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[04 Aug 2004|08:35am] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | McFly - Saturday Night ] Wow, haven't updated for a while. Hope ya'll have been well! I've not done much this holiday, saw Tom on Monday, we had fun. >:D *giggles* Sorreh... anyhow... I can't think of anything to say! Cara's coming over later and we're going to get drunknknknknknknk! Then tomorrow we're going to the cinema, don't know what we're seeing yet, but oh well! OVER AND OOT! *Bounces off* BrEaThE nO mOrE

[20 Jul 2004|07:19am] [ mood | bored ] I've nothing left now My dreams destroyed And I’m left alone In separation from the world I can’t fight it anymore I’ve finally broken down And I’ve nobody To tell me it’s all going to be okay Inside I’m just a little girl With nothing left But a broken heart and shattered dreams Crying out for someone, anyone Yet no one hears my hidden cries And I still don’t know What I did wrong How I lost faith in myself And somehow stopped believing in everything And I still can’t find That little bit of hope I’ve been trying to hold on to That just keeps slipping away Leaving me lost, afraid And getting nowhere fast x~x~x~x~x~x~x~x Meh, a song I wrote. I got up at 4am this morning, couldn't sleep, though I was asleep by 9:30pm last night. On another note, I love Busted's new song '3am' it's so pretty. Eeeeeeeee, I love love love it! I told Tom he owes me a hug last night, he said okay, hehe, I bet he forgets, boys do that a lot, stupid things. Two more days of school, yay! I have like, no plans for the 7 week holidays, NONE! I'll just go walking and stuff, Tom said he wants to see me in the holidays so hopefully we'll meet up and stuff. And Jo's like, going next week. >:) I bet he won't see her before she goes, only at school. So... ha! *\o/* He's quite the flirt one though, which gets on my nerves, I mean, I'll be going out with him and know that he stands there and flirts with other girls, it'll piss me right awf, but oh well, I'll tell him if it does, or I'll just flirt with other guys, two can play the same game, hurr. Aww, I wanna meet Nina, she really wants to meet me too, she's like... just like me, we get on really well. She wants to go and see Velvet Revolver, I'm not a fan, but I might get seating tickets and we're going to try and 'accidently' get seats next to eachother and she'll pretend she recognises me from a picture. It's a raaaather good plan. But we'll see! School is gonna be so boring! But at least I have the thought of having two days left. Tomorrow I'll bring lipstick in like we always do and keess people! As it's funny have kisses on our faces. Lalala, dance, science, english, graphics and games today. It should actually go quick... hopefully. I bet Cara's having fun in Cyprus, lucky cow. :P I'm calling you at 3am and I'm standing here right outside your door! Eeeeeeeee! I WANNA SEE MCFLY IN CONCERT! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE DANNY! He's sooooooo gorgeous. :D I'm actually quite happy today since I spent all yesterday evening crying. Stupid Laura, triggering off my jealousy then having it BAM! to everything else. Gotta be at the bus stop in 10 minutes, weeeeeeeee. I wanna get to school so I can get it over with and come back hoooooooome! I hate school so much, grrr. Not that I've been doing any work this week, so it's all good. Two days! Two days! Two days! Two days to go! Then 7 weeks of... not fun as such as it probably won't be... but sleeping, eating, internetting, walking, going out, going to the gym, ahhhh, fun. =F I like, have this Busted song on repeat, I love it. Mmmmmmmmullet! I'm being all random today. I woke up and my voice was gone, I was all OH MY GOD! So I ran around and spat into a glass loads, it was like half full of phlegm and spit and stuff. :| Which was icky, but my voice is back now... sorta... ha. GOOBER! Ciao! BrEaThE nO mOrE

[19 Jul 2004|07:09pm] Argh, fucking hell, I can't take it anymore. I had to hold in my tears all last lesson then finally let them out on the bus and I've been crying since. On Friday my dad really overstepped the line, telling me he'll smash my face in and that I can't sing and shit, I hate it, I can't stand it anymore, I hate my family, I hate near enough everyone, I hate myself. I've totally lost faith in myself, something I thought I'd never do. I can't take anything, I just wanna die. I need to go for a walk but it's too late now... BrEaThE nO mOrE

[19 Jul 2004|03:45pm] [ mood | depressed ] One thing you don't do... Hug your friends crush RIGHT INFRONT OF THEM!... It's just fucking wrong... AGH! FOR FUCK SAKE! Why the fuck does everything always go wrong for me? :'( [4] CaN x BrEaThE nO mOrE

[18 Jul 2004|08:02pm] OH MY GOD! YA KNOW THAT THING ABOUT THAT DREAM?! Well.. I messaged a boy on face-pic 'cause he looked like the guy in my dream, same hair and such... I found out the guy likes Blink 182... his middle name is Tom and he likes biting... the guy in my dream bit me when we were kissing, bit me on purpose, my lip, 'cause it was how he liked it... and the guy lives like 45 minutes away and goes to Chicksands a lot.. his name is Adam, he's so pretty. BrEaThE nO mOrE

[18 Jul 2004|08:19am] Last night I had a dream about a boy I'd never met... we fell in love instantly... he seemed so real... yet I've woken and can't remember his face... His name was Tom Delong, spelt like that, though I think the real Tom Delonge spells it with an 'e', not sure, he wasn't the real Tom Delonge anyway, just a guy with his name... so you know... but anyway... man he was so perfect!... Too bad it was a dream, maybe I'll meet him someday, eh? BrEaThE nO mOrE

[16 Jul 2004|11:55pm] Haha, I walked to Arlesey today 'cause my dad was being a cunt, 'twas fun. =D BrEaThE nO mOrE

[15 Jul 2004|07:58pm] One more day to go until the weekend, w00t! :D BrEaThE nO mOrE

Aww... Jay just said the cutest thing ever! [14 Jul 2004|10:27pm] †'Especially at night, I worry over situations, I know I'll be alright, Perhaps it's just imagination'† i want a sprite says: your like the girl who like noone says anything about but inside they think you are so beautiful BrEaThE nO mOrE

[14 Jul 2004|05:49pm] Thursday and Friday to go, then it's the weekend! BrEaThE nO mOrE

[14 Jul 2004|07:37am] GOOBER! BrEaThE nO mOrE

[13 Jul 2004|05:03pm] [ mood | bouncy ] GOOBER! Tom is so hot! Eeeeee I so like him! *faints* I hope I get to go out with him, oh my god I'll be so so so so so so so so the happiest ever if I diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiid! Just thinking about him makes me all melty inside! Apperantly he's never really gotten over Elyse though, according to Jackson, not sure who to believe, I might have to ask Tom when he gets back from ol' Deutchland. Man he's teh hawtness. I was talking to him for a bit yesterday, though he saw writing on my hand and kept asking what it was and we all know what it said... oh how we know! Yep, you got it. 'I <3 Tom' Hehe, oh well. I just hope I get to go out with him, I have a feeling it'd make me really happy... really... but meh, I don't want one of those never seeing eachother relationships, god I hate those! Meh... I shouldn't really get my hopes up, they always seem to be shattered... overall this week has been good, I've actually enjoyed school! Well, not the lessons as they're always boring, but lunch and break have been coolness. Been hanging around with Karl and that so it's been a laugh. Haha, Mr. Eddleston came back today!... What a beast, hasn't changed a bit. BEN WEST FANCIES ME, WOO! I'm seeing Harry Potter tonight with the fat troll I like to call my mother... infact I hate calling her it, but I do... Having Pizza Hut, woo! And that be all for my news of the week. Ciao! BrEaThE nO mOrE

[11 Jul 2004|04:59pm] JonoTheBoyyo: pink jelly beans! plz unblock me on msn PinKxJeLLyBeAnS: ...Who the hell are you? BrEaThE nO mOrE

[10 Jul 2004|08:58pm] Oh god I'm bored. No life. No inspiration. No love. I feel strange... like I need to walk out in the rain. ...Hey that could make a good song... if only I wasn't in the middle of trying to write one... :: Note to self :: - Write song about walking in the rain. I wish for hiiiiiim. <3 Dude, I hate being single, I miss the days I was with Bruce... well, only the romantic stuff we did... I just generally miss having someone to hold me >=/ Bogeylicious. Out. x [3] CaN x BrEaThE nO mOrE

[09 Jul 2004|10:18pm] IlllllIllllllIII: I'VE GOT A MULLET, YES I DO! THEY'RE GIVING THEM TO ANYONE AND THAT MEANS YOU! BrEaThE nO mOrE

[08 Jul 2004|07:45am] Well.. the night before last I had the funniest dream... me and Sarah were in isolation and Adza came in and asked me for a pink boardmarker, so I gave him one, sat down... and fell off the back off my chair and my legs were flailing around in the air, how fun... But last night I had the worst dream!... It scared me... I can't even remember most of it, we were watching a film and it was meant to be Gothika but like, this person kept finding people dead and a weird doll of the death was found by them and I was sitting there in my seat randomly screaming... then I wanted to go to Summer XS but mum wouldn't take me... weird. BrEaThE nO mOrE

[07 Jul 2004|09:45pm] Put crosses in the ones that I haven't done! (_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK (_) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT (_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX (_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX (x) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR (x) I NEVER BEEN TO JAPAN (_) I NEVER RODE IN A TAXI (x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE (_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED (_) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED (x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED (x) I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT (_) I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE (x) I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED (_) I NEVER SAID "SAY MY NAME BITCH" (_) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER (x) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB (x) I NEVER CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE (x) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE (_) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND (x) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER (x) I NEVER CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS (_) I NEVER BEEN TO EUROPE (_) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL (_) I NEVER HAVE PURPOSELY SET A PART OF MYSELF ON FIRE (x) I NEVER WATCHED A JOAN CRAWFORD MOVIE WHILE ON MUSHROOMS (x) I NEVER HAVE DRANK ABSINTH (x) I NEVER WANT TO BE SOMEONE ELSE (_) I NEVER HAVE WANTED TO DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN (x) I NEVER HAD A FRIEND DIE (_) I NEVER HAVE CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP (_) I NEVER HAVE FELT TOTALLY ALIEN TO THE REST OF HUMANITY (x) I NEVER KILLED A PERSON (x) I NEVER ATTEMPTED SUICIDE (_) I NEVER BEEN TO DISNEY (x) I NEVER HAVE HAD TO GET STITCHES FOR CUTTING (_) I NEVER HAVE PAINTED A PICTURE BrEaThE nO mOrE

[06 Jul 2004|05:47pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Avril Lavigne ~ My Happy Ending ] I'm over Kinz! *dances* And I told Adza that I think he's gay... and his reply was 'I don't give a shit what you think, so what if I am gay?' Hm... :) Been texting Tom all day hehe, he got to fill up vending machines with chocolate! :oO Work is so boring, I told mum I want Friday off but she said no, I'll get round her! :D Next week will probably suck, I think I might be going to Gaz's at the end of that week though, so it's all cool. I love Avril's new song. <3 AND I LOVE DANNY FROM MCFLY, EEEEEEEE! He so sessehfied! xMwAhNeSsx! :D Sorry, I'm in a weird mood today, it's like, I'm at my mum's work and I'm bored out of my head, I don't even have anything to think of anymore, it's just random crap... then I get home and I'm all 'eeeeeeeeee!' and such. I was like it yesterday too, it's so strange. :S All this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending! Gaz has Icantcryalitis!... Yes... see, I'm too bubbly this week, what's wrong with me?! [1] CaN x BrEaThE nO mOrE

We're the lipgloss bitches! [04 Jul 2004|08:20pm] Inferno Magick [20:17]: -Puts on sunglasses and puts lipgloss in pocket, struts in slow motion- PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:18]: *lets hair down, shakes head about in a seductive manner, puts on sunglasses, puts lipgloss in shirt pocket and struts alongside you* Inferno Magick [20:19]: Katie: -comes out of the liposuction room, puts on sunglasses, puts lipgloss in pocket, struts alongside them- Inferno Magick [20:20]: Sinead: -humping a tree, puts on sunglases as she does, puts lipgloss in back pocket, runs off quickly and joins the strut- BrEaThE nO mOrE

Hangman fun with Ant. [04 Jul 2004|08:11pm] PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:04]: Let's play hangman! PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:05]: _ _ _ _ _ _ _ / _ _ / _ _ _ _ PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:05]: NOW GUESS IT! I JohnCena l [20:05]: A PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:05]: A _ _ _ _ _ _ / _ _ / _ _ _ _ I JohnCena l [20:06]: n PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:07]: A N _ _ _ N _ / _ _ / _ _ _ _ PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:07]: Okay. I JohnCena l [20:07]: t PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:07]: A N T _ _ N _ / _ _ / _ _ _ _ I JohnCena l [20:08]: h PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:08]: A N T H _ N _ / _ _ / _ _ _ _ I JohnCena l [20:08]: o PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:08]: A N T H O N _ / _ _ / _ _ _ _ I JohnCena l [20:08]: y PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:08]: A N T H O N Y / _ _ / _ _ _ Y I JohnCena l [20:08]: i PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:09]: A N T H O N Y / I _ / _ _ _ Y I JohnCena l [20:09]: s PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:09]: A N T H O N Y / I S / S _ _ Y I JohnCena l [20:10]: e PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:10]: A N T H O N Y / I S / S E _ Y I JohnCena l [20:12]: x O=) PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:12]: A N T H O N Y / I S / S E X Y PinKxJeLLyBeAnS [20:12]: You're good at this game! BrEaThE nO mOrE

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