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and so i begin to rant.. well not really.. i'm not EXACTLY ranting, i just want to say what's in my head right now.. i haven't seen my lj friends journals yet.. hmm..maybe i should start blog hopping? but that could get me into trouble AGAIN.. so what? it's not like im hacking on their journal? i;m just, looking around..besides, they posted those on PUBLIC view for all the world to see..so why worry? right? then again, there are just some people who are (for some reason) plain unreasonable.. that sounds really confusing.. let me reinstate that.. there are people who post stuff in PUBLIC view, then go ballistic when they found out that someone was able to read their entry..i think they're either ignorant or just plain STUPID.. tsktsktsk! good luck!
i think i still have issues.. this may sound really weird..but what the hell? i saw ***** and, it just didn't feel right.. i felt what i felt the first time i read THE blog.. is that bad? i said i was over the whole thing more than 5 times already!!! but howcome i feel this way? i just don't understand.. i don't wanna see any of them, seeing them makes me feel really really REALLY bad.. am i still wallowing? am i insecure? am i holding a grudge? or am i just plain weird??? I HONESTLY DO NOT KNOW! but i do know one thing, i'm ok with kat&steven.. maybe because they said sorry? hmm..maybe..i can only assume.. trust is a very big thing..you HAVE to earn it..and throwing it out on the window signals the end of it..it's a HUGE thing..
am i loser for not watching the incredibles? i've been wanting to watch the freaking movie the moment i saw the trailer..and now, i can't watch it... DARN RELSFOR!!! DARN FILIPI2!!! DARN NFOSYST!!! DARN ALL TIME CONSUMERS!!! anyway, i want to watch it..so i WILL watch it..
there's a transport strike today but we're not affected..we ride a bus and those buses have their own gasoline station so they're not affected by oil price hikes except in the world market..am i saying it right? hehehe! oh well, good luck to those who have to take a jeep..
this is the hard part... last tuesday we enrolled online..and we did NOT enroll in ctthes2.. i'm just sad because i know most of us will graduate by june..but we will be left behind until october..HE will graduate in june, I will be left till october..i know that once we graduate it does not guarantee that we will end up in the same company..but now that it's becoming clearer to me, it is scaring me..because once we accept that diploma on-stage..EVERYTHING will change..and i mean everything..it's just so scary.. besides, i still don't know where i'm good at? my first option is to apply for GAME MASTER at levelupgames.ph, i know it's pathetic but i like the job..i like what they do and i think i would be productive there.. i like building my website, although i abandoned mine, i like doing stuff like that.. i'm not good at circuits, i barely survived my CE subjects getting mostly 1.0's.. i can work with databases but they are a HUGE pain in the rear.. >.< programming, i can do but i'm not very keen on that one..i enjoy programming (sometimes) but it can be really exhausting if you're trying to beat deadlines..from what i've been hearing, deadlines are NOT NEGOTIABLE and projects are NOT EASY..scary.. we'll all be graduating in less than a year.. question is, where will we end up? will we (and i mean all) still see each other after graduation? will our friendship be that strong? ..i hope things would work out fine..
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