| Something wrong.. |
[20 Jan 2004|12:28pm] |
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aye mere humsufar -- QSQT |
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My mind is jammed I guess... I am not able to do anything properly since last some days. Wasnt able to play good cricket when I was supposed to, wasnt able to concentrate on my assignments. I am wasting money, I am feeling lonely, I am feeling sick. In between there were some moments when I found myself acting as if I am happy and satisfied, but somewhere inside I was annoyed and agitated. Something is really missing in my life. Its been ages since I went to the Bithoor Ghaat on my cycle, or used my camera, did something artistic. Nothing at all. All the time I keep thinking what the heck!! whats wrong with you... what are you doing?
All of a sudden I seem to have lost my creativity, sharpness of my mind, ability to concentrate and of all the smile that I always had on my face. For people the smile is still there, but its there just for the heck of it. It makes everything all the more difficult for me, this act of looking ever-so-happy Pranshu. Sometimes back whenever I used to feel this way I had someone really close to help me out.Someone who always made me feel happy, gave me confidence, made me feel loved.
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