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-12:28am 09-04-2003 |
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nickelback - breathe |
well i just got home from being out with shaun and houston .. shaun got arrested at wal mart.. for stealing and hes on parole. i feel horrible for taken his car with houston but we were in katy and had no way home.. after we took off we went to get some dro then went to scoop matt to get beer and cigs.. matt played pool with houston and beat him 3 times. then we took matt home and went to this lil park area.. where we smoked. i loved every minute of tonight except for the shaun thing which made me tear up earlier.. blah im so fucked up journal i was looking in the mirror and was like god damn is this me?! lolol . i forgot to tell you that haha anyways im going to go call houston and make sure hes alright before i fall asleep later guys
i think my life is going down the drain? -hiccup-
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| Better then before. |
-01:15am 09-03-2003 |
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silly |
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linkin park - papercut |
Tonight was so much better then last night.. I got up and Shaun and Houston came over and stayed all day watching tv and I was playfighting with Houston god my arms hurt lol Then I made Houston lunch and they went to do some stuff.. but came back when my mom came home and I got to go out to katy Tx with them. We went to this chick stephanies house and saw a girl named katie.. after that we all went to Joey this other chicks house and chilled for like 15 mins then took off to take me home. After coming home I ate and talked to Stacy on the phone kinda lame but yeah OHH get this Paige this chick that I've known forever came to my house and I was already pissed off at her but she promised me a cig if I gave her some chips and tea. So I do this while this bitch was breaking up some dro on my table THIS IDIOT left the shit on my table good fucking thing I saw it before my mom came home my god the stems were fucking huge! god I hate that bitch so much >.< anyways tomorrow for the first time I'm going to wear my hair down and a dress infront of Houston because he doesn't know what I look like ha I'm going to scare him lololol oh well I'm going to bed I'm fucking tired man
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| Annoyed |
-11:39pm 09-01-2003 |
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eve 6 - think twice |
Today sucked ass I met this kid Dustin.. very very weird. He looked completely opposite of his pictures and I was ecstatic on the ride home. He kept hitting me at first and I was like omg about to scream. I have never in my life felt so weirded out. Not to mention the bathtub overflowing this morning and my caller-id turning psycho. The only good thing about this day was the night.. I spent it with Houston & Shawn. They'e the realest boys I know apart from David Bishop (angels keep him safe)..Houston will forever be my guy-bestfriend no one will ever fuck that up. As for Stacy and me we haven't talked really I mean we have but it's about bullshit. God damnit I need a job, my truck, my license.. I need something hah. Anyways I'm going to go eat dinner bye
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| going under |
-12:09am 09-01-2003 |
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cold |
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evanescence - going under |
This song has helped me a lot today it made me realize a lot like for instance that no matter what happens I'm going to be able to get through anything that comes my way. I was so upset earlier about Matt not calling, but you know what it's cool.. because if he does end up liking me and wanting a chance I'll give it to him just for the simple fact he's an awesome person inside and was the nicest to me anybody's ever been. (not to mention adorable).. so about falling in love.. I've realized when it's meant to happen it will I don't know why I try to rush into things and have it happen.. I guess because I've never had it. Oh well.. like I said it will come when I'm ready. If you guys didn't notice I put up another new layout this one I call manson stripes. I love it for the simple fact its dark, complex, and has transparent parts. Like me..! Sometimes I feel scattered.. lol It's like one minute I can be so focused and determined then the next I'm all jumbled inside. For people who don't really know me and who read this I'll help you out.. If you talk to me on the phone I'm dominant I have this massive ego no fear I'm open about everything.. Which is how I really am. But when I find someone I'm interested in that all goes to shit and I become swallowed in fear of rejection and have panic attacks. WTF is up man.. I'm going to stop typing before I type something really fucking stupid lol later
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| Welcome Back. |
-03:34pm 08-30-2003 |
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happy |
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youngbloodz - damn! |
If you haven't noticed I deleted all my old entries due to I was sick of looking at them. I've changed so much in the last weeks that I'm disgusted with the old shit.. now people are going to see the real me. Maybe not the best person but hey it's me.. This isn't friends only so comment all you want, protest, scream, bitch, laugh.. I mean shit if you don't like something and have an opinion spit it out.. be real don't hide what you think or feel. Although due to this is my personal journal and life some entries will be listed as just friends, but other then that feel free to rant. Anyways I'm going to put up the new layout late
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