alana's Journal

5:24PM - Go on take the money and run...

im really confusd. Mika just pressured me on canceling a baby sitting job for tomi morow. I know ihad plans to chill with her leo and shane and stdontff but I know. Apart of me is screaming at me because im so unloyal to my clients and how i should be putting work 100% before my social life. Another part of me is screaming at myself because life is to short to be wasting away working. I mean im only going to be in high school once so why must i make my emotions play a ping pong tournament of the morally correct thing to do. I mean honestly im selfish and petty but if I did take the job i would just be more miserable knowing i could be doing things im missing out on. then i lied! saying i had to support my friend at something....Then i have my job and doc.oyers. I mean i guess its ok but i feel so flaky. WHy am i so unfaithful. I mean i could never own a laundry mat or library. I would steal everyones socks and forget who takes out books. urfffff
Why all of a sudden have i become a slave to forcefeeding myself comments on my low self esteem. I will not regret flaking out on a babysitting job and i will not regret having a brilliant friday afternoon. STOP ALANA ur life is to short for this....

5:24PM - Go on take the money and run...

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

5:17PM - im a lover im a sinner playing my music in the sun...

life without blurty is meaningless. i apologize for the not writing part.
Unfourtunately laziness has kicked in.

its about 8:18 but if you were going by my computer it would be 5:19you cuz its so beautiful..nontheless entirely wrong. I realized today i cant take tests very well its like ahh i know this stuff and then you sit me down with a pencil in my hand and my brain spews out like every bit of kowledge ever. I recently figured out that best band in the world is the steve miller band. ok laugh at me if you must. my mother even said "they werent cool then there not cool now" and ok thats fine. lol well i guess i gotta go readi absolutely love u blurty.
i hope u love me to...
even thoght im a disgracefull companion

love
bonnie to my blurty(clyde)

Current mood:

giddy

Current music: steve miller band-fly like an eagle

Friday, August 27, 2004

2:46PM - see the world in blue or green.....

hey u guys long time huh! well im nto ready to clos up the summer and im def. not finished with my school work which kinda blows but as long as i set my mind to it hopefully ill get it done! so school is exciting my appeal didnt work so im not in honors english which really blows but thats ok because now i will have new and exciting goals for school this year. I must admit i am kinda dissapointed with the whole cookies and cream situation. I belive now and noone better comment on this. That CAC has become well ....i dont like to judge CONCEITED. thats right he has become conceited and im not even gonna go the places i would like to go. As im talking about him i wpould like to smash the keyboard against the screen and pary that everyfeeling i feel about him will just be typed and like in stone. It kinda pissed me off cuz i kinda had some sort of idiotic belief of hope! Well i guess there is bigger marshmellows the smore. So anyways in the love dept there is nothing going on. I mean i actually think i might hae feelings for Ben. Its so weird cuz like i dont know i really like him as a friend but he is soo i dont know. im not attracted to him at all thats the weird thing. He is really funny and i basically call him to rant all the time. i dont know about a relationship but i like him a a friend toe-tally. and then there is that sexy dunkin donuts guy i mean he is so sexy on y bday as god as my witness im gonna talk to him and it should go something like this:

Me: Hey
Dunkin donuts guy:hi
Me: well i guess u prob think im a stalker *cute giggle* i come in here alot
nameless donut sex machine:( in a sexy ice cream man voice) nah i dont think that at all
Me: well im alana, so now i dont have to be ur stalked i can be ur firend
DDG: have my babies! (ok that one is there just for a joke)

ps: HE IS SEXAYYY

sunday is my birthday and boy joe am i excvited!
i love you all i hope ur day is fantastic!
pps: I need to be negative for a moment.. a dorkalicious poem i worte

Some times i wish the world was flat so he can fall off the sides
i know its hopeless but ive gone along for the ride
is it true that all the facts are carefully in place
and every second that i want you i get a bitter taste
stop.... please
you think your so big well say it to my face
what is left to do, ignore the fact that i use to be in love with you
well i dust myself off and hope that u have happyness and no feelings of regret
cuz on my list of guys to kill u are next .....
Oh I hope ur happy hope u guys are great and when u guys are satisfied you can bake a happy cake
and with every single ounce of fat and every bite you take
you remember a piece of me that falls apart and breaks
and when u forceford her some frosting and a piece falls on her lips
i hope as ur leaning in for a kiss your memory freezes and you kinda fall
down will come ur happy cake the happiness and all
and i know i shouldnt doubt ur happiness
and wish the worst on you
what i feel is what i feel and feelings are stuck in glue
so i baked you a bunt cake
delicious brown and warm
i hope this is just a phase....a short rain storm
so please take a bite and when you like the taste
ill take that bunt cake and shove it in ur face!!

HEHE! wow now i sound like some kinda stalker! agression!

thats a poem i just wrote. o and if ur a cop or someone reading this i really dont have like a hit list im just kidding nor do i melitously want to hurt CAC. or shove a bunt cake in his face!

Current mood:

bouncy

Current music: Eric clapton- Layla

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

10:32PM

(SIGHT)
[ what color are your eyes? ]: brown
[ do you wear glasses/contacts? ]: nope
[ describe something beautiful ]:shiny,fun,smells good, sounds fab
[ someone you know who has beautiful eyes ]: michelle
[ first physical aspect you notice on the opposite sex: be honest! ]: ass and eyes
[ if you could see anyone or anything right now, who/what would it be? ]:i would see anthony kiedis in his boxers
(SMELL)
[ do you like your nose? ]: yah
[ what does your hair smell like? ]: *takes a whiff* shampoo
[ what is your favorite scent from everyday life? ]: suntan lotion and grass
[ if you use perfume/cologne, what kind? ]: sunflower,tommygirl and mixture os three scents or suntan lotion
[ who do you know that smells the best? ]: mika

(SOUND)
[ what kind of music do you like to listen to? ]: lots of stuff.
[ name a song that is special at this moment in time ]: for somereason matchbox2(random lol)-when your gone
[ are you a good singer? ]: sorta-kinda
[ do you play an instrument? ]: drums
[ which spoken language sounds the best? ]: russian
[ favorite everyday life sound? ]: music, or like music played from really far away
[ least favorite everyday life sound? ]: those fire alarms the go off at 8 am and wake me
[ of the people you know, who has the best-sounding voice? ]: i guess ur referring to like singing umm whumm, IMARA!

(TASTE)
[ favorite food? ]: sushi,pizza,cottoncandy,pickles
[ favorite drink? ]:any snapple
[ do you have a tongue/lip piercing? ]: no
[ what are your thoughts on coffee? ]: tea is mucho better
[ the worst taste you have ever encountered? ]: that drink that ben and matt made me drink on the cruise and ben was like all "if u take a sip ill drink half? yah well i almost threw up thanks guys
[ would you eat something disgusting for money? ]: depends on what and amount

(TOUCH)
[ do you consider yourself touch-sensitive? ]: yes,im so ticklelish
[ do you like people touching you? ]: not really
[ are you ticklish and if so, where? ]: everywhere
[ which are better: hugs or kisses? ]:hugs but definetly depends on the person
[ who was the last person you touched? ]: my mommy
[ who do you wish you could reach out and touch right now? ]. phshhh like i would ever admit that
[ favorite material to touch? ]: fleece and terry cloth

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

2:11AM - when they come for me ill be sitting at my desk with a gun in my hand wearing a bullet proof vest..

i am making a survey whoa! so everyone can do it

1 reason im happy to be alive

cuz i have so many things to accomplish

2 things i want to do more often
stop cursing, and calming down(being less of a spaz)

3 things that i cant live without

friends/family
music
sewing machine

four things that make me smile

good books or conversations
accomplishing something awesome
helping someone in need
having a bad day and listening to awesome music

five places i could be forever

my closet
on the beach
san francisco
new york city
with my friends
a mall ( o lordy im such a dork hehe)

six things i wish i could do right now

organize a huge party and invite every single person i know
change the world
give anthony kiedis a huge hug
be at an amusement park riding on rides and eating cotton candy
dancing on top of a really tall building
making an outfit for karen-o( i dont know why her) but her to be wearing to the Vma's

seven really great songs

rhcp-knock me down
the eagles-hotel california
eric clapton-layla
the who- you better you bet
catch 22- keasbey nights
brand new -guernica
smashing pumpkings - mayonaise

eight foods/drinks ja'adore

cotton candy
pickles
pizza
snapple
watermelon
gum
pretzels
freezie pops

nine friends

mika
michelle
caitlin
jen
virginia
darcy
amy
becca
sara

ten good reasons for summer

staying out lates
no hw
fun memories
vacations
beach
being lazy
learning alot and not having to be all "learning"
great food
new experiences
getting ready for a toe-tally fresh new school year!

there u have it! woo my survey u should be damn proud i lov eu guys im goignto bed ill write in the morn'

Current mood:

indescribable

Current music: catch 22

Saturday, August 14, 2004

5:05PM - o there sweet summer sweat...some dance to remember and some dance to forget!

hey ya'll i missed you on teh cruise! i had such an awesome time i met alot of new people and i had loads of fun with them! i went swimming and we walked around the cruise ship and sang and we went to kareoke and i hung out with my family it really was more than i expected it to be! anywyas im home now and its 5 pm im going to go feed rachels cat in a little while and then meet mika and we are going to chill for a little bit before i go to my daddy's house. WE are going to eat dinner and my cousins are coming over so i hope we can all have a blasty shnmasty. i want my cough to goa way but it wont listen! anyways i dont know if i should like go to *pink lemonde (code name) and be all i hope you know your a jerk. cuz he is a jerk. I mean i have beenf riends with teh guy for years and then im all i love you and then he is all i love you and asks me out and now he ignores me. and it pisses me off cuz im like your a jerk a real jerk. I just want school to start. ive seen a bunch o ppl i haven't seen in a while and everyone is getting older and more mature looking its so weird. i hope you know how excited i am for school i really am. well im going to try to post a pic right now of a bunch of camp friends. it was taken on the day we were leaving and its a pic of me, bri, lauren and mallowmar. everyone looks good in it. and i think its the best picture i have ever taken. Not to gloat or anything cuz generally im not a good picture taker. well im going to go i love you all and i promise that i will start getting more frequent with the updating! mucho happiness tons of joy and kisses!
-alana

Current mood:

happy

Current music: the eagles hotel california

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

11:51PM - im only happy when it rains......

Hey babe whats happening? long time no speak. I love michelle. So since ive been gone (i went to camp) i could write about ten pages about my exoperience at camp. So since im nto going to do that ill just start on today. This morning i woke up excited to do my project and then realized my iron sucks and i wasted my money so then i took a shower and got dressed and fue a la casa de michelle. WHen i got there we were there for like five and then we went to borders and looked around. Then we went to bagel caffee for lunch and then old navy. Then we went to lord and taylor and tried on stuff we knew we couldnt afford and then we headed on back to her home and chilled there for like five hours. SHe was cleaning out her closet so i got orange pants and jeans she doesnt wear anymore cuz i loved them. ANyways so after that i came home and ate dinner(salad) and hung out and sewed anc chopped watermelon and sewed somemore and now its twelve and i gotta finish sewing my skirt and then celan cuz im living in a mess and hopefully i can maybey see jaclyn tommorow cuz i havent seen her in like a year. o yah and michelle and I created a blurty together our user name is piggiesgomoo check it out biatch! well i love ya !!!!! exes and ohs -alana

Current mood:

giddy

Current music: the doors

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

12:58PM - The Executioners face is always hidden....

Hey hey Hey!
Havent written like a normal entry in a few weeks. Im so happy lately. I havent had like a stess breakdown in like three months which is good. i guess mainly cuz school is out and i feel so out of not beinf under pressure. wow try saying the ten times fast. this week has been rad,on sunday i went to Ruthie's graduation party.I felt alittle left out but i had a good time.The day before that i walked over like three miles with mika to find a garage sale and then we went to her home and then went to meet chelsea and Ian at haggandazz. THE GUY WASNT TJERER! rowr so then on sunday after the grad party i went to mika's and we went to her dads restaurant and then we slept over and didnt go to sleep till 6 en la manana. So after that on monday i hung around town with everyone and went to the park and then mika left and me and olga went to get dinner and then we went to the concert in the park and got yelled at by the old people when we danced lol! then everyone was like nice dancing.
then tuesday i went camp shopping with hayley and then i went to see the notebook with her! i have never cried before in a movie. omg im ashamed i really am. sdbfsdbfhsdfhsdbhkb sappy romances asjdjdasdjhaj! damnit ok so yah now its wednsday im bored but im seeing spider man two later my fish is dying :( and i have to remember to tell mika to return my movie. febreezio is only 23 which means he is only nine years older then me!!!!sbdasjkbdashbdhk!!!!! yes yes yes yes here comes a life of rich and fame muahahahahah!!! oknill stop now. plan a must work fabreezio is mine! tobey maguire me and caitlin are going to be all *gasp* tonight djfbjasdfsdbj! ok i love u and everyone!

Current mood:

happy

Current music: bob dylan

12:58PM - The Executioners face is always hidden....

Current mood:

happy

Current music: bob dylan

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

5:40PM

Thirteen random things you like (no order):
sponges
love
friends
conversations
music
cherried and grape flavored objects
good films(especially old ones)
dancing or things i can dance to
knowing the time
dictionarys(dictionaries)
bracelets
aim
summer time(and we livin easy!)

Twelve movies:
crazy/beatiful
the godfather
physco
pulp fiction
casino
harry potter
dick
loser
american beauty
sea biscuit
a guy thing
six sence

Eleven good bands/artists:
red hot chili peppers
weezer
incubus
the who
nirvana
bee gees
bob dylan
soudgarden
the strokes
the smashing pumpkins

Ten things about you ... physically:
ugly feet
full lips
chipped nail polish
big boobs
lots of dots on my arms(freckly birth marks)
brown eyes
pierced ears
tan lines from my bracelets
short hair
retainer on bottom teeth

Nine good friends:
mika
michelle
virginia
kristen
swarna
rachel
hayley
caitlin

Eight Favorite Foods/Drinks:
pizza
sushi
jello
grape juice
seltzer water
snapple
salad
grilled chicken

Seven things you wear daily:
underoos
watch
bracelts
retainer
earings
necklaces
anklet

Six things that annoy you:
chaovinists
ignorance
country music
meanies
peas
bubble bursters

Five things you touch everyday:
celluar device
mi madre
food
snapple bottles
keyboard

Four shows you watch:
degrassi
strong medicine
188(music videos)
the best week ever

Three books you can't read enough:
smack
the coldest winter ever
dictionary

Two people you have kissed
mike b
lol darcy(remember that time lol!)

One person you could spend the rest of your life with:
fabreezio moretti!!!! hot hot hot
no really uh............
i dont really know

1 non clothing item i'm wearing:
bracelets

2 clothing items i'm wearing:
ritual tank
jeans with writing

3 things i'm thinking:
asdnjkasdjsandjsand
my neck itches
im hungry but not

4 things i should be doing:
getting ready to leave
throwing out this gum that lost its flavor
cleaning my room
putting on shoes

5 things i ate today:
gum
breakfast bar
sandwich
thats it...

6 people i spoke to in person today:
the guy at barnes and noble
hayley
hayleys mom
the lady at the store whos shirt i liked
my mom
my dad
my moms friend maria

7 things i thought today but didn't say:
..i always preety much say whats on my mind
but i can remember one
when hayley was looking at a pic of this lady and said her hips are huhge i was thinkning
wth!

8 things i did today
survey
went to target
took a shower
fed my fish
bandaged my foot
banged my knee
ran to deciccos to pickl up selzter water
laughed

9 things i plan on doing in the near future
going to camp
going to the movies with caitling tommorow and hayley tonight
talking to mika
eating dinner
getting ready
getting new gum
saying bye to mi madre
asking my brother if he really is getting married?
having a fab night and loving every second on summer!

10 things i miss
??
rockos modern life
and oranges(damn allergies!)

Current mood:

excited

Current music: incubus

Friday, June 25, 2004

7:32PM - my secret is fatally gorgeous....id die for you!

1)blurty is cool
2)blurty is fine
3) blurty dances like super fly!
4) this summer better get more interesting
5)im really bored
6) u know ur really bored when your having competetions with yourself to see how many piece of gum you can put in ur mouth
7) schools over. thank you
8)happy birthday caitlin
9)*im hungry but not*
10) im trying to lose fifteen pounds
11)im going to crochet a hat
12) yea so thats my friday night
13) im a loser arent i
14) i love everybody
15)i want to go to an amusement park
16) i got a shot yesterday
17) im sooooo sooo soo angry
18) u wanna know why
19) cause anthony kiedis the love of my life! and only salvation is engaged
20)nfjsdngfkjxngjdfsgjsnjndasjnfsdjnsdnfjds
21) i must go and do a jane fonda video
22)maybey if i give into that 6 second abs infomercial i can have abs like that guy
23) only three easy payments of 33.95!
24)im going to go now
25)BYE!

Current music: Spill Canvas!

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

11:11AM - so sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick..crush me baby im all ears

fbgsdbnZDJNFjkASDNFJANjkn!!!!!! my life is complete honestly it is complete i went to DFP besides having an awesome time it was awesome! anways so taking back sunday was playing besides the fact michelle kept buggin me to buy her earing and bugging me about the fact that i STOLE tbs from her sajfnsdf and besides the fact tbs sucked live. they were fab anywayas so thats not the best part. everyband that went on went into a booth after or before there show to sighn autographs but when i went to tbs's booth there was atleast a two hour wait in which the guy at K-rock kept chantin fifteen more minutes. so mika is all im not waiting on this line so we cassually walk right past the side of the booth in which i stop to photograph adam lazzara's amazing head. my freind michelle is like lets see if he'll tuen around so we scream adam just so he will look at me. so he is all hot and i run over and say omg adam i love you. he shoots back "ur not to bad urself" which makes me want to die right there on the spot. adam lazzara just fucking complimented me holy crap. at this point securtiy gueards are screaming at me and adam is all "its cool its cool" and i was like can i take a pic with you and he is like o cousrse so we asked the security gueard to do it and then as the security guard it about to take it i scream wait the flash isnt on. adam starts laughing and the security guard is all i refuese to take this so a lady takes it for us and i hug him goodbye and walk off the fact i just hugged the love of my life and took a pic with my head pressed up against his. so then it was brand new's turn for autographs (they were good live btw) and jesse lace is just 2 fine. so at first we kinds cut the two hour wait so it was like fifteen minutes and then we kinda did the same thing we did for adaim onlyu we stood behind the booth so he would pass us as he walked by. me being the first one on the front of the line i shove my mag in jesse's face and say can u sighn it. he must hate me now becaue that caused a domino effect of everyone shoving there pics in his face. so the concert rocked. we all had a great time(me mika michelle v.a and my dad) and then at like 11 at night we went to the diner and ate it was sooo funny. virginias pasta was all buttery and michelles grilled cheese got dropped by this waiter and he was all oops! it was funnier when it happened. yesterday was my graduation so its officially summer! and hurr is a pic of adam i got off the night and he is all im preety adam lazzara and my hair is longer than alanas! lol idont worry ill post the pic of me and adam when the camara is developed!dc=4675477669596952984

Thursday, June 17, 2004

Saturday, June 12, 2004

10:28AM

i hate blurty....i love blurty

1) everytime i try to update its all im an idiot lets freeze ur compuiter and not let you update
2) its all we we im a lil girl and peeing in my pantolones and u cant update ur journal so lalalal!
3)its the weekend
4)my mom is having a bebe on tuesday
5)my brother is an ass
6)i hope this weekend doesnt suck as much as last weekend
7)why am i being so pessmisitc
8)no more evil comments i swear
9) ok just one more
10)im going to fail my E.S regents
11) ok ok all the negative energy is now gone
12)red hto chili peppers blow my mind.. i havent listend to them lately but i love them
13)caitlin is so rad!
14) i hope u know im still madlyt in love with cookies and cream and im trying to deny it
but i really really still like him....no i dont....yes i do....stop lying
15)fred(not his name) came back and now he is all ooooo i love u and i dont like him anymroe and im realy angered
16)i love my friends
17)tommorow is my dance recitial
18)i might mess up
19) shit i was negative again
20) im ussually not wtf is my porblem
21)there i go again...
22)camp soon
23) only fro two weeks and then a cruise a maj jig fo one week
24)this summer is going to be off the heaze!
25) i love everyone and want to start my morining off positively so i love you all i love love love you and want want watn to kiss you all and be all oy! ur so damn sexy because everyone is beautiful and its a beaultiful day outisde!
26)bye babay!

Current mood:

anxious

Saturday, June 5, 2004

11:46PM - No, buried treasure - we don't need it We don't stand on ceremony I love you only -I'm proud of it(

this is how im feeling right now...please dont comment and after u read this shut up and pretend like i didnt just update this song into here ....it is a great song though u must admit!

Sophie B. Hawkins - Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover

Shucks for me there is no other
You're the only shoe that fits
I can't imagine I'll grow out of it
Damn I wish I was your lover

If I was your girl believe me
I'd turn on the Rolling Stones
We could groove along and feel much better
I could do it forever and ever
Give me an hour to kiss you
Walk through heaven's door I'm sure
We don't need no doctor to feel much better
Let me in
Forever and ever and ever and ever

I sat on the mountainside with peace of mind
I lay by the ocean making love to her with visions clear
Walked for days with no one near
And I return as chained and bound to you
...................................................WEE!

today i went to this flea market and got earings and a bag and a necklace and a tie. then i ate pizza and saw mika and then i went home to get ready cuz i had to go to my cousins graduation party. it was frekin awesome
my aunt lu lu was hosting it and she is the coolest ever. she really is my idol. She is brilliant hillarious and she treats everyone with respect and she owns a bridal shop and she is just so cool and she had fake papparazzis stand outside the door and when people came they were all like blahaha bla i loved ur movie and took ur picture it was so funny. and then when we walked into the room there were dancers in funky costumes and she had like a video presentation and there was like everytype of food and there was a dj and a doo-op band thingy. it was off the hezi! anyways im at home now and i ahvent studied at all for my science test which is monday.....i hate that i dont stick to things like that everday i was like yah im going to study. i ahvent picked up a book once. uhhh i hate myself sometimes. and today i finally thought i was over cookies and cream and then i saw like the most randomest thing ever like these two ppl and all of a sudden i was like holy crap i really like him. which needs to stop this is ridicualouso. i ahte myself i hate hat hate myslef. i hate myself. i neewd to go

Current mood: ugg!

Current music: Bee Gees-buried treasure

Thursday, June 3, 2004

10:16PM - every single second that i put it off is another lonely night i gotta race the clock....

its time to updateate. ALSAS im up being stoopid and its driving me nutty. Ok ok so i havent talked to u. Last we left off i was going to long beach vhhoooom. OK so i went to longbeach it turned out we were going to this wedding shower thing fun right. ok so michelle picks me up aboot 12:30 ish and we chill and she is supposed to be doing her science hw but she isnt and i get the urge to do it so i do some preguntas and them im like o joy let me listen to my disk man so i turn it on and gfuess what! im out of battery!!!!! so then after 45 minutes we get to long beach and we are there and me and michelle are in charge of the clock game and we dont know wtf we are doing so ...im falling asleep right now as im typing. Ok so then me and mihcelle keep going on these random walks and we went to the board walk and then to this surf shop and then to starbucks and then we ate cake and had fun and left. We were going to go to New roc to see the day after tommorow cuz i realy really reeally want to see it but then when we got there we saw that it was.. u guessed it sold out. So we decided to go back to mi casa and hang out with pppl so me and mihcelle were walking amlessly around and then we saw virginia and she walked with us and then we walked and walked and walked. And then went to Rosa's so virginia could meet ring. ok. so that was fun anf then me and michelle had an arguemne ton how i cant call her a fuckiong lake(flake) and balahahahaha and then on monday i went to the parade with darcy and we were all like parade come on girl scouts and then we walked and secret message time. jah serw higm ith thre marceging bgkend! ok so im done now so then we went to virginias and then to darcys and walked around and yah it was fun. then on tuesday i went to school and my day was blah and then on wendsday it was blah but rebecca invited me over to bike ride so we did. and that was realyl fun cuz we rode our bikes and chilled and talked and it was fun and then is tayed for dinner which was nice and then that was wendsday and on thursday today it was all boringness and the making sandwiches for the midnight run thing was canceled so i went to the AC with a buncho o people whihc was really fun and we swam and that was awesome. and then i came home and chilled and sewed and talked on the phone with mika and it was awesome. and tommrow will be fun. i feel it, it will be. so long for now i love you i love you i figured out that song and i painted my celluar deivce and now im a conformist oh god and yah im relaly in the mood for a jelly bean. good night !!!

Current mood:

tired

Current music: brand new-guernica

Sunday, May 30, 2004

10:47AM - We are just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl.....

hey it is I, lets see i havent talked to you in a while so let me spill my inner emotions. Friday was my school's dinner dance. WHich was fun because i got to go. I made my dress and that was fun. so at like 4:30 on friday i went to Mika's and her uncle did moi hair and makeup. Then me and Jen chilled/got dressed while mika was getting her's done.Then we went to the dinner dance and got there. Everyone looked so preety. Everyone it was so cool. it was all preety The decorations were cheap but just so rad.Like there were these two cool squiggly colored lights on the speakers it was mucho funny. Anyways then we danced and ate(not really it wasnt ery tasty) and mingled and we just enjoyed ourselves. My mom drove me and mika to Alexa's house becasue she was having an after party. This party was not hopping. It was the opposite. hummmmmm antonyms huuuuu lets see it was dead.; hhehehehe anyways ten we when to charle's after partay and that was hop scotchin and fun. And then i went home and was saddeneded that i had to wash off all my bootiful makeup. ON saturday i woke up and got dressed and was soooooooo bored that i beaded my flipflops. I had to use my creative energy. Then i was still bored and angry for some reason so i ran to the store to get more needles because my stupid needle had broke. grrrrr diggity. Then i went to my home and Rosa called and she was like come to mi casa and im like yah id love to. So i was walking to her house and she was already at my house. Imet her friend Ring. He was very quiet but seems like the type who would open up once you knew him. We walked around amlissley for a while and like urgggg in the heatness walking and walking and then went back to Rosa's and she is all im going to take a nap. ok so at that point i left and went to met jacob and a bunch o other people. They were walking amlissley again and getting pizza. So we did and I really didnt enjoy myself. ( no offense to anyone there i was just in a bad mood) At that point who should call me. uhh Thank god mi amigo Mika. so i went to talk to her and she was like ill come over and im like yas) so she came over and we were like elts go fo a walk weee and we walked around town with a camera and got ice cream just so we can stalk to hot guy at haggendaz andwent to the shchool and found a sopt to chill in and ate gum and yah it was fun. So then we went to my house cuz mika had to pee and i was trying to tell her there is a ghost in my house and she was all id otn believe you and im like you should and she went as we were leaving bye ghost muchchchchch! and as she was leaving she tripped. Coincidence i think not.
so then jacob called us and we were like wanting to see other ppl so we walked alll the way to charle's from my house. which is like a million miles. ANd then they werent at chad's they were at 4 corners so we walked all the wya over thurr and i think i like someone lets call him inky. so at that thought i got into a fight with nmi madre and she is like be ready so at the end of my horrible day i couldnt even have fun with mika. And she couldnt sleep over and neither could i so yah. ANd now im up and i need to pee and take a sower but my brother is in theree and im excited cuz i get to go to long beach and that will be fun. And u know what else is fun that we dont ahve school tommmrow! ok ok i should go now i love yoyu have a nice day
-alana

Current music: THe spill canvas

Saturday, May 29, 2004

11:58PM

1) i stole this from meee-shell
2 i hate guys especially those who ryme with ooikies and heam
3 the world is a vampire....sent to drain
4 mika got the happy people song is mi head(i dont mind that mucho cause R.E.M is good)

5 i get to see michelle tommorow
6 ill meet brian
7 suposively he is good
8 my alarm jsut went off for no reason and scared the pantolones off of me
9 i cant believe i just ate pizza at 11"00 at night
10 i really want to stop likeing cookies and cream
11 i dont want to give up hope but i feel hopeless
12 i love mika
13 this day was a sandwich of crap
14 rebecca never returned my call
15 i met rosa's friend ring he is nice
16 my head iches
17 i could go on for hours
18 i just had severe deciavoo or however u spell it and now im facsinated
19 that was so cool and it so happened before
20 i need to research it
21 long beach tommrow with michelle
22 i should go now
23 i should stop or i could go on forever
24 i love cookies and cream
25 i ahte him
26 i love him
273842384238 i hate him

11:35PM

-- Name: Heather
-- Middle name: Alana
-- Birth date: 8-29
-- Birthplace: lalalal!
-- Current Location: da place
-- Eye Color: brown
-- Hair Color: brown
-- Height: like 5"
-- Righty or Lefty: amidexterous
-- Zodiac Sign: virgo

LAYER TWO
-- The shoes you wore today: convos
-- Your weakness: clothes
-- Your fears: clowns,nuclear war
-- Your perfect pizza:i guess all my favorite foods on one so maybey like cotton candy,pickles,cheese,olives and gum (sounds alittle gross)
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: Be happy,succesfull and love
LAYER THREE
-- Your most overused phrase[s] on IM: toe-tally
-- Your thoughts first waking up: pee-ing would be grand right now, i dont want to wake up
- Your best physical feature: meh
-- Your most missed memory: uhhh donno
LAYER FOUR
-- Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
-- McDonald's or Burger King: mdonalds but ronald mcdonald is freaky adn fast food will kill us all
-- Single or group dates: group but depends upon situation
-- Adidas or Nike: nike
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla :( how dare u think me gusta chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappucino

LAYER FIVE
-- Smoke: no
-- Cuss: yes to much
-- Sing: a tad bit to mush
-- Take a shower everyday: YEH
-- Do you think you've been in love: mayebey,*ponders* yes
-- Want to go to college: Yeh
-- Like(d) high school: i aint in high school
-- Want to get married: yeh
-- Believe in yourself: go me!
-- Get motion sickness: nope never, i think mayebey once cuz we ate like a big lunch and then sat in the middle of the ocean rocking back and forth in the windyness
-- Think you're attractive: no
-- Think you're a health freak: noo, definely not *bites into pizza*
-- Get along with your parent(s): yah i love em, but i have those momentos
-- Play an instrument: the drums but im not very good im getting better though

LAYER SIX
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yah
-- Smoked: no
-- Done a drug: no
-- Made Out: no
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall?: yep
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: no
-- Eaten sushi: yuppers

-- Been on stage: the world is a stage
-- Been dumped: noe
-- Gone skating: noy
-- Made homemade cookies: slice and bake, does that count?
-- Gone skinny dipping: proudly saying no
-- Dyed your hair: no
-- Stolen anything: adhafbasdjnfksdfhsfhksfkhbsfsdkhbfjks
-- You sound boring: well atleast i dnt have a stick up myusavdflhiasdfhilsdj, ok thearpy exercise breathing one, two.....

LAYER SEVEN
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: i danced in my bra
-- If so, was it mixed company: no
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no
-- Been caught "doing something": elaberate please, makeing cookies, having sex....
-- Been called a tease: noi
-- Gotten beaten up: noh
-- Shoplifted: oiy didnt u ask this
-- Changed who you were to fit in: hellz no and damn proud i really dislike when people do that

LAYER EIGHT
-- Age you hope to be married: i cant plan that
-- Numbers and Names of Children: i dont know
your Dream Wedding: cupcakes istead of cake, purple dresses,fourtune cookies
-- How do you want to die:o god i hope not in a freak accident
-- Where you want to go to college: F.I.T
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: fashion designer
-- What country would you most like to visit: england

LAYER NINE
In a guy/girl..
-- Best eye color? green
hair color? dark
sort or long hair: dont matter
-- Height: dont matter
-- Best weight: in the middle
-- Best articles of clothing: dont matter
date location: idk..
-- Best first kiss location: ne where

LAYER TEN
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: a foo
CDs that I own: tons
-- Number of piercings: 4
- Number of tattoos: none
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: none
-- Number of scars on my body: oh wow 2 many i always fall
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: tons.life is to short for regrets

alana's Journal

Thursday, October 21, 2004

5:24PM - Go on take the money and run...

5:24PM - Go on take the money and run...

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

5:17PM - im a lover im a sinner playing my music in the sun...

Friday, August 27, 2004

2:46PM - see the world in blue or green.....

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

10:32PM

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

2:11AM - when they come for me ill be sitting at my desk with a gun in my hand wearing a bullet proof vest..

Saturday, August 14, 2004

5:05PM - o there sweet summer sweat...some dance to remember and some dance to forget!

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

11:51PM - im only happy when it rains......

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

12:58PM - The Executioners face is always hidden....

12:58PM - The Executioners face is always hidden....

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

5:40PM

Friday, June 25, 2004

7:32PM - my secret is fatally gorgeous....id die for you!

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

11:11AM - so sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick..crush me baby im all ears

Thursday, June 17, 2004

5:37PM - Dancing queen feel the beat of the tamborine o yagh!

Saturday, June 12, 2004

10:28AM

Saturday, June 5, 2004

11:46PM - No, buried treasure - we don't need it We don't stand on ceremony I love you only -I'm proud of it(

Thursday, June 3, 2004

10:16PM - every single second that i put it off is another lonely night i gotta race the clock....

Sunday, May 30, 2004

10:47AM - We are just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl.....

Saturday, May 29, 2004

11:58PM

11:35PM