| fa la la la la fa la la la la - decided to make this public |
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| 05:14pm 26/06/2003 |
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mood:  weird music: dr. phil talking about self-esteem
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I feel wierd.. I feel alone but i'm fine with it. It's wierd, I don't care when I'm alone. I'm happy when I'm out with friends doing stuff but when I'm not, it doesn't bother me. When people ask "So what'd you do this weekend?" and I reply "Oh, I stayed home, did errands with parents, hung around my house." They respond with "Oh, I'm sorry, that sux." Hello?? Why does that suck? That's fun to me.. I don't know I feel so distant, so different. My idea of fun would be spending the whole day listening to music and reading books. But most people like this hate being around people but that's not true either.. I have fun being out with friends.. ugh so confusing. So what did I do today? I woke up at like 10 which is kind of early considering I went to bed at 2 am. I woke up and read (White Oleander.. so good!) ate, did some cleaning. Then talked on the phone to one of my firnds for a while. It's wierd, there are so many silences when i talk to them. I feel so boring, like there's nothing to talk about. it's because we're so different.. I could talk forever about the lyrics of Something Comporate songs or talking about rap artists or talking about books. But her.. I don't even feel like I know her.. But we have fun when we're together, we just talk about random stuff.
I LOVE MYSELF! I LOVE MYSELF! I LOVE MYSELF! I LOVE MYSELF!
lol, jsut trying to have good self esteem!
You know what's sick? I'm actually ::excited:: about school. hehe. I get to see everyone again, especially :him: I had a dream about him a few nights ago..He asked me out and we started making out.. lol
Sigh, he's so awesome. Hehe I'm all giddy now. |
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| 12:29pm 26/06/2003 |
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mood:  chipper music: "Are we cuttn'?" Pastor Troy!
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ALright, This journal is FriEndS only! This is because I don't know who is reading this.. But all you have to do is ComMenT and on this entry and I will AdD you! Okay? Okay!
Love ya! |
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