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an extremely eventful weekend::
on friday i went to ninas party around 6 30-ish. i had my bookbag which had an ounce n a half of weed, a bra, shorts, a thong, and deoderant in it. so i took my bag in the house and put it next to the couch. of course there were like 7 parents there, and ninas cousins who were about 20 or so.
so i went outside with brooke, erin, ariel, sarah, breanin, and dez. we just went up on some hill and sat down and started talking because the party was so boring. then ninas cousin and somebody else came up and started walking around up there looking over at us every two seconds, they looked all around to see if we hid shit in places or something. but eventually they went away. but of course they kept coming back. then john and campbell came. they had huge bags of shit so we told him to walk down to collins house and put everything there. then as he started walkin over towards the road ninas cousin edith stopped him and asked him what was in the bags. so he held it up and said 'just clothes and a sleeping bag.' and edith said ' no i meant the blue plastic bag' so john took a shirt out and said 'clothes' and edith yells at him and tells him not to get an attitude. so anyways, he walks down to collins. then those girls kept comin up to look at what we were doing. and i eventualy got really mad so i started walkin down the hill to find nina. then her mom starts yelling and tells her that she wants everyone where she can see em. so i just walked up the hill and told everyone that i was goin to collins. so me, brooke, ariel, sarah, nina, erin, and breanin all went there.
so we got there and i hid all my shit in some shed or something. i think everyone who was there was me, ariel, sarah, brooke, erin, breanin, curtis, collin, jordan, john, campbell, teddy, elliott, matt.. i think thats it. we all went in the back and made a bonfire or somethin....
so elliott was all over me and he wouldnt stop following me around and i was getting really pissed. but i didnt wanna say anything. but he started running somewhere and he grabbed my hoody and was practically choking me so i yelled and told him to get the fuck off me. then it was getting really cold so i went over by teddy cuz he was laying on a pool tube thing. and i just layed down on him cuz it was really comfortable and warm. and of course elliott comes over and tries to sit there too. and he did it about 7 times, no matter where i was sitting. but eventually brooke, sarah, ariel, and erin all left. so randy pence came over and we had him do a beer run for us. when he got back we had smirnoff<3, corona<3, and bud<3. my favorites. so i sat down with teddy and we were drinkin a smirnoff. then we were gonna leave soon so i decided to start smokin then.
so i got out the weed n john got a bowl. and we went in the back.... i dont remember everyone who was there, like 5 people.... and i brought my whole bookbag, so it still had everything in it. but then we realized we had to seperate the seeds n stems n shit so m n curtis went back up by the fire and started doin that. then matt comes running up towards me and he has a black bra on over his shirt. and he goes 'IS THIS YOUR BRA?!?' and starts running around. so i started running after him and we ran all over the yard until i slipped on the grass, and just fell down and started cracking up. but anyways, we went back to the fire and were about to smoke it but it wouldnt light. the weed was really old. but it smelled reallly good so nobdy knew that. so i guess we didnt smoke it anyways. then i go back behind the trees where my bag was and the other kids, and when i look, ted has my thong on.
so then we went up by the fire and me and breanin were gonna leave soon so i took a few beers n shit. then we went around sayin bye to evrybody and started walkin back up to the house where collins mom was gonna take us to brookes house. so we got there and went upstairs to brookes room. brooke n erin were already sleepin so we went downstairs to mikes room. he told us to go away but i told em i had weed. so i got it and we went in there.
mikes room is the coolest thing ever. he has silver walls and everyone writes all over them. that just makes it cool.
but anyways, i had them measure my weed and it was exactly an ounce n a half. so he told me i could get like 200 bucks for it. so i figured i was just gonna sell it. eventually klink got there and he told me hed sell it for me but he needed to keep some of it. and i said i didnt care since i didnt pay for it in the first place. so we sat in there for a while and i was drinkin for a while. and eventually jordo n melani came. so klink took my weed n i just kept drinkin. eventually i just got drunk n passed out on a chair i guess.
then in the morning i woke up in brookes room. so me n breanin n erin all go to erins house to get breanins clothes and food. i called my mom from there n told her to pick us up n take us to breanins house. so she did and when we got there al the doors were locked so i had to crawl in the window and unlock it for her. when we got in i had nothing to do so i called brunner. then i walked over to her house because we were gonna go to some clambake n go to jesse marlos party later.
we went there and it was really boring, i talked to rachels grandma the whole time.
but we left with melani and jordan to go to marlos. so we picked up megan because she was at rachels house totally stoned from mike hodus's house. so we all went over to marlos.
went in the back where everybody was and talked to klink. he said he sold all of it n kept 60, and he gave 100 to breanin to give to me. she gave me 85. i lost 15 dollars somehow. but i didnt care much.
we just hung around there drinkin n shit for a while. then collin n jeff came. i was completely shitfaced. but i reached into my back pocket and nothing was there.
i lost eighty fucking dollars. so i looked evverywhere but i didnt know what to do. so jesse phillips got there and i was too drunnk to stand up so i went over to him and he just put his arm around me and i started almost falling asleep.
then all of a sudden everybody turned the music and lights off and told us to shutup. i couldnt see anything but i knew jesse was still there. then i saw two flashlights coming back on the trail.
the cops got there.
by that time i was starting to sober up and i could walk okayish. so he made us all split up into 'under 18', 'over 21' and '18'. he asked all of us if we were drinking. nobody raised their hand. and he said 'cmon this is a keg party, i know some of you were drinking.' i think two people raised their hands. then he took all our names down and told us to call somebody to get a ride. i told him that i was going home with jesse and i pointed to him over in the 21 group or whatever. he asked jesse if he was drinking and jesse said a little bit. then the cop said 'youre not goin home with him anymore, call somebody else.'
then i realized jordan and melani werent there. neither were alotta other kids. they all ran away.
so i called my house but nobody picked up. rachels parents started talking to the sheriff and said something about melani. so the cop told us to go look for her because other wise shed just get in more trouble. which might i point out, is against the law. but anyways, eventually we found jordo n mel. mel was really pissed and she started yelling at everyone. then her and rachel started walking back to the cops. but jordan told her to come back. she went over there and they all ran off. me and rachel started walking back but i started crying and i told her i coudnt go. she said 'they alredy have your name. if you go back you wont et in trouble, if you dont then you will.' but i dont know what was wrong with me. i couldnt leave and i needed to find jordan. i didnt care what hapened to me, i just needed jordan and melani to not get in trouble. so rachel kept getting frustated and said 'fuck you do whatever the fuck you want but im goin back.'
so i just stood in the middle of pricker bushes crying. i wanted to just lay down and die. but i needed to find melani and jordan. so i kept walking until i jumped over a fence and started walking through a big field. i saw a light so i walked towards it. i eventually got to collin, jeff, sambo, paula, and somebody else. we were somewhere by root road so we walked over there. sambo kept telling me to stop crying and it would be okay. we eventually got to root and somebody picked us up, i dont know who it was. but they kept saying they had to take me home. i kept telling them i couldnt go home and i needed to find melani and jordan. but they wouldnt listen.
so they dropped me off at home. i went in and nobody was there. i called somebody but i dont remember who it was. i kept calling people but i dont remeber who. eventually i called my dads cell phone and asked them where they were. he said they were out looking for me and that they would be home in a minute.
then i was sitting in my living room waiting for somebody to come home. the phone rang. i looked at the caller id and it was my cell phone. then i remembered rachel had it.so i picked up. it was the cops.
they were asking me questions or something. but then the one said 'shes going to juvy.' and they said theyd be over later to do paper work or something. then my parents got home and started yelling at me for a while. but i didnt care. i just wanted to know where jordo n mel were. eventually they came home.
i dont even know whats going on. my dad must have taken the internet off my computer because i cant go online. ive been typing this on notepad.
i dunno. i guess ill try and update later. but i dont know.
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