Meghan

11:43am: a bag of bones.
my big city dreams are cramped inside this miniscule town,
& i always find myself itching to get out
i'm growing, learning and trying to make sense,
but when it comes to decisions i'm always on the fence.
i say i'm always right and think my opinions are the only choice
i stand by my decisions and will always raise my voice.
jealousy is embedded in my thick head,
but with loved ones i stay true to until the very end.
i will to go extreme measures just to make you smile,
please trust me when i say i will go that extra mile.
i try to have an understanding tone,
mainly because loyalty is in my bones.
i throw all i have into the things that mean the most,
heart, mind, body - that's the way things go
i make many mistakes but have not one regret,
they make me who i am today although they make me fret.
i love with all my heart and have no room for hate,
i am a firm believer of karma, soulmates and fate.
you can call me whatever you please, and you may judge
remain silent or make fun, but i will not budge
i am slowly but surely finding myself, so i will change alot,
but i will continue to do so until i'm comfortable enough to stop.

10:05pm: scribbles.
See, I've got dreams outgrowing this miniscule town
And I start to ache everytime..break everytime...I come around.
Back from the city, and just off the train
I take in familiar faces, that can ease the pain
Of my big city thoughts, hopes and dreams
cramed in this cramped town, i'm stuck in between.
All the lies and the times, memories and love ones dear,
Adn once I'm gone I know I'll miss what I left here.
But I know it's for the best,
So I guess I better get some rest...

Cause tomorrow, oh
I'll be on my way out, oh.
A one way ticket to my brand new home
Toss my bags to the side -- this is where I belong.
& I'm sure, oh that the pain will fade.
& I know, oh that the aching will subside.
We will be alright,
So put aside the fright
Optimistic thinking will save us tonight.
Maybe we'll be granted that one extra step
that is need to keep that million dollar smile I get
When I hear your name or catch a glimpse of your face
I can whine, I may cry, but soon I'll feel your embrace...

But I'm not going back, no oh.
I am homebound, oh oh
& that is how I'm planning to live...for now.


I'll bite my cheecks til they bleed
Just to hid the smiles you breed.
From thoughts of you,
Make jitters come faster
Followed by butterflies not too far after.

7:11pm: My friends here are too far,
From my mind and from my heart
But those who live so far away,
In my heart they seem to stay.

You are tired, they are true
This is all up to you,
Here I am, heres your chance
Will you take me as I am?

I'll be loyal, I will always make you smile
But if you could only go that extra mile
I've tried and been betrayed, told a lie
But I'll always need you by my side.

Only if you made a lasting effort
I'll always be here for comfort...
Call me once & I'll drop everything
You can call me an eagle and i'll take you under my wing.

This is forever,
Best friends never say never
I have your back and that you'll learn,
I hope it is the same when the tables turn.

You are tired, they are true
This is all up to you
Here I am, heres your chance
Will you take me as I am?

Yes I admit I need you by my side,
So one last time.. will you confide in me?
We have made it and if we try
We will make it through until we die.

7:05pm: I want to wake up, dream and figure this all out
I want to live this life without any doubt
I want to find my heartsong
(Would you sing along?)

I could leave this town all behind
Scream and shout up at the sky
For all this wrong I have caused
I guess when I leave there will be no loss

I may be alone,
But I know I can make it on my own...

You can doubt me, you can judge
While you all keep making fun
I'll be wild, I'll be free
This is all up to me.

I can say I don't need you
But we both know thats not half true.
Good thing I'm a terrible liar,
But my intentions are as desired...

Heres to the sleepless nights
All those pointless fights,
Overstrained chords (both vocal and guitar)

I'm trusting my decisions this one time
I admit i'll mess up, but in the end i'll shine.
And I promise not to forget you in any way
Cause if I'm gone, you're coming with me.

10:58am: Homebound
Should I really feel this alone
In my so-called home?
Maybe it’s not aimless thinking,
Wondering if i should pack my things
Middle of the night, set out running.

I promise you I’d let go, I’d give up everything
Just for this one dream of mine
I’d trade these friends of mine
Just for my one moment in time
To capture the attention of a crowd
For just even two full minutes
Explain myself and pour my heart out
Through these words scribbled out,
Typed rushed to get done
Hiding and hidden from the eyes of those familiar faces
But just comfortable enough to let out to strangers.

I’d give everything, down to my last dollar
Just to let go, set out to places unfamiliar
Collecting names as I cross state lines
My wallet thinning and my bank account lessening.
I’d give it all, just to get this one dream of mine.
If I was down to a penny, I’d throw it over my shoulder
Into the fountain, if it meant one more chance at this wish coming true.

I hope you were listening when I said
“I’m in the east coast now, but I’m west coast bound”
I really hope you were listening, preparing your lips for this,
Gloating, “I knew her before she was famous”

Because I promise you when I say,
I’ve never felt so strongly, I’ve never felt so right
I’ll be out of this cramped town, by tonight.
Heading on to big cities that can hold my hopes, dreams and thoughts
I’ll write to you when I can, but know I’m not coming back.
I’ve made it out, ‘Los Angelos…10 miles’ I’m homebound now.

2:41pm: xo
i am spending my sunday watching my cousin. but it's alright with me cause he's the only person i can talk to about the jonas brothers without getting a weird look, well other than callie-rose. hahaha, i love my life.