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12:24 am
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| Wednesday, September 24th, 2003
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11:23 pm - Sorry Blurty!
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Oh what a day... what a bittersweet day.
I wore one of my new skirts... What's up with Erin's new skirt fetish? I don't get it. I also don't get why I switch from first person to 3rd person like that sometimes. We did the Charleston today in English. I'm not sure why that is so funny... I think it's because of my teacher. The reunion tour once again almost ended... we had to reschedule a few dates. You know how that goes.
I scratched my car up :( I was pulling out of my space and scratched my car on the girl parked next to me's hubcap. It didn't do anything but leave my paint residue on her hubcap, which will wash off. But there is a nice scratch on my car. Oh well, that's the life of a 16 year old driver. Those things happen.
I went and saw my therapist after school (much needed) and then met Laura at Brookwood to go shopping (she came into town to get a dress for her formal). Man we went all around town... Brookwood, Galleria, Summit. She found one for another formal at Parisian's, and then 2 at White House Black Market (cute store). We felt so triumphant. I took the Mountain Brook way home, and I didn't get lost! That is something, alright. Mom tought me well.
Umm... what exactly is 'Kapiolani'? I guess it's in Hawaii. I have to make a billboard thing for English. Cool, huh?
I'm going up to Huntsville this weekend and you're not! I am so excited.
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| Monday, September 22nd, 2003
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5:41 pm - X-Posted
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To my friends (not necessarily on my friends list):
I feel so much love for you guys today...
1. We've been friends since I was popular. It was so nice of me to let you sit with us cool kids. Throughout our friendship, there have been many trials and tribulations (Fobo, Mrs. Fields) but you still always manage to make me laugh. "Aren't you gonna help the kids!?"
2. I am very lucky to have you as my best friend ever. We've had some good times together, and most of my memories from the past few years have been with you. I hope you end up with him, after everything you have been through.
3. Bear Creek was where it all began. We have had so many fun times together in the past 6 or so years. I miss hanging out with you a lot, but I understand that you're juggling a lot right now.
4. Oh man... it's so crazy how long we've known each other! 1st grade... and then reunited in 4th grade. I have so many good memories with you, playing with barbies, singing karaoke to Madonna, playing Truth or Dare in the tanning rooms! We desperately need to hang out soon!
5. You always manage to make me laugh, no matter how shitty I feel. If you ever need a ride to school, you can always call me, and we can go off-roading. Thanks for always listening to me, even when I get really neurotic/annoying.
6. Your console and I are in love. Ooh yes. It's cool how we're the same person and all. I enjoy the similarities about us (3 cheese risotto).
7. So, do you like Garbage? I sure do. You were my first real friend at Vestavia, and we have so many good times together. We need to go do another "making fun of people at Barnes & Noble" night!
8. I'm sorry for everything you have been dealing with in the past month. Know that it will get better, I promise.
9. You... I could write a book about you. We became fast friends last year, and I thank god every day for you. You'll never fully comprehend how much a appreciate you, but know that you mean a whole hell of a lot to me. The way you care about me is remarkable. It blows my mind how lucky I am to have you as my little kangaroo. I will always be here for you, through anything at all. I regret missing out on the past 6 months with you, but I think we needed the time apart. Rowboat!
10. I love you more than cookies and milk and ice cream. I miss you bunches too!
11. This one will be kind of obvious. I grew up with you. We have tons of inside jokes and I miss you a lot. I can't wait to come visit you in Auburn! Brenda forever.
That's all I can think of right now.
Love all of you!
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| Saturday, September 20th, 2003
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12:53 am
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Tonight was definately a prime example of a horrible night that got a lot better as time went on.
After school, Manda called me and asked if I was going to the game. So, I was like hmmm yeah I do want to go! So, I went to her house and we put together her bling bling model car. I had to change clothes, so we went on over to my house and I changed. Then we went over to Rugged Wearhouse to meet Di and Anna. Jack, Gary, and Ricky came to showcase Jack's new car. Yay! Manda and I hiked down the hill to go to the game. We walked up the steps too many times, watched the half time show, and got bored and left. We went down to Western to meet Gary, Jack, and Ricky to go up to the Baptist church. Great view. On the way there, on a hill, Jack rolled back into me. I got so upset. But he didn't do any damage to my car. But his car was new! I felt to sorry for him! I was already kind of irritated because I wanted to stay at the game, but didn't want to be alone. And my feet hurt like hell. Boo. So we get up there, and I have my cell phone in my pocket was we walked through the parking lot. And then- crash. Fell out... screen stopped working. I cried and I cried and I cried. Why can't this cell phone business just work out for me. Grr. So I was too hysterical to stay there, so I drove around to calm down. I drove back to the high school, where a few people were still there. Joey, Brent, and I went to Waffle House after some strange happenings in the parking lot. Waffle House was hoppin... I mean, gosh. Sully came too. Brent got a little happy on the jukebox... hilarity. It was a good time. Joey took me back to my car, and I got home 30 minutes late. Oops! No cell phone to tell the time! It didn't matter though, Mom wasn't up.
I've never seen so many cops out tonight. I mean, god dammit. There were a lot.
I'm sleeepy.
Seeing Freddie tomorrow, which excites me. I think we're gonna go to Georgetown Park... I love that place and can't wait to show it to him.
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| Sunday, September 14th, 2003
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10:15 pm
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What a fantastic weekend! I know I've been slacking on my updates... but, I'll be better... I promise.
I had an odd thing happen to me this week. Joey and I made up. After 6 months of pure hatred, we finally made up. He works at CVS, and I went in to buy stuff and we just kind of made up. And we talked later on that night. It's really strange, catching up on 6 months. We were like, best friends... and I can't even remember why we started hating each other. So, I now have no more enemies... well no... maybe one.
Friday night Emily and I took a trip up to Huntsville. It was fabulous. I love Huntsville. Took us about an hour and a half, with traffic. We got there and hung out in Fred's dorm for a while, then went to the mall to eat. We ate at Ruby Tuesday's and had a great time. I like Cody and Christine a lot, they're one of those really nice couples to be around. We went to Gadzooks and Hot Topic (umm..) and I bought a schoolgirl outfit at Gadzooks. I really like the skirt though... it's kind of cheesy... but I dig it. I even wore it out today. That's how much I like it. We went back to the boys' place and hung out and played video games there. Fred and I had a bit of alone time, which was nice, and Emily got addicted to Amplitude. She wanted to meet guys, but there weren't many there. At about 12:30 we went to Walmart to buy drinks. Then to Christine's to hang out there. Fred slammed my finger in the car door. It hurt, but he was really sweet about it. The boys stayed until about 3:30, and Mems and I fell asleep at about 4.
We came home early on Saturday, because Mems was going to see Juliana Theory in ATL that night. I slept until 5:15 and then got ready to go out. I drove around aimlessly, looking for something to do, until I said to myself "I'll go to 3 Spring Rolls!". So I did. And it was good. Then I called Hannah to see what she was up to, and Anna and Michelle were over. So, I went on over there and they were cooking Pasta. Stephanie and Mallory showed up soon afterwards, and then Sully and Matt. Hannah showed up her DDR skills and we watched SNL and various other shows. I decided to spend the night over there, so I went home to get my stuff (since I live 5 minutes away). I set off the alarm when I came back in (oops!).
We woke up, ate breakfast, then I headed off to run errands. Came home soon after, then got showered and such. Ran more errands. Watched TV. Fell asleep. Here I sit now...
I'm sure that was really boring to read... I apologize. But for now, I'm out!
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| Sunday, September 7th, 2003
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11:54 pm - Char... You'll appreciate this
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6:21 pm - Haha...
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| Monday, September 1st, 2003
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10:50 am
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Wow... it's been a while since I've done a solid update. Last week was nice, and I'm beginning to get back into the swing of things. School is pretty good, and I'm working really hard this year. I had my first Chemistry test on Friday... I hope I did good! I studied for about 3 hours... I should be okay.
Friday night my parents finally let me go drive, and that's what I have been doing ever since. Saturday I just drove around running various errands while my parents were gone. It was so great. But, I wish the weather would cool down so I could leave my windows down. Saturday was nice, Fred and I spent the day together. He came over and we hung out here, then I took him out on a driving adventure to Target, Staples, and Old Navy. I bought him a messenger bag... that is my present for him :) We went out to PG to his little sister's birthday party, and then to his grandparent's house... they're so cute! We drove back over here, and were going to go to Gardendale, but then Greg informed us that people were going to see a movie. So, we invited Charlotte along, and I went and picked her up. Along the way, I was turning around in this neighborhood and these giant dogs came up to my car and chased it and stuff. That was my first scary driving experience ever. We saw Freddy vs. Jason and it sucked! It was way too gore-y. Char and I were sick by the end of it. So, we got home at about midnight (and mom and dad didn't say anything... hmmm..).
I woke up Sunday and decided to go out for a drive... duh. I went to Nanyang Express to get food but it was closed! I was so upset... So, instead I went to Sonic in Trussville. That's a nice drive. When I got home, I called Emily, and then drove to her house. She gave me my borthday present... Homestar Runner shirt!! And a Simpsons mug thingy!! I was so excited. So, I told her that people were going to meet at Sonic in Gardendale, and she said she wanted to come. So, we drove out there and had a good time with the guys (and Kelly too). I've become really attached to Fred's friends. After eating, we went to a park and played on the playground! It was really fun! I would like to do that more often. Driving home at night is really nice. As long as I remember not to flash my brights at people... haha.
Fred leaves today :( But that's ok, I think he is coming home this weekend. I'm going to meet him at Wendy's later to say goodbye and stuff. I love that boy so much.
Well, there you go... a detailed update!
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| Friday, August 29th, 2003
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11:01 pm
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| Wednesday, August 27th, 2003
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6:48 pm
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It's thunderstorming... and someone's car alarm is going off.
Today was pretty good, actually. School day was pretty short... but they usually are. But, I have a good bit of homework :( Hannah and I went to the dentist after school. I got caught up on my YM teen gossip. After that, We went and ate dinner at Nanyang Express (where Amanda works) and enjoyed some good chinese food. My fortune was awesome... "Be patient. Good things come to those who wait." That's appropriate for what I'm going through right now.
Anyways...
Thanks for stoppin by, guys. Thanks for breaking my cow lamp.
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| Monday, August 25th, 2003
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5:27 pm
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I know, I know... I'm doing bad. I try not to favor one journal over another though.
My first week of school ended with me wanting summer back. I guess school isn't that bad... it's just that it feels like we've been going for a whole semester already. 2 years...
Emily and I went out on Friday night. CPK, Target, and a search for Homewood High School. The jamboree was supposed to be there, so we pull into the school and there's nothing going on. Turns out Homewood plays at a differeny field. K. We go there, and I'm not having a very good time at all because for some reason the people we are with want to go over to the Homewood sign. I was also in a bad mood too. So we go home, and I call Fred to finalize plans for the next day.
I went up to Huntsville with Fred's family to see him on Saturday. It was wonderful to see him. We were really happy to see each other :) Fred had to work some, so I hung out with the guys in the room. Their living room is so cute... it has a big inflatable palm tree in the corner. I love the campus... UAH is so cool. I can't wait to go visit more often. Fred's coming home for Labor Day though... but it makes me happy. I will have the house to myself on Saturday (!!) Gotta love that. Mems and I will be going up to Huntsville the 26th-28th of September to the Big Spring Jam. Yaaay. We may go up sooner than that, but I'm not sure. But yeah... I love Huntsville.
Today went by quickly. Psychology test tomorrow. Vocabulary test tomorrow... back in the grind.
But, Stashy and I have a date tonight.
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| Saturday, August 23rd, 2003
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8:42 am
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Ugh... I woke up completely panicked today. I hate that feeling.
I hope today goes well... I can't wait to see him...
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| Thursday, August 21st, 2003
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11:01 pm
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So yeah, I've been slacking on the updates lately. It's been a stressful week. I always get really bad anxiety problems at the beginnings of school years... and this year was even more anxiety-causing.
But you know what? Everything if perfect now. I feel amazing... I feel independent... I feel in-control. It was a hard adjustment, those first few days. When you're with someone for a year, seeing them practically everyday, it's hard to adjust to life without them here. It was hard coming home from school, and not immediately calling him. But the past 2 days have been so much easier. They've been blissful. Emily and I talked a lot about this stuff tonight. It's nice that I'm not crippled without him here. We can still talk a lot, which is awesome. Some couples can't survive things like this because much of their relationship is based on physicality. Not the case with Fred and me. I don't need to feel him holding me to know that he is with me. He is always with me :)
I am a little anxious about tomorrow though. The people I sit with in lunch are all in Peer Helpers... which means they won't be in lunch half the year. When they're not there... who will I sit with? I'm trying to think of places to go instead of lunch. I came up with the library, hiding in the bathrooms, locker room, going to Mme.'s room, Milam's room, Isabelle's art class, and maybe visiting people's studies. Or I could just with the table behind me... but I don't think they like me very much. I miss lunch last year. It was so great. I think I am going to try out for Muse again... I think it would be very good for me. This fear of rejection thing has got to stop. I have made big steps lately, though.
Wow... I just rambled on.
Oh yeah... the highlight of my day is... I get to see Fred on Saturday!!
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| Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
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6:47 pm
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6:03 pm
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Well, the past few days have been not so good. I'm not enjoying school too much. It thunderstormed really bad yesterday as we were getting out of school.... we were soaked by the time we made it up the hill. I've been very productive lately, partly because I truly have nothing better to do. The nights have been rough... those are the times when I really miss him. I still can't in my own bed. I know it sounds pathetic... but I just need to get used to this whole thing. In a few weeks, it will become what is normal. Tough... but normal. All we need is to get past this semester... then it will be so easy. Well... so much easier at least. I'll come visit him all the time then. The hardest part is not knowing when I will see him again. We've been together for a year... practically attatched at the hip for a year. It's hard to be cut off from someone like this. I love him to death... and I care about him so much. I am glad that he is happy away from his mommy. I just wish my mom would let me drive up there. All we need to get past is this semester... that's all. We can do it. I love you, Freddie.
I got my lisence today... but am not allowed to drive anywhere yet. What's the point of that?
But, I'm hoping these next few days will be better *crosses fingers*
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| Monday, August 18th, 2003
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12:45 am
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I love you so much, Fred Dickinson.
You are so special to me.
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| Sunday, August 17th, 2003
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1:59 am
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| Saturday, August 16th, 2003
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12:03 am
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Tonight was really good. I love my boyfriend more than late night trips to get ice cream :)
I showed him my JLT, then we picked up some food at BYB. We ate, and then proceeded downstairs to cuddle/talk. After that, we watched Don't Eat the Pictures !! It was very funny, and I sang along. We had the desire for dessert, so we headed to Doodle's, but it was closed. So we went to Bruno's and got ice cream and presents for someone. We ate it on the way home... yum. I love that boy. I get really teary-eyed and sad whenever we're together... because I keep thinking about him leaving. I'm getting teary-eyed right now. I will miss him so much... but it will be okay. 2 more days...
Uggh... I need to go...
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| Friday, August 15th, 2003
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3:34 pm
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Well, what a day. I already hate school. And I absolutely detest the new wing. It's so seperate from everything. It's a big pain too. There's nothing connecting the top level of it to the top level of the main wing. So if you have a class in the upstairs part of the new wing (And I have 2 of those), and then a class in the upstairs of the main wing, you have to go all the way downstairs first. Getting my locker on the Chemistry hall was a mistake. I didn't know that the classrooms were being switched around, so I was like "Ohh... most of my classes will be on the bottom floor..." WRONG. Anyways... they need to build a skywalk. Or actually, I should have gotten a locker in the new wing. The very beginning of the new wing. Ugh. So I get to go to my locker once... maybe twice. It angers me. I really think I might have to carry all my books around. My day wasn't really all that bad. I strongly dislike my Psychology class... And I'm not too crazy about my chemistry class anymore. Hannah has a theme song for when I enter the car... I Love my Computer. It's funny.
We had a French Club officer's meeting. I got so sad... I miss French :( I played secretary today too. That was fun.
I am forced to be home both tonight and all day tomorrow. My parents always guilt me into watching Allie. I hate it. I just want to spend time with Fred. He leaves Monday... Our anniversary is on Sunday...
Well I'm off.
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current music: Gin Blossoms- Follow You Down
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