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satisfy an empty inside. [15 Sep 2004|04:09pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | breaking benjamin - so cold ] 9-12-04, sobriety date. I'm withdrawling like a mother fucker. I sure would love some meth or coke, I won't be picky...but I won't do that. I'm getting clean now. no more drugs for me, unless this gets really bad and loniness and depression gets the best of me. I'm probably spelling everything wrong right now, I don't care... Tedd refuses to talk to me. I miss him. I guess he forgot what it was like to be a "suffering addict" but he was looking for excuses to drink. suicide sounds real good right now. I'm going back to bed... post comment

I was all methed up [10 Sep 2004|11:17am] [ mood | busy ] [ music | pink floyd - comfortably numb ] Sorry, I've been gone. friend went to prison, had legal problems, but all is well now. I found a new (well new to me) form of meth, glass, oh, I've did ice before, but glass is fucking wild. I have now tried all the flavors of meth. I'll be absent again, for a few weeks, sooooooooooo, yeah, I'm fine to all that was concerned. just in hell trying to quit crack, meth, bennies, and opiates. I'm in outpatient rehab, go to NA and still can't get off the shit. funny story before I leave again, my friend, amber, before she went to prison for 8 years, had this boyfriend, who went to prison 3 days before her, well, he stole a friggin BOB CAT, the construction kind. I guess he thought he was going to sell it, maybe...who knows, meth does that, makes you crazy. anyway, if you want to get ahold of me you can email my cell phone Cell email is: ashleyd25@sprintpcs.com or call or text, I'll talk to anyone: (317)809-3109. anyway, I'll be back and hopefully be updating more often, as soon as I get things straightend up I'll be updating regularly, so yeah... and I still hate those obnoxious CELL phone ring tones...KEEP IT SIMPLE PEOPLE. you're fucking with my psycosis. later. post comment

dead - ication [10 Jul 2004|12:47pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | evanecence - my tounaquet ] Two days ago, I sold my prescription of xanax for 60. I also sold percocetes. I bought coke. Now I'm left with nothing. 3 comments|post comment

Satisfy an empty inside [02 Jul 2004|04:12pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | 311 - love song ] I'm surrounded by a bunch of nerds playing video games and smoking pot, drinking, coke-ing, among other things. Every three seconds someones cell phone rings, different rings, some pathetic like those stupid music ringers, Its like their phone demands them to get up and dance when someone calls. Me, I have a cell phone, I like the antique ringers, the basic "ring, ring, ring" I don't feel the need to throw a party everytime my phone rings. I just don't get it. I am drifting farther down a black hole. We are waiting for a call from the meth dealer. well, I am anyway... Lab got shut down for some time...it's safe for now....for now....as safe a meth lab could be, I suppose...whatever. Someone puked on my rug...I have to go, he just past out. I'll be back soon. post comment

Blow... [02 Jul 2004|03:45pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | everyone in my house.... ] This journal is friends only. Why? you ask, is it friends only? because I like it that way, thats why. About Myself My name is Ashley, I'm a 20 year old female, I am an addict, I do not discriminate against drugs, if its mind altering, it's mine. I am currently trying to arrest my addiction by going to these Narcotics Anonymous meetings. I have a problem, but it is not yours...so mind your business. My main drug of choice is cocaine, primus, not crack, although I like the rock from time to time. If you've ever been to an NA meeting they'll tell you it's "Jails, institutions and death" I am higher than 10 hippies right now. I hear voices and live in a dark circle beneath my bed. 3 comments|post comment

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