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No more official touch rugby trainings post-Asian Schools Championships.
But Derelyn was saying we could play recre touch with Blacks. And if I decide to play recre with them, I'm gonna work on my passes. Long passes. Learn to do solid passes. Yep (: Well anyway, Asians was a three day event from the 8th to 10th of December - really tiring, both physically and mentally. Entry fee was a whooping $700. I wonder how much Touch Singapore charged all the overseas schools from Australia, South Africa and Hong Kong. We played against 8 schools (where 4 were Aussie schools) in the Girls 18 category - won 2 lost 6. Got 7th in our table of 9 schools, and managed to play in the quarter-finals against Wagga Wagga High. I can't really remember our scores but the worst thrashing we got was 12-0. But we managed to thrash OFS 6-0, which is not bad. Gained and learnt alot from the competition. Exposure and experience. Well I came into the competition knowing that there were far better schools and that it'd be hard for us to be one of the top schools of our category. But I'm glad we participated, cos it was nice seeing how the Australians play - they're really good. I can't describe how good they are. It was nice mingling with the other schools - although we didn't get close enough to exchange contacts or anything. But at least we took photos (: for memory's sake. I don't regret the experience and I wouldn't miss an opportunity such as the Asian Schools Championships. But I wished I had played better. It just wasn't happening for me. Injured my wrist. It hurts when I do push ups or even eat. I was lacking in stamina and perseverance. It sucks cos I had to keep subbing in and subbing out cos I couldn't sustain the 25 minutes games. Khai kept telling me to sustain. I'm a centre for God's sake! I NEED TO BE FIT. But I wasn't and that really angered and frustrated me. I let my coaches and my team down cos I couldn't sustain and couldn't concentrate on creating and completing my moves. I'm a centre, I need to command my teammates. I dictate where the ball goes. I tried. I really tried, really hard. It was okay, but sometimes it just wasn't happening. Whenever I subbed out, I felt like shit. Useless. I let myself down cos I couldn't control my emotions and I gave up too easily. During the quarter finals against Wagga Wagga, an opponent kicked the ball into my stomach. I didn't think. I just showed her my middle finger and stared at her. Turned my back to her and she threw the ball at me. Val had to tell her to "pass the ball properly". I don't know whether that girl had deliberately kicked the ball to my stomach. But I don't think she did. And I shouldn't have made that rude gesture to her. The spectators saw what I did, and I'm ashamed of myself. But I did apologise to her and her team after the game - and I'm glad I did. I'm not showing a good example to my team. I mean I am their captain after all and they look up to me. I don't want to be a bad captain - I want to be the best I can be. I don't want to lose the respect they have for me. But most importantly, I do not want to influence them. I think some of them already are. But as a captain I need to be more responsible. Be aware of what I'm portraying. Cos there are followers.
Well I just want to apologise to my team too.
And I wanna tell myself to put away this whole pathetic episode, and learn to control my feelings, on field and off field, especially at home too haha! Shit man! Oh well, there's still so much I wanna blog about pertaining to the competition, but 3 days worth of stuff is really alot, plus my mind will go bonkers if I blog about all that. So yeah, since I'm lazy, I decided to just make a photo collage of the photos that Shiwei and I had taken (: I loveeee making collages! ( Asians! )
Cheers!
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