Date:	2005-02-15 07:05
Subject:	This was my Valentine's day gifts.
Security:	Public
Mood:	loved
Music:	I'm Not Okay by My Chemical Romance

I got candies from Jim, my coworker.

I got a rose and a beautiful card from my mom and dad.

These are the gifts I got from Mark. Oh and he took me to Assagio's last night too, which was btw the best thing I've eatten in my life. Mark did everything I told him not to; he sent roses to my workplace and he got me a plumeria bracelet that are both gold and silver. He took a risk, but it was well worth it because I love them both. Thank you very much hunnie. *smooches* I love you baby.

And the bonus? I get to go to the My Chemical Romance concert tonight w/Mark, Cheyanne, Allen, and my girlies! I consider this another Valentine's Day gift. Mark? You are simply an amazing man. I love you.

Date:	2005-02-14 06:40
Subject:	Happy Valentine's Day!
Security:	Public
Mood:	worried
Music:	All My Life by K-Ci and JoJo

It's a not so happy Valetine's Day for my Rusty. He's got a fever and he puked last night. I almost didn't go to work because I was worried. I might not go to my Valentine's Day dinner w/Mark because Rusty was feeling so achy last night. We'll just have to wait and see.

Inside every older lady is a younger lady -- wondering what the hell happened.

-Cora Harvey Armstrong-


Inside me lives a skinny woman crying to get out. But I can usually shut her up with cookies.


The hardest years in life are those between ten and seventy.

-Helen Hayes (at 73)-


I refuse to think of them as chin hairs. I think of them as stray eyebrows.

-Janette Barber-



A male gynecologist is like an auto mechanic who never owned a car.

-Carrie Snow-




My second favorite household chore is ironing. My first being, hitting my head on the top bunk bed until I faint.

-Erma Bombeck-


Old age ain't no place for sissies.

-Bette Davis-


A man's got to do what a man's got to do. A woman must do what he can't.

-Rhonda Hansome-


The phrase "working mother" is redundant.

-Jane Sellman-


Every time I close the door on reality, it comes in through the windows.

-Jennifer Unlimited-


Whatever women must do they must do twice as well as men to be thought half as good. Luckily, this is not difficult.

-Charlotte Whitton-


Thirty-five is when you finally get your head together and your body starts falling apart.

-Caryn Leschen-


I try to take one day at a time -- but sometimes several days attack me at once.

-Jennifer Unlimited-


If you can't be a good example -- then you'll just have to be a horrible warning.

-Catherine-



I'm not going to vacuum 'til Sears makes one you can ride on.

-Roseanne Barr-


Behind every successful man is a surprised woman.

-Maryon Pearson-



I have yet to hear a man ask for advice on how to combine marriage and a career.

-Gloria Steinem-


I am a marvelous housekeeper. Every time I leave a man, I keep his house..

-Zsa Zsa Gabor-

Date:	2005-02-06 12:07
Subject:	Last night
Security:	Public
Mood:	curious
Music:	Daughters by John Mayer

Went to Rockza's w/Mark, Nick and Ryan. Had a blast like always. Even got me a few dances this time. I can't help it if I choosy w/who I want to give my dollar bills to. I only like 2 girls in that club, so that's who I waited for. Mark seemed to enjoy it as much as I did. It's hard not to feel sorry for these girls. Sure it's fast cash and such, but how much can you respect yourself after shoving your tits into some guy's face? Some of those girls don't look like they should be there. This makes me think of the latest standup act by Chris Rock.

"My whole goal in life is to be keep my daughter away from the pole." "If your daughter is a stripper, you know you fucked up."

I can't help to think that this is partially true. It also makes me think of the song by John Mayer. I don't like his music all that much, but I have to admit that this song's lyrics rings true.

Daughters by John Mayer

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too

I think parents are greatly responsible for who their children become when they're older. I get my insecurities from my mother, and my strong will from my father. My dad has taught me to never take shit from anyone, and at the same time I get my vulnerability and naivety from my mother. Of course, when you become an adult you need to learn from what you've seen as a child and kind of mold it to what you WANT to be. It doesn't always turn out that way, but I think it's our responsibility to try. I also hate the fact that adults blame their childhood for all the wrong they do in their lives. I know the shit that we go through as children affects everything that we become as adults. But as I've just explained, we take what we've learned and mold them to what we think they should be. Sorry, a night shoving dollar bills into half-naked women's g-strings makes me question a lot of things in my life. I shouldn't judge anyone, but I often wonder what happened to make these women want to do this. Do they really like it? How do they separate all that perversion from the rest of their lives? Do they become jaded? Can you trust men after living that kind of life?

Tsunami Survivors
Amazing.

I caught Mark watching me sleep again.

Me: Don't do that it freaks me out.
Mark: Okay.
Me: I don't want you to see how ugly I am.
Mark: YOU ARE NOT UGLY. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

It's funny because when I'm asleep, I can feel when someone is staring at me. I wake up really fast and get really scared. *laughs*

I wish Bev would stop staring at me.

Date:	2005-01-31 11:35
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	Lovers & Friends by Lil Jon, a whole bunch of other people, and Usher *changing the song as I write

I'm sick of Usher, Justin Timberlake, and everybody else who tries to act like Michael Jackson.

I hate Victoria's Secret for not delivering to Hawaii.

Yay Bryson can go. I better buy tickets before they sell out. Probably next week...payday.

2600.00 federal refund and 200.00 state refund. I got bumped up a tax bracket.

Crap...Bryson can't go...Mark can't go....who the hell else can I ask to go w/me to the Cho show? Ummm...I've got 2 more people to ask.

My stupid ex-bf's soon to be ex-wife just sent me a request to be added as a friend on myspace. WTF? I think she's trying to get something out of me. I don't care about Justin. Of course I approved her damn request...I'm a nosey bitch.

She's coming to Hawaii in March. I love her.

She's coming to Hawaii in March. I love her.

Date:	2005-01-27 12:31
Subject:	Frustration
Security:	Public
Mood:	frustrated
Music:	Reasons by Earth, Wind and Fire

I was helping my son read something for his homework yesterday. He knows the words favorite, flowers, and paints, but couldn't read the word "put." It's very frustrating. I don't know how to help him.

Date:	2005-01-27 11:57
Subject:	Useless information...
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	One by U2

Pinocchio is Italian for "pine head."

The only city whose name can be spelled completely with vowels is Aiea, Hawaii, located approximately twelve miles west of Honolulu.

Leonardo Da Vinci invented the scissors.

The first Ford cars had Dodge engines.

A cat has four rows of whiskers.

Ralph Lauren's original name was Ralph Lifshitz.

Did you know that there are coffee flavored PEZ?

The shortest verse in the Bible is "Jesus wept."

In Disney's "Fantasia", the Sorcerer's name is "Yensid" (Disney backwards.)

The Chinese ideogram for 'trouble' symbolizes 'two women living under one roof'.

All porcupines float in water.

A-1 Steak Sauce contains both orange peel and raisins.

The last NASCAR driver to serve jail time for running moonshine was Buddy Arrington


OKAY THAT'S ALL FOR NOW

Date:	2005-01-26 13:59
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic
Music:	I Don't Want to Be by Gavin DeGraw

It's our anniversary today. Happy 9 month anniversary hunnie!

Date:	2005-01-25 11:33
Subject:	Tentative plans for the weekend.
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	Burning Bright by Shinedown

Yay! Karaoke w/Bry and my hunnie bunnie. Mark is kind of unsure about the whole thing. He's not a homophobe or anything, but he is intimidated by how he is. Bryson has bloomed into the biggest flaming fag in the world. LOL. I love him to bits anyway.

Date:	2005-01-25 08:50
Subject:	I love you hunnie bunnie
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	Nobody's Home by Avril Lavigne

I was really upset yesterday about my whole situation w/Rusty. I'm so glad Mark didn't have practice because he came over to make me feel better. We watched fuse/Mtv for most of the night. Making fun of all the rappers w/silver and gold crud in their mouths. Hahaha.