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Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in Nicole''s Blurty:

    Wednesday, August 6th, 2003
    9:44 pm
    Hey hey whats going on? Hmmm nothing much in my life. I know it's been a day or 2 since I wrote but ya know I been busy with school starting back up again and everything. I dont know about how my life has been going the past couple days. All I can really say is that its been very hectic...I dont even think I spelt that right but oh well (lol). Other then that schools been going great. It's deffinitly been all a plus since i've been back to school. Everyone is back and feeling good and ready to go (I dont think I am though). Anyways yea...I have Bus systems tech, Ecology, Geometry, and English 3. Well thats the first half of my year anyway. I'm deffinitly not too sure about the second half yet but it's too far away to start thinking about it now (haha). Well I think thats about it for now. I'm deffinitly feeling crappy. I'm really pale and sick with a 103 degree fever. Yikes huh...I know!! Trust me it doesnt help either with a bunch of homework on the second day...the SECOND day (lol) it kinda sucks if you ask me. Well Bryans coming over for a lil while and then its off to bed for me so i'll talk to ya'll laters. In the mean time dont do anything I wouldnt do!!! (lmao).

    Current Mood: crappy
    Monday, August 4th, 2003
    3:50 pm
    Well Kidies this is the first day back to the school. It's about 8:09am and I cant believe im awake (haha). These past days have been really rough. I dont know whats been going on. I think I lost all of my "FRIENDS". I'm anxious to meet new people now that i'm back at school. I dont know things just havent been going right but i'm better now. Life sucks and ya have to deal with it and thats all you can really do so thats what I do. Well its about time to go so I think i'm going to go. Have fun but not too much and i'll update when I get home and actually have time to write more and tell you how much my day really sucked (lol). Hope everything goes well for me today. *PRAY FOR ME* (lol).

    Current Mood: blah
    Saturday, August 2nd, 2003
    5:44 pm
    Hey everyone. It's about 5:46pm or something like that and I just got home. Today I guess you could say was a long day for me but a better day then yesterday thats for sure. I woke up around 11am and then took a shower and left. So I guess you could say its been a long day I dont know. Shopping for school clothes with nataly. She's so damn picky lol. Well I think thats about it for today. I'm going with my buddy Bryan later on tonight...I cant wait. But as for now im off to bed cause i'm not feeling well and I have a major headach plus my back hurts so yea, then to take a shower, then off to go to Bry's house. I'll catch up with ya'll at a later date.

    Current Mood: sick
    12:14 am
    Hey ya'll what's going on? Well Bryan just left and I deffinitly feel better. I am now at peace with myself. I have stopped fighting all the little things inside me that bother me. I have come clean to everyone about everything. I've been depressed now for about a week or two. I deffinitly dont know where it came from but I think the fact that everyone has just ditched me and used me so much lately that I honestly cant take much more of it. I try to do anything and everything for anyone at anytime but when I need someone they are never there for me and thats a bunch of bull. I'm sorry if a few of you feel offended when you read this but it's true. The truth is coming out and it's about time. I dont know why ive bottled it all up for so long. I have one truely honest best friend and they know who they are if they read this. I refuse to be treated like shit. It's not fare to me anymore and i'm not going to let myself beat me up inside, its not right. There's been one true person who's been there for me through thick and thin no matter what, and I love them for that. I can honestly trust them. For everyone that could care a less about me F*ck u man. I am living my life to the fullest. Forget all ya'll. I've tried and thats all I can do, there is no more. I am now takin some pills to help me with my depression and it seems to be working for the most part. I am better but I still get my depression sometimes. These are my final words to this closing, For every friendship I thought I had with someone I wish I had a penny cause by now I would be a millionair, but to the true Friend of mine (you know who you are) I love you for being there for me and nothing will ever change that. Thank you for everything you've done for me. I hope nothing will ever change between us. I know now that to be loved you have to start with loving yourself and right now I love myself more then ever.

    Current Mood: peaceful
    Friday, August 1st, 2003
    10:15 pm
    Well my kidies I just got home and it's about 10:17pm. I had a fun filled day thats for sure...I slept all day (WOO HOO)....hell yea. Lol. Well I think it's off to bedy by. I'm deffinitly giggling a lot tonight hmm....*thinks* I wonder whats wrong with me. Haha probably just tired from my day. Well i'll write back at a later date cause I think this is going to be it for now.

    Current Mood: giggly
    3:50 pm
    1st entry
    Hey Kidies it's ummm yea 3:52pm and I just woke I feel special. I dont know what i'm doing today other then taking a shower, watching t.v., getting dressed, and hanging out with my one and only buddy Bryan. I'm still sleepy so I think when I go over to Bryan's i'm going to go back to bed (so much for hanging out) oh well tis aight. Well my kidies I think i'm off to go play with my rubber ducky in the tub so I'll update this again when it's time.

    Current Mood: sleepy