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Sunday, February 1st, 2004

Subject: "Why can't I be YOU!?" Time: 6:52 pm. Mood: disappointed. Music: The Cure-Why Can't I Be You.

yo yo yo...umm this has to be the LONGEST time i haven't written. I got a whole bunch of shit about a week ago. A JUICY set, louie vuitton, stuff from Armani, my Diesel shoes, etc. i'm sad to say that eric colman broke up..now i won't have to hear my brother singing they're songs around the house nd he won't have to go to anymore record release parties..lol...well it is pretty sad tho...eric came for dinner today so he isn't completly gone...too bad...lol..jk...stuff has been goin ok, except today sucked...i was supposed to go to the mall, but i cudn't..i got pretty bummed I RELLE needed some new clothes..lol...well this is very strange all of the sudden A LOT of guys like me nd it's kinda gross, only because they lykk me for the wrong reasons. And the guys i like don't like me cuz i like all the shallow guys, but fuck it as soon as i find out they're shallow, i just say fuck you i can do better then a shallow ass mother fucker..hah cathia..well i'm gonna go..lata

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Subject: "I need a miracle.." Time: 8:08 pm. Mood: tired. Music: Fragma-Toca's Miracle.

wow! ok umm last night me cathia jen and meaghan all went out to (CR)applebee's and after we came back to my house, watched a movie and danced!..lol..then today i went to jess' party..AWESOME TIME!..."gay, fag..gay, fag"-cathy(good job skating or should i say falling on your ass!)..lol...my brother won't stop calling me a stella! and today as soon as i woke up he's like go do something productive and i go i just woke up and i have to go out soon why don't you!..so yeah, hes an ass, but most times hes awesome...so now i'm listening to techno..FUN FUN FUN!...later

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Subject: "AUNT JAMIMA!" Time: 9:35 pm. Mood: tired. Music: Chingy, Snoop Dogg, and Ludacris-Holidae Inn.

wow! where do i start?! Last night was CRAZY! Eating pickles w/ Cafia and Meg. Getting drunk w/ Cafia and Meaghan not being able to keep a sip of wine down her esophogus! Going downstairs at 2:30 in the morning eating cinnimon toast crunchies in a cup(meg, cafia, you guys are "odd") Hearing Cathia repeat herself and the word "odd" ten million times. AUNT JAMIMA! Nipple! Cafia shaving her legs at 4:30 in the morning. Fire alarm going off in the morning at Cathia's house. Getting ready for the mall. Going to the mall. Waiting on line for almost an hour to get our Mac eyeshadow. Fire alarm going off in the mall. Natalie getting me a Johnny Cash Calender. Kick ass times i'll always remember!!!

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Subject: "Time goes by so slowly.." Time: 5:37 pm. Mood: bitchy. Music: OURS-Unchained Melody.

I just finished getting ready for the party i'm going to tonight. So i get dressed and my mom comes home and shes like your not wearing that, it's not summer time. I'm just like WELL THEN WHAT DO I WEAR! I HATE DRESSES! I HATE DRESSING UP! I HATE MAKE-UP! I HATE THIS!..she goes CALM DOWN! anything else you'd like to tell me you hate?!?..So i just ended up changing. I wanted to just not go to this Italian Club, but i had no choice, i was going. Tomorrow i'll post what a nightmare i had, or how much fun i had..who knows...Happy Fucking New Year!

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Subject: "We did everything, except pretend that we were something that we weren't.."-Jimmy Gnecco Time: 11:59 pm. Mood: apathetic. Music: OURS-Realize (live).

plans changed for me today. Nat, Cyn and I were supposed to hang out, but Natalie puked this morning and wasn't feeling very well and Cynthia had to baby-sit, which left me home alone to sit..alone. I'm actually kinda happy that this sitting..alone, let me get in some reading, and writing. I wasn't very content with my writing, but I normally loathe all the stuff I write anyway, and I don't show anyone my writing until i feel it's perfect, but then i think about what Jimmy says and according to him, "the real take, is about imperfection." And so i sit there thinking, if the real take is about imperfection then my writing is "THE REAL TAKE"...hah...but a lot of stuff that i don't like to show anyone, is my best. And that's why i don't like to talk about my writing so much, so know one questions me about it. I think i waste more paper than anyone. I'm sitting there writing lyrics and playing music and then i just crumble up the piece of paper and throw it out. So the smart thing for me to do would be either use pencial or type my work...not gonna happen. it's not that i like wasting paper, it's just i've been WRITING my stuff all these years that it's hard for me to just one day say ok so i'm gonna bring my guitar down with me and type something. I love Jimmy and wish that more guys around here were like him. Hes got an amazing voice, writes amazing lyrics, and to top it all off, hes good looking. he's no Johnny Depp, but he is something.

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Subject: "Maybe so, but I still know your wrong.." Time: 11:40 pm. Mood: okay. Music: Judah Kim-Maybe So.

Yesterday I went to the mall. I got my Chanel No. 5 perfume, Tommy Hilfiger underwear, a pair of earrings and another charm for my bracelet, these pants from Delia's and Bobbi Brown lipgloss. Anyway, I left with $105 and I returned with about $25, but it worked out good, because I also made some money that night baby-sitting. While I was baby-sitting, the funniest thing happened! My cousins and I had just finished watching a movie, and decided to watch some Family Guy DVD's I let them borrow, so we're watching this episode where Peter spends $200 on Volcano Insurance. He starts singing a song about how he needs a Jew to help him get his money back. So my cousin says to me, "hey maria, does he need a Jew because they make a lot of money?" I started cracking up so i asked her, "Alexa, how old are you?" and she replied, "nine." We both started laughing so hard i thought i was gonna pee my pants. Anyway, both my cousins start singing the song and i have this whole talk with them how they NEVER say anything like that to anyone. After I explain that, these black guys are standing behind a podeom and i couldn't quite hear what they were saying, because my cousin said this while they were speaking, "Oh my God, are they STILL preaching for freedom!?" I couldn't stop laughing, i mean this stuff is HORRIABLE for anyone to say, but hearing it from a 9 year old is just funny! Well, i just thought that was something, but maybe you had to be there. I just got done watching Clueless with Cathy, GrEaT movie! (NOT) hah..It was pretty good though, because it made me realize what kinda guy i REALLY want, and Josh (Paul Rudd) is that guy (atleast he plays that guy in the movie, except this guy has to like OURS!) Throughout this movie, Radiohead-Fake Plastic Trees was playing endlessly and it was GREAT, because i love that song, but also at the same time it was horriable, because a radiohead song being played in the movie "Clueless"...not what i call...well actually..i don't know what i'd call it, but it's just not right. So i think i'm gonna go watch Family Guy on Adult Swim..later

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Subject: "there's a war in my way!" Time: 8:55 pm. Mood: excited. Music: OURS-Red Colored Stars.

MERRY CHRISTMAS! wow, i don't know where to start! Today was SO awesome! I got a NEW guitar along with other dvd's and cd's and stuff, but i'm most excited about this guitar! I have the most awesome brother in the entire world! He bought me an OURS shirt, that they only sell at concerts, it's fucking awesome!!!! It's long sleeves and it has a hood and it's got the band drawn as stick people on it and on the bottom in small print it says ours..it's awesome, i'm never gonna take it off of me!..ok well i'm gonna have to do that sometime, but for now i'm not taking it off. My Christmas was pretty awesome, except for the fact i had screaming kids running around my house while i was trying to watch a movie, but it's ok, i love my cousins. I'm like ok everyone listen sit down and watch the movie and my little cousin comes and sits next to me and starts hugging me..i swear he's the cutest thing in the world!..so yeah it was pretty good. I got a lot, but i'm still taking all the money i got (well half, the other half goes towards harvard..hah) and i'm going SHOPPING!..YAY!..haha. Hope you had fun today as well..later!

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Subject: "I will always love you" Time: 5:36 pm. Mood: good. Music: The Cure-Lovesong.

I passed out on Amanda's floor last night, in the middle of the movie we were watching, and i woke up the next day just in time for the party! the party was pretty fun, i can't say it sucked, because it really didn't suck, but it wasn't great either..and now i'm really tired from dancing! Whoever was there knows what i mean...anyway i can't WAIT for Christmas!...i saw my mom wrapping this HUGE gift for me, i couldn't really see what it was, but it's pretty fucking big!...i don't even have the slightest idea of what it could be. well i've been spending my days just watching Pirates of the Caribbean (awesome movie!) JOHNNY DEPP and ORLANDO BLOOM in the same movie SWORD FIGHTING!..i LOVE it!..it cannot get any better than that!...well i think i’m gonna go watch it again!

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Subject: "we just do it for fun" Time: 5:21 pm. Mood: tired. Music: Nelly, P. Diddy, and Murphy Lee-Shake Ya Tailfeather.

i get back at 2 in the morning from the city and my mom wakes me up at 10 and she's like don't you have to go to the mall today and i'm like yeah..shes like ok so how was the show last night..and since i'm so tired, i go what show?!..shes just like ok go back to sleep..and i'm like yeah ma i'm way ahead of you...about 20 minutes later i get up and get ready to go out to the mall..well as soon as i'm ready, cyn calls me and shes like we're not going anymore..well i start CRACKING up..and i'm like no your not serious, she tells me shes serious and that shes sick, so thats why we're not going, well after that it was just supposed to be me jen and whoever else was coming, but we decided not to go either, because there was no point. So i wake up early to go to the mall and we end up not even going!..this is how a bad day starts. Right now i'm stuck in my house with nothing to do, and i don't want to help my mom and aunt make strufoli (or however you spell that) anyway, i went to get some coffee, so my friend and I start up a conversation on coffee, and she told me that there's an ingredient in coffee that makes kids tired, but keeps adults awake. I don't know if this is a true statement or not, but all i can say is that coffee doesn't keep me up, and SOMETIMES makes me a bit tired. Anyway, i’m gonna go read a book, since i have nothing else to do and i MUST catch up on my reading.

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Subject: "My hopes are so HIGH that i think they're on drugs..." Time: 3:14 pm. Mood: crazy. Music: Jeff Buckley(RIP)-Hallelujah.

YES! I just got out from school and i'm not going back for another 2 weeks! The Christmas Carol was okay, but the bus ride sucked ass!..it literally took an hour and a half to two hours to get there and i was sick the WHOLE way...coming back wasn't as bad though...i re-wrote the ENTIRE song Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional(now known as Drugs Down by Dashboard Gay) Yes so i'm exicted about this because i'm going to learn the music on guitar and then me and my friend are going to record it with the fucked up lyrics...check these lyrics out that took me TWO minutes to re-write...oh yeah, and DON'T use these lyrics and say YOU re-wrote them..in other words NO PLAGIARIZING MY AMAZING WORK! Dashboard Gay-Drugs Down Breath in the smoke, breath in so deep This air is blessed, you share with me These drugs are wild, not calm and dull These hearts they race, from an overdose Your legs are smooth, as they, graze mine We’re doing fine; we’re doing nothing but drugs My hopes are so HIGH that I think they’re on drugs And they might kill me, then you’ll be happy These drugs are yours to sniff or smoke, to break or bury, Or inject in me Whichever you prefer The drugs ain’t mine, lets not get busted Lay them entwined here, undiscovered Safe in here from all the stupid questions… “Hey did you get some?” “Man that is so dumb.” Stay quite, stay near, stay close, they can’t hear, so we can get some My hopes are so HIGH that I think they’re on drugs And they might kill me, then you’ll be happy These drugs are yours to sniff or smoke, to break or bury, Or inject in me Whichever you prefer Drugs down, this is the best day I can ever remember I’ll always remember the sound of the sniffing The dim soft lights, the smoke in your hair That you twirled in your fingers And the time on the clock when we realized we were so high And these drugs we shared, together, the streets looked foggy and wet The drugs were gone So I passed out, but then woke up And you stood over me with a gun in your hand And you killed me like you meant it And I knew, that you meant it, that you meant it, And I knew, that you meant it, that you meant it. (it kinda has a lesson to it, don't do drugs, you'll get shot..something like that) Check out the original lyrics if you'd like as well, so you can compare them..

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Subject: "She is going to break your heart in two, it's true!" Time: 9:50 pm. Mood: cold. Music: OURS-Femme Fatale.

today was REALLY...bland and just dull like every other day. I just got done watching up to Chapter 15 of Donnie Darko and i plan on finishing it tomorrow night. I have to go to the city tomorrow and see The Christmas Carol with class, and so yeah it's just going to give me more sleep. I got my tips on today. They're awesome, except for the fact that they were 60 bucks!..well i didn't pay! ha! when my brother came to pick me up after getting them on, OURS was playing in the car so of course we both started singing and he's like making me feel all upset and shit saying stuff like, "FRIDAY BABY FRIDAY!" i'm so pissed that i can't go with him to see them, but there will be other shows...anyway, i couldn't stop singing the family guy theme song today!!! If your bored you should DEFINITELY check out the cover OURS did of Femme Fatale, it's one of the most AMAZING things i have ever heard...I live for this band!

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Subject: "your just like an angel.." Time: 7:22 pm. Mood: awake. Music: Radiohead-Creep(acoustic).

i had a two hour delay today, like that did much..well, actually it did, it made the day feel a lot longer...after school, Jen came over and my intentions from this morning were to come home and watch Donnie Darko, since i found it with all my DVD's last night and i never knew i had it! But things turned out differently, VERY differently. Jen came over, and right away she went off.."what's this movie about anyway? is it scary? what's it rated? how long is it? am i gonna freak out like i did with Stigmata or is it good like Cruel Intentions?" anyway i told her that if she did come she HAD to watch this movie! what REALLY happened was we ended up watching MR. DEEDS while i drank coffee trying to stay awake!...Donnie Darko was definitaley OUT of the picture once she saw the COVER of it..well i'm REALLY surprised i didn't fall asleep durning this movie...i really can't complain though, i mean Adam Sandler is awesome and all, but Mr. Deeds isn't his best. Anyway, yesterday i made a pretty cool playlist, but didn't get all the BEST songs on it..check it out... a-ha-take on me, the cure-why can't i be you soft cell-tainted love depeche mode-master and servant morrissey- we hate it when our friends become successful bright eyes-the city has sex outkast- hey ya ours-in a minute radiohead- high and dry counting crows-colorblind placebo-every you and every me nirvana- smells like teen spirit him- salt in our wounds coldplay- god put a smile upon your face the ramones- the kkk took my baby away jeff buckley (RIP)-hallelujah cindy louper-girls just wanna have fun the darkness- I believe in a thing called love elliot smith- say yes yes i know, it's just a BIT catchy, but these are awesome songs and you know it!

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Subject: "i'm in love with the world.." Time: 10:31 pm. Mood: blah. Music: Elliot Smith-Say Yes.

i woke up at 8:00 this morning which was weird considering the fact that i went to bed a little after 12 last night. it was probably because i DID get some extra sleep during the day yesterday. Cyn was over and we were watching HOLY SPECIAL EDITION BATMAN, so i started to fall asleep after like an hour or so (which is weird considering the fact of how much i LOVE batman) anyway, she started poking me in the face with her finger to wake me up and i was like yelling at her..hah..well she just decided to leave me alone after that...and the movie ended after about ANOTHER hour or so..so i did get about an extra hours sleep (which is really nothing, when you think about it) when i woke up, i looked out the window and saw that it was snowing, well i was just a LITTLE too tired to jump up and down and start cheering because some snow was falling from the sky, but i did get ready to go to church and finish my community service hours for my Confirmation NEXT year(HOW FUN?!)..when i went downstairs, i found that my mother was up which was also pretty weird since she had gotten home at 3:30 this morning. After i got back i played outside in the snow!..YAY!...i had a snowball fight with a few of my cousins..so i get back inside and i'm freezing but i still have homework to do, don't forget that! after a few hours, the ELECTRICITY goes out..and i'm sitting in the dark TRYING to read. I thought I had it bad, my brother had to study for TWO mid-terms the next day that he was supposed to take on SATURDAY, but couldn't because he had to go to see OURS play in the city so the professor was nice enough to let him take the mid-term tomorrow and yet the light goes out so he can't study..today was a CRAZY day..and my eyes were hurting from the dark and trying to read in dim light...

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Subject: “the media helps destroy dreams..” Time: 9:00 pm. Mood: bored. Music: OURS- The Mean Between Extremes.

my parents went to atlantic city today to see some Italian show, so that leaves me here with my two brothers, my brother’s friends (dan and amy) and my chinese food…my plans for tonight were to watch a DVD. That didn’t happen because my brother and his friends COMPLETELY took over the TV! I was thinking about stealing a book from ralphy..haha…I haven’t called my brother that since I was about two…anyway, rumors have it that this book is amazing! It’s called “One Flew over the Cuckoo’s Nest” by Ken Kesey in case you wanna check it out. I also have the DVD, which I do NOT intend on watching ANYTIME soon. Atleast NOT until I finish this book. A few months ago I learned that MAFIA was an acronym. It stands for Mothers And Fathers In Association. I don’t know if this is true or not, but when I find out Mark Fiore AKA “Marcus” (hah), I’ll definitely let you know!

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Subject: "talking away...well i don't know what i'm to say.." Time: 5:25 pm. Mood: happy. Music: A-HA-Take On Me.

i never thought i'd EVER get sick of briscola, but i suddenly did. playing it ALL day today got me really annoyed with it! but i am sure that by tomorrow i'll want to play it again. anyway, i got an AWESOME OURS fansite! check it out, because that's what i'm gonna do RIGHT now! http://www.killtheband.com "It is honesty at its most brutal and beautiful...it is...OURS!" "Their collective performance is so raw, so stripped to the bone, that, at times, it can be emotionally difficult to listen to, yet impossible to ignore." “Looking back, that taught me that the really perfect take is about imperfection." "If Gnecco could pull more out of himself singing into a hand-held stage mic than a big-bucks studio model, screw it he held the mic." "It goes back to when we were trudging around New York trying to find gigs. We did everything we possibly could to get work, except for pretending we were something we weren’t. That’s why this band is called OURS, because we weren’t going to do what somebody else wanted us to do. So this song is saying to those club owners: We’re not going to become the next trendy thing just to play for you." "I’ve always been a huge fan of Morrissey and The Cure, and while they seemed really miserable, there was also something uplifting about what they did.”(sounds like me Jimmy!)

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Subject: YAY! Time: 8:08 pm. Mood: lonely. Music: the darkness- i believe in a thing called love.

Umm...I’m very excited that I got a new user name on blurty cuz my old one sucked ass!..umm..hopefully I’ll be writing in this one more then I wrote in my old one…you know I’ve been sitting here for a long time now, thinking and I’ve come to the conclusion that my life is very bland. And it just REALLY appalls me! I spend almost all the extra time I have writing stuff (whether it be lyrics, music, poems, stories, or even PAPERS!), I play my guitar (now I’ve been using my brother’s acoustic more often since my music influences have changed), I play video games and basketball and sleep WHENEVER I find the time to...I need someone to take me out and just to have fun with.. “Cough a boyfriend cough” (Meaghan)..lol..I do believe in a thing called love and I’m waiting for it, but someone PLEASE hurry up and HELP me find it!

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