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Nuthings been going on. I've been goin to Kyle's house just to get away for awhile n bringin Freddie w. me so he can see his sister. The debt I'm in his starting to hit me harder n harder. I duno how I'm gona pay this all off before I get my car n have to pay insurnance :? but hopefullie I'll manage. I stayed home from skewl today to go boardin w. my dad. I'm excited cuz it's my first day out there. So yea theres reallie not much else to rite so im gona go
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[19 Dec 2004|01:52pm] |
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Wow ok so last nite was CrAzY. I woke up lik 3 times during friday nite cuz of the babie then had to get up at 8 to get readie to go out with Kyle. So he came around 9:15 and we went straight to Madison. It was great all the looks we got cuz of the babie (which was half nakey). I finally found a babie store n got it sum clothes cuz i felt bad. So we went to the pet store and there was one kitten left which was going to die cuz there was sumthing wrong with its heart. Plus the ladie was being a stupid bitch cuz she said jes had to be there. I wanted to just punch her in the mouth. So yea we drove all over Madison and Camden not finding anything. Finally we went to the D&D's in Madison so I could pee and go figure I lose the key to the baby so I end up havin to pull the box. Wutever I don't care if I fail I just hope the key isn't expensive :/ Afterwards we went BACK to Parsippany and got a paper then went to IHOP's for breakfest and called sum of the places in the paper. Course there was no luck. So we went to the mall I finished my christmas shopping and we went back to Kyle's aunts. We fell asleep for 2 hours then got up n did nuthing tell round 8 when we started drinking :x I had lik 8 shots and was a sex maniac lol.. wut a mess.. I ended up getting sick and making myself throw up around lik 10 cuz the room was jus spinning. Kyle brought me home and I passed out in the truck then when I got home i threw up some more and tried to get some sleep. I have a lil hangover but not to bad cuz I drank a lot of water all last nite. My parents asked if I threw up last nite n I was like noOo then they were like did you drink and I was lik NoOo. LoL how gay cuz they really think I'm gona tell them the truth? mm NO. SO yea that was my day yesterday but now I gota clean up the house a bit n take a shower before Kyle gets here.
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| NeW CaR!! |
[17 Dec 2004|04:43pm] |
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SoO Happy cuz I finally got my new car :) Also last nite my boss called me and gave me my hours for work!! I'm gona b working 22 hours next week then the snowboard instuctor guy called me and told me to come in during the weekend so I can train. So pretty soon I'll b rakin in the money *wooh! lol finally pay back my dad the 700 hundred bucks i owe him :x Today was decent didn't do much of anything cept in history we had a test n it was supposed to be lik a regulare tru/false test but NoOo he made it all essays again. Its kewl I'm just gona fail?? Then in Buisness and Finance I got papers back that were a 79 and 50?? I NEVER get grades lik that in there so I was pretty pissed but I'm over it. Thats pretty much it except me and amy are MOMMIES!! lol we got to take home those stupid baby things for the weekend. It cried twice. Once was cuz I had to for the teacher to tell if it was working rite then the second time i duno if I tilted his head back or he was just uncomfy but he lik bugged. Then I had to leave the key in him for 8 minutes and the key fell out and I couldnt get it back in.. I'm such a mess. I shouldn't be allowed to handle kids :p soo yea I'm gona go get readie to go out
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[16 Dec 2004|12:41pm] |
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Im in Woman in Engineering rite now. I should be working on the design breif and n such for my mouse trap car but Id rather not. Today was good. I'm actuallie in an amazing mood and just sorta put myself out there n didn't feel lik a loner. I guess it makes up for the beat night i had last night. Oh n can't forget that last while I was on the phone with Kyle he tells me that we have 3 people that i have NO idea who they are coming to NYC with us. So he's sitting there saying how I said we should have a bunch of people go when i NEVER said that I just thought it be fun with me, him, his sister, and her boyfriend... but I guess not cuz he pretty much invited them even though he said he was gona ask me first and I'm not gona b lik no disinvite them cuz then I'd be the bitch. So yea it sucks unless I can get a few friends to go but somehow I don't think thats happening :/.. So yea I'm so excited that tomorrow I get my car, then hopefullie we can get Jes's kitten cuz I called AND emailed some places and one lady got back to me and gave me a number to some one who has blak kittens so I left a message with that lady n then called back the first person who told me she would get back to me today to let me know everything.. lol yea confussing i agree. LoL n today during science the kid that i met from NJIT text me :x Its so funnie but he seems sweet so mayb we can become friends?? Anyway I think I'm gona go cuz I'm DEFF. rambling
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| crying never solved *a n y t h i n g |
[15 Dec 2004|04:06pm] |
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Ah I fucking hate it here.. Like I'm just so sick of feeling this way :( I come home today n my mom is out tell lik 4.. So she had an appointment at 12 n comes home NOW but yet yesterday i needed JUST a trim n she couldnt take lik 20 minutes out of her day to take me. Yet my dad who she makes do EVERYTHING and run around like a wild banchee makes time to take me to work, get my hair cut, go shopping, drop my boyfriend off half way at 9:30 at night cuz his car broke down, and NO complaints. I fucking hate her!! Yea n today is just one of those days that I'm all down bout the whole friend thing.. grr I just hate this plce so much and I miss the days when I was so happie cuz I don't like being this way. I miss being all bubbly and confident all the time. Just so oblivious and now I just wish I wasn't so invisible :/.. *sigh* so anyway I realized today that I'm not inlove with Billy. I'm inlove w. who he WAS when I was with him. I've heard so much stuff and thats not the person I know at all. It's someone completely different but I'm glad that I finally realize it cuz maybe it will make things better with me n Ky.. I jus feel so bad that he like gets the second hand string from me because I don't lik believe in love ny more it makes no since to me.. I've been there before and I got my heart broken n now I see Kyle doing everything that I did and I know the feelings he's feeling but it's so hard for me to let go of the past.
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| Jus Gota Get It OuT...:/ |
[14 Dec 2004|08:52pm] |
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So I usually never stick with these things but I'm bored out of my mine and lately I've been hardcore depressed. :( I hate Vernon.. what can I say?? There's nothing for me here.. My boyfriend doesn't live here, my best friends don't go to the skewl, and everyone else is either a backstabber or just like to dick people over.. I'm just having a reallie tough time because I like to have friends. Not a lot but a couple GOOD friends and I just don't seem to have that. I mean don't get me wrong I talk to people in skewl and in my classes but outside of skewl there nothing more than aquantinces. Plus me n kristen haven't seen eachother in lik forever but at least she still TRYS to talk to me... i jus duno cuz she even dicked me over the last couple times we hung out.. Then Jes lives FOREVER away and it's so hard to see her plus she SAYS im like a sister to her and blah blah blah but then it's like I don't even exist sometimes. I switched my meds so I should be happier not feeling so alone nymore but I DO even with a boyfriend cuz it feels lik he's all I have left. Him and Freddie (my kitten). My dad said he would look into me transfering to another skewl but if it's a lot he can't do it cuz we just don't have the money w. me getting a car and then college. I understand but I just want to get out of here SoOo badly. Start things over, meet new people, just make a new start for my last year of h.s :/ I'm sorry for blabbing so much I just needed to get that out!!
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