't. Sixth Period(resource): Me and Kyle Freeman went to the puter. I had to start my project. Joe was there. His a jerk. That's another guy that I use to lyke. But I don't lyke him no more. He lykes me a lot. I told him todaty that I'm sngle. JERK JERK JJEEERRRKKKKK!! LOL I told Joe that his a jerk for ignoring me and he said that his not ignoring me. I got up went to the printer when I walked past him I sqeezed his ass. LOL. He doens't wear n e underwear. Lyke boxers. Seventh Period(history): Notes thats all. That's wat happened at skol. I wrote Sheena a note and her boyfriend is in my history class and i told him that I have a note for her and his lykes give it 2 me and I'm lyke no. And he got mad i think. Then I talked to my friend Kat that goes to late sckool and I found out that this ugly guy name Steve lykes me. I knew he lyked me since Freshmen year. Ewww he's nasty. He's white trash. I told Mark and he goes please don't date him and I'm lyke yea right I'm waiting for you Mark. Then I asked if he made up his mind. His Girlfriend called at that time so we had to get offline. He called me back nad kept saying sorry Wendi over and over. He was sorry because he picked his girlfriend. I felt bad but I can't tell him to pick me over her. He loves her and he likes me. So i told him to stay with his girlfriend. I made him talk about her. Then she called agian at 9 and he says I'll call you tomorrow. After we hung up I felt lyke crying. I pit my face in my blacket that was on my bed for an hour I didn't move for an hour tehn at 10 I got up and came online and talked to Juan. Then at 11 i got offline so my Mom could go online and talk to some guy. I wacthed T.V then i went into my room read my book: Little Women. Then I said my prayer's and went to sleep. I'll wath happened today later. BI bi


L0v3 m3 pl3@s3,
Pr!nc3s@

I lyke Mark But he loves his girlfriend. I don't know to do?????? :'(

.

OMG!! SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED SINCE THE LAST TYME I WROTE IN HERE. ME & GABE ARE OVER FOR SURE. HE CALLED ME YESTERDAY N WAS YELLING AT ME N TELLING ME THAT SUM GUYZ CALLED HIM 3 TIMEZ N WAS THREATING HIM N HE THINKS I GAVE HIS NUMBER OUT. NO BUT AFTER THAT I GAVE IT 2 MARK. FRIDAY HE KEPT CALLING MY HOUSE N TOLD MY MOM THAT HE NEEDED TO TALK TO REAL BAD. N THAT'S IT'Z REALLY IMPORTANT, YEA RIGHT THATZ NOT IMPORTANT. WE'VE BEEN BROKEN UP SINCE TUESDAY N HE GOES I CAN'T TAKE THIS IM ENDING THIS. I WAS NOO NO NO NO NO GABE! N HE KEPT HANGING UP ON ME. WTF! IS MY PROBLEM HOW THE HELL COULD I WANT 2 BE WITH A GUY LYKE THAT. MARK WAS ON THE PHONE THE WHOLE TYME. I FEEL SO BAD 4 PUTTING HIM ON HOLD OVER N OVER AGAIN. MARK IS LYKE MY BEST FRIEND HE KNOWS EVERYTHING BOUT ME. HE KNOWS ALL MY SERCETS THERE ISN'T N E THING THAT HE DOESN'T KNOW EXCEPT I DON'T TELL HIM WEN I HAVE MY PERIOD THATZ TOO MUCH INFO 4 HIM. WELL LET ME START OFF WITH FRIDAY: OK FRIDAY @ SKOOL LATAMIR TOLD ME THAT MATT WANTZ 2 HOOK UP WITH ME. HIS WORDS NOT MINE. SO I WAS OK COO. I LYKED THIS KID SINCE I WAS A FRESHMEN BESIDES MARK BUT I LYKED N STILL LYKE MARK MORE AND BETTER. BUT AFTER WAT HE DID I DON'T LYKE HIM NO MORE. HIS SO U.G.L.Y!! I JUSR REALIZED HOW UGLY HE REALLY IS EWWWWWWWWW!!!N I KEPT SAYING R U SURE MATT WANTZ 2 GO OUT WITH ME N LATAMIER WAS LYKE YEA!! SO LATAMIR CAME OVER BY MY HOUSE N PICKED ME UP @ 4:30. SO I TOOK A SHOWER REAL FAST. THEN WENT OUTSIDE N MAH HAIR FROZE. THEN WE WENT N PICKED MATT UP. WENT 2 LATIMIR'Z HOUSE. MATT WAS TIRED SO HE WENT UPSTAIRZ YEA RIGHT HE LEFT. SO I SAID FUCK HIM. MATT TOLD HIM THAT HE DIDN'T WANT 2 DATE ME HE CHANGED HIS MIND. FUCK YOU MATT GO SUCK ON SUMTHING OH YEA U KNOW WATZ GROSS HIS EX-G/F IS 12. EWW N HIS 18. TALK BOUT RAPE!! LATER AROUND 10 I CALLED MAH MOM N THATZ WEN I FOUND OUT THAT GABE WAS CALLING ME. SO I WENT HOME N I TIRED 2 CALL HIM BUT NO ONE WOULD ANSWER. SO I LEFT LATAMIRZ HOUSE EARLY 4 NUTTING. NOW SATURDAY: I CRIED SO MUCH 2 MARK. I KEEP PUTTING HIM ON HOLD B/C I WANTED 2 TRY N NOT LOSE GABE. I'M SO DUMB. MARK TOLD ME THAT I SHOULDN'T CALL GABE NO MORE BUT I WOULDN'T LISTEN. I'M SORRY MARK!! I CRIED 2 MARK THEN MY MOM CAME IN WEN I WAS CRYING N I HUNG UP ON MARK CUZ I DIDN'T WANT HIM 2 HEAR N E THING HE HEARD SUM STUFF. HE CAME 2 MY HOUSE AROUND 4 SUMTHING. WEN I GOT HERE HE WAS ALREADY @ MY HOUSE BUT IM GLAD I CAME WEN I DID OR HE WOULD OF LEFT. I GOT ME A BOOKBAG PURSE N A BELT; THERE BOTH THE SAME BRAND: L.E.I!! N GOT SUM PANTZ 4 GYM ON MONDAY. I COULDN'T FIND N E SHORTZ. I WAS GETTING REALLY SICK AT THE FOOD STORE. I TOLD MY MOM 2 HURRY UP. I THINK THAT HOT DOG I ATE FRIDAY MADE ME SICK. MARK GAVE ME SUM PILLS N I FELT BETTER. MARK ASKED 2 KISS ME N I SAID YES. HIS SO SWEET. HE CHANGED A LOT N HIS CUTIER I MEAN HOTTTTTTTTT THAN HE WAS THE LAST TIME I SAW HIM. I MISS HIM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. HE KEPT TELLING ME THAT IM BEAUTIFUL N WE KEEP KISSING. I WAS LAYING ON HIM N THEN HE FINALLY PUT HIS ARM AROUND ME. HE WAS TRYING 2 RUB MY FOOT BUT I WOULDN'T LET HIM BUT FINALLY I DID BUT ONLY ONE FOOT N THEN I HAD 2 GET SUMTHING. I STARTED RUBBING HIS BACK N I ASKED HIM IF HE KNEW HOW 2 RUB A GURLZ BACK HE SAID YES N ASKED IF I WANTED HIM 2 RUB MY BACK N I TOLD HIM NO THAT GABE SAID HE DIDN'T KNOW HOW 2. GABE IS SUCH A LOSER. I LYKE MARK SO MUCH BETTER. I WISH HE WOULD BREAK UP WIT HIS G/F 2 GO OUT WIT ME. WE LYKED EACH OTHER SINCE OUR FRESHMEN YR. HE DOESN'T BELIEVE ME THAT I WANT 2 DATE HIM. I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT THAT HE WAS HERE @ MUH HOUSE N WE WERE KISSING N HOLDING HANDZ N KINDA CUDDLING. I COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT MARK OF ALL PPL WERE THERE. HE USE 2 BE SHY BUT NOT N E MORE. N IM GLAD HIS NOT SHY!!! HE DIDN'T TRY 2 PUSH HIMSELF ON 2 ME N I LOVE THAT. N IF HE DID HE WOULD BE KINDA MESSY SINCE I HAVE MY PERIOD. LOL YEA GROSS RIGHT. OH YEA MARK KEPT TELLING MY THAT IM SKINNY N THAT I LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT SINCE THE LAST TYME HE SAW ME. I WISH THAT I COULD DATE MARK. HE IS EVERYTHING I WANT IN A GUY. HIS MEXICAN N ITALIAN. WOW BOTH RACE THAT R HOT N I LOVE!!!!!!!! I TOLD HIM THAT ITZ HIS CHOOSE IF HE WANTZ 2 B WIT MAH OR HIS G/F N I WOULD UNDERSTNAD N E DECISION HE CHOOSE'S!! AFTER WE DROPPED MARK OFF @ FRANK'S HOUSE ME N MY MOM WERE ALMOST HOME WEN A FREAKING FEMALE DEER ALMOST HIT US. I SCREAMED I WAS SO SCARED. N THEN THIS GUY TONY KEEP CALLING ME WEN MARK WAS HERE N I DIDN'T KNOW WHO IT WAS I THOUGHT IT WAS THIS OTHER GUY NAMED TONY THAT CALLED ME A HOE CUZ I WAS GOING OUT WITH GABE N E WAYZ>>>> WEN I CALLED N HE ASKED ME IF JENNI SAID HE'Z DICK WAS TINY I KNEW WHO IT WAS. IT WAS TONY FROM FRIDAY I GO 2 SKOOL WIT HIM. HIS HOT STUFF. HIS SOOOOOOOOO CUTE. BUT MARK IS BETTER WAY BETTER!!!!!!! HE HAS HUGE MUSCLE'Z N A 6-PAX. IM GONNA GO 2 MCDONALD'S N GET SUM FRIES. I THINK IM HUNGRY. I WANT 2 DATE MARK SOOOOOO BAD!! MORE THAN N E ONE!!!!!!!! I WISH HE WOULD BREAK UP WIT HIS G/F N MOVE BAX HERE SOON!!!!!! I HOPE I GET MY WISH! PLZ GOD I NEED MARK. HE IS THE SWEETEST GUY IN THIS WORLD. OK I'LL WRITE LATER WAT I DID 2DAY! BI BI

LOV3 M3 PL3AS3,
PRINC3SS


I NEED A GUY 2 LOVE ME 4 ME!!!!!! PLEASE

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Date:	2003-02-05 21:14
Subject:	hi
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	zair

Yea so me n gabe broke up yesterday. it hurt but not 4 long. no im not a cold person itz just i knew it wouldn't last. so yea im single. hez dad said he can never c me again so itz over. i know i haven't written in a few dayz but i just didn't feel lyke it. im glad i broke up with a him cuz i wnat a serious relationship with a guy. i want 2 fall in love 4 real no that i love u fake shyt. i want it 2 be 4 real this tyme. this guy im tlaking 2 online is so sweet i lyke him but i don't think he lykez me cuz he keepz asking 4 my pix a new one i don't have a new one n i want 2 talk 2 him on the phone but i'm waiting 4 him 2 ask me. i gave him a hint 2 ask me but he didn't get it. guyz never get ur hints wen u give them one. u can be lyke ask me my name n they won't or if u tell them u lyke them n want 2 date them they go n tell there friendz i don't know if she lykez me or ik she lykez me but she won't date me well if a fucken gurl tellz u she lykez u that means she wantz 2 date ur azz durrrrrr how much clearer can we make it 4 u fucken stupid azz guyz. u guyz thatz y ur love lyfe suckz ur dumb with gurlz. i think thatz one reason y half these gurlz r lez cuz they tell a guy that they lyke them n that they want 2 date them but then they guyz sit there n act lyke that didn't hear us. oh yea n y do guyz alwayz want sex from us. come on. wen we do want it they don't. what the hell is that? lyke with gabe i never realy cared if we had sex but then wen i started wanted it his all lyke ur diff u alwayz want sdex. what the hell am i just suppose 2 wait 4 his azz 2 want it. ummmmmmm no thatz not how it workz buddy!!!!!! i miss gabe a lot. lyke i wish we never broke up but his dad hatez me n his a daddy boi. he does watever his dad tellz him 2 do. i lyke momma boi kinda better. his mom n older sister r kewl. but his dad is lyke not. itz funny wen he callz his dad a hippie. i alwayz laugh. gabe is lyke so cute. his actually cute not lyke most of these guyz i date. there cute wen im not with them but as soon as we start dating they get ugly. but gabe is diff. i actually lyked him but he didn't feel the same way. he sayz he lovez me but ik he doesn't. he doesn't know how 2 love. i want a guy that wantz 2 fall in love lyke mark he wantz 2 fall in love lyke his in love with his g/f now. n his the sweetest guy i net besidez gabe but gabe isn't sweet no more. hes a jerk now. i miss the online cardz he use 2 swend me wen he missed me or was sorry 4 being mean 2 me but that all changed i don't even know wen that changed but it did. i guess he stopped lykeing me lyke he use 2 but well u can't make sumone lyke u or love u forever. welll, got 2 be going now. i'm gonna call mark.

u know watz fucked up. i talk 2 mark more than i tlak 2 gabe. don't u think thatz fucked up? io sure do. ok peacy ppl. bi bi

Love me,
Princess

i love you gabe!! J/k i will never love u again until u show me that u
love me. ok nigga!!!!!!


:)

ok im back. i've been with gabe 4 6 months from today. i went 2 that place 2 get a video game. i got a rugrat game they didn't have n e sponge bob gamez. so i had 2 get that one. im lyke so hungry now. mah mom is making steakz. i ahven't ate since 12pm. n itz only 6:15pm thatz not long @ all. well i didn't really eat n e thnag. i ate the rest of mah goldfishes but there wasn't that much left n thaz it. im kinda bored. seigo isn't coming b/c he said that he would be @ mah house @ 5 n itz 6:16. i took a shower @ 4:30 cuz i knew he wasn't gonna show. but id care. im going 2 skool 2morrow. i don't want 2 but i have 2. i don't want 2 fail again. mah hair is so cute. i love it. but i don't n e one will notice 2morrow. i showed sum ppl already n no one said a fucking thang lyke oh thatz cute or u look cute or that lookz so cute. nothing. well bi bi!!!!!


Love me,
Princess



everyone wantz me j/k

Hey everyone waz up? WEll down 2 business. i haven't written in a while i think? I'm so pissed @ gabe n his dad. His such a jerk. i hate him sumtimes. i called him friday n we got in2 a fight. i don't understand him. i don't feel lyke talking bout it. itz a long story. but n e wayz>>>> i got mah hair cut n it lookz so cute. it shapez my face so i look so much prettier than i did be4. well i tried 2 call the jerk n his dadz lyke ihez not allowed 2 talk i said ok n he hung up. omg have u ever heard of bye. i was lyke fuck it then. so i called mark, serego,n sherri n told them. mark wasn't home n serg wasn't answreing his phone. so i left a message n told him. serigo isn't a new guy i met him 2 weekz be4 me n gabe starting going out. but i met gabriel be4 i mety him. well actually jenni met serigo but wen i saw his pix i thought he was hott so i guess u can say i took him from her. well thatz wat she getz she tried taking luis from me but that didn't work cuz i dumped hiz azz. the day be4 gabe asked me out i went out with serigo he was nice we made out 4 lyek an hour omg he can kiss soooooo good. i couldn't beleive. but wat turned me off was hez dick was getting hard so i told him i had 2 go. well i actually had 2 it was lyke 3 in the morning. we went n played pool. he beat me i think but im don't remember he does i guess. after that day i wanted him 2 come up 2 mah house so i could tel him i have a bf but he alwayz made up sum lie that he had sumthang 2 do or he'll call me back which he never did. well i told luis wat he was doing n luis thought he married so did i. so i stopped talking 2 him. there would be tymez wen i was online n he would be lyke hey babe can i call u i need 2 tlak 2 u. n i would be lyke wat now. sure u'll call but i gave him the # n e wayz but he wouldn't call so i was fuck u but he didn't here cuz he never called. but now we kinda hang out. sumtimez wen i have nutting 2 do n im bored off mah azz i'll call him n we'll try 2 do sumthang. but wat i hate bout him hiz alwayz tring 2 buy mah shyt. lyke he tried buying me that xrina's new cd n i told him no so he bought mah dinner instead i hate wen guyz buy me shyt thatz not a gift. i don't even allow mah bf 2 buy me stuff would he actually think i would allow him 2. i saw Final Destination 2 on friday with my friend sherri her now husband n his 2 brotherz n 1 of his friendz. so yea i was wit 3 guyz. but only 1 was single. eric lil bro but his 13 but his so cute. but his other bro is really cute but i think hiz 19 n has a gf. but n e wayz>>> i lyke other guyz betta than my age but i'll date n e 1 thatz my age n older. serigo is gonna pix mah up @ 5pm i think but ik he won't. next weekend im gonna hang out with stephaine. im talking 2 2 othr ppl right now. brb. i got 2 go 2 a game store wit mah mom so she can get mah spongebob 64 game or maybe 4 mah gameboy advance.