:: for you id bleed myself dry ::'s Journal

today would have been our anniversary...*sobs*

there is no greater sorrow than to recall in misery the time when we were happy.
~Dante Alighieri

of course, this day went slower than any other day in my entire life.

1. What time is it? 11.42pm
2. Name that appears on your birth certificate: Megan Kate Barrett
3. Nicknames: Megs, Meg, Meggie, Cutie, mega mega, Turbo
4. Number of candles that will appear on your next birthday cake: 18
5. Date that you will blow them out: July 7th
6. Kids : Naw, not yet
7. Pets: A dog
8. Eye colour: Milk Dud brown
9. Hair colour: Naturally, sandy brown w/ bits of red
10. Piercings: 5 in each ear, my labret...used to have tongue, nipples, and septum but took them out
11. Tattoos: 5 - tegan on right arm, sara on left arm, pink ribbon w/ moms initials on chest, angel on left shoulder, and a little guy on my right upper arm
12. Favourite Activities: Music stuffs...computer. i dunno
13. Favourite colour: Green, Brown, Cherry ish wood colour. Burgendy
14. Hometown: Rock Island, Il
15. Current residence: Rock Island, Il
16. Favourite food: Prolly shouldnt write that down...
17. Been to Africa or Australia? No, but I'd love to go to Australia
18. Been toilet papering: nope
19. Loved somebody so much that it made you cry? Mos dddefinitly
20. Been in a car accident?: *shudders to think* yes
21. Croutons or bacon bits: Whatevers clever
22. Sprite or 7-up: whatevers clever
23. Favorite movies: High Art, Love and Other Catastrophes, If These Walls Could Talk 2, Better Than Chocolate, Super Troopers, Playing By Heart, American Beauty, Daredevil *only b/c me and tami saw it together* Best In Show, A Mighty Wind, Finding Nemo..the list goes on
24. Favorite Holiday: Christmas rawks
25. Favorite day of the week: Thursday
26. Favorite word or phrase: 'pthht'
27. Favorite toothpaste: Whatever tastes decent
28. Favorite Restaurant: Noodles and Company, Theos, or Adolfs
29. Favorite flower: Whatevers clever..black roses are sexy though
30. Favorite cola: Depends on mood
31. Favorite T.V. shows: A & E specials, adult oriented cartoons
32. Favorite type of ice cream: Almond Joy, Mint Chocolate Chip...whateva
33. Favorite Sesame Street Character: Snuffalopogus *Snuffy*
34. Disney or Warner Bros.: Disney
35. Favorite fast food restaurant: Checkers
36. What color is your bedroom: Grey :)
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test: I didnt
38. Who is the last person you got e-mail from before this: Newsletter from Evanescence i believe
39. Have you ever been convicted of a crime: No, but people have accused me of doing something that has consequences through the law
40. What single store would you choose to max out your credit card in: Target or Wal Mart or Best Buy
41. What do you do most often when you are bored: Shit on the computer, mess with my guitar, think
42. Name the person that you are friends with that lives the farthest away: PIera, Gina, or Tia
43. Most annoying thing people ask me: Are you SURE you're okay?
44. Bedtime: Whenever I fall asleep..generally the wee hours of the morning
45. Who will respond the quickest? no one
46. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond: I dunno
47. Favorite sport: Softball
48. Last person you went out to dinner with: Lisa from work..just an hour or so ago
49. Last movie you saw in theatre: either A Mighty Wind or Finding Nemo..i forget
50. How many broken bones: 1 my foot.
51. Going to the lake, would you rather ski or Seadoo? Seadoo baby
52. If you had to live on a coast: either california, washington state, or somewhere in new england *vermont or maryland or something*
53. Favorite Pie: Not a pie fan actually
54. Favorite comic strip: Garfield, Peanuts, Zits, Baby Blues, Cathy
55. Time you finished: 12.04am

I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think i'm weak, I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
Now I'm relaxed, I can't be sure

I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life
I think I'm scared
I think too much
I know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm feeling

If you're gone, maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
but I can hardly move
If you're gone, baby you need to come home
There's a little bit of something me
in everything in you

I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you mean, more than you mind

I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life
I think I'm just scared that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling

If you're gone, maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
but I can hardly move
If you're gone, baby you need to come home
There's a little bit of something me
in everything in you

I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I need this in my life
I think I'm scared
Do i talk too much
I know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm feeling

If you're gone, maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
but i can hardly move
If you're gone, baby you need to come home
There's a little bit of something me
in everything in you

i miss my tami :(

my sweet my dear my darling
you're so far away from me
though an ocean of tears divides us
let the bridge of our love span the sea

your kiss
there's a kiss at the end of the rainbow
more precious than a pot of gold.

i miss my baby

what'll happen when you're gone
miles away and i'm all alone
without my best friend by my side
i'll always remember how we laughed and cried

will i know what to do
when the sky is falling down
will you answer me
when i'm calling out
hear the angels sing
let your voice ring loud and long
ease my pain
heal my wounds
just tell me you're coming soon
coming soon

i see your face
i know i'm fine
you held my hand
as i crossed the line
you were there
through the fear
and all i need is to
hear you coming
coming
coming
coming
coming here

Your Tongue's Talent is Kissing!

You're the shy, silent type. You haven't had much experience at all, and you keep it quiet.

You love playing sweet and innocent, but you have naughty fantasies too. Your sweet little tongue is perfect for teasing.

You love to get your lovers all excited. But you can't keep letting them down, or you'll be left lonely.

Come out of your shell a little, experiment with new things. You've mastered kissing... it's time to be a little more daring!

You'd be most compatible with a Pussy Licker! This expert tongue magician will show you what's only been in your fantasies. You're inexperienced, so you don't want to go full blown just yet. A Pussy Licker will slowly inch towards the dark side.

What's Your Tongue's Talent?

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Close your eyes, you're beautiful when you're sleeping
Tonight may all your dreams come true.
It's so nice to hold you while you're sleeping
When I'm sleeping next to you

And what we got is something special,
And what we are is a perfect match,
And three-thousand miles can never come between us
No matter what we do it's always you and me
And it's always me and you.

I know sometimes it's lonely while you're sleeping,
Well it's lonely for me too.
It's alright just know that while I'm sleeping
That I'm dreaming of you

And what we've got is something special
And what we are is a perfect match
And three-thousand miles can never come between us
We always have the stars to wish upon from where I'm at,
And where you are.

Goodnight
Goodnight
Goodnight, love
Goodnight

i miss you. i heart you. i love you tam.

Why did the chicken cross the road?
>
>
> GEORGE W. BUSH
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>
> We don't really care why the chicken crossed the road. We just want to
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> know if the chicken is on our side of the road or not. The chicken is
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> either with us or it is against us. There is no middle ground here.
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> AL GORE
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>
> I invented the chicken. I invented the road. Therefore, the chicken
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> crossing the road represented the application of these two different
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> functions of government in a new, reinvented way designed to bring
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> greater
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> services to the American people.
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> COLIN POWELL
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>
> Now at the left of the screen, you clearly see the satellite image of
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> the
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> chicken crossing the road.
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> HANZ BLIX
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>
> We have reason to believe there is a chicken, but we have not yet been
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> allowed access to the other side of the road.
>
>
> MOHAMMED ALDOURI (Iraq ambassador) The chicken did not cross the road.
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> This is a complete fabrication. We don't even have a chicken.
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>
> SADDAM HUSSEIN
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>
> This was an unprovoked act of rebellion and we were quite justified in
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> dropping 50 tons of nerve gas on it
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> RALPH NADER
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>
> The chicken's habitat on the original side of the road had been
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> polluted
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> by unchecked industrialist greed. The chicken did not reach the
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> unspoiled
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> habitat on the other side of the road because it was crushed by the
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> wheels
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> of a gas-guzzling SUV.
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> PAT BUCHANAN
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> To steal a job from a decent, hard-working American.
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> RUSH LIMBAUGH
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> I don't know why the chicken crossed the road, but I'll bet it was
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> getting
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> a government grant to cross the road, and I'll bet someone out there is
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> already forming a support group to help chickens with crossing-the-road
>
> syndrome. Can you believe this? How much more of this can real
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> Americans
>
> take? Chickens crossing the road paid for by their tax dollars, and
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> when
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> I
>
> say tax dollars, I'm talking about your money, money the government
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> took
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> from you to build roads for chickens to cross.
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>
> MARTHA STEWART
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>
> No one called to warn me which way that chicken was going. I had a
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> standing order at the farmer's market to sell my eggs when the price
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> dropped to a certain level. No little bird gave me any insider
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> information.
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> JERRY FALWELL
>
>
> Because the chicken was gay! Isn't it obvious? Can't you people see the
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> plain truth in front of your face? The chicken was going to the "other
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> side." That's what they call it -- the other side. Yes, my friends,
>
> that
>
> chicken is gay. And, if you eat that chicken, you will become gay too.
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> I
>
> say we boycott all chickens until we sort out this abomination that the
>
> liberal media whitewashes with seemingly harmless phrases like "the
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> other
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> side."
>
>
> DR. SEUSS
>
>
> Did the chicken cross the road?
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>
> Did he cross it with a toad?
>
>
> Yes, The chicken crossed the road, But why it crossed, I've not been
>
> told!
>
>
> ERNEST HEMINGWAY
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> To die. In the rain. Alone.
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> MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.
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>
> I envision a world where all chickens will be free to cross roads
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> without
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> having their motives called into question.
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>
> GRANDPA
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>
> In my day, we didn't ask why the chicken crossed the road. Someone told
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> us
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> that the chicken crossed the road, and that was good enough for us.
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>
> BARBARA WALTERS
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>
> Isn't that interesting? In a few moments we will be listening to the
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> chicken tell, for the first time, the heart-warming story of how it
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> experienced a serious case of molting and went on to accomplish its
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> life-long dream of crossing the road.
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> JOHN LENNON
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>
> Imagine all the chickens crossing roads in peace.
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>
> ARISTOTLE
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> It is the nature of chickens to cross the road.
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> KARL MARX
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> It was an historical inevitability.
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> VOLTAIRE
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> I may not agree with what the chicken did, but I will defend to the
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> death
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> its right to do it.
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>
> RONALD REAGAN
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>
> What chicken?
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>
> CAPTAIN KIRK
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> To boldly go where no chicken has gone before.
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> FOX MULDER
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> You saw it cross the road with your own eyes! How many more chickens
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> have
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> to cross before you believe it?
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> SIGMUND FREUD
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> The fact that you are at all concerned that the chicken crossed the
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> road
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> reveals your underlying sexual insecurity.
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>
> BILL GATES
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>
> I have just released eChicken 2003, which will not only cross roads,
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> but
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> will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your
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> checkbook
>
> -
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> and Internet Explorer is an inextricable part of eChicken.
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> ALBERT EINSTEIN
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>
> Did the chicken really cross the road or did the road move beneath the
>
> chicken?
>
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> BILL CLINTON
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>
> I did not cross the road with THAT chicken. What do you mean by
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> chicken?
>
>
> Could you define chicken, please?
>
>
> COLONEL SANDERS
>
>
> I missed one? >>

They couldn't have told me
That it would be like this
That it could be like this
For you

I wish I would have known
That it could be like this
That it would be like this
For you

I know you're hurting
I know you're reaching out
I'm sure you wonder what this is all about
You couldn't sweat full, full words be known to you
I'm sure you feel it
You know I feel it too

Sometimes the hardest things in life
Are the things we have to do
And even when we feel it's right
I never want to hurt you

It's never simple
Deciding what should be
There's still a void here
When you're an absentee
You could be angry
But you're a bigger man
We know you'll make it
Never forget to stand

Sometimes the hardest things in life
Are the things we have to do
And even when we feel it's right
I never want to hurt you

You have always been
You always will
You have always been a part of me
You have always been a part of me
You will always be a part of me
You will always be a part of me
You will always be a part of me
You've always been a part

The hardest things in life
Are the things we have to do
And even when we feel it's right
I never want to hurt you

Sometimes the hardest things in life
Are the things we have to do
And even when we feel it's right
I never want to hurt you

juliana theory - the hardest things

thank you for coming, dont forget to tip your waitress on the way out.

You Are A Vanilla Flavored Condom!

Yummy and easygoing - unless it comes to kinky sex.

You innocently seek romance and are often lured into compromising positions.

You're the most likely of all flavors to be a virgin.

What Flavor Condom Are *You*?

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You Are Ben Wa Balls!

Put them in

And make things tight

Get ready to shoot

With all your might

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If you go away on this summer's day,
Then you might as well take the sun away
All the birds that flew in the summer sky
When our love was new and our hearts were high
When the day was young and the nights were long
And the moon stood still for the night bird's song
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a day
Like no day has been, or will be again
We'll sail on the sun, we'll ride on the rain
And talk to the trees and worship the wind
But if you go, I'll understand
Leave me just enough love to fill up my hand
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you will
You must tell the world to stop turning
Till you return again, if you ever do,
For what good is love without loving you?
Can I tell you now, as you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly till the next hello
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a night
Like no night has been, or will be again
I'll sail on your smile, I'll ride on your touch
I'll talk to your eyes that I love so much
But if you go, I won't cry
Though the good is gone from the word goodbye
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you must
There is nothing left in this world to trust
Just an empty room, full of empty space
Like the empty look I see on your face
I'd have been the shadow of your shadow
If you might have kept me by your side
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

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You are Love.

You love life, you love all those around you and
the world that you live in. You are happiest
when you are doing something for someone else
or for the common good of mankind.

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right now feels so windy
and someday will be ending
until I've done all that I can
all that
until I've done all that I can
all that
one day it'll get easier
cos right now
I feel so simple
until I've done all that I can
all that
until I've done all that I can
and so I said
hello hello hello
I'm right here
oh hello hello hello
I'm right here
I'm right here waiting for
drinking to yesterday's news
I'm sorry I was late I was so blue
oh my head hurts from holding your hand
and I'm young but it's hard to believe
that some day I will never see you again
and you might not believe this
but you've changed me so much
but baby it's so hard leaving you
and maybe, maybe this was the only,
the only way yeah, yeah
but right now
I wish I was older
and right now
you look so simple
now is not a good time
oh no
now is not a good time
oh no
and so I said
hello hello hello
I'm right here
I said
hello hello hello
I'm right here
I'm right here waiting for
drinking to yesterday's news
I'm sorry I was late I was so blue
oh my head hurts from holding your hand
and I'm young but it's hard to believe
that some day I will never see you again
and you might not believe this
but you've changed me so much
but baby, baby it's so hard leaving you
and maybe, maybe this was the only,
the only way yeah, yeah
but baby, baby it's so hard leaving you
and maybe, maybe this was the only,
the only way yeah, yeah
but baby, baby it's so hard leaving you
and maybe, maybe this was the only,
the only way yeah, yeah
cos someday I will never see you again

things arent well. i dont think my girlfriend loves or likes me anymore. i dont know what the hell is going on b/c she isnt talking to me really. and maybe im just blowing things out of proportion in my mind, but thats how it feels. she isnt coming up for gay prom at the end of the month like she said she would do. i dont know when ill see her again...hell, i dont even know when ill talk to her again. she was supposed to call tonight but she hasnt. and she wont, i know she wont.

im lost. i dont know what to do.

the end.

Another day you're not with me but we can always be together in our dreams
So I'll await for you tomorrow, and think of all the good times and the places we will go
But I am laughing all the while, because I can see you smile
At all those times we've had alone so I'll refuse to feel the pain I feel within
And tell you once again, please don't go because I don't want to say goodbye another night
so let's just work it out, you're my life, so why not stay with me for just another night?
Another night has passed again and without you in my life there's an emptiness within
While others grow tired of each other through the years, I meet you for the first time every day I see you here

if someone can tell me what song this is and who its by, it would be most appreciated it. it is so beautiful and i havent the slightest clue. thanks. other than that, enjoy. ill make a real post later tonight after i get my school work done..and if im not too tired.

some days are better than others, some days you just cant figure out

~meredith brooks