eric came back!   
06:42pm 23/11/2003
  man I'm so happy, I got an offline message on ICQ yesterday from Eric, I've not heard from him in over 6 months and I was starting to worry. He told me he'd missed me and I was the only reason he'd in fact installed ICQ again. I dunno what he's been up to, but I think I remember he talked about moving and getting a new job closer to Miami last time we talked. I can't wait to get to talk to him some more, he's the best net friend you could ever imagine.
gotta go eat dinner
today is a good day   
10:15pm 20/11/2003
mood: happy
music: siobhan donaghy "overrated"
I watched this health program and it seems they've finally figured out a way to treat my mutation. OK so before people go off at the deep end (if anyone actually reads) we're talking about a minor mutation on my thorax. It's called 'pectus excavatum' which basically means i have a tiny void in between my boobs coz of my, and basically what they can do now is inoperate a piece of metal right behind the ribs, and so it's attached there for 2 years where it helps push out the breast bone to where it's normally located, then they take it out, and all you're left with are 2 itzi bitsy punctuation marks on each side of the chest.
I'm really happy about this, in spite of my case being very harmless (in some cases the chest bone points so far in that it puts on weight on the lunge or heart) and barely seeable, but it will allow me to look perfectly normal in that area. I would be admitted to the hospital for 5-7 days, and not be able to do any physical exercise and therefore I won't even consider have it done till I'm done with school. I'm just really happy that now I got the possibility to get it done :)
07:24pm 11/11/2003
  man it's been a long time since I've updated the last. Been not really doin anything but school work...and oh went partying Saturday night. I was invited over to Maria's for dinner along with Laura and this girl Janni. Had a blast, litterally...and got oh so drunk. Twas very embarrasing, but it doesn't matter....been a long time since I've been like really really drunk. Woke up with a BAD hangover Sunday morning, luckily 2 aspirins and another 3 hours of sleep and it was gone.
well gotta go, again sorry for downloading
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09:06pm 01/11/2003
  Watching terrible tv, it kills all thought
Getting spacier than, an astronaut…
Making out with people, I hardly know or like
I can’t believe what I do, late at night

I wanna know what it’s like
On the inside of love
I’m standing at the gates
I see the beauty above

Only when we get to see, the aerial view
Will the patterns show, we’ll know what to do
I know the last page so well, I can’t read the first
So I just don’t start, it’s getting worse

I wanna know what it’s like
On the inside of love
I’m standing at the gates
I see the beauty above
I wanna know what it’s like
On the inside of love
I can’t find my way in
I try again and again

I’m on the outside of love
Always under or above
I can't find my way in
I try again and again

I'm on the outside of love
Always under or above
Must be a different view
To be a me with a you

I wanna know what its like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above
I wanna know what its like
On the inside of love
Of course i’ll be alright
I just had a bad night
I had a bad night

"inside of love" Nada Surf
a really nice day   
07:17pm 31/10/2003
mood: cheerful
music: Smashing Pumpkins "real love"
came to school at 10am, had religion, found out that our political science class had gotten cancelled so I got off at 11:30am. Went down town and got my HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE Jimi Hendrix poster at this mens' apparel store. They had used it for a window display and I'd asked if I could buy it when they were done with it. It's gorgeous, great quality...made out of this grey soft canvas-ish material. black printing, the only coloured thing is the ribbon around jimi's head, under the afro. I can't wait to put it up when I get my own place. It's so huge I gotta make sure to get an apartment with a tall ceiling coz this baby's as I said HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE! hehe.
I went to Stereo Studio, browsed through the racks and found the Smashing Pumpkins "rotten tomatoes" greatest hits and bought it. Of course Steffan was there to take my money *sigh* cute guy. Touched his finger as he handed me the cd in a plastic bag.
Came home, went to A-Z (big warehouse) with mom, shopped for groceries, came home again. Have been watching tv and reading "white oleander".
dance rehearsal and a book   
10:09pm 30/10/2003
  Today I had a nice BUT LONG day at school, didn't get out till 3:20pm and then I had dance rehearsal for the school musical Grease. It was loads of fun, I'm really looking forward to spend time on this new project of mine. It's been years since I last set foot on a stage, but I've always loved it.
When I came home I saw that my package from had finally turned up, 1 day earlier than estimated YAY. I found out that I'd, by accident of course, ordered the large print version *BRAIN FART BRAIN FART* so I look at a bit retarded sitting here with my normal functioning eyes reading a type size "Foot Print" lol. But oh well, I've read 100 pages so far and I simply love it. In fact I think I'll spare you from my babbling and go read some more.
i want a new teacher   
10:27pm 28/10/2003
  today I got an English essay back, got a friggin C!!!!!!!! Something is not right with my sub teacher, he's so fucking confusing. So far I've received an A, B and C????? I mean wtf, I've never received lower than B+ before and now this?????? I'm so fucking tired of this, he suck baboon ass!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaargh.
Got a B- on my political science paper as well today, but that's alright coz I usually keep it around a B in that, and I didn't expect more.
Most positive thing about today is that my copy of "white oleander" shipped out today from UK, so I should be gettin it soon :D
oh creepy....   
05:17pm 27/10/2003
  I just looked outta the window and coz we got these tall trees right next to our house, the wind blew them all over our house. It looked like it was snowing black lumps of cotton wool.....and with the hazy grey sky in the background it looked really....*shivers* creepy  
another day done   
05:04pm 27/10/2003
  met at 10am, all the seniors had a lecture with this 29 yearold law student from Cambodia. It was really cool, very humble guy, very poor English, but he had a good sense of humour: "I come here to Denmark and I want to copy this system to my own country, you have copy right?" lol, cute guy.
Went down town with Sisse to check on my Jimmi Hendrix poster, the store clerk told me to check back later to this week. Met up with my sister and went to Netto to buy rice vanilla pudding (that shit works like drugs on me) and then I stopped by at this second hand shop and found this cool tartan skirt, bought it for 40 kroner (6 bucks) it rocks, luv it :D
03:09pm 25/10/2003
mood: apathetic
I'm lazy today....I don't feel like doing anything. Mom's at work so I'm trapped here with my sister. Not like there was much to do anyway, Signe's not gonna be home tonight and to be frank she's been really shitty towards me lately. Just talked to her on the phone, it was like she wasn't there. She'd gone to the VAG party last night, a kind of party we always attend together and she must've known for like 2 weeks that it was coming up and didn't tell me at all. I'm really confused about that, I mean....I've helped her out with school work lately and stuff. We're best friends and she didn't even tell me that the VAG party was coming up. grr...She's gonna call me back in an hour coz she had to go bake a cake for this family thing she has tonight.
My radiator finally started to work, I guess that's the only positive thing I have to say right now.
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existentialism and cuties at school   
03:58pm 22/10/2003
mood: okay
man I swear religion is the best class ever. Today we started discussing existentialism, starting out with analysing the bible story about the lost son. It was all so very exciting, and it really got me thinking about a lot of things concerning christianity and it's real purposes. Even though I'm not a christian, it's cool to discuss it.
We also discussed whether or not the Danish church should be seperated from the state, as it's not today. We pay church taxes unless we defy it, and then we're not allowed to be married in the church...which all seems fair. But my class really managed to give a good discussion, I really liked it.
Yesterday I finally engaged in a conversation with this cute guy in my psychology class. His name is Martin and during recess people talked about how he'd gotten a baby brother during fall break...I didn't really paid much attention to that untill I discovered that Martin had placed himself beside me during 2nd period. So when we were done and started goin out of class I congratulated him. He looked at me with his HUGE brown eyes and my knees just melted *sigh* (good thing I was sitting down). My stomach was a knot before I finally got my act together and said something, it was a really odd feeling. I'm not usually nervous about talking to people, I guess I had just put alot of pressure on myself. I've had an eye on him since my class and his went to Rome together in March, but I didn't give it much thought as he seemed very shy. Well who knows, now he's at least not a stranger anymore, and probably won't think twice about sitting beside me in class in the future.
We had our substitute teacher for political science today, as our regular teacher was allegedly in Cuba for some meeting. But it was all good as our sub is a total babe *sigh* he's really really cute and a really nice person. All girls love him haha.
I gotta run now......this stupid English essay awaits me *BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH*
book sale   
05:39pm 20/10/2003
  School started again today after 1 week of fall break vacation. Today was easy, met at 10am and only had 2 lectures. Got to say a lot in world history class, the cold war is exciting stuff.
Went down town for pizza with Tine afterwards, and then I went looking for the Danish version of Janet Fitch's "white oleander" but it was sold out everywhere and the clerks also told me that the publishers have stopped printing it. Well I guess I just gotta wait for the my English version to arrive from Amazon now don't I?
I found other books tho, I found a guide to cheap hostels all over the European continent at Bog&Idé for $3 and then I went to this independent bookstore Kjaer's for one last shot at finding "white oleander" luck tho, but I found some really good stuff there and I got 40% off even tho it was a steal without the discount. In total I paid $4 for the Dancer in the Dark script book (including song lyrics, end credits and top quality color photo stills), I can't believe how that book got so cheap as the normal price was almost $50!! I also found a compilation of selected poems by E.E Cummings in English for $5. With the discount I paid around $5,50 for both books!!! A total steal!
ok this is for anyone who ever called me clever!   
06:46pm 19/10/2003
  I AM NOT! Seriously, I'm such a goof. I was gonna go visit Signe at 8:30 to watch "me myself and Irene" which will be on TV tonight. I Thought I'd be clever to wash some of my clothes for school starting up again tomorrow. So I go to the basement, load the washing machine with my curdoroy pants and skirt, slashed jeans and I get up from the basement thinkin about goin to the shower and get dressed (i've been in my pajamas all day lol), BUT I forget that I just loaded all my bottoms in the washing machine WHOOOOOOOOOOPS! Malou's got nothing to wear now haha, so I bribed my kid sis to walk the dog (it's raining heavily so haha kind good I was stupid) and I phoned Signe and asked if maybe she could come over here for the movie instead. Man I can't believe my blondness, I will fight to prevent this becoming a habit!  
carrot lasagna   
05:18pm 18/10/2003
mood: lazy
music: Björk "big time sensuality" on the radio!!!
I dunno why I volunteered to do this...but I'm gonna peel and shred like half a pound of carrots for dinner. WHY did I say I'd do it???? blaaaaaaaaah well, the result's gonna be great, I love carrot lasagna, it's just a drag making it...
Fie and Signe returned from their choir trip to Belgium. Fie had bought me humongous sucking candies :) nice.
I've ordered "white oleander" at, I simply couldn't go any longer without this book. I can't wait to read it, and see if it's as good as the movie.
I gotta go
white oleander   
01:05am 16/10/2003
mood: cheerful
music: Led Zeppelin "black dog"
Just finished watching it with my mom, OH GOODNESS that was a good movie! Such great acting, it blew me away. Top reccomendable :)
I beat cosmos! (did you Jess?)   
05:02pm 15/10/2003
mood: happy
music: Tina Dickow "notes" cd
So I got on the bus to Fredericia to see Tina Dickow yesterday, my uncle and lil cousin picked me up at the bus station and we went to my uncle's place. We decided on ordering pizza, alright, so they were to be picked up a quarter past 7 (the gig was at 8) which meant I had to be eating pretty darn quickly. My uncle drove off to pick 'em up, BUT they were delayed so he didn't come home till a quarter to! I was goin outta my skin coz I had to pick up the ticket by the entrance at half, so I phoned them and told them I was on my way hehe. Got there in time, met up with Simon who I know from the net, a quirky lil guy with a nose piercing and a tatoo on his bicep who offered me a lager :) that was really sweet of him. Tina went on at 5min past and played a 1,5 hour set and she played all my faves cept "your waste of time" which struck me as kinda odd as it's been her only radio hit, but I got a perfect version of "let's get lost" so I was happy :)
After the gig I offered Simon a new lager, to return the favor ya know, and we sat and drank a bit while the room emptied out. I found him to be a very sympathetic guy, really nice to talk to and friendly. As we left we got a hold of some set lists...I got the keyboardist/back up singer's, which had these lil notes written on it, it was really cool. I would've gotten Tina's but she didn't have any! We walked outside, hugged goodbye and my uncle picked me up. It was a really really nice evening.
Today I got up around 9 coz my cousin stumbled into my bed in the guest room (a really nice room btw with 4 guitars on their racks 3 acoustic and a blue cool electric one) and demanded I'd have a look in his dinosaur book with him. We had breakfast and then Flemming (uncle) took me out to the forrest in his 4x4. Man it was hilarious, driving around in the forrest, off road, in fear of colliding with trees and up steep hills. We went to the boat bridge Kongebroen from which you could see both the old and the new bridge to Fyn. It was a fantastic view.
We went home, got my cousin, said goodbye to Marianne (Flemming's girlfriend) and went back to Viborg.
Now I am here, full on 2 days of great experiences.
09:58am 14/10/2003
  seems like calling them was the best thing I could've done! This nice lady told me that they'd have a computer crash problem and therefore my e-mail probably hadn't gone through. BUT i got my ticket and it's all taken care of!
argh I'm goin out of my head!   
09:54am 14/10/2003
  Alright, so there's 5 hours till I jump on a bus to Fredericia to visit my uncle and see Tina Dickow live, but surprise surprise STILL the ticket lady hasn't e-mailed. Grrrrrrr...I'm about to call the venue, but seing as it's small and everything I don't think it's the kinda place which is open like all the time. Blah I'll call 'em anyway and see.  
05:21pm 11/10/2003
mood: happy
music: Tina Dickow "let's get lost"
The gig last night was awesome! Apart some obviously drug-influenced girls who jumped onto the stage and began doing lesbian dance moves or some shit, L.O.C and his gang rocked the show. To get the girls down they told them "hey this isn't fucking Roskilde Festival, get down", it was hilarious. And this other guy in his "crew" did 3 minutes of freestyle rap, man it was the shit. It was probably the best as it's really impressive what these guys can get out of a word such as "pixie" and "shower room" ya know LOL.
I'm goin to see Tina Dickow alone in Fredericia on Tuesday! weeeeeeee, my ex-uncle lives there and he offered me a bed to sleep in when I asked him. I simply can't wait, the ticket price was so cheap (about 9 bucks) so I simply had to exploit my possibilities of going. And I succeeded!
finally the engagement   
11:16pm 09/10/2003
mood: calm
music: Britney Spears "me against the music" stupid radio!
Yesterday Mary and crown prince Frederik got engaged, finally! I could go on and on about how great it was, so I better not.
Tomorrow is the last day of school before fall I'm so looking forward to that, my sister and my best friend will be off to Brussels and Luxenbourg with the church choir on Saturday, so I'm gonna have my mom all to myself. Now what to do with her, that's the tricky part. I didn't manage to convince her to go see Tina Dickow with me, but we'll probably go to Aarhus anyway...and shop hehe. I've spotted some really really awesome brown boots in the Magasin (Danish kinda semi-posh retail store) catalogue that I'd like to try out. They're way too expensive, but see since I'm goin with mom there's always the hope that she'll pinch in *lol*
Tomorrow I'm going to the L.O.C (Danish/Irish rapper) gig with Signe, it's part of her birthday present from me. It's gonna be first ever real rap gig since Outlandish and The Roots at Midtfyns Festival this summer. This should be way different as it's in Danish and more intimate, only about 300 people.
I better get goin, "homicide" is on. And btw, that new Britney shit is way overrated and boring.