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[29 Apr 2006|11:43am] |
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i'm so excited... I told my mum the blue man group is going to be in boston in june and I wanted to take chris because he's always wanted to see them. And she said that my nana and grandad are going to be here then and they'd wanna go too so we all might go! I'm so excited. I can't wait to get the tickets and show him and be like YAY. hahah. that'd be awsome to get seats where you get paint splattered on you too :)
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[16 Mar 2006|05:18pm] |
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
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[11 Mar 2006|07:46am] |
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I'm trying to realize if he doesn't talk to me constantly, just means he's not in a talkative mood and he dowsn't hate me and when he doesn't call back or something, it's just because he's having fun with his friends and it slipped his mind and i should be happy that he's having fun but i take things too personal and it's so hard to get out of this habbit !!!!!!
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[04 Mar 2006|11:56pm] |
Wake up and smell your life.
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[02 Mar 2006|05:05pm] |
Me(4:57PM): she needs to hear she's beaautiful
Me(5:00PM): she's beautiful.
Him(5:01PM): brb
The porch light's off,
guess they forgot it.
She'd cry herself to sleep
but she don't dare.
And she wants to be a model,
She wants to hear she's beautiful.
She's beautiful.
I want to save you,
I want to save you. (Yeah)
I need you
to save me too.
I want to save you.
Dressed by dawn and out the door,
no light, she memorized the floors
so she could leave without being detected.
She works till three; it's uniform,
she dreams that he'll come by the store.
She prays for days when boys mean she's protected.
And she wants someone to see her,
She needs to hear she's beautiful.
She's beautiful.
I want to save you
I want to save you. (Yeah)
I need you
to save me too.
I want to save you.
And she won't sleep. (and she won't sleep)
She won't sleep,
and she won't sleep
at all.
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[24 Feb 2006|10:01am] |
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Friday. Feb. 17th, 2006 - Sleeping over Chris's house was the best. And I'm not gonna show it off, or tell everyone, like all of my "friends" do, it's so annoying. I just want to remember it. It's what i've wanted for so long...waking up next to him. :)
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[21 Feb 2006|09:02pm] |
 I'll never let you go.
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[21 Feb 2006|10:19am] |
My mum has problems.
Like, really...
OK, so i slept over chris's house Friday. And then i asked to sleep over again Monday, because like alot of people are sleeping over there all week because it's vaca. And she said no. When I came home she said i should be getting home earlier than midnight, so i guess that's understandable because the dogs wake her up when i get home. But she was just being a total bitch about it and she was like "There is no NEED to be out at midnight and to sleep over your boyfriends house" I was like "Yah i know mum, but why does there have to be a need? it's a want, can't i just have fun and do something i want to do once and awhile while i'm on vacation" And that led into this big thing about, i can't sleepover anyones house anymore because i have a perfectly fine bed in my own room. She never thoght this before when i hung out with allie, i would have a sleepover with her every night of the weekend, and spend all ourr vacas and summers together. One of her other FUCKING BRILLIANT points was that I was at chris's from 2-midnight, why would i want to sleepover, i spent all that time with him. OK, with allie.. we'd hangout ALL day in school because we had the same classses, wed talk on the phone ALL day after school, and then we'd have so many sleepovers..read the Guinnes Book, add up all the numbers you see...me and allie have had more sleepovers than that. And I was like, you know if it was a guy friends house it'd be totaly diffrent, and she said it wouldn't be, but i KNOW it would. She doesnt understand that I don't WANT to sleep over allies house, or any of my other friends houses, I want to sleep over Chris's house because i like hanging out with everyone there, and those friends. I told her this but she doesn't belive me, that it's not just me and him making out and shit all night, we hang out with everyone else and it's fun and it's exactly like sleeping over a friends house. And if it was sleeping over kellies, but with the same people, it'd be diffrent. And i hate myself for this, but a tiny part of me wishes me and chris were jsut friends. We'd be able to do more together, We'd tell eachother more, it'db e alot more fun i think, plus it'd be easir to be friends with all o f his friends so they don't just look at me as Chris's Girlfriend. She said "So when you come home pregnant at 15 i'm going to have to say, oh sorry, i let her slee over her byofriends" SHE DOESNT FUCKING GET IT, and she's not even trying to understand and i fucking hate her for it.
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[19 Feb 2006|08:13am] |
You're the lazyness of the afternon
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom
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[13 Feb 2006|09:12pm] |
You are the boy who makes everything beautiful.
And I want to be with you forever.
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[09 Feb 2006|04:13pm] |
Me and Chris used to talk online until 5-6 in the morning, starting at like 9 at night. When school started, we still talked online alot, but not as much..it's when we started going out. Now he goes home and doesnt come online until 10:30 at night and he tells me that hes soo tired and he says goodnight. He didn't say i love you last night either, Usually he says I love you, sleep good, sweet dreams and see you in the morning. Today i was in such a bad mood too, i was ignoring him in english and then He asked where Ryan was...
Me: Up my ass!
Him: You must have a big ass then
Me: No it's just his dick
And he gets so mad about stuff like that so when we were walking to study i knew he didnt even want to hold my hand and we weren talking, then i said sorry before i went to class and he was just like "ya..." seeing that it's 4:18 he;s not online and i just burned myself and my whole forearm is red. I wanted to cry like 3 times today. I really don't think he even likes me anymore. It's weird because he is not that guy to use me for sex or anything like that. I don't know, I hate it. He knew something was wrong in school also, Because he kept asking me what was wrong and i didn't anwser, so why wouldn't he come online or atleast text me. Because ofcourse i look lik an idiot for texting him so many times when he doesn't even reply. ggrrrrrrrr. I'm such an over reacting whiney bitch. i'll just stop.
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[07 Feb 2006|10:48pm] |
don't be afraid to call sometime, we could talk about songs that make us cry.
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[28 Jan 2006|11:44am] |
I don't want you to hurt anymore.
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[23 Jan 2006|06:03pm] |
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If i screw this up, i'm gonna fuckin leap out of a moving car.
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