Last Entry!!   
04:19am 01/01/2004
  Hey guys.. Well this is all for my blurty!!! Im switchin to a LJ so here is the link:

I juss started it today!!

Dare to Dream
02:26am 01/01/2004
  HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  
Dare to Dream
09:25pm 30/12/2003
  cute but psycho
you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You
adorable, but a little out there. It's alright,
you might not have it all, but there are worse

which happy bunny are you?
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hmm.. ya think!?!!

Elijah Wood
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and I hope that you had fun

What Celebirty are you going to MARRY?!(14 outcomes with pics for anyone)
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Haha!!! I luv Frodo!!

Thanks for the quizzes patty!! *kiss*
Dare to Dream
Shredders Anonymous.   
09:14pm 30/12/2003
mood: bouncy
music: Some show on T.V.
Well i spent all day wit Lauren today! We went to the Outlet Mall, Wal*mart, Sally's, Eckerds, Walgreens and Party City lookin for stuff for my room and for Lauren and Po's Nude Year's Eve Party!! Its gonna be a small getty at my new place. We funna do lots of crazee things!!! yay! Its gonna be fun!! I neva do anything for New Year's so this will be somethin new. Me and Lauren were also talkin bout making this our day. Whenever this tie comes around we all should re-unite (Fizz) no matter where we are to get togetha and stuff!!! :)

So we spent the day shredding paper to make comfetti (lmao) and juss talked bout lotta stuff!! Tomorrow we are goin shoppin in da morning then goin to get the place ready for da getty!!!! woohoo!!

I was thinking bout prom today. I wanna get a dress that extrodinary!! I want to break necks!!!!!!!!! When i go to South Carolina imma look at sum boutiques up there!! I wanna wear pearls... i kno that much! lol!!

Well thats all for tonite!!
Dare to Dream
I love my bottle.   
08:29pm 29/12/2003
mood: exhausted
music: My mom's novela..
Im sooo tired!!!!!! I have been moving all my crap outta my house all day.

Last nite i stayed ova at Lauren's house. We spent the nite talking about dreams and scary stories. Then we decided to watch How to Deal. Then we juss took some silly quizzes online and finally went to bed at like 3 in the morning. I found out Lauren's darkest secret: She is married to a woodchuck and mine is that i live in a walmart bag!!! LMAO!!! I took the what kinda drink are you quiz again and i got Beer AGAIN!!!! Lauren got a black velvet! Yay! So we woke up at around 11:30 and then got ready to come and work! We spent the afternoon moving everything in and out of cars.. We fixed my room though! I have the entire upstairs for myself so thats pretty cool. I have my own bathroom and bed and a lil loft that we are gonna turn into a mini-make-out room!! haha!! jk! We also have a pretty wooden patio that overlooks the canal. It's nice. Ill be fine with it for the next couple months. Mom is gonna give the guy some more money though (the one doin our house) so they can speed things up a bit. Hopefully we'll be in my new house by graduation!!!!!!!!! Crossing my fingers!!!! Anyways.. Thanks a bunch Lauren!! U were the biggest help today!! This means a lot to me girl!! I luv ya!! *muah*

Im not too excited about leaving my house. Lets just say im gonna have a lot of excuses to not be home. Oh well. I hope my cat likes it. Haha! Crystal comes down tomorrow with her bf Jeremy so i hope i get to see them soon!!!!!!

Im tired. Imma go watch some tube and relax! *kisses*

~*Why can't i breathe whenever i think about you? Why can't i speak whenever i talk about you?*~

~*Who lives in a pineapple under the sea??? spongebob squarepants!!!!!!!!!!!!*~

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
Dare to Dream
Good News and Bad News.   
03:54pm 28/12/2003
mood: apathetic
music: Gone with the Wind
Once again i have done nothin all day. Up to now at least. I received 2 bits of info yesterday, a bad and good. The good was that my mom got a client to come into the new group home (my house) and will be gettin paid handsomely... the bad news: we have to move by friday. So today, afte i finish watching Gone with the Wind, im goin to BJ's to get a bunch of boxes so Lauren can come over and help me pack up all my crap. Tomorrow we wil be moving. Its a townhouse across the street from the zoo so its not that much farther. Im gettin the entire upstairs which has a loft and a big room with my own bathroom.. yadda yadda.. I dont really kno wat to think. I hope our house will be finished quickly and ill be stayin here in miami for college to be able to enjoy it.

Im stayin ova Lauren's tonite cuz my mom has to take my cuzin to the airport tomorrow morning so yea. It'll be fun but i hope i dont get too depressed about having to move. Supposedly our house will be done in May. Lets see wat happens.

*Kelley, im glad u and your family are okay!! Im sure it was very scary boo. I luv ya lots!!!!!*

Wish me luck for the next couple days. Bye.

~*Frankly my dear, i dont give a damn - Rhett B.*~
1 Dream| Dare to Dream
Unhealthy Food for the Soul   
12:13am 28/12/2003
mood: annoyed
music: Saliva - Always
Here is a list of unhealthy food for the soul that i have compiled:

1. Romance movies A.K.A. chick flicks

2. Too much candy

3. Too many couples around you

4. Pessimistic people

5. Envious Friends

6. Bad Music

7. Romance Novels


8. A memory box

I have been watching romance movies practically all day today and this is how i feel: Love stinks. For once i would like to watch a movie that honestly protrays how utterley hopeless it is to find someone. Instead they make movies that are suppose to "encourage" you and give you hope. What they dont know is that in reality it is making you more miserable and making you feel even more pathetic.

I havent done anythin all day but sit around and watch movies. Oh yea and eat. The one time i got out of the house was to buy food and come back. And i rented How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days and How to Deal. Cute movies. Too bad they make you feel like crap afterwards! You'd think one would get use to it right?! lol.. guess not.

Random: Now my friend is deciding to talk to me about love!!!!!!! HELLO!!! Is this the theme of the week or wat!?

My family is leaving tomorrow so the house will be back to its abandon state once again. It was nice having them here. And Xie isnt even here so we cant spend any best friend quality time together. Im juss kinda floating around for the next couple days. La La La..

I think im goin to try to sleep now. Things seem a lot less confusing in my dreams.. even though some are really strange.

I hear a voice say, "Don't be so blind"
It's telling me all these things
That you would probably hide
Am I your one and only desire
Am I the reason you breathe
Or am I the reason you cry
I just can't live without you

I love you
I hate you
I can't live around you
I breathe you
I taste you
I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you

I feel like you don't want me around
I guess I'll pack all my things
I guess I'll see you around
Inside, it bottles up until now
As I walk out your door
All I can hear is the sound of

I just can't live without you

I love you
I hate you
I can't live around you
I breathe you
I taste you
I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you

I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you

I left my head around your heart
Why would you tear my world apart


I see the blood all over your hands
Does it make you feel more like a man
Was it all just a part of your plan
The pistol's shakin' in my hands
And all I hear is the sound

I love you
I hate you
I can't live around you
I breathe you
I taste you
I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you

I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you

I love you
I hate you
I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I pick myself off the floor
And now I'm done with you
2 Dreams| Dare to Dream
Girls Night Out   
11:19pm 26/12/2003
mood: contemplative
music: J.M. - Why Georgia Why
Today was a great day. I went to the zoo in the morning. My sis let me take Kat with me so we had a blast and she behaved sooo well!! Afterwards i came home to get ready to go out wit FIZZ. We went to the Falls to see Mona Lisa Smile. It was a great movie. "Grown up" if you ask me.. lol.. Afterwards we went to Wendy's to eat and chill. On our way there me and Lauren tried to figure out who was callin my cell fone say: "Merry Fucking Christmas." Umm... yea.. i know who it was but im not gonna call them bak.. lol!!!! It was soo funi!! "Stella" was goin off of them for callin so much and sayin merry fucking christmas!! "Yeah well Happy Fucking New Years too bitch!!" Great times.

We had some good convos tonite too. The first started off with children. How young is too young? I want to have kids in my mid-20's.. the girls completely disagree saying that you can't live your life with kids. Contrary to what they might think i think its a great experience that should not be postponed till your too old to actually enjoy your kids company. When we got to Wendy's the topic changed to having boyfriends. We agreed they are just a big waiste of time. It becomes annoying and predictable after a while. How ppl can be together for a long ass time is beyond me. I also think that girls that start dating early tend to develope a pattern where they can't be alone. Ever. Then our convo switched to the topic of: Love is blind; Well to a certain extenet thats tru but i strongly believe one chooses to be blind just like one chooses to be in love. I think a lot of self-security is required. The final topic of the nite was on our way home from Wendy's between me and Lauren. We both feel the same on this issue. Is there a guy out there who will for once challenge us? For once be too much for us? Instead of it being: "Your too much for me". For once i would like to be able to say that so-and-so is too much to handle. A Challenge!! To make me feel that i need to do things to impress them. Most cases i feel too good for the guy and im not being conceited but it has been like that and thats how i feel. In most cases guys cant keep up with me. So i get bored. I need constant excitement and adventure if not the relationship becomes a rut. And oh how i hate ruts!!!

This topic got me thinkin as to whether or not i would ever find anyone who would challenge me like i want to be challenged. Lauren thinks that wen i get out of this neighborhood i will be able to find him. I hope your right boo.

Part of our convo was also how time is goin by so quickly. While i was watching the video i began thinkin that we are graduating soon. The girls in the movie were in college and wanting to get married. It was a reality check. Im goin to college next year. Me. The younger generation of my family is goin to college and its hard to accept. I dont want to grow old. I feel like time has passed right by me even though i kno i have lived it to the max so far. Sometimes (lol). I never thought i would be where im at right now. I've always been treated like the baby of the family and its like now there is no more baby. I remember when i was younger thinking how cool it must be to say your 17 or 18 and now it feels like a whole lotta nothing. Its not a big deal.

I dont even know wut to think anymore. Im all thought out for the nite. I do know that i had a great time today with the girls and we are gonna do this again next week. It's good to have someone to talk to who is goin thru the same thing or feels the same way. I think its why me and Lauren connect. *Thanks for the talk tonite girl*. Im lookin at my junior trip picture that nena gave me and i feel like it was soo long ago and it wasnt. I remember countin down the days for the trip and now i find myself countin down for Grad Nite. Before i know it.. it'll just be a memory.


~*"We live in a moment of history where change is so speeded up that we begin to see the present only when it is already disappearing." -R. D. Laing, The Politics of Experience*~

~* "I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see." -John Burroughs*~

~* "Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself." -Harvey Fierstein*~

I know i have posted these before but its a great song:

I am driving up 85 in the
Kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
just stuck inside the gloom
4 more exits to my apartment but
I am tempted to keep the car in drive
And leave it all behind

Cause I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?

I rent a room and I fill the spaces with
Wood in places to make it feel like home
But all I feel's alone
It might be a quarter life crisis
Or just the stirring in my soul

Either way I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?

So what, so I've got a smile on
But it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don't believe me
When I say I've got it down

Everybody is just a stranger but
That's the danger in going my own way
I guess it's the price I have to pay
Still "everything happens for a reason"
Is no reason not to ask myself

If I am living it right
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?
2 Dreams| Dare to Dream
Merry Christmas!!!   
09:50pm 25/12/2003
mood: calm
music: Lonestar - Amazed
Hey guys!! I hope you had a great day today!!!!

Today i went to my sister's house to open presents with Kat, then i did the same at my cuzins house and finally i went to my aunt's house (the one i went to yesterday)... We had another party today!!! There were more ppl than yesterday.. i think altogether there was like 60 somethin ppl!! We took a lot of pics today.. We also played Pictionary and i won!!!!!!!

Overall i had a great day.

Tomorrow i think me and Fizz are goin out!! yay!! I also am gonna meet up wit k.lo so we can exchange our gifts. Btw.. for all you traveling: I hope you have a great and safe trip!!!!!!.. Im feel pretty wiped out today. Iunno why. I've been having some strange dreams lately. A lot of em had to do wit guys. There was one were it was me and Lauren and we were in some dorm wit 2 other HOOTT guys.. i didnt kno who the guys where though. I think we were gonna go take showerz with them.. lol!!!! It was an interesting dream..

Well bye!!!

~*Im missin you. You never sed you were pretending. Im missin you. You feel the same way. Come bak to me. I need you. And when you go go go, i kno it never ends.. never ends... when its over thats the time i fall in love again.*~

~*where do you go when your lonely? where do you go when your blue? where do you go when your lonely ill follow you... when the stars go blue*~

~*Whatever tomorrow brings ill be there with open arms and open eyes.*~

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
1 Dream| Dare to Dream
12:50am 25/12/2003
  Thug Bear
Thug Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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Haha!! I am NOT ghetto!!!
Dare to Dream
Christmas Eve Partay!!   
12:10am 25/12/2003
mood: nostalgic
music: O*Town - All or Nothing

Well today was a pretty good day. I woke up and chilled until it was time to take a showerz. Then i ran to Target to see if they can replace somethin i bought, luckily every thing worked out and i got wat i needed. Afterwards me and my lil cuz mandy went to get some grub and we talked bout spooky stuff all the way there. LoL! I was gonna get together wit Lauren, Kelley and Kathy but time was really cuttin it today cuz we thought Kelley was gonna be home ealier so yea we decided to leave things for Friday!! *Its okay guys cuz we are gonna have more time on Friday anywayz!!! Fizz!! woohoo!!* So i ended up chillin at my tia's house with Tommy and Danny and Mandy.. not to mention all the munchkins runnin around. It was nutts!!!!!!! I went with my sister to Dots a lil while laterz and then came home to change. When i got bak to the party there were soooo many ppl there i could barely walk around!!!!! We havent had this big of a family reunion in a long ass time so it was nice!! All the kids got along soo well and played alll nite long while we ate a big ole Cuban Dinner!!!! My aunt did an awesome job with the food!! Yay!

Tonite was a lot of fun. I opened my presents too. I got from my mom a new digital camera!! I have been wanting one for awhile now so yay!! I also got the Ralph Lauren perfume i wanted with the lotions and stuff. I'll be gettin my other 3 presents a lil later this vacation!! YAY!!!!! hehe..

Tomorrow im wakin up early and goin to Musa's house to open presents with Kat!! Then imma go to my Tia's house again and do the present thing there, then go to my other cuzins house and do the same there. There is another party tomorrow for X-mas at my Tia's house again!!! lol!!! yay!!!

Well that's all for tonite. I hope everyone had a great X-mas Eve and i hope Christmas is more fufilling than mine. <~~ The spirit wasn't really workin too much this year.. Is that suppose to happen as you get older??? I dont like it.

When you were here before, couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts, I want to have control
I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice, when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here, ohhh ohhhh

She's running out again....
She's running out, she's run, run, run,

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
Dare to Dream
SMGC X-mas Dinner Party.   
11:13pm 23/12/2003
mood: busy
music: M.B. - HOtel PapEr
Today i woke up very grumpy and feelin very sick because i got my rag!! I knew it since i was being so grumpy wit everyone yesterday!

I went X-mas Shoppin wit mom today. Yay! I was gonna go see LOTR 3 again wit Kathy and Lauren and her friends but i ran outta time and i really needed to get everything done. So i didnt go. Instead i finished my shopping and went home to wrap everything and get ready to go to xie's but first i went to Publix to get Motrin because my back was on fire!!! I felt instantly better wen i took it. After wrappin all the presents i went over to Xie's house and looked at some MP3 players on the computer. The rest of SMGC came ova and we had some Peste with Chicken Parmesan and Garlic Bread. It was good!! *Tu plate tiene Peste!!!!* lmaoo!! Everyone had brought me come Mountain Dew for dinner!! yay! how sweeties.. Afterwards we went to open presents next to the x-mas tree! It was hilarious times. Then we decided to start our tapin of The Real World Kendall!!!! Yeah!! lmaoo.. i was Lollita from Goulds!!! yuh! represent!! haha.. It was sooo much fun!! Wen we got too hott inside we decided to go chill outside and talked bout grown up things.. mainly bout love.

It was a great convo we had. We all basically agree on our feelings about love. Love is interesting. Anyways. So now im home dl my cd's onto my computer so wen i get my MP3 playa.. yay! It holds up to 8,000 songs and over 300 hours of music!!!!! Its awesome!! The battery last for about 10 hours too.

Well guys. X-mas is almost here!!!!!!!!! 2 more days!! Im only gettin like 2 things from my mom. ::Shrug:: What i really want is comin soon..

~*Could u look me in the eye and tell me that your happy now?... Are you happy now?*~
1 Dream| Dare to Dream
La La La..   
12:34am 23/12/2003
mood: bored
music: J.M.
*1. Full birth name: Patricia Osorio
*2. Natural Hair Color: dark brown
*3. Hair Color Currently: dark brown
*4. Eye Color At Birth : black
*5. Eye Color Currently : brown
*7. Glasses/Contacts: Yup!! -3.75 and -3.25 and it juss got worse..
*8. Birthdate: July 25
*9. Sign: leo... lion.. grr baby grr..
*10. Current Age: 17
*11. Siblings' Names: peaches and musa
*12. Location: kendall
*13. School Attending: ABC
*14. Current Grade: SENIOR!! O YEA!!
*15. GPA: err..
*16. College Plans: FGCU or FIU
*17. Planned College Major(s): Pharmaceutical Research
*18. Planned College Minor: Marine Biology
*19. Any Piercings: 1 on each ear and i will be gettin my nose done soon.. yay!
*20. Any Tattoos: not yet

*1. Girl Friend(s): Best ~> Xie
*2. Guy Friend(s): Best ~> Willie
*3. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Nah.
*4. If No, Current Dating Partner: Soon to be Stephan.. yay!!
*5. Current Crush: Orlando Bloom.. hehe..
*6. Hobbies: dance, drama, coloring.. yadda yadda..
*7. Pager: celli!?!
*8. Are You Center Of Attention Or Wallflower: Im a wallflower right xie!?!? lmaoo!! no no.. im a mix..
*9. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: accord 03!
*10. What Type Automobile Do You Wish You Drove: Infinity G20 or a Mercedes SUV.. sweet.. totally!
*11. Would You Rather Be With Friends Or On A Date: ummmm.... neither at the moment
*12. Where Is The Best Hangout: any where my friends are..
*13. Do You Have A Job: yup
*14. How much do you get paid: $7 per hour..

*1. Who Is Your Role Model: umm.. my cuzin nina i guess..
*2. What Are Your Pet Peeves: people who try to hard to fit in, irresponsibility (Even though i am sometimes)..
*3. Have You Ever Been In Love: not that i kno of..
*4. have You Ever Cried Over The Opposite Sex: unfortunately i have..
*6. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: cocky assholes..
*7. Have You Ever Lied To Your Best Friend(s): probably.. but not to hurt her..
*8. Ever Wanted To Get Revenge on Someone Because They Hurt You: umm.. yes.. lol..
*9. Ever Been Cheated On: no
*10. Ever Said I Love You To A Significant Other: not yet
*11. Rather Be Dumper Or Dumped: oooo dat is really really hard.. i cant choose..
*12. Rather Have A Relationship Or A "Hookup": depends how im feelin.. lol.. right now: anything would be nice.. haha..
*13. Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: no comment.. right lauren?
*14. Ever Liked Your Best Guy/Girl Friend: HAHAHA.. yes!
*15. Do You Want To Get Married: yes
*16. Do You Want Kids: yes.. boy and girl please.. thanks..
*17. Do You Believe In Psychics: LOL Patty!!!!!! We be Psychics grl!!! :) I do believe..
*18. Do You Believe You Know The Person Who You Are Going To Marry At This Point In Life: i hope not.. lol..
*20. What Is Your Favorite Part Of Your Emotional Being: being luvable and oh so hugable..
*21. Are You Happy With You: sometimes..
*22. Are You Happy With Your Life: sometimes..
*23. Are You Scared Right Now?: no
*24. Depressed?: not completely..
*25. If You Could Change Something In Your Life Right Now, What Would It Be?: i wouldnt have a cold.. lol..
*26. Say Something To Someone That May Or May Not Read This That You've never Told Them, But Need To: wow! That is just a really odd Q.. lmaoo.. umm okay: I regret everything. I want to start again. I cant get away from you. Why cant i just forget? I was stupid.

*1. Sports Team: Marlins.. yay!
*2. Room In house: Kitchen or my room..
*3. Girl's Name: Bianca or Roxeanne
*4. Guy's Name: Sean Brenden or Damian
*5. Person to talk to about your problems: depends how im feeling.. sometimes k.lo or lauren.. smgc too!
*6. Song: I'd rather be in love - Michelle Branch
*7. Movie: LOTR 3!!! SOOOO GOOOD!!
*8. Actor/Actress: Orlando Bloom and Johnny Depp.. yesh!!
*9. Beverage: Mountain Dew
*10. Candy: Yes please.. Watermelon Jolly Ranchers
*11. Family Member: I luv all my familia..
*12. Salad Dressing: ranch with bacos..
*13. Blanket/Stuffed Animal: blanky.. my g-ma's blanky..
*14. Favorite quote from a movie: "nothing is coincidence"
*15. Day of The Week: umm.. monday?
*16. Color: Orange
*17. Perfume And Cologne: perfume ~> Ralph lauren ~> Cool Waters for Men!!
*18. TV Shows: The OC, One Tree hill, Will and Grace, Friends, Wedding Story
*19. Flower: Daisy!!
*20. Fast Food Place: Wendy's.. gotta hit those cheese fries!!
*21. Game: Strip Polker.. lmaoo
*22. Teacher: ummm... vazquez
*23. Love Song: I love you - Dru Hill.. lol @ k.lo
*24. Clothing: My polka Dotted skirt that doesnt have a top yet.. lol
*25. Possession: My blanky..
*26. Vacation Spot: Hawaii!!
*27. Person To Give Advice To: Lauren and Xie
*28. Person To Get Advice From: Lauren and Nena

*1. Cried: yes
*2. Bought Something: yes
*3. Gotten Sick: i am currently sick..
*4. Sang: yes
*5. Eaten: chocolate milk
*6. Been Kissed: yes..
*7. Felt Stupid: all the time!
*8. Said I Love You: I love you
*9. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved Them, But Didn't: Ummm... Ummm... Umm...
*10. Met Someone New: Yes..
*11. Moved On: One day closer..
*12. Missed An Ex: dont remind me.. please.. thanks

well guys thats all for tonite.. I was bored yes..

My mom was being such a bia today. I wish there was parent boot camp. Oh Well.

~*No one wants to be alone at Christmas Time*~

~*"For of all sad words of tongue or pen,
The saddest are these: 'It might have been!'"
-John Greenleaf Whittier, "Maud Muller"*~
Dare to Dream
The dreaded X-mas Shopping!   
11:41am 22/12/2003
mood: hungry
music: Beastie Boys - Intergalactic!!!!
Well i juss finished cleanin my pig-sty of a room! Go me!!!

I have to finish my X-mas shopping today. I really really am dreading it. I dont feel all that great and driving around goin to stuffy stores isnt gonna help!!

Shout out to my grl Criztee!!!! Happy Birthday Sugah!!! Sorri i couldnt go to your getty!! Luv ya though!!! *muah*

Well i would like to post the tentive schedule for this weekend since it will help me sort it all out in my head:

Monday (today): * Finish my X-mas Shopping and i have to go to the lady who did my facial again so she can "finish"! I hope pain is not involved in today's procedure. O yea and i have an eye doc appt too at the same time as my facial. Thanks mom

Tuesday (23): *If for some odd reason i dont get everything i need then i need to finish it today!!! Also, SMGC is finally gettin ALL together at Xie's house at around 7 or something..

Wednesday (X-mas Eve): *Find outfit for tonite. Spending the day cookin at my Aunt's house where about 40 of my relatives are gonna be to celebrate by roastin a pig that they ordered from Hialeah!! Gross!! I also open my presents wen i get home tonite!!! yay!!

Thursday (X-mas): *Playin Santa in the morning and running down to Homestead alll day where i hand out my presents for everyone. I might go to Eve's house cuz she invited me ova and we havent seen each other in while. (Actually i went to Hollywood Video yesterday and we saw each other!! Big hugs were exchanged!)

Friday (26): I have 2 choices for today: a. Call Criztee so we can go Day-After Xmas Day Shopping.. Or b. Go to Bayside wit Family... hmm..

Crystal comes this weekend!!!! With her bf Jeremy and Sister Jessica.. I cant wait to see her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!

Off to bye food!! Peace!

~*You gotta fight for your right to party!!!!!!!*~
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Disney World!!!!!!   
12:46am 22/12/2003
mood: sick
music: Lifehouse
Hey guys im bak home!! yay!!! Actually i was bak home yesterday but i was really tired and didnt feel like writing plus i had family here so yea.. still do.. anyways here is the re-cap of my vaca!!

My sister picked me up from my house on Wed around 7 pm and we headed to her dog's babysitters house. Its this flamer armando who is sooo hilarious and down!! i luv him! Plus he thinks im pretty.. Anyways our adventure had really started on the way there: Zeus (musa's dog) pooped in my mom's car <~~ the car we are takin to disney. yea. ~~> So we had to go to da gas station to clean it up and scream at him.. lol.. it was the funniest thing ever!!!! Musa and me where juss talkin and all of a sudden we look at each other and i go: "u smell that right??" lmaoo.. surely enough we turn around and yea.. so we clean it up and take the dumb dog to armando's house and him and his lover are sooo cool!! they have a zoo at there house. I think its 5 dogs, 7 cats, birds, and some other animals too. I got to pet the kitties.. soooo adorable!!!!! Well wen we were walkin to our car to leave i hear someone yell from a passin car: Woohoo... yeah!!! NiIICEe!!.. im like wtf??! I looked soo scrubby in my sweats and sweater!! lol.. so armando yells: "Its your mother!!!" He is sooo miss. thang (his nickname btw)!! lol!! Okay so we are on our way to Martikas house to pick up kat and then we went to pick up mario at his job. So finally we were on our way at around 9 pm!!!! Then musa tells me i cant go to sleep because if i do then she will and since i was sittin in the front seat i had to "entertain" her and keep her up. I told her as long as i got a cappucino into my system i would be able to stay up. Well wen we get to the first rest stop THE STARBUCKS WAS CLOSED!!!!!!! So i was freakin out cuz i really wanted a cap!!!! Well ended up i didnt need one cuz i stayed up the whole time wit musa and we talked about old times and stuff. It was fun! We always make these long boring rides fun!!!! It was sooo cold outside and the stars were sooo beautiful so it was a cool ride.

We get to the hotel which was new and had just opened up that sunday. Its called Pop Century. The different buildings for the guests were different era's... 1950-1990's. It was really cute!! We stayed in the 1960's with a big yo-yo as the stair-case!! :) It was freezing cold and i was starving because of the long ride (we got there around 1:30 am). We all went to bed to wake up at 7 in the morning for breakfast and Magic Kingdom!

Thursday: Today was Kat's 5th Birthday so we woke up screamin happy birthday to her. Then we all got bundled up and went downstairs for breakfast. The food was smashing as usual. We jumped in the car and headed over to Magic Kingdom!!!!! yay!!! The first ride we rode was Aladdin then Pirates!!!! We went thru the whole park and then got to tomorrow land and me n musa wanted for Kat to ride Space Mountain but Mario was goin all postal on us and got really scared. We finally convinced him it was nothin and she would be fine. She was soo braved and loved it!! Her fav ride was Thunder Mountain though. ::shrug:: Well it got really cold that nite. In the 30's i think!! We headed over to the Grand Floridian to eat dinner with Cinderella and the Prince!!!!! She was sooo beautiful a lil air headed but still.. lol.. she sang Happy Birthday to kat 2 times!!!!!!! Soo much fun!! The food wasnt that great but yea.. Then me and my sis decided that for my birthday we are stayin at the Grand Floridian to go to the spa all day then go to Pleasure Island!!! im all up for it so yea!!! So we ate then went bak to the hotel cuz it was late and cold!

Friday: Today we went to MGM and had a great time!!!! Star Wars was of course the first ride we went on!!! hehe!!! My sis kept doin the chui voice the whole time!! Lmaoo!!! She's special. Kat got her face painted and so did musa.. lol.. no i didnt get mine done. Well earlier today i was talkin to kat about the tower of terror and tellin her how i didnt want to go on it cuz i hated free falls and well it kinda scared her too so she didnt want to go on it. Well we both sucked it up and went on it. Lets juss say know i remember why i hate free falls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was sooo scary!!!!! It dropped us like 20 times!! and in the dark no less!!!!!!! Creepyness.. I was proud of me and her afterwards though. Afterwards me and musa rode the rockin roller coaster!!!!!!!! Well here is the lil story behing that... we sat in the bak. I dont know if u have ever sat in the bak of this ride but WOW!!! we got whipped around sooo much. Wen we got out of the ride we were cracking up and wen i look at my sis her hair was completely destroyed!!!! And so was mine!! The ride was soo outta control in the bak that my bun and her braid was all poofed out and we had to re-do our hair completely!!! lmaoo!!! soooo hilarious!!!!! it was def the best ride!!!! Well after we left the park we went bak to the hotel to get ready to go to the Pirates Dinner Theatre. I got to wear my big black boots!!!! yay!! Well we get there and needless to say its freezing!!!! BUt it was sooo beautiful inside!!!!! They really incorporated the crowd a lot and my sis even got her tarot cards read.. lmaoo.. soo funi.. Well we got our color and table number for the theatre. The way it was arranged was that pirates came and took our princess and captured us so we had to go in there ship!! We had the blue pirate, Benjamin, and sat at Table 0 in the very front! Benji was soooo damn hottt!!!! I was like woooooaaahhh.. lol!!! I couldnt stop starin at him allll nite!!!!!! The food and the show was really good!!!!! Afterwards there was this Pirate Bash.. BIG PARTY!!!! hehe.. we chilled for a while and yea.. I wanna go there wit SMGC or FIZZ.. i think we would have fun!!!!!!!!! So we went bak to the hotel and juss chilled and finally went to bed.

Saturday: We woke up and took our time coming home. It was yet again another fun ride but this time i fell asleep.. lol.. We got home and i chilled allll day.. Im sick so its not like can do much newayz. I got a cold wen i was up there. Good for me. My family came from all over America today too. yay.

Today i went shopping for everyone's presents and chilled wit my cuzin. Then we all went to see LOTR 3!!!! SOOOOO GOOODD!!!!!! Yay for Frodo!!!! I luv Orlando Bloom btw.. hehe.. it was a grand movie and i would of been cryin most of the time if it wasnt for me n tommy makin all the jokes.. lmaoo!! Now im home and we are dead ass tired. My cat has an appt. tomorrow to get a bath!! :)

Well goodnite!!!!!!!!!!

~*cause I'm waiting for tonight
and then waiting for tomorrow
and I'm somewhere in between
what is real and just a dream*~

btw.. here are the results from Kelley's bf quiz.. lol @ this one:

1 Dream| Dare to Dream
05:04pm 17/12/2003
mood: hyper
music: Metallica!!!!!!!

If i do not see sleeping beauty this time im gonna cry!! I saw her once and there was a bunch of stupid kids waitin to slober all over her!!

Today was soooo boring!!! ALL of my no-life teachers taught!!! Then i found out i got a call back and didnt want to go but decided to do it BUT my sister came and picked me up early!!! cuz... WE GOIN TO DISNEY!!!! hehe.. so i went to popa's room.. where everyone was makin fuckin gingerbread houses... and told her i couldnt go to call backs. She juss gave me a hug and a kiss and told me she will base it on my previous audition (this is strange behavior from her btw) and told me to have fun and be careful. Xie and Brina were in dat class so they gave me big hugs and then Dago and Zeb joined in and gave us all a big hug.. it was a Po Sandwhich. I couldnt breathe afterwards but it felt good!!! hehe..

After school i went shoppin at Old Navy for some winter clothes and i juss finished packing!! Its soo nice and chilly!! Yay!! Well ill be bak sat!!!!!! *MUAH*

~*A dream is wish your heart makes.. when ur fast asleep..*~
2 Dreams| Dare to Dream
Broudway Bound and Graduating..   
05:29pm 16/12/2003
mood: groggy
music: OffSpring - Gotta Get Away
Well yesterday nite was broadway bound. WOW! haha... we worked allll day for our numbers. Specifically America. We had to teach Amanda the entire routine!!!!!!! She did great though. I was really nervous about that number and for Eating Out too but i heard everyone luved it and Frankie, Zollo's wife, sed she wouldnt change nething bout it because it was awesome!! she sed she loved my character!! Yay! Moments like that... being on stage i mean.. reminds me why i go thru all this hassel with popa. I luv bein on stage!!!!! Its comfortable and the rush u get is undescribable!!!!!!!! :) I like entertaining ppl!!! Aimee had an excellent performance!!!!! Her monologue blew me away. Critics choice fo sho!!!!! She deserves it because she doesnt get enough credit from popa that she should. Luckily, nobody busted an ass in America or the Gun on those stupid flimsy chairs. We did alright except for the end but w.e. its not competition. I had fun! I was a lil embarassed being on stage with a leotard on and tight pants but i got over that qwik. I cant wait for competition though!! Oh and supposedly there are call-backs for Lil Shop of Horros but i dont think i wanna do em (if i get a call back). I dont really feel like puttin up wit anderson anymore. I had fun doin drama these past 4 years and im gonna finish my competition pieces but i dont think ill be doin any more. At least not in this school!!!! hehe!! I talked to my mom and she sed i could do dance if i dont do the musical.. lol.. so looks like imma go chek out a couple jazz classes! yay!!! Anyone care to experiment with me!!??!

After Broadway Bound me n k.lo went to her house. We were cracking up the entire time in the car because of the reception for the radio station! ROFLOCITY!!!!!!! We concluded that the aliens were intercepting our satelites and they are probably procreating with all the cheesy love songs they were play that nite. The ONLY thing is that they have sex thru their arm pits instead of you-know-where. LMFAO!!!! We had a great time and we wanted to go to the park because it was a clear nite to juss chill and watch da stars but i was beat ass tired.

Today i didnt go to school cuz it was my cuzin's graduation. She got her BA from FIU and im really proud of her!!!!!! It was great graduation and it made me realize how mine is just around the corner!!!! When they officially declared the students graduates i wanted to go to my graduation right then and there but then i remembered that i want to make these last couple months worth while so yea... it was fun though. FIU is a great school and a lot of ppl down it because so many ppl can easily get in. Well lets just say that only about 20 ppl in the entire graduating class had a 3.5 or higher. Nobody had a 4.0. So the school must be harder than we give it credit for and they are soon starting a Medical School!! Its a good school and i for sho am gonna go there if i dont go to FGCU.. So after the graduation we went to eat at Friday's cuz we was soo damn hungry and now im home!!

Im goin to disney tomorrow. Kat is tuns better. She hasnt regergetated lately so yay!!!! hehe.. we are gonna have soo much fun the only thing is i barely have warm clothes so i have to get some after school tomorrow before we leave. lol!! I cant wait.. This is a much needed vacation and the only thing this month that hasnt truely back-fired on me! Kat is gonna have a great time!!!!!!! :) Ill write allll about it wen i get bak on sunday. Melissa Q party is that day i think.. although i heard she changed it to the 27th but yea iunno.. k.lo wants me to go wit her. Iunno if i wanna go. Its not like me and her talk so yea.

Well im off to go find something important to do. I should be doin my theology project because i wont be able to turn it in this friday but imma wing it and tell him i didnt kno we were leaving till i got home and yea ill do it ova da break. Bye!!!

~*You.. Doin that thing you do... breakin my heart into a million pieces.. like you always do.. and i try and try to forget you girl(boy) but its just so hard to do.. everytime ur doin that thing u do!!!*~
2 Dreams| Dare to Dream
I havent done this in a while..   
09:54pm 14/12/2003
You are related to the tiger, you are a vicous
creature. You like lazing around the place but
when you et hungry you go wild.

Which animal are you related to?
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Power Rangers Movie!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever

Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.

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Your soul is bound to the Yellow Rose: The

"I've travelled through the land of
surrender and seen it all. I throw my heart
out and keep my head up, and now I travel
through the land of peace."

The Yellow Rose is associated with friendship,
intuition, and fun. It is governed by the
goddess Hestia and its sign is The Intertwined
Rings, or True Friendship.

As a Yellow Rose, you always look out for your
friends. You would much rather have strong
ties with friends than a single tie with a
lover and your devotion to your friends is
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well thats all for tonite. Yay for the pretty picks!!!

Here are some lyricals i dedicate to k.lo and mr. anonymous:

I never asked for this feeling
I never thought I would fall
I never knew how I felt
Till the day you were gone
I was lost
I never asked for red roses
I wasn't looking for love
Somehow I let my emotions take hold
And guess what all at once
I'm in love

Oh I miss you so much
I long for your love
It's scares me
Cuz my heart gets so weak
That I can't even breathe
How can you take things so easily
Baby why aren't you missing me?

Why did I act like you mattered
It was silly of me to believe
That if I just opened my heart
Things would come naturally
Jokes on me (yeah)
I did not ask for love letters
So why did you give them to me
How could I let your intentions
Get hold over me
So in love
So naive (oh baby)

And oh how I hate what you have done
Made me fall so deep in love
Got no cure
You're the only one I want
That I love oh baby

Baby why aren't you missing me?
Baby why aren't you missing me?
Dare to Dream
Tomorrow is the performance that we are NOT ready for!!!!!!!   
09:33pm 14/12/2003
mood: ghetto-ish
music: Silly Hoe - TLC
We are not ready for tomorrow's performance!!!!!!!!!!!! Y is popa makin us do it?!?!!? i dont want to make a fool of myself.. ay.. I got my leotard and pants today. Yay.

I went to the pines today to visit my crazee mo fo family up there. It was fun. I met the guy my cuzin likes. He aiight. Not my type.. lol.. good thing! We all chilled and i basically ate alllll day! :D

Then i spent the rest of the day tryin to find my "costume" for tomorrow. I have to do my dotdots cuz they are due tomorrow!! i have such a qtie pik of wen i was a bebe...

Well im out fo tonite!!!

~*I aint never been no silly bitch waitin to get rich from another bank account..."
Dare to Dream
Losing your money is the scariest thing ever! Unless u have a cute guy helpin u look for it!!!   
07:43pm 13/12/2003
mood: calm
music: Sugar Ray - Sugar Ray

Wat a nutty day!!!!!!!! I woke up and had to go take my ACT at MDCC-Kendall. I get there and took my test. It was long!!! Considerably easier than the SAT i must admit! I hope i did good. It was the first time i took it so yea. Afterwards i came home to eat and then i had to go to practice at school. First i went to get my character shoes at Dance Duds in Kendall. Well i get there and there is this qt guy with the most gorgeous eyes ever!!!!!!!! Not to mention he also had an amazing smile!! So i walk into the store and then i cant find my money!!! So i start freakin out and go bak to my car to look for it. Im hyperventalating and this guy says: "hey you cant park there." I juss look at him like dont even do this to me right now!! and i tell him it will only be really qwick and he seys he was just kidding. So i walk into the dance store again retracing my steps and tell the lady wut happened. Well i go outside to look on the floor cuz maybe it fell or something and the dude is like: "I was just kiddin with you. You can park there." lol!! I told him i know he was kiddin its juss that i lost my money so yea.. He was like: "wat!?!? omg.. chek under your car." and he started lookin underneath my car and stuff. SOOO qties!!! Then he got all his friends in the store and they were lookin around everywhere!! Even in the streets!! They were all so young i was like HELLO!! LMAO! So i walk in the store again and call monica and im freakin out!! Then the lady comes up to me and goes: "Did u chek ur pants? Ur bra?There it is!!!!" It was in my bra the whole time!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LMFAO!!!! im such a nerd. I went outside and told the guys i found my money and sed thanks and flashed em my best smile! lol! which isnt so great but still. I bought my shoes and was walkin to my car and i didnt see the guy but then i heard him say bye! I turned around and he was there with the most gorgeous smile on and waved. I was awstruck for a bout 10 seconds and finally murmured bye! lol! At the end i was just so happy i lost my money! That guy made my day and i think i need to go visit there more often!!! like tomorrow to get my leotard!! LOL!! yay!

That was the highlight of my day for sho.. neways. i got to school and worked my feet off. I say feet because they hurt soooo much dancing in character shoes. Leaping is the hardest!!! We got a lot done but not completely and that was from 2-6 we practiced!! Now im home and put medicine all ova my face from the lady who did my facial business..

Im really tired. I feel very very lazy!! My neice is here. She has the stomach virus and cant eat nething. I feel so horrible for her! I hope she gets better b4 disney cuz thats for her birthday!!!!! pobresita! mi negra!!

Well here are some lyricals that i really love from Sugah Ray:

Easy I'm gonna fade away
I'm gonna find my way around
Knee deep I get no where from sleep
I'm running out of sheep to count
Not right I sit alone at night
And on the bed I write it out
No time for giving up that line
Or making up your mind
You've got a right to pine about

I'm feeling you tonight
In the dream I think I'm falling
Bouncing off of the satellite
In the dream I think I'm flying
I feel you I feel you
Reach out and touch me will you
I'm feeling you tonight

No saving for a rainy day
When all of what they say you're out
No fame but all the rights the same
They're gonna know my name in town
No reason for another season
For some other teasing moans
No favor to the one that gave her
Made a morning haven
Inspired to save us all

I'm feeling you tonight
In the dream I think I'm falling
Bouncing off of the satellite
In the dream I think I'm flying
I feel you I feel you
Reach out and touch me will you
I'm feeling you tonight

I can see you touch the sun
Make a wish and don't tell anyone
Then my eyes start focusing
Then my eyes start focusing
Then my eyes start focusing

I'm feeling you tonight
In the dream I think I'm falling
Bouncing off of the satellite
In the dream I think I'm flying
I feel you I feel you
Reach out and touch me will you
I'm feeling you tonight

~*I wish you would hold me. I'll be waitin for you. If u decide to change your mind. I'll be waiting for you. I miss the things u told me. I'll be waiting for you. I'll be waiting there for you!*~
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