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[Friday, August 29th, 2003
@ 10:18pm] |
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Dedicated to the loss of the two greatest people in my life...Aunt meg and Uncle Tom
One last glance,
and i'll never see you again
no more smiles
you don't have to pretend
that you love me anymore
And once again, family ripped and torn
but this time, it's all my fault
i can finally throw away
this face i've so prowdly worn.
you've taught me so much
through these past 17 years
you've helped me out
and dried all my tears
i can't say i won't miss you
if i could change these days
i would've held in those thoughts
and all the words
things just happened
i couldn't help the way i felt
what should i do now?
my world is ripped apart
i've lost a part of me
when you walked out
and my tears run down my face
mixed with emotion
no happiness to retrace
i remember everything we had
all the smiles and love
i just can't help it
t remember these past few days
like yesterday
i wihs i could turn it all around
i've lost my happiness
nowhere to be found
i cant help but reminise
the past and happiness
my life is turned around
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| hate, in hate |
[Wednesday, August 20th, 2003
@ 10:14pm] |
you call yourself family?
i hate you,
why do you always scream at me?
what did i do wrong? being born, i see
well welcome to my world
where everyone hates me
i wanna sceam at you,
make you understand, see
i fuckin hate you
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| aggrivation |
[Saturday, August 16th, 2003
@ 6:41pm] |
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breaking benjamin polyamerous |
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aggitation, aggrivation
like a bad cloud over your head
you remember what i last said
it's automatic don't panic
what is wrong
inside i cry
burning tears turn to fear
what about me
you asshole can't you see?
i need my time, while im alive
let me go, me be free
it's time for me to find me
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| Spark |
[Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
@ 11:10pm] |
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crushed |
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music |
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blood hound gang i hope you die |
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wonder, awe, shame
she thinks that
it's all the same
she believes that
fear and paranoia
do more than relate
winter time hybrination
sets off her depression
she wonders why
these feelings never passs
feeling nothing but a spark
she sees things this way
when visitors arrive
she has nothign to say
but " please stay"
afraid of solitude
and steady lonley
to her it's all the same
unwanted feelings
most unbearing
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| Spark |
[Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
@ 11:10pm] |
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mood |
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crushed |
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music |
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blood hound gang i hope you die |
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wonder, awe, shame
she thinks that
it's all the same
she believes that
fear and paranoia
do more than relate
winter time hybrination
sets off her depression
she wonders why
these feelings never passs
feeling nothing but a spark
she sees things this way
when visitors arrive
she has nothign to say
but " please stay"
afraid of solitude
and steady lonley
to her it's all the same
unwanted feelings
most unbearing
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| Spark |
[Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
@ 11:10pm] |
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mood |
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crushed |
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music |
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blood hound gang i hope you die |
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wonder, awe, shame
she thinks that
it's all the same
she believes that
fear and paranoia
do more than relate
winter time hybrination
sets off her depression
she wonders why
these feelings never passs
feeling nothing but a spark
she sees things this way
when visitors arrive
she has nothign to say
but " please stay"
afraid of solitude
and steady lonley
to her it's all the same
unwanted feelings
most unbearing
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| you must die |
[Sunday, August 10th, 2003
@ 11:02pm] |
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 distressed |
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music |
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311 beautiful disaster |
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Seclusion, solitude
just leave me alone
paranoia is clear
this emptiness fades to fear
why are you bothering me?
what didn't i make obvious
what will it take for you to see
anger, emptiness
i'm sick of this shit
just leave me alone
insanity, unstable thoughts
leave me alone
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| hey lush have fun, it's the weekend |
[Saturday, August 9th, 2003
@ 7:29pm] |
forgotten feelings, pushed aside
i sarenade myself with people
that i love and appriciate
freedom rings, loud and clear
underneath a clowdy sky
smiles begin to arise
there's nothing to hide
excitement fills my stomach
the first time in weeks.
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| leave me alone |
[Saturday, August 9th, 2003
@ 9:55am] |
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lonely |
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music |
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sanitarium metallica |
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thoughts can be demanding
i can't concentrate
the moment is twisted
lost in my head
too many thoughts at once
sleep is apealling
throw everything away
and rest my mind.
my thoughts unclear
i can't see
leave me a lone
i cry pitiful tears
screaming inside
you can't hear me
i fear...
my love is feqar
spine chilling terror
so sweet...
shine light over me...
just leave me alone
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[Saturday, August 9th, 2003
@ 12:08am] |
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| My Own |
[Friday, August 8th, 2003
@ 11:58pm] |
When will the world stop lying
when will someone come alone
and stop my crying.
i can't understand a thing
when its written here in ink
without being explained at all
i can do nothing but fall
i have come a hard long way
from tears and unwanted pain
there is only so much that i can take
before i completely fall and break
i can only hide for so long
in a world that doesn't care.
what ever should be done
to those who have hurt me
i wanna open my eyes
and see
the world in different colors
not just black
i want my old life back
i can not take all this shit
that is given to me unwillingly
i can only help myself for so long
before i had people there to catch my fall
now i only have counterfeits, fake
they think they are my friend
but they have hurt me well before
i could be lying dead on the floor
and they would walk by without a care
sometimes i wish i would die already
thats just all that i can say
please take this pain away
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| shut your mouth |
[Friday, August 8th, 2003
@ 11:45pm] |
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garbage shut your mouth |
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welcome we love you
we hate you
we love you
we want you
we need you
we wish we were like you
they say you're a saint
you're a whore
you're a sinner
That he had you
he made you
he can't live without you
Would you confess if we asked
That you nurture the urge
to declare that it's time
to settle down
with a man of your own
you wanna have a baby
a family
a piece of security
shut your mouth
try not to panic
just shut your mouth
if you can do it.
what's your opinion on the dire situation
on our land here
our guest here
of cource you'll be nice here
how do you feel about god and religion
are you good people
bad people
guess it doesn'y matter people.
your place
my place
make her bring that famous face
you got some
you want some
you wanna ler me get you some
we know your music but of cource we'd never buy it
it's too fake man
right man!(we don't give a fuckin damn)
Win the game love
give em what they want
what they want to see and you could be a big star
you could go far
make a landmark
what have you been reading you smart girl?
Win the game love
give em what they want
what they want to see and you could be a big star
you could go far
make a landmark
make a shitload
and the world spins by
with everbody moaning
pissing, bitching and everyone shitting
on their friends
on their love
on their oaths
on their honour
on their graves
on their mouths
and their words say nothing
i waited to say something
oh shut your mouth
i waited to say something
oh shut your mouth
i waited to say something
oh shut your mouth
--Garbage
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