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i remember the day before i started my freshman year at LHS, i thought 'this year is going to suck'.even tho i allready did a review of the year, i had the best time in freshman year.
the end of the school year was getting close, and i couldnt wait for june 26th.i knew that this summer would be interesting. and fuck, was i right. words cant describe how happy i get just thinking back to what ive done and whats gone on this summer.
i have gone to so many shows, drove around, constant mall trips, hanging out late, drinking, sex, humping, dancing,lying to parents, stripping, biking, shopping,singing, hugging, etc and hanging out with people from ridgefield, ridgefield park, palisades park,leonia, edgewater, fort lee, cliffside, bogota,new york, fairview,and all over jersey.i met so many people, got closer with the old ones, and became better friends with some old friends.
i found a lover and found true friends. friends that would cry for me, walk 2 hours home for me, call my cell looking for me, lie for me, give me money, hug me when i wanted and needed to be hugged, got into fights for me, you name it they did it. this summer was truely full of love, and even tho i expierenced some down times, it was worth it. every moment we shared together ill never forget, and i know ill see him again, hopefully soon. always hanging out, phone calls, convos online, not watching movies on your bed, kissing, hugging. walking, holding hands, humping, and of course sexing! everything was great, and i miss it so much but you changed me so much. thanx = )
even tho i wasnt in school, i learned alot.i learned that people do appreciate me for who i am, and people do care about me. honestly, 95% of this summer i felt so loved. i was capable of having deep and meaningful conversations and hang outs with people about true shit. and i realized that just by voicing your opinion and being who you are and not trying to act like someone else to seem cool, you can have a good time. i learned that from real people, real true people who dont give a fuck about trying to impress someone.
it was truely fucking amazing, especially the fact that i stayed home maybe 5 days out of the whole summer. and 3 of those days i was sick and dying. every day i was out and hanging out with my friends, who i love so much because without them im actually not that nervous about going to LHS anymore. im realizing that i should appreciate being in highschool, and especially since i have about 4 good friends out of highschool allready, they have been giving me advice. and now i can see that even if i get shit from people, drama, and tears i should try to have the best time and try my best in school.highschool is truely one of the hardest times for me right now, but im also realizing that the drama disappears fast. if i just keep hanging out and having a good time with my friends, everything will be allright and ill be able to be happy as much as i can.
so now as i sign off and get ready to start a whole new school year, i wonder if, this school year will be just as great and interesting as last year; it will be 2x's the greatness; or it will suck. hopefully it will be even better, and before i know it, ill find myself in june writing about how much fun i had as a sophmore.
"Summertime and the livin's easy" ~Sublime
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