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Thursday, September 1, 2005
12:04AM - too much flying in my head
Well, I've been thinking a lot about myself, my husband, and my beautiful son. And well I know now that I will lose my ed. eating disorder I know I can chose to stop throwing up, Which I HAVE but that it will always be a part of me. like for instance, I don't hardly eat now and am constantly hungry but I cant do anything about it because I'm too poor to have lots of food around all the time and I know in the back of my mind when I deploy that I will lose the weight that I want to. cause well it will be cold at first but tons of walking than as the seasons change it will get very hot over there. so I will be sweating like almost constantly.
As for my husband I know he will get a REAL job but the question is when. I think him realizing that I will always be there for him he is sorta taking advantage of that.
As for Chris; my son I know he will be ok, even with my doubts, I know his daddy loves him so it all should work out
pray with all your heart <3
Patty
Current mood: 
contemplative
Current music: Wonderful - everclear
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
7:04PM - busy busy, as a bee
hey all --
I know its been a long time since I wrote anything, but im just so busy! I'm getting ready to move on post and im getting ready to deploy!! so all in all im very busy! I cant wait to leave cause I know that this life will get so much better! so wish me good luck!
Current mood: 
ditzy
Current music: no one - aly and aj
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
8:43PM - on the rag
Well This Morning I Woke Up W/blood Coming Out Of My Vagina And Out Of My Mouth I Found Out Later That I Had Gotten Low Blood Preesure Thats What Caused The Gumline 2 Reopen And I Started My Period. Lawrence Slept Most Of The Day, I Got A New Phone 2 Replace My Old One & i looked @ a daycare. im very emotional.
Monday, August 8, 2005
9:13AM
hello all
I hope everyone is doing well. I went to Walmart yesterday and bought an entertainment center so now where my TV sits it actually looks more homey though I really bought the center for Chris so that the TV doesn't fall on him, and he wont stick his tiny little fingers into the VHS player. I am busy cleaning house today, I'm also going to get my nails fixed and pay a payment on my couch like thing.
Lawrence and I are doing ok for now. Hopefully it will last. I truly do love him, and I hope that he can learn to take care of things so that I can trust that everything will be all right.
the only things that disappointed me when I went to California was that I didn't have Lawrence there, and I didn't see cyndi, I wish she coulda just stayed the nite at my dads house and it woulda been all ok.
well I hope you all are happy, take care yall.
love always,
PATTY
Current mood: 
crazy
Current music: none; family fued
Sunday, July 31, 2005
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