Pyro's Blurty

Subject:	I actually applied for universities. Go Me.
Time:	11:59 pm.
Mood:	okay.
Music:	none.

Thursday I was supposed to hand in my stupid annalysis thing in Psych and forgot about it. Oops. We watched a biography on a serial killer, whose name I can't remember right now, but it was really interesting. He started killing at I think it was 18 and he eventually started dissolving the bodies in acid because he had too many bodies to get rid of. I actually don't really remember what else I did on Thursday....meh. Rehearsal went pretty well though.

Friday we had the Medieval unit test in Lit first block. I totally ran out of time with the essay and I didn't get a chance to write all I wanted to, so it'll be interesting to see how I do on that. I almost want Autumn to beat my mark on it, just because she always gets so annoyed because I always beat her. We watched another biography in Psych on the "Killer Clown" which again was really interesting and I forgot to hand in the stupid writeup again. So few people showed up to band that we got to watch the end of Chicago. Mr. Schafer (sp?) was talking about how our class was so good that we should be playing in community bands and he started telling me how he's in a band that would like to have an oboe player but it's out in Ladner. I was just like "yeah, well I'm already really busy."

After school was interesting. Grandma picked us up to take us to Elgin Hall for the Heritage Tea thing and we went to get Tyler. Tyler had told Max that he would start walking down 16th and we could just pick him up. So we drove towards Semi and didn't see him, so we went to the school and looked around for a while and still didn't see him. I asked Max if Tyler would have started walking towards Elgin Hall and Max said something like "why would he go that way?" so we went back to our school to see if he'd managed to get there. Of course, he wasn't there, so we decided to just go because we were going to be late and we ended up passing Tyler. He was a few blocks from the hall and he'd been walking for like 45 minutes.

The tea went okay. We didn't get to do our whole set because we ran out of time. Our last song was Nice Work and it was absolutely brutal. No one sang at the beginning and I think it was supposed to be my solo, but I'm not really sure. UGH. That was bad. Joan Webster gave us a thank-you card with a $40 gift certificate to Ocean Park Pizza, so we decided to go there for dinner after the hockey game. We went to Subway and got food and then Kristen went to hang out with her friends and Kirstin went home for a while and I think Lindsay went home too. She went somewhere anyways and Max had to go to work, so Step, Tyler and I went back to Step's and watched "Life of Brian."

Mrs. Hall drove us to the hockey game and there was actually a pretty good turnout. Eighteen people.

After we finished we went to Ocean Park Pizza. We had to wait for a table because they were full. We were standing out on the street waiting and there were these two ladies sitting in thier car waiting by the bus stop. We started to sing and they got out to look at the bus scedule and then one of them comes and sticks her head in between Tyler and Kirstin and starts listening to us. It turned out she was a music teacher on the island and she thought we were really good. We talked to her for a bit. She was asking us where we were from and stuff.

After we had been seated and we'd ordered the waitress came up to us and said that she was going to pay for our pizza because her son had phoned and he's in Mrs. Hall's class and he told her to pay for us. That was pretty cool. After dinner we sang for them and then we went over to the Esso station to buy candy and then we walked over to Mrs. Hall's to get a ride down to the beach. When we were at Step's Lindsay realized that we hadn't given a tip at the resteraunt, so we went back to give it to them and sang another song. It was fun, and apparently we made the kid's mom cry twice, and not because we were that awful. lol.

We went down to the beach and we wanted to get gelato, but the place we usually go to was closed. Probably because it was almost 10:00 by the time we got there. We hung out on the pier for a while and then we went over to the White Rock and did that "My name is" thing where you lift the person up over your heads. It was fun. I love the beach at night. It's so peaceful, except for the fact that there's all the people in the bars along the street. Some guy walked past us and kept speaking to us in French. It was odd.

Yesterday I slept until around noon. It was great. I had an odd dream, but I don't really remember most of it. Anyways, Mom was going to take me to Willowbrook to get my eyes checked, but I phoned to get an appointment and they were all booked up. Then Mom said she was going up to Zellars to try to find froting stuff for the window between her classroom and her office at school so I decided to go uptown because I had been thinking about walking up to the library and then hanging out up there anyways. I walked around Zellars for a while and then went over to Black Bond. Then I went to the Library around 4:00 and stayed until almost closing time, which is 5:00. I was looking for a book by Nancy Gardener who wrote "Annie On My Mind," but I couldn't find any. The have a pretty shitty selection of young adult books unless there was a stash somewhere I couldn't find. I wound up getting "The Wars" by Timoty Finley, which I probably spelt wrong, but that's okay.

After the library I went and walked around Deals Warehouse. I almost bought another notebook like the one Max and I have to use as a journal, but I didn't for some reason. Then I went back over to the Mall and did another quick look around Black Bond and then phoned Max to see if he wanted to do something. They were having a family dinner, so he couldn't, but he told me that Mom had phoned there looking for me because I was lost or something, so I phoned home and told Dad where I was. Then I went over to the resteraunt that Max and I always go to, the one he calls Betty's Place, and had dinner. It was pretty good, but I ate a ton. Then I walked home. I got home around 7:30. I really like walking in the dark. It's really calming for some reason and I like how quiet it is once you turn onto 164th. When Mom came downstairs she started asking me what I did all day and asking me if everything was okay. Why the hell does me deciding to go out and do something for once mean that something is wrong? OH. MY. GOD. The library. Something must be incredibly wrong in my life for me to do something like visit the library by myself. Jeez. I spend half my life at home, alone on the computer anyways, what difference does it make if I decided to go somewhere else alone?

After I got home I played piano for a while because Carlene was on the computer and then I came online. I talked to Bean and Kate for ages. Bean was filling out university applications, and I figured it might be a good idea for me to apply to a few universities too, with yesterday being the deadline for most schools and all. I hate filling out applications. It's such a pain in the freakin' ass. All of them had a thing asking if you want to apply under Aborigional status and it's so unclear. It said something about being evaluated for entrance if you meet a minimum requirement of 69% and needing two reference letters, but it never actually said for any of the universities whether you needed the reference letters just to apply as aborigional or if it was only if you didn't get in to the faculty you wanted, so I just didn't apply with Aborigional status.

It's kind of funny. The application for SFU (or maybe it was UVic?) had a thing where you check off the minority groups you fit into because they want to "encourage diversity" or something like that. Anyways, I clicked off Aborigional and Visible minority and then I see that there's a box for gay or transgendered. (I wish I remembered how they worded it. It was kind of ammusing. Something about a minority sexual preference or something like that.) Anyways, I saw that and kind of paniced with the whole my-parents-don't-know-but-it-might-help-me-get-into-the-school issue, so I said something to Kate and to Bean about it and Kate starts talking about how you're not supposed to lie on applications, but if I think it might help me get in and then something about how if I want to be gay, then be gay and I said "I kind of am." Her response was "Is that why you always touch me? Or is that just because it annoys me?" lol. I thought she knew with the whole Autumn making that comment about how Gavin has a gorgeous back and then saying to me "this is why you stay bi" and I said "it's not like I can help it." She was freakin' standing right in front of us, so I just assumed she'd heard that. Plus with the whole me and Autumn flirting in English all the time. Whatever. It's funny, I told Bean about that adn she said that if I hadn't told her she would have always thought I was straight. I always thought it was pretty obvious, but I guess not. Or maybe it's just the fact that you don't see it if you're not looking for it. I mean, I decided that I would go on believing that Max was straight unless he told me otherwise because I just didn't care and if someone isn't telling you then it's not really any of your business.

Anyways, I applied to UBC, UVic and SFU and then stopped because I didn't really know anything about any of the other places and those were the only ones I was really planning to apply to in the first place. Then I stayed up and talked kept talking to Bean and Kate and reading fanfics. I ended up online with Kate until almost 2:00.

I woke up at about 9:30 thismorning and couldn't get back to sleep, which kind of sucked...actually, I probably dozed because I stayed in bed until I think 10:30 or later. I played piano for a while then came online and talked to Kate again. It's crazy, she's probably online as much or more than I am.

Max picked me up at about 5:00 to go to Step's for the Oscar party. It was fun. We all got pieces of paper with a nominee for different categories on them and if yours won you got a prize. I won a chocolate bar with a bag of microwave popcorn for having Finding Nemo (best animated film) and a bottle of I think it was 2001 Merlot for some other thing where she just had people and then the prizes had a picture of someone and if yours matched one of the prizes you won. I gave that to Max to take home so we can drink it sometime and Mrs. Hall told Debby to take it on the tour. I think not. She gave me another prize to "make up" for the wine that she thought I was giving away though, which I felt kind of bad about, but I wasn't going to tell her that Max and I were going to drink it. There was also a "booby prize" which was a picture of Janet Jackson's boob from the Super Bowl or whenever it was.

Spot showed up part way through. She'd just gotten home from Idaho and her parents are in Hong Kong or something so she came to Step's.

We also had the quiz as usual. Lindsay won by a long shot. She got 60 right, which is absolutely insane. I got 34, but it was marked as 33. David didn't win the pot for once. Some kid called Bob and some lady at Mrs. Hall's school tied. I only got three right. If I'd guessed LotR for all the categories I would have had 9 instead, not that it would have made much of a difference, but I would have beat Max and Mom.

When I got home I came online -suprise, suprise- and Kate was online AGAIN. I talked to her for a while and then she deserted me a little after 10:00 to go to bed of all things. I also talked to Janet of all people, of course, she just wanted to know what my marks were. She seemed pretty shocked that I only got 80's in all my courses and even more suprised when I told her I only got one A, but MEH. Then I talked to Bean for a while and she deserted me too. I was still going to say something and Dad came in so I put away the conversation for a while and she left. Blah. Stupid people with their interupting my internet. I depsise having people looking over my shoulder at my conversations.

Anyways, it's getting late-ish so I should probably go to bed. I want to actually be able to get to sleep tomorrow.

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Time:	5:00 pm.
Mood:	okay.
Music:	"Fade to Black" by Metallica.

Rehearsal on Monday wasn't too bad. It was actually kind of nice having so few people there. It ended up being Lindsay, Step, Tyler, Kirstin, Max and I. We figured out our music and the order for Friday, so that's good. I think we're going to all do something for dinner and then go to the Eagle's game.

Yesterday was pretty boring. Band with that idiot sub again. In Lit we read "Sir Gawain and the Green Knight" first block and then second block we all read out our heroic couplets and Sophie didn't come back after lunch because she didn't do hers. Some of them were really funny. Guido did hers on the Roman Catholic Church and it was hillarious and Autumn did hers on religion and was all disappointed because Chelsea was away. Kate did hers on Stalin and it was ridiculous. It was about a page and a half long.

At lunch Max and I were sitting in the hall and Fire Crotch came and she left for a little while so we booted it. We started going to Mac's, but there was still a lineup of people so we went over to Heidi's deli and bought fries instead. We made it back right before the second bell. It was fun. We'll probably go back there for lunch some time.

In Psych we finished the "fear list" thing where we rank our fears and we spent the rest of the block talking about phobias. It was pretty interesting. There were some pretty amusing stories. I mentioned my neck thing and Mrs. Rodgers said that next week I should tell the class how many people came up to me trying to touch my neck. I told Sophie to try to touch my neck as sort of a demonstration. After class Tyson came up to me and tried to touch my neck and so did Sophie. Of course, Autumn and Sophie already do that, so I don't know if that counts, but whatever.

I was going to go to the library after school, but then I decided not to for some reason. I'm still not sure why, but I should go next week.

Today I had band first block. Nicole actually showed up and I went to get the flute folder from Max's locker because he was late. In Lit we wrote heroic couplets about people in the class and had to guess who they were about. Kate wrote one about Sophie and I last night and it was really funny. It talks about me running around with Alex on my back and Mrs. Petersen was like "I don't want to know." lol. And it ends with her basically saying "damnit, stop touching me." Highly Amusing.

We went to a presentation by the guy that came and spoke about 9/11 last year. It was really good.

At lunch we pretty much did nothing...apart from avoiding Fire Crotch for a while.

After lunch we had a talking circle. It got onto the subject of gay marriages and I actually talked quite a lot. It was pretty interesting though.

Physics was a work block, so that was nice.

We stole Carlene's shoe again after school. It was really funny. Chris put one in her bag and had the other one out and Carlene was totally convinced that Sydney had it, but Chris gave it back as we were getting off the bus because apparently she got in trouble from her parents last time with the whole trading off of the shoe thing.

Anyways, I've got to go have dinner.

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Subject:	Stupid idiot band sub.
Time:	5:47 pm.
Mood:	moody.
Music:	"Seek and Destroy" by Metallica.

Sunday was kind of fun. We sang at Max's church in the morning, which went pretty well. We were missing Hil and Tyler, but that's still a pretty good turn-out. Megan asked everyone if they wanted to be in the musical which pissed me off. I don't want to do the damn thing in the first place. The music is irritating as all hell and I hate that at the moment, it's almost completely depending on Max and I and I don't even want to be involved in all this church shit anymore, and I don't think he does either.

After church everyone except Max, who had to go to his dad's place because it was his birthday, went up to IHOP for lunch. After lunch Kirstin said she didn't want to go home, so she, AJ and I went down to the beach. We pretty much just wandered around and went to the thrift store behind Turtle, which was fun. After a while we decided to go back to AJ's place and we watched "Sweet Home Alabama." Then Kirstin had to leave and AJ and I watched "Sleepy Hollow." Good movie. I ended up staying for dinner and then watching part of "Matilda." AJ said it reminded him of his grandma, and I think he was either crying or really close to it at one point.

I got home around 9:30 and went on the computer for a while before I went to bed.

I had the weirdest dream last night. I don't really remember that much of it, but there were a bunch of us in a mall and we were going to go out for dinner but we were running away from someone, who, now that I think of it, may have been Amelia, so we decided to leave the mall and go to some other resteraunt. We walked out a back door and wound up in a garden that was probably ten stories above the parking lot and we had to try and climb down to where the cars were parked and I remember that Miranda was there at that point and that it was night at that point. The next thing I remember was being in some hotel room with my dad and some other people who were related to me, but I'm not entirely sure who they were, I think they were sisters or something. I walked in and it was late and everyone else was asleep and I was under someone's bed and I was going to try to sneak out. Then I remember being in my mom's room lying on her bed talking to Hil and then Hil and Spot were like making out and Hil said something about Spot wanting to see if they would "work" together, or something to that effect. That was very odd. Then I left and went over to the bathroom and I got into an argument with Carlene about the radio or something stupid like that. I think something else happened after that, but I don't remember because Carlene woke me up for school.

Psych was kind of boring today. We split into groups and summarized the introduction to the abnormal psych unit. Physics was boring as usual. We got our tests back and I have like 82% or something like that, which I guess is okay. Double block of band was boring as all hell. We had a sub, whose name I can't rember, but we've had him before. He's the guy that had the pocket protector. He's so fucking irritating. He goes over everything fixing the smallest things, which is all well and good, but it takes forever and he gets all pissed off if you talk or practice by yourself, which is stupid because he was only working with one or two people half the time. Then he was telling Da Young to play parts down an octave and stuff, which he shouldn't be doing. It's not his fucking class and fixing technical things makes sense, but changing music when it's not even his class is overstepping his boundaries in my opinion. Then he got all annoyed at people for leaving. Someone phoned Max and he was going to go answer it so he asked if he could leave to get a drink of water and the teacher made him wait while he said some stupid thing about theory or instrumentation that Max would have known anyways. And the guy is here for the rest of the week. ARG.

Lunch was kind of fun. I was bored for a while, but then Bean showed up and I fed her the rest of the haw flakes, which amused me. Then Kate showed up and Sophie showed up and Autumn and Max came up and Sophie and I harassed Kate for a while, petting her and stuff which was highly amusing. Anyways, now Sophie wants me to help her set Autumn and Max up, which I refused to do, and Kate said she thought they were going out already, which didn't help matters. I have this policy where I won't set people up, it's seriously interfering with their lives and getting into stuff that isn't any of your buisness, especially if it pisses them off. Plus, I'm not too hot on setting up people that I like with other people. Sophie was really bugging Autumn though, and Autumn was getting seriously pissed at her.

Lit was okay. We didn't really do anything, which was nice.

I was in a pretty shitty mood after school. I kind of still am, but whatever. Max was asking me if I was angry or something. I kind of wanted to just ditch him and go sit alone somewhere, but I went outside and we walked aimlessly until his mom got there. Then I went inside and hung out with Carlene and her friends.

Anyways, rehearsal starts in like half an hour. I don't wanna. I don't enjoy Concordiae nearly as much as I used to. Kirstin said she doesn't want to rehearse tonight either. She thinks it might have something to do with it being too routine now, but I don't know. Recently I've been kind of bored with everything except for the internet and sometimes hanging out with people at school and stuff like that.

Rehearsal should be "special" tonight. AJ, Hil and Danica will all be missing because they've got jazz choir tonight, and I can't remember whether Tyler's in it or not, so he might not be here. Plus Spot has to work on a report so she's not coming either and Max is going to be about fifteen minutes late because he has a voice lesson with Marissa. That leaves us with seven people at the most. Blah. Then we've got that tea at Elgin Hall on Friday, so we have to figure out what we're going to sing for that, and I'm pretty sure we'll be missing a few people when we do that too.

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Subject:	Stupid idiot band sub.
Time:	5:47 pm.
Mood:	moody.
Music:	"Seek and Destroy" by Metallica.

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Subject:	Thursday was a long, looooonnng day.
Time:	3:16 pm.
Mood:	calm.
Music:	"Seek and Destroy" by Metallica.

Thursday was a LOOOOONNNNGGG day.

I had Lit first block. Then in Psych we had a debate about whether it's okay to medicate children on ridalin and stuff if they're hyperactive. I didn't say anything the whole time, but the vast majority of the debate was back and forth between Dominique and Sophie. It was pretty amusing but kind of irritating at the same time. Plus, emotions were running really high. You could feel the tension in the air. At one point Mrs. Rodgers stopped the debate and says "Scot, do you want to tell us what you're feeling right now?" He said no, but you could tell he was really uncomfortable from the way he was sitting.

There was a double block of Chem. We had our test first block and then started unit two after lunch. I think I did pretty well on the test. I only got 12/15 on the multiple choice part, and one of those was a really stupid mistake, but MEH. I think I did pretty well on the written part, so that mark should be okay.

Lunch was okay. I was sitting upstairs with Autumn and Amelia was there too and then Max came up. He'd been working on his MT presentation and then he went back down to the theater because Kirstin wanted to work on Tango and I think he told Autumn to go with him and came to get me to with them and of course Amelia followed. It was kind of fun. Kirstin's group spent all of lunch practicing their presentation so they never did work on Tango. We kept on heckling them. Autumn was bugging Kirstin about the size of her chest. It was fun, because usually I do that alone. lol. She kept on telling her to roll up her sleeves and mover her arms and stick out her chest and Kirstin was getting all annoyed and embarassed. Then I told Autumn to tell Kirstin that she has a tremendous instrument and Kirsty got all pissed off. It was great.

Band last block was boring. Most of us did our playing tests. I played it worse than I usually do, but I don't think I got too bad a mark, not that Owens ever got around to telling me my mark, but other people got pretty good marks even if they messed up and Owens made some comment about how hard the oboe is right after I finished.

After school there was musical rehearsal. I think we went through all the musical numbers and we did scene transitions, which was kind of neat because I got to see how they fit in to the play. We got about a ten minute break at 5:30 too, which was nice.

After musical Mom came and got Max and I and we went to the food court at the Semi mall for dinner and I looked over the characters of Canterbury Tales while Max and I were eating. Then Dad showed up with my choir bag, because Mom had forgotten it when she came to get us.

Choir started at 7:30 and we got there a few minutes early. We managed to go over a few of the songs and then get through all but the last two songs. It was Katie's birthday. She showed up late because she had a guitar lesson and we all sang "Happy Birthday" to her and at the break we had a cake that Marissa brought.

Debby stopped at the Esso for something on the way home and bought us creamsicles, I haven't had one of those in years. I got home when I usually do, which means I was out for almost 15 hours. SUCH a long day. Plus, for some reason, I was pretty buzzed so I talked with Dad for a little while and I didn't end up actually getting to bed until quarter after 11.

On Friday I got to school Autumn was sitting in the hall with Amelia and some other little kid. Apparently she was hoping they'd get to be friends and leave us the hell alone. It was funny, after they left she was saying that it was like the attack of the little people because there was the two of them and Morgan, who is about the same size and they were jumping around "like fleas." lol. I was like "yeah, once you've got them, they're so hard to get rid of...so, you're saying you have fleas?"

It was a day three so we had band first block. That was boring. Then in Lit we had our quiz on Canterbury Tales, which was easy.

We had a double block of Psych. First block we did an exercise called "The Chair." Someone who is angry or very annoyed at someone has to volunteer and they choose a chair to sit in, then they write the name of the person they're mad at, or a psudoname on a pice of paper and put it on another chair and write their own name and put it on their own chair. Then Mrs. Rodgers pretended to be the person they're mad at and asks them questions about why they're mad at them and stuff, then they switch places and she questions them again, but they have to as the other person. Dominique ended up doing it and it was obvious right away the her other person was Sophie. It was kind of interesting because of the way she set it up and stuff. She took Mrs. Rodgers chair and had Sophie on the floor and then she was all confrontational when she was herself, but when she was supposed to be Sophie she seemed really uncomfortable. Dominique kept saying that she and Sophie were very different and when Mrs. Rodgers asked her how they were different she couldn't come up with an answer. Then the whole class gave comments and stuff and I didn't say anything, but it was kind of interesting how almost everything people pointed out was something that I had already noticed.

Lunch was okay. Max showed up late because he was rehearsing his MT project, so I spent like half of lunch sitting there by myself, which was fine with me. Chelsea came over and told me to go sit with them and I said I would, but I never did because I didn't really feel like it. I started drawing one of those line-art things that Mrs. Sayer had us draw for her and I pretty much ignored Max when he did get there. I guess I just really wasn't in a talking mood. Then we were saying that we should take another desk to paint and Max wound up going and taking a ceiling tile from Mrs. Rodgers' room instead, so we're going going to paint that when we have time.

After lunch we had a talking circle, and again I didn't say anything. It was kind of stupid because like half the time was spent talking about Sophie AGAIN. About half way through the block someone brought up the point that we were talking about her behind her back. I, personally, don't think it's that big a deal. Lots of times I find it easier to sort out how I'm feeling if I talk it out, plus it's not like people were slandering her name or anything, it was kind of like an "I don't like her and this is why" and the odd person that said they liked her. Really though, if people found me interesing enough that they want to waste two hours of like twenty-something people's lives talking about me, then good for them because chances are I don't care that much what they think of me anyways. Sophie was sick yesterday, so I don't know what she would have thought, but I don't think she would have cared all that much. I could be wrong though. Also, the first time it got around to Scot, he made the point that people were ignoring the rules of the circle again and the way he said it was really weird because he was obviously incredibly pissed off. Last time he seemed a little frustrated but this time he had major hand gestures and stuff going on and it was really obvious that he was really angry. It's odd because I'd never thought of him as one to get angry easily, but I brought it up when I was talking to Max and he said that Scot hasn't been himself recently, and thinking back on it, he really hasn't, but I never noticed because I don't really talk to him all that much.

We had a sub again in Chem and we were told to read the chapter and work on the problem set, so I worked on my drawing for most of the block.

After school I got home and decided to make yam pancakes for a snack. Mom and dad both got home really early, which was kind of odd, but I think they both had pro-d days.

The youth group fundraising dinner was last night, so I went to the church at 5:30. I get there and they're making pancakes. It was like a fundraising breakfast dinner of pancakes, sausages and fruit salad. There were three or four electric frying pans and one frying pan on the stove going and Kalie, Brock, Max, some lady (Joan or something) and I all making pancakes and the little kids serving. It wasn't that bad, and I think it was a lot shorter than it was last year. Plus, the kitchen wasn't like a sauna from boiling water. I wanted to talk to Kalie, she's really cute and she seems pretty cool too, but I can never think of anything to say. Blah.

I got the leftover fruit salad because Max told Megan that I'd be eternally greatful if she gave it to me and we left around 7:30 and I went over to Max's so that we could get the Concordiae add for the "Anything Goes" program ready because it was supposed to in on Thursday but we'd forgotten about it. Well, actually, Max said he'd make it, so he's the one that forgot about it, but MEH. He'd better remember to take it on Monday. After we finished the add we just lay around listening to music and talking until Dad came to get me at 10:00.

I decided to quit fencing, so I got to sleep in this morning. YaY! I woke up at 9 something and managed to get back to sleep, but then Trixie scratched on my door at like 10:30 until I let her in and Dad had the washing machine going so I couldn't get back to sleep. Stupid dogs. I oculd have used another hour or so of sleep.

All I've really done today is make lunch and go on the internet. But hey, I made potato pancakes for lunch with peas and cheese in them and they turned out pretty well, so I'm happy with that.

I should probably work on my homework some time. I need to write the heroic couplets thing for English and I'm going to use Alex Browne, so I should do it early enough that I can ask people for more traits to use if I end up running out. Oh well, maybe later.

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Subject:	Blah. I need a change.
Time:	6:20 pm.
Mood:	blah.
Music:	"Haunted" by Evanescence.

So, orchestra rehearsal was okay last night. Not that great, but not bad either. It was something to do I guess.

Today was pretty boring. Band was first block. We got a new song "Sounds of Brazil" or something like that. It's a medly of latin songs. All rhumba speed. We didn't do much in Lit. We read some more of Canterbury Tales and I got a notice thing to bring home telling our parents to fill out the stupid satisfaction survey thing that my mom said she wouldn't do and Mrs. Petersen gave us a lecture about how we have to try to change the things we don't like and stuff. I think Sophie and I really annoyed Kate. Sophie pet her or something and she made a kind of puppy dog face and then we both sat there petting her until she did it again and then we kept getting her to do it for other people.

We had a double block of Psych and watched "One Flew Over the Cukoo's Nest." It was pretty boring and we've got to analyze a character from it. Blah. I'm not entirely sure why, but I really don't like watching TV. I don't find it interesting at all.

Lunch was kind of fun. Bean and Guido hung out with us and so did Jess. I kept feeding Bean haw flakes and it was highly amusing. I showed Mrs. Petersen when she walked by us and I'm not entirely sure what she thought of that. lol. Bean got a chair from Mrs. Rodger's room to sit on and Max straddled her and then when he got up I sat down and spent most of the rest of lunch straddling Bean and feeding her haw flakes. Man, I'm way too amused by that. Yeah, that was pretty much the entire lunch hour.

We had a sub in Physics. I think Buller has been away the day before pretty much every test we had in Chem and now he's doing it again. There's no way that's just a fluke, but I have no idea WHY he'd do it.

After school Max took forever to get upstairs and I was just going to leave when he came up. I hate how I waste so much time following him around. I really need to get a life. I feel like a stupid dog just following at his heels all the time. Blah. We talked to Karen for a couple minutes because for some reason Max felt the need to tell her that Chayse hasn't e-mailed him back. Mom drove up pretty much right after we got outside so I went to the commons area to see if Chris was there. Then I went to Mme. Brown's room because Chris and Sydney were going to Sydney's French classroom. Theresa was in there talking to Mme. Brown so I just sat there for a while then got bored and left. Went and kind of half listened to the conversation Carlene, Sydney and Chris were having and then we went to catch the bus. Theresa sat with me and I just listened to my discman and ignored her the whole time.

I don't know what's up with my moods recently. It's not like I'm really depressed or anything, but I'm getting sick of my life. It's so incredibly boring. Max has been bothering me a lot more than he usually does recently and I have no idea why. I'm getting sick of following him around all the time while he goes and does whatever, but I usually do anyways because I don't really have anything better to do and I don't really want to go totally reclusive.

Sophie hasn't been bugging me at all lately and I kind of want to spend more time hanging out with her and Autumn but I don't really see that happening, partly because they always disappear at lunch and partly because they lead very different lifestyless than I do. It's odd though, because usually when I get in one of my stupid moods where I don't want to talk to anyone it gets better when I'm around Max and recently it pulls me out of it when I'm around Autumn, Kate and Sophie or when I'm around Bean. I don't know. I almost want to just stop hanging out with Max at school and hang out with different people, but at the same time, he's my best friend and I don't want to lose that because he's really important to me.

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Subject:	Valentine's Day was....interesing
Time:	6:35 pm.
Mood:	melancholy.
Music:	"Hello" by Evanescence.

Saturday was Valentines Day. I went over Max's after dinner so we could get drunk and be all alone together, which admittedly sounds bad, but MEH. It was a fun night. Actually, I'm not sure if fun is quite the word for it, but I enjoyed myself. Max was going to get Mom to boot for us, but she couldn't because she had to go to a scouting dance, so we drank a bottle and a half of wine, and I don't really like wine, but we mixed white wine with juice, which was pretty good. Plus we had shooting sherry, which was good, and a shot each of armaretto because we didn't know whose it was and apparently it was pretty expensive.

Anyways, we watched TV for a bit, then we were going to watch Blade, but neither of us were paying attention so we started playing cards. We played Rummy for a bit then we played War and each time there was a war we both had to drink a shot of whatever we were drinking at the time. Then we spent like a couple hours talking. It was really interesting. Just one of those nights where you're so comfortable that you'll say anything. We talked a lot about our childhoods and stuff, which I think started when I was talking about Thursday with the not going to the dance. It got pretty intense at times and I think we both learned a lot about each other. --I told Autumn that we talked for ages on Saturday night and that I think we both found out a lot about each other and she said, "you've known eachother HOW long and there's still more to find out?" lol. I think it's impossible to find out everything about anyone no matter how long you've known them because you can never tell someone every thing that's ever happened to you or every thought that goes through your head, besides, we've only known each other for about four years (that we've actually been friends) and that's really not that long-- Anyways, yeah, I started talking about how Carlene and I used to go hide on the porch upstairs when my parents were fighting and stuff, and I guess when I've known someone as long as I've known Max I just assume they know stuff like that and I never really realized that it's something I don't think I've brought up with anyone before. *shrug* It got pretty emotional though. At one point Max was like "how many times have you almost started crying tonight" ...I never actually cried, but I came close a few times.

Anyways, Mom got home around 2:00, told us we shouldn't drink so much and to go to sleep because apparently we get all pissy when we're tired -who knew?- and went to bed. Max tried to talke to Chayse, left him messages and stuff on messanger but he was "Away" and never e-mailed him back or anything to the best of my knowledge. We both want to know what's going on with him and Max wants his pants back.

We went to bed around 2:30 or 3:00. It was kind of odd because we didn't talk at all and we usually stay up all night talking, but I guess we'd both kind of gotten that out of our systems by then.

Sunday I didn't wake up until almost 11:00 and Max was already in the shower. I got up and showered and then we made noodles and hash browns for lunch.

When Mom got back from church she and Max took me home and went to get new cell phones so I was home by about noon.

After my family had lunch Mom and I went to Willowbrook because I was going to get my eyes checked, but there were no appointments left, so that didn't happen. We wound up going to Winners instead and Mom set a time limit of one hour, so of course we were there for two hours. lol. Anyways, I got a new shirt. It's white and black in crazy line patterns and according to Jana it looks like an optical illusion. When we went to pay for our clothes Sarah Berkebro (sp?) was the cashier. It's odd, I've pretty much lost touch with her, but I bump into her once every couple of years. I spent like half of the drive back trying to explain to Mom how the my only friend at choir that knows her is Lindsay because no one else was in seniors at the same time, but she didn't get it because I phoned Max that night and she told me to tell him that I saw Sarah. "Guess who I saw today! ...Sarah! ...and you have no idea who I'm talking about, but THAT'S OKAY!!!" Arg. Mom can be so stupid sometimes.

Our bus stop got moved....kind of. We've got two options now: take the early bus and catch it at the end of the street or take the late bus at 164th and 32nd. The late bus actually gets to school just after 8:00 though, so that's a hell of a lot better than before. I actually have time to talk to people in the moring now. YaY.

Pretty boring day. I spent all of lunch helping Keith with science. It's odd, I thought he was in grade 11 for some reason, but he's in grade 10. We started the Medieval unit in Lit. We're reading Canterbury Tales, which I like so far, but Mom said she hated that when she read it. The problem is that every time I see "the Wife of Bath" I think of a book called "Wives of Bath" which is what the movie "Lost and Delirious" is based on and I want to read it if I ever get around to finding it....and I want to see the movie too.

I started drawing on Kate in Lit yesterday and she stayed until 3:00 so I could finish. Made me happy.

On an interesting side note, or maybe not all that interesting, but coincidental at the least, Autumn went book shopping on the weekend and one of the books she bought is by Don Quixotte.

Rehearsal went pretty well. We started late because Spot told us we had to listen to a song first. I thought it was going to be the version of "New York New York" that she was so obsessed with, but it turns out it was a CD that Hil's boyfriend Tristen made for her. It was really good. The first song was a cover that he played guitar and bass and sang for and had someone else play the drums and the second song he wrote for her and the third song was a classical song that he said made him think of her. He also wrote her a note about the songs and why he chose them and wrote a poem and everything and apparently he gave her a dozen roses too. It was so sweet. Max was saying how cool it was and how he's a romantic and I said that I was too and Hil's like "really?" *flashback to coming out to Christie* lol. I hide it well. It doesn't mesh with my "image." Meh. There's a lot of sides of me that people don't know. I said this to Hil and it's really true, but for some reason this is the first year where I've really wanted a girlfriend and been all sad because it's Valentines Day and I'm alone. I kind of logic-ed myself out of it, but when I see people with girlfriends of boyfriends, I'm glad they're happy, but it really makes me wish that I had that for once.

Today Kate got to school early...for her anyways. She got there about five mintues before the bell, and she was wearing her hooker dress. YaY! She came early because she wanted me to go over the drawings I did on her yesterday but I didn't have time to start befor the bell rang. We had a double block of Lit today and we read part of Canterbury Tales and I went over the drawings I did on Kate. I also gave Kate my e-mail address and I think she's going to add me to messanger.

Kate stayed for lunch...for a while anyways, then she remembered that she was supposed to bring back Kylie's yearbooks so she went home to get them. I got bored and left Max to go talk to Bean and feed her haw flakes and wound up spending most of lunch with Bean and Guido...and Chelsea and her people who I ignored most of the time.

We had a test in Psych. Kim wasn't at school, and she wasn't there yesterday either. The test was pretty easy, plus we got cue-cards. Autumn and Sophie both actually made them, I must say....I'm impressed. lol. Autumn said she's not coming to school tomorrow. *sob* She's deserting me, and it's a double block of Psych too. She has to go to the US Amnesty or whatever to do something about her immigration papers, which is good because I'm assuming that it means she's going to be allowed to immigrate here.

After school I was in a weird mood and I'm not entirely sure why. I was talking to Autumn until she left like I always do and then Bean came and we took some of those heart shaped ju-jubes out of Max's locker and for some reason I wanted to go up to Megan and say "I want to give you my heart" and hand her one, just to see what she would do. She's been saying "hi" to me a lot recently and it's kind of odd because I don't really talk to her that much. We say "hi" to each other in the halls and stuff, but she seems to be doing it more often recently. Or maybe I'm just being crazy. Whatever.

For some reason I really felt like talking to Autumn (what else is new?) and when Max got upstairs we didn't really say anything and then we started going over scenes with Suzanne and Troy so I left because I didn't want to listen to them. I went over and sat with Carlene and her friends and turned on my music and ignored them the whole time. It was kind of odd. Pretty much as soon as Autumn left and Bean left I went into a majorly reclusive mood. *shrug* Don't know why, but whatever.

I told Owens I'd go to the orchestra rehearsal today. I really don't want to go. Damn Max for telling them that they should ask me to do this in the first place. Blah. Oh well, it probably won't be that bad. I'm kind of worried though, because I'm only good at the songs we've been rehearsing all the time and I have no idea whatsoever what the orchestra has been working on. They haven't even done all the songs yet though, so I guess that's a good thing for me. Owens also said that there aren't many oboe parts and I don't really have to play the dance parts, so if I want to I can probably play the oboe too. I might, but I don't think I'll bother. It depends how many parts there are, when they are, and if I like them or not.

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Subject:	Drinking games with water....oh, yeah, we're cool.
Time:	12:11 am.
Mood:	tired.
Music:	"Imaginary" by Evanescence.

Choir was okay. I wasn't in the greatest mood, but what else is new. I actually got a chance to talk with Hil for a while. She's going out with Tristen now. I liked him and I guess she's happy with him, so it's all good. Ian apparently isn't talking to her now because she's going out with Tristan.

So, Thursday I had English first block. Kate and Autumn asked me again to go to the dance with them, so I told Kate that I'd go if she bought me a ticket at lunch because Max and I were going out to eat.

Psych was kind of boring. We had a sub and I didn't really like her. It's not so much that she was a bitch or anything, but she was totally different than Mrs. Rodgers and her style just didn't seem to work in that class. We also had a worksheet thing to do, which was boring and apparently she wanted to actually give marks for making "intelligent comments" in the discussion we had.

Double block of Physics. I actually got quite a bit of work done. We had the whole two blocks to work on the problem set so I managed to almost finish that.

At lunch I went to my locker, went to the bathroom, then went to meet Max. Then I had to find Carlene to tell her that I didn't need a ride until 9:30 instead of 6:30 and just as we were leaving Kate came up the stairs and said that I needed to buy my own ticket because they needed your division number and stuff. We got downstairs and there was a lineup so Max and I just left because I didn't want to be late for Physics and I could buy a ticket at the door.

We got to the Road House Eatery at about 11:50. They're a tad bit pricy, but it's not really a bad deal. I had a burger with tropical sauce and Max had the Mexican burger and they both came with the home style potato/fry type things. It was really good and they served us really quickly. I think we managed to finish eating in record time. We left the resteraunt before quarter after and I managed to get to class on time. Go Me! We've decided to try to go out for lunch about once a month so we can actually have some time alone, but we're going to do it on Mondays so we'll have a double block of band, which means we can leave early a lot of the time and we can be late.

I broke my last decent reed in band and I told Owens that I am definitely going to Edmonton.

We got our report cards at the end of the day. My math mark got scaled a lot, but the provincial marks aren't in so I don't actually know my final grade in any of my classes but right now I have 83% in Math, 88% in French, 84% in Chem and 90% in English.

After school I found Carlene and asked her to have Dad go pick me up some new reeds from Tapestry. Then I went back upstairs and Max and I went to the computer lab so he could see if Chayse had e-mailed him back about his pants. Lindsay had e-mailed me and asked me to play "Bye Bye Blackbird" and "Ja-Da" and send her the performance times that night so she could send in the registration form. WTF. Could she not go over them herself? It's not like she doesn't know how fast they go or what the piano parts sound like.

Rehearsal went pretty well. Mrs. Schellenberg came. For some reason it didn't seem as monotonous as it usually does.

We finished rehearsal at about 6:10. I went outside and there was a linup of people already and Autumn and Sophie and Gavin were all there. Keith was there too, so I talked to him for a while. I'm not entirely sure why he was there. He didn't even stay until the doors opened. When he left he thanked Autumn for helping him with something, so I'm assuming he was there to talk to her.

Anyways, the doors opened and I got my bag checked and stuff and then Autumn couldn't get in because she didn't have her go-card with her and the admin wouldn't let her in even though they knew her. Since Autumn didn't have her go-card and neither did Sophie or this girl Trish, who I didn't know before, we all decided to go back to Sophie's house and hang out there instead. Gavin came with us because he was Autumn's date with the whole Grad Auction thing and we went to Kate's house to pick her up on the way because she hadn't shown up yet.

We got to Kate's and she took forever to answer the door. Apparently it was because she couldn't find her dress and Autumn and Sophie were yelling for her. Anyways, she was wearing this little black dress that I quite liked and that funky coat she has. Apparently it was origionally a Haloween costume that she got from her sister and she doesn't want her mom to know she owns it. lol. Autumn and I phoned to get rides from the school at 9:30 and then we left to go to Red Rooster and to Sophie's.

I got a slurpie and Autumn and gavin both got giant slurpies and some junk food, then we walked to Sophie's holding a sign that said "Honk if you're horny" over Kate's head.

When we got to Sophie's Gavin tried on a wedding dress she had and Kate got pictures of it on her cell. He looked freakishly good in it...he just needs to fill out a tiny bit in the chest. lol. That kid has a really nice back. It's almost like a girl's back. Autumn was like "see, this is why you stay bi, because every once in a while there's an adorable guy." I was just like "it's not like I can help it." Then we spent the rest of the night playing Fuck Up. It was interesting. It's a drinking game, but Sophie didn't want to be getting 9th graders drunk at her house, so we played with water. Half a glass per drink. It was actually a lot of fun. Sophie dropped out first, then Autumn or Kate, I can't remember, then Gavin. Trish actually got sick so I gave her a bathroom card. I don't get that. I stopped before I actually got sick because getting sick from drinking too much water doesn't exactly seem all that appealing to me. Anyways, if she had copped out when she got sick she would have been out first and I would have won, but Nooooo. Anyways, Sophie gave me her bathroom card when she dropped out because apparently she likes me best. Who knew. I wound up putting it back because I hadn't actually drawn it and I felt kinda bad, but I still wound up with two bathroom cards almost right away, which was a good position to be in. It was a bit ridiculous. I think I drank about two litres of water in about an hour.

After I copped out around 8:30 we went to walk Trish home and Sophie decided to stay at home. After we walked her home we went back to the school to wait for Dad and Autumn's gaurdian to get there. It was interesting. On the way from Trish's to the school everyone got into telling stories about their messed up lives. Suffice to say that I learned a lot about Autumn, Gavin and Kate. I knew bits and pieces of all of it, but know a lot more now than I did before. It's weird though, because I know I've had a good life compared to a lot of people, but I couldn't even think of one thing that came remotely close to anything any of them said. I was kind of suprised, because I consider myself to be a messed up person, but it really made me realize how almost all my problems are in my head, or they're things I've made worse on my own. I don't know if it's actually that my life is so much better or that my problems are different of what, and I know this is stupid, but I almost felt guilty because I didn't have any really awful thing that has happened to me. When I said I couldn't think of anything Autumn was all like "I applaud you" and said something about how at least one of us had had a normal childhood or something and I was just thinking, it can't be that normal. I have all these stupid little personal issues and they had to come from somewhere. I'm sticking to my theory that I just have a way of creating or worsening problems for myself.

It's kind of interesting. It seems that almost every time I've been with someone and they make a revelation or there's a really deep or emotional conversation it's at night. I'm not sure if that's coincidental or if it has something to do with the people feeling safe in the dark or something like that.

We got back to the school at about 9:10 and stood around talking. Dad got there at 9:30 so I left, but Autumn was still waiting for her ride, so I don't know how late everyone else was there.

This morning I got to school and I walked up the stairs and Sophie and Autumn were there and Sophie starts asking me if I felt sick and how many times I went to the bathroom after I got home and stuff. Apparently they were both getting up all night and they both felt kinda shitty. lol. Sophie said she pretty much collapsed after we all left her place, plus she had soup after we left. Smart kid.

I had Physics first block. I finished the question I was stuck on before, so now I've only got two left to do for Monday.

I had new reeds for band. YaY. It's amazing what a difference it makes.

Double block of Lit. We had our Anglo-Saxon unit test before lunch. It was pretty easy and I think I did pretty well on the essay, so that's good.

At lunch I hung out with Max (duh) and Bean and Chelsea, Guido and Sophie were there most of the time too. I kept feeding Bean haw flakes. It was quite amusing. I'd hold them out and pull them away when she tried to bite them, which was funny, but she bit me a couple times, or I put them on her nose and she tried to get them into her mouth which was highly amusing. Then she got kind of annoyed at me because I kept knawing on her arm, but that's just too bad. I also did a bunch of twisties in Guido's hair because she was using me as a pillow. It was fun. Lunch today was just really relaxed. It was really cool because it was almost the old group again and everyone was getting along and it just felt right.

After lunch we started the Mideaval (I'm never sure how to spell that) period. Mrs. Peterson talked a lot and then she left for a while so we just sat around and I talked with Kate, Katie and Kylie (hey, it's the KKKK. lol). Again with the old friends thing. Kind of odd, I expected Kylie to hate me, and maybe she does. I wouldn't blame her, but it was kind of cool.

I had psych last block. Mrs. Rodgers was back, which was definietly of the good. We had a discussion about the ethics of animal testing, which was interesting. Ben Brown showed up at the beginning of the block and Autumn disappeared to talk to him. She didn't come back until after school. I was standing by her locker and she comes up to me and says "I didn't know it was possible to cry for a whole hour." I wanted to give her a hug, but I'm not good with the whole emotions and affection thing, she said she was okay though, which is good if she's telling the truth and I really hope she was. She was all like "why didn't you come save me" and I told her next time I would if she told me where she was going ahead of time. I love Autumn, but sometimes I just wish I knew more of what was going on with her.

After school Max said something to Mrs. Rodgers about wanting to try Absenth and she was asking why you would want to do something like that. Max wants to get to the stage where you get to the brilliant visions and Mrs. Rodgers said something to the effect of, you don't need the Absenth, you just need to learn how to tap in to it. Personally, I think the whole brilliant vision thing would be pretty cool, but the part I would be more interested in is the second stage. You're supposed to see terifying things and that intrests me because I think that your fears can really reveal a lot about you because there's probably a reason for the vast majority of them. Another reason I think it would be interesting is because I have really violent dreams or dreams that should be really disturbing, like the whole being chased by guys with chain saws on motorbikes thing and it doesn't bug me at all and I think it would be interesting to see what it does take to really get to me. That may be a kind of self-destructive or masocist reason, but I think it would be really interesting and it might give me some insight. The only dream I can remember really freaking me out was the one where I was kidnapped by aliens and even then when I woke up I was still kind of disappointed because I wanted to know what was happening.

After dinner Mom and I went out to the mall and then to Danier and to Winners. We actually managed to go to Winners and not buy anything. It was amazing.

Emily sent me a hillarious link. I only managed to watch one of the animations though because my computer is being stupid. Damn thing wouldn't even let me talk to Max and we're not sure if it's my computer, his, or both of ours that was screwed up.

Max and I were going to try to get together tomorrow and be dateless, alone and hopefully drunk, but I don't think it's going to happen. Max said he has to go out with his mom to get prizes for some dance that she's helping with. Blah. I guess I'm going to end up on the computer all day, which isn't entirely a bad thing, but I'd rather actually do something.

I need a girlfriend. Sometimes though, I think that it may be a good thing I'm not dating anyone. Logically, if I feel like I need a girlfriend it's probably because I'm not really all that happy with the rest of my life and I feel like I need something to complete my life or to complete me and that's not what a relationship is supposed to be about. I don't really want to be someone who gets way over depended on my girlfriend, but I could see the possibility of that happening if I got into a relationship at a bad time. Oh, well, it's not like there's really anything on the verge of happening, but it sure as hell would be nice.

I've been in an unusually good mood the last two days and I'm not entirely sure why. Not that I'm complaining or anything, but things just seem to be going really well and I think I really needed Thursday night out. Ooo, and Sophie said something about getting together and playing Fuck-Up with Tequilla shots. SWEET.

Anyways, I'm tired and I've got to get up for fencing tomorrow so I'm going to go to bed.

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Subject:	Harison Retreat
Time:	9:53 pm.
Mood:	tired.
Music:	"Everybody" by Evanescence.

It's been a while since I've written in this thing. I need to get a real journal so I can actually keep up with it. Oh well, it'll happen eventually.

On Thursday we got out of rehearsal early. We drove Katie home because she phoned home for a ride and no one was home.

Friday we went up to Harrison. The drive was interesting. We got a call from Mr. Horning saying that there was an accident on the highway so we took some back road through the mountains. It was really foggy and kind of scary because we'd go around a corner and not be able to see the road lines, kind of like the night Lindsay crashed her car. We listened to "The Evil Spork" and to Vinyl Cafe stories on the way up.

AJ didn't come until late on Friday because he was at a Jazz festival with band.

I roomed with Step, Kristen and Tessa, but Tessa had dance so she didn't show up until like 1:00 and we didn't actually see her until the next morning. Max was with Aryn (sp?) and Nathan and AJ, Tyler and Zack were together.

We went swimming Friday night and then I hung out in Max's room with Max, Aryn, Nathan, Lindsay, and I think AJ too, until like 12:30. We were supposed to be back in our rooms at midnight, but MEH. I was asleep by like 1:00.

We had to get up at 7:00 on Saturday. Breakfast at 8:00.

We rehearsed for a while, then we went out shopping. It started out with pretty much our group and Irene, then AJ and I stayed in a store to look around longer and we never did catch up with everyone else. I almost bought some insence, but then I decided to be cheap, since I still have some. We went to the Nature's Gifts and then we went to a corner store and AJ bought some snacks. It was odd. He bought Twinkies, but before he bought them he asked if I'd eat some if he bought them and I said yes, so he bought them, and he also bought Mars Bars and a giant Pixie Stick, which he gave to me. He also ended up giving me the second Mars bar. Very odd.

Anyways, the guys had to start rehearsing half an hour earlier than we did, so I went up to my room and started reading the Bible because I was bored and wanted something to read because my paper and stuff was in the Fraser Room. Tessa came in, and it turns out that she's addicted to Queer as Folk and is reading a spin-off book. She owns the first three seasons on DVD and she said she'd lend them to me so Max and I can watch it. Score. It's practically all guys, (at least from what I remember from the one time I saw it) which kinda bites, but MEH. It was a pretty good show.

We atually got through all of Carmena Burana.

We had dinner at the Copper Room, the resteraunt in the hotel behind the pool. It was really good, and there was a really good band too. I didn't dance much, but Max and I got in a marangue. I spent most of the night sitting around with Aryn and AJ. Aryn wouldn't dance any slow songs because he has a girl frind and AJ just wouldn't dance for some reason.

Part way through one of the dances someone came over and was like "OMG there's two girls out there GRINDING!...I think they're lesbians" and everyone jumped up to go watch and Tessa's like "I want to see the lesbians." lol. It was weird, but they were all saying that it was cool that they're so open about it, so that's good. It turns out that Tessa has a sister who's a lesbian.

AJ and I went over to the bar because he'd asked for a coke and the waiter hadn't brought it over. Irene saw us there and asked us if we wanted her to buy us drinks. We said okay and she went off to get her ID. Anyways, that didn't happen because it turns out that you had to order drinks through your waiter and we didn't want her to get in trouble, but she said to tell her when and she'd get drinks for us and we'd have a party. I love Irene. I don't think it'll ever happen, but she's really cool.

After dinner we went swimming again, then I went up to Max's room and hung out with him and Lindsay. Then we went down to the pool to see if AJ was there because I didn't know if he thought I was in the cangeroom and was waiting for me or something because we got out of the pool at the same time and I assumed he'd come up. When we got down there pretty much everyone else was in the hot tub singing for the other people there, so we sange Black Bird and then left.

We pretty much just hung out and played cards for most of the night. We went into Katie's room for a while. Almost everyone else was there and they were all sitting around watching music videos. I've now seen the music video for "Hey Ya" *shudders* Anyways, someone's video came on, Beyonce or something...I can't remember, and Zack was like "She's so hot," which was hillarious, because he just sounds so incrdible gay. As Katie said "If he acts any gayer he'll explode." I beg to differ....I've met Chayse. lol. Anyways, Chelsea was going on about how hot she was and how if she was a lesbian it would be with her, and then she said "She gives me a boner." I don't think I want to know.

Sunday morning we got up at 8:00 and had breakfast at 8:30. Then we rehearsed from I think 10:00 until some time after 11:00. I think we left the hotel at about noon and listened to Vinyl Cafe pretty much the whole way home.

I got home around 1:30, and dad didn't realize I was home until about an hour later. I guess I should have told him when I got in. MEH.

Anyways, overall the trip was okay. Everyone else had a great time, but I was in a mood where I just wanted to sit at home alone most of the time. I spent a hell of a lot of time with AJ, but I didn't talk to Max much. He asked me if I was mad at him for spending most of the time with Lindsay and Kristen. I'm not, but I don't get it. I know that he gets along with Lindsay pretty well most of the time, but he talks about how he doesn't really like either one of them, and I just don't get why he'd go out of his way to spend all his time with people he SAYS he doesn't like for a whole weekend. Oh well, if he can't make up his mind, or feels like he has to say he doesn't like them for whatever reason that's really not my problem.

When I got home I worked on my Physics on and off all night. There were a couple questions that I totally bullshitted my way through, which kind of pissed me off because I knew how to do them last year, but whatever.

Monday we actually got to school before the first bell. SCORE. Only a minute or two, but it's better than before.

We were going to work on our Beowulf choral reaing thing after school, but that didn't end up happening. Suprise, suprise.

I was in a pretty bad mood all day. I'm not entirely sure why. I think it was a combination of being tired and still being in a mood where I just wanted to be by myself.

Rehearsal was different. I was still tired and in a shitty mood. I was going to take a nap after school, but I had to cook dinner so I couldn't. I guess I made it pretty obvious because Kirstin asked me if I was okay. I said I was, but I wanted to bitch about how I was in a shitty mood and rehearsing was just about the last thing I wanted to be doing, but what the hell was I supposed to say? Last time I said that I didn't want to be rehearsing it was pretty damn obvious that Linsay was really pissed off at me for it. I don't see why it matters though. Even if I didn't want to be rehearsing I still was and it's not like I was going to take off or anything.

We got a decent ammount of work done, but Danica didn't come and Tyler was late and Hil left at 8:00. We just stopped rehearsing around 8:30. Step had two translations of Carmena Burana. One direct translation and one that's re-written to go with the music. I want a copy of each of them. Lindsay's so stupid sometimes. The one that goes with the music says something about Jack and Jill, but it's really sexual and she couldn't understand that those weren't the actual lyrics because they probably didn't have the whole Jack and Jill thing.

Today was "Fashion Disaster Day." I don't usually do spirit week stuff, but I liked this day. Max, Katie, Kirstin and I all decided to wear our SCC sweaters. I don't know if Kirstin actually did because she told me she wore it but Carlene said she didn't. Lying bothers me. Anyways, I wore the stripped pants I got at China Town, my white shirt with the Peter Pan coller, the sweater and my runners with the music laces. I was going to wear my gahu band too, but I fogot....plus I was thinking that it might be a little to gay-pride-ish for my liking. Max wore his tetris shirt under the sweater, ripped up jeans with pj pants underneath and black dress shoes with white socks.

I had a double block of Lit. Before lunch we did a paragraph thing, which I think I did relatively well on. Then at lunch we went over our Beowulf thing. Kate actaully stayed at school so we could rehearse. We stopped a little after noon. I think we scared her. Max was trying to give Autumn a piggy-back, but she wouldn't let him because she thought she'd hurt him. Then I gave him a piggy-back and then he gave me one and we were running around Mrs. Rodger's room and in the hall. It was fun. Sophie and I told Kate she'd have to stay at school again so we'll have the whole lunch hour to traumatize her, so she said she'd stay on Thursday. lol.

Sophie is now in Psych. BLAH. Her and Autumn together bother me. They're constantly bickering. Plus - and I realize that this is petty and self centered, etc. etc - I had Autumn all to myself. I don't reall know her all that well, and I'd like to get to know her better, but with the me being quiet and her and Sophie already being really good friends and all I know I won't get to talk to her that much. I might get to know Kim better though, so I guess that's good.

ARG. I'm talking to Lindsay right now. We've missed the deadline for Kiwanis entries, but we can still get in if we register soon. The problem is the categories. There's community chamber choirs, which is less than 18 people and is the category SC4 will be in and I really don't want to do that, but that only leaves us with "Musical Theatre or Light Opera Ensembles" which says "Selections from Modern and Broadway musicals, movies , Gilbert & Sullivan or any Operetta permitted. Up to eighteen performers. Costumes and choreography are encouraged." It doesn't really fit us, or Community Jazz Vocal Ensembles. ARG.

Anyways, I'm tired and I want to be in bed earlier tonight so I'm going to bed.

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Subject:	Tonight I get to retrieve Carlene's shoe. I feel special.
Time:	3:39 pm.
Mood:	good.
Music:	"Whisper" by Evanescence.

So, Tuesday we got to school late-ish again. Damn them changing the bus scedule.

I had a double block of Lit. That was okay. We switched around our seats so I wound up next to Max and Kate, who was next to Autumn. Last block was Psych and Autumn and I were talking to the new girl for a bit. Her name's Kim and she moved to our school because she hated Sullivan and she's turning 19 soon. Autumn made some comment about her being cute (to me, not to her) and she really is. She seems really cool too.

I had Lit homework and I did my Physics because I won't have much time to work on it before Monday. I also finished Kirstin's tile and went over it again to darken it. Mom wanted me to wax it to protect it, but she couldn't find any floor wax. Other than that, I pretty much did nothing all night.

Today I was late for band - not that it really matters - because the bus was late again. Blah. Mom phoned the school and transportation to complain about it because we got one of the stupid calls from the school yesterday saying that the school wants to work on everyone getting to school on time.

In Lit we all switched seats again. We've got a quiz tomorrow on the Anglo-Saxons and we're going to be starting Beowulf.

Double block of Psych today. YaY. I love that class already. First block was mainly review type stuff about the different view of psychology. Sophie came in to the class part way through the block and I bit her on the arm and I think I scared her. She squealed. Quite amusing.

At lunch we had an odd conversation about pubic hair. It was special. Max bit me and I now have a big red bite mark on my arm. Bean ate with us and so did Chelsea and Kat and Kim came and sat with us for a while near the end of lunch, which was cool.

Second block of Psych we did the "Listening Exercise." It was really interesting. We got into partners and one person had to talk about something and look at the other person. The second person had to try to maintain eye contact and not talk. The subjects were Mom, Dad, Me and My Dreams, in that order. Then after we had to hold our hands so that one person had their palms upwards and the other's palms were facing downwards and close our eyes and hold our hands where they were without touching hands. It was weird, but really cool. I could feel energy flowing between us and it was like our hands were being pulled together, then repelled a bit then pulled together again, always pulling together more and repelling less. Autumn went off right away when we were told to get into partners and when she looked back and saw me sitting with Kim she mouthed "that's my gift to you." lol. Anyways, it was really interesting. I found out quite a bit about her. After school Autumn came up to me and asked me if I found out if she has a boyfriend or not. She does, but I knew that yesterday. I heard her mention it to Mrs. Rodgers yesterday after we did a 'where will I be in ten years' thing. Autumn was like "we can work with that" and I guess I gave her a weird look because she was like "well if you're not going to do anything about it, I'll see what I can do" or something like that. Oye Vae. This should be interesting. I just hope Autumn doesn't traumautize her too much.

After school today I was going to go talk with Rodgers, but I figured she'd have left already since it's a choir night, so I went and talked with Carlene, Chirs, Sydney and Amy. We wound up playing the shoe game. Carlene went with Amy then Sydney went with Amy.

On the bus on the way home Carlene was sitting with Amy and had her foot in her lap. Amy stole her shoes and they started getting tossed around between us. Nicole wound up with one and give it back to Carlene, but Chris wound up with the other one. Carlene made the mistake of thinking that she was kidding when she asked if it was okay for her to take it home, so now I'm going to get Carlene's shoe from Chris' brother at choir tonight so that she'll have it for tomorrow.

I have no homework today. YaY! I think I might glance over my Lit notes though because we may or may not get to use our notes for the quiz tomorrow.

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Subject:	Best Weekend Ever!
Time:	10:25 pm.
Mood:	calm.
Music:	"Hello" by Evanescence.

Thursday I had my Chem final. I'm not sure how I did, but MEH.

I walked home because I didn't feel like waiting until after 3:00 for the bus, but I hung around until people went into the History exam. It started raining just after I left and I stopped at Max's for a while on the way home and just hung out there until he went to work.

Friday I got to stay home. I got woken up at like 9:00 or something by the stupid dogs though and couldn't get back to sleep, so that kinda sucked.

Saturday we went to fencing and I found out that it was Mrs. Hall's birthday.

After fencing I got dropped off at Max's and we phoned Spot because we wanted to organize Kirstin's suprise party, but she wasn't home, so we went shopping. We were origionally going to just go to Penninsula Village and then bus to Tapestry. Anyways, we started out at Penninsula Village to go to the new store there and then we went up to the Library so Max could see the "one" and "two" buttons on the toilets and we both got a library card while we were there. Then we looked around Deals and walked through Semiamhoo Mall. Then we were going to go for lunch, so we went to the Malaysian resteraunt, but it was closed, so we started walking down towards Tapestry to look for resteraunts. We were going to try the Thai resteraunt but they were closed too, so we went to Tapestry first. Max got another Josh Groban song and the original version of "Vincent Stary Stary Night" and we saw a shirt that said "Got Music?" and we were going to buy it for Mrs. Hall, but it was $20 and we didn't think she'd wear it much, buth then we saw a "Got Music?" mug and we figured she'd use it more and it was a lot cheaper, so we got that instead. We also got really cool shoelaces. One pair has a staff with music on it and the other is piano keyboards and we both took one of each.

After we went to Tapestry we decided to go to the Five Corners Cafe for lunch, but we got there just after 2:00 and there were people still eating there but they were just closing so we went up to the Yucca Tree Cafe - Mrs. Rodgers has recommended that place. The food there is really good and it's pretty decnetly priced too. Max had a Mexican burger and I had vegan chili.

We left the resteraunt at around 3:00 and started walking to Step's to give Mrs. Hall her present. On the way there we clocked our speed for a mile and we figured out that we walk a mile every 15 minutes. Go Us! lol. It had just started raining as we were leaving the resteraunt. We got to Step's at 4:00 and were pretty wet. Mrs. Hall invited us in so we stayed for a while and had hot chocolate and talked.

Mrs. Hall offered us a ride home, but we refused because we felt like walking. We phoned Spot again to see if she was home so we could drop over and plan Kirstin's party, but it turns out she was in Hong Kong, so we phoned Hil and went there instead, of course it was pouring rain when we left and we were soaked by the time we got there. She had a guy called Tristan over but she said we could go over anyways.

I don't know what time we got to Hil's, but we stayed for a while and we got to see the room they're making in the garage. It's a really nice green color and they're going to cover one of the walls with New Yorker covers - they're all cartoons - it's going to look really cool.

We had Tristan phone Kirstin's house so he could ask to talk to Kirstin's mom and hand the phone over to one of us, but she wasn't home. All we really accomplished was deciding on 4:30 as the time we were all going to meet at the end of Kirstin's street.

It was pouring when we left Hil's and we walked back to Penninsula Village to have dinner. Of course, we were walking slower on the way home, so it took longer for us to get back. We were walking along 24th and it was pretty dark and our glasses were totally covered in water which made it that much harder to see. We'd be walking along the sidewalk and all of a sudden we'd be on the grass because we couldn't see what was sidewalk and what was grass or puddles. It took us probably half an hour or more to realize that if we took off our glasses we could actually see.

When we got to Penninsula Village we went to London Drugs so Max could buy a phone card and Chirstina's boyfriend was working there, which is totally irrelivant.

We got the Chinese Dinner For Two at Safeway because it was on sale and we were really hungry, $9.99 for two medium rice or noodle dishes, two medium entrees, two spring rolls and two pops. Ridiculously good deal. We ate dinner there and then walked back to Max's and I hung out there until around 10:30. I didn't want to go home, but Dad didn't want to come pick me up any later than that.

The whole day was SO much fun. Just the mood was so awsome and we got a chance to really talk with all the walking and then just hanging out afterwards and we really don't get enough time to do that any more. *tear and three quarters* (Yes, that deserves more than just a half.) We decided that sometime we are going to go to Safeway and buy stuff from the deli and bakery and bring a picnic blanket and have a picnic in the middle of the food court-ish area where you can sit down and eat, and if they kick us out we'll go outside and have our picnic in a parking spot. We were talking about it at school today and Scot wants to come with us when we do it. I want to get a bunch of people together for it.

On Sunday I went shopping with Mom at Stupid Store. It was so packed it was ridiculous.

We got home with about ten minutes before I had to leave to go to Kirstin's. It was so awsome. She actually didn't expect it. Apparently Max told her we weren't going to do it so get over it and Danica said it would be too hard to get everyone together because we're all so busy and a lot of people weren't around all weekend so Kirstin was kind of bummed out.

Anyways, her parents had told her that they were going to go out for an early dinner and Kirstin was getting all pissed off because no one was getting ready and then we showed up. We blindfolded her and put her in the "Birthday Girl" cape I made and the balloon hat Max made, which was awsome by the way. It had three flowers sticking out around the edges and a big flower standing up in the middle with a bee on it. Then we walked her down the street to where Mrs. Hall and Deb were waiting and Lindsay had her car. When we got to Earl's Kirstin thought we were in Penninsula Village.

Kistin really liked our present. She wore the toque to school today - Carlene told her it was ugly and that she smells - and she asked me to draw on the tile for her, but I haven't finished it yet. She also got an duck clock that Step stuck Orlando Bloom's face on and an Orlando Bloom poster that she stuck ducks all over from Step. Some Chinese paining from Lindsay, a candle chandelere thing from Danica, something from Vida from Kristen, I can't remember what it was right now, and I can't remember what Hil or Tyler got her either.

I went to the bathroom and I missed the bringing out of the cake and the singing. Made me sad.

Kate was at the resteraunt with her mom and some other lady, so after we had cake I went and talked to her for a while. It's kind of funny. Her mom made some comments and they seem to have the same sense of humor. She seems pretty cool.

After Earl's everyone but Hil and Kristen went back to Kirstin's house. They'd both been out all weekend and were too tired.

We saw Kirstin's room, which she painted light purple, and hung around for a while, then went to the Peace Arch to sing. Then we went back to Kirstin's and Max and I were going to get a ride home with Tyler, but Dad had gotten tired of waiting for me to call and had just left when I phoned to tell him not to come.

This morning was the first day with the new bus schedule. Carlene wants to get up first now, so I don't have to be out of bed until 7:00, which is really nice, but I don't have the time to sit around and go on the computer and stuff in the morning, which kind of sucks because I like to be able to relax before school. I don't like the new time in the morning. We didn't get to school today until after the second bell had rung. It sucks. I like to be there early. Maybe not quite as early as the bus used to get there, but I'd like to at least be there by 8:00 so I can have time to veg out or talk to people. I don't get my morning Autumn time any more. lol. Plus always used to be my homework time if I needed it.

My courses this semester are:
E: Psych with Mrs. Rodgers - Autumn and Scott are both in my class. SCORE!
F: Physics with Buller - I don't really have any friends in that class, but Troy's in the class.
G: Band with Owens (duh) - MAX IS IN BAND!!!!! I'm so happy. He has to re-learn the flute, but he'll be able to do it. There's also Nicole and Elissa...all the band people, except Janet isn't in band now.
H: Lit with Peterson - Autumn, Kate, Guido, Max Forrester, Sohie (damn) Katie (damn) Kylie (I just feel awkward with her around. I keep guilt tripping myself, and I know I deserve it) and there's this one really irritating kid, but I don't know what his name is.

I got to Lit. a bit late today because I was changing my course and I ended up sitting behind Autumn. She was sitting between Kate and Sophie, and I was actually kind of jealous of Sophie. I know...I'm pathetic. I don't really think Autumn likes me as more than a friend anyways, so that just makes it stupider. Blah.

I feel kind of bad about taking Lit. I'd already told Bean that I had I'd be her spare buddy in that block, but then I figured it would be a good idea to have another provincial just in case, plus Dad was seriously pressuring me to take the class as soon as I told him I could take it if I wanted to. I went and talked to Peterson at nutrition break today and she said that it was a really interesting course and she'd been hoping that I would take it because she thinks I'll really like it and she can't see me getting anything less than an A in the class, which is good. The problem is that it's a really heavy course and I'm going to be insanely busy for at least a couple weeks with the musical and I'll have no spare and Physics too, but I guess I'll manage.

After school Spot and Lindsay showed up at school. They were going to take Kirstin out for her birthday since Spot had just gotten back from Hong Kong a few hours before and had missed her birthday. Max and I sent them out to the bus loop to look for her, but the bus had already left, so we went out to McDonalds with them instead.

Apparently Spot wants to steal Max from me for the prom because she saw a dress at some store in Hong Kong that she really likes and her mom said she'd buy it for her if she got invited to a prom this year.

The rehearsal today was okay. We got three of the Adoramus songs and the one from Tarzan. We really didn't get much done though, so I was kind of disappointed by that.

Anyways, it's getting late so I'm going to go to bed now......double block of Lit tomorrow.

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Subject:	another survey
Time:	11:28 pm.

What is your name?:	Kayla
Are you named after anyone?:	I don't think so
What's your screename?:	Pyro, MeMeMe, but I don't really like that one
Would you name a child of yours after you?:	hell no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:	I don't know....Joe?
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:	maybe Kirstin or Autumn
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:	people call me Kyla
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:	maybe
Basics
Your gender::	I'm a chick
Straight/Gay/Bi::	gay
Single?:	yeah
If not, do you want to be?:	I am, but I don't want to be
Birthdate::	May 27
Your age::	17
Age you act::	it depends...anywher from about 5 to....well, really old
Age you wish you were::	at least 19....old enough to drink legally
Your height::	5'4" or something like that
Eye color::	brown
Happy with it?:	sure
Hair color::	black
Happy with it?:	yeah
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::	righty
Your living arrangement::	at home with my parents, my sister, my dogs and my guinea pig
Your family::	I don't get the question, but okay
Have any pets?:	yeah
Whats your job?:	unpaid pianist for the school musical and pianist singer person in Concordiae, where the money all goes into the bank and sits there
Piercings?:	none
Tattoos?:	nope
Obsessions?:	slight Carmena Burana obsession at the moment
Addictions?:	Carmena Burana?
Do you speak another language?:	not unless the French I learned in school counts
Have a favorite quote?:	"Make him get a sex change" ...best reaction ever....I love Christie
Do you have a webpage?:	yeah....but I don't ever update it and it's kinda stupid http://www.geocities.com/pyro_the_amazon/index.html
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:	sometimes
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:	yeah
Do you have any secrets?:	not really.....there's things I don't really talk about much, but I don't really consider them secrets
Do you hate yourself?:	at times
Do you like your handwriting?:	not really, but I don't mind it either
Do you have any bad habits?:	picking
What is the compliment you get from most people?:	apparently I have nice hair
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:	"Closed"
What's your biggest fear?:	dying alone
Can you sing?:	yeah. choir is my life
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:	no
Are you a loner?:	yeah
What are your #1 priorities in life?:	my music and my friends
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:	I'm not sure, probably
Are you a daredevil?:	no
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:	sometimes I think I might snap and do something stupid, hurt someone I care about. ....and there's lots of things I hate about myself
Are you passive or agressive?:	passive
Do you have a journal?:	only a blog, but I want a journal, I just haven't gotten around to finding one yet
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:	strength: I'm pretty strong emotionally when I need to be Weakness: it's to easy to piss me off if you know how to push my buttons
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:	I'd want to be more self confident and more outgoing
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:	most of the time....of course, that it could be just emotionally void
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:	there's people I wish I'd gotten to know
Do you think life has been good so far?:	I know it has been, but it doesn't always seem like it
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:	screw what the rest of the world thinks; you've got to be yourself
What do you like the most about your body?:	I'm pretty strong
And least?:	my stomach
Do you think you are good looking?:	average
Are you confident?:	with some things
What is the fictional character you are most like?:	I don't know...maybe Annie from "Annie on my Mind"
Are you perceived wrongly?:	I don't know....maybe
Do You...
Smoke?:	no
Do drugs?:	no
Read the newspaper?:	not much
Pray?:	no
Go to church?:	sometimes....but I don't believe in god....I feel kind of obligated to go
Talk to strangers who IM you?:	if they start the conversation
Sleep with stuffed animals?:	just Wrinkles
Take walks in the rain?:	sometimes, but it's usually because I have to walk somewhere
Talk to people even though you hate them?:	I try to avoid it
Drive?:	I haven't in months....I still need to take the stupid test
Like to drive fast?:	sure
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:	yeah
Hurt yourself?:	yeah
Been out of the country?:	YuP
Eaten something that made other people sick?:	yeah
Been in love?:	no
Done drugs?:	no
Gone skinny dipping?:	no
Had a medical emergency?:	only if slicing my foot on that tile counts
Had surgery?:	no
Ran away from home?:	no
Played strip poker?:	no
Gotten beaten up?:	no
Beaten someone up?:	no
Been picked on?:	kind of-ish
Been on stage?:	yeah...all the time with choir
Slept outdoors?:	in a tent
Thought about suicide?:	yeah
Pulled an all nighter?:	YuP
If yes, what is your record?:	I don't know....probably around 30 hours
Gone one day without food?:	I don't think so
Talked on the phone all night?:	no all night, but for hours at a time
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?:	yeah, lots of times....besides, it's not like I want to have sex with them
Slept all day?:	I don't think so
Killed someone?:	not that I know of
Made out with a stranger?:	no
Had sex with a stranger?:	no
Thought you're going crazy?:	all the time
Kissed the same sex?:	not an actual kiss because I'm a sad, pathetic (I know that's redundant) girl friend-less person
Done anything sexual with the same sex?:	I wish
Been betrayed?:	yeah
Had a dream that came true?:	I don't think so
Broken the law?:	yeah...drinking a stuff
Met a famous person?:	yeah
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:	yeah, we took care of rabitts once and they just kept dropping like flies
On purpose?:	yeah...with the fishing
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:	I don't know...probably
Stolen anything?:	I don't think so
Been on radio/tv?:	yeah
Been in a mosh-pit?:	no
Had a nervous breakdown?:	yeah
Bungee jumped?:	no
Had a dream that kept coming back?:	I've had dreams two or three times, but not like incessantly
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:	yeah
Miracles?:	yeah
Astrology?:	kind of
Magic?:	kind of
God?:	no
Satan?:	no
Santa?:	no
Ghosts?:	yes
Luck?:	yes
Love at first sight?:	kind of
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:	definitely
Witches?:	sure
Easter bunny?:	no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:	yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:	no
Do you wish on stars?:	no
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:	no
Do you think God has a gender?:	I don't believe in god, but if there is some type of higher power, then no
Do you believe in organized religion?:	I don't personally believe in it, but I see no problem with it and I like the kind of community you can get
Where do you think we go when we die?:	I don't know...re-incarnation or ghosts maybe
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:	yeah
Who is your best friend?:	Max AKA Alex
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:	Max
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:	the first thing that comes to mind is to join choir
Your favourite inside joke?:	Are you pondering what I'm pondering? Question of the year.
Thing you're picked on most about?:	nothing really.....at least not to my face
Who's your longest known friend?:	I think it's Danica
Newest?:	I don't know...
Shyest?:	Danica
Funniest?:	Max
Sweetest?:	Danica
Closest?:	Max
Weirdest?:	Max
Smartest?:	I don't know
Ditziest?:	Kristen, even though I can't stand her
Friends you miss being close to the most?:	Kirstin...we're still friends, but I miss how we used to talk all the time
Last person you talked to online?:	I'm talking to Max right now. Before that it was Bean
Who do you talk to most online?:	Bean
Who are you on the phone with most?:	Max
Who do you trust most?:	Max
Who listens to your problems?:	Max
Who do you fight most with?:	I don't usually fight with my friends
Who's the nicest?:	I don't know...maybe Hil or Danica
Who's the most outgoing?:	Max and Autumn
Who's the best singer?:	I don't know....Max or Hil
Who's on your shit-list?:	Kristen considering I've never actually liked her
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?:	YuP....stupid hot friends with their straight-ness shakes fist
Who's your second family?:	Max and mom
Do you always feel understood?:	no
Who's the loudest friend?:	Max, Bean and Autumn
Do you trust others easily?:	yeah
Who's house were you last at?:	Max's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in::	Max, Autumn
Do your friends know you?:	kind of....some more than others
Friend that lives farthest away::	I don't know. All of my friends live pretty close
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:	no
What do you find romantic?:	going out of your way to do sweet little things, the odd cheesy line and just being able to sit and hold someone
Turn-on?:	fun personality
Turn-off?:
First kiss?:
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:	flattered
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:	probably, yeah
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:	well, considering that has no effect on me whatsoever, I could care less
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv:	not someone unattractive, but the people I like aren't always incredibly attractive
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:	probably not
What is best about the opposite sex?:	how would one go about having "opposite sex"?
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:	the fact that they're not female
What's the last present someone gave you?:	I don't know...I don't remember if I've gotten anything since Christmas
Are you in love?:	no
Do you consider your significant other hot?:	I have a significan lack of other
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:	as in literally haunted?
You wanted to kill?:	I don't know
That you laughed at?:	Theresa....her studying today was.....special
That laughed at you?:	I don't know......probably Max
That turned you on?:	Autumn
You went shopping with?:	Max and Autumn
That broke your heart?:	no one
To disappoint you?:	the Christie not being Bi....not that I think anything would have happened there, but still
To ask you out?:	no one tear and a half
To make you cry?:	I don't know
To brighten up your day?:	Bean or Autumn
That you thought about?:	Autumn
You saw a movie with?:	in a theater: Max ...just a movie: I think it was Max and Tyler
You talked to on the phone?:	Chris...she phoned to talk to Carlene
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:	I'm talking to Max and playing a game with Janet
You saw?:	My dad....other than my family, Max
You lost?:	a person I lost? ......um....I don't know...I kind of feel like I've lost Kirstin. I don't even really feel like I know her any more tear and a hlaf
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:	no
Will it be with your significant other?:	ummm, not going out combined with a significant lack of other
Or some random person?:	umm...STILL not going out
What are you wearing right now?:	my green Concordiae shirt and jeans
Body part you're touching right now::	one of my feet is touching the other one
What are you worried about right now?:	kind of worried about my marks.....and wondering if I should have taken Lit.
What book are you reading?:	none.....I've gotta find me a book
What's on your mousepad?:	I don't have one
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::	listless, slow, blah, blank, zoned
Are you bored?:	not particularily bored, but not particularily amused either
Are you tired?:	not particularily
Are you talking to anyone online?:	yeah
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:	no
Are you lonely or content?:	content
Are you listening to music?:	yeah

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Subject:	Surveys......I was bored
Time:	9:51 pm.

What is your favorite..
gum:	I don't really like guym
restaurant:	I don't know....Kim Chee Palace maybe
drink:	daquari
season:	summer
type of weather:	sunny and hot or thunder storms
emotion:	when you're so incredibly comfortable with someone that you just want to stay in the moment forever
thing to do on a half day:	just hang out
late-night activity:	hanging out with friends and talking or watching the stars
sport:	badminton
city:	San Jose was fun....Vancouver's awsome too though
store:	thrift stores
When was the last time you..
cried:	the day I was so stressed out that I almost broke down like 3 times....I don't know if I actually cried, but I was really close
played a sport:	ummm...I don't remember
laughed:	probably today
hugged someone:	ummmm. either yesterday or Tuesday, I don't remember
kissed someone:	I have no idea
felt depressed:	I don't know....it's been a while since I've really been depressed
felt elated:	yesterday
felt overworked:	monday
faked sick:	don't know
lied:	I don't remember
What was the last..
word you said:	probably "now"
thing you ate:	canned peaches
song you listened to:	a new one just started...it's "My Last Breath" by Evanescence
thing you drank:	peach juice
place you went to:	Max's
movie you saw:	in a theater: Piarates of the Carribean....last movie...I think it was the Exorcist
movie you rented:	Dream Catcher and whatever the hell the other ones were....but technically Tyler rented those
concert you attended:	the Jazz thing we did at Mount Olive
Who was the last person you..
hugged:	probably Bean....it might be Autumn
cried over:	either Javan, which was years ago, or Kirstin, which was last year
kissed:	I have no idea
danced with:	probably Max
shared a secret with:	um....well the coming out to Bean and the kind of confirming it with Autumn....I don't know if I really consider that a secret, but I kind of is....-ish
had a sleepover with:	Max
called:	Max
went to a movie with:	Max...grad movie night...jeez, I don't get out much
saw:	my mom....outside of my family...Max, suprise, suprise
were angry with:	I don't know...probably one of my parents
couldn't take your eyes off of:	Autumn....
obsessed over:	Autumn
Have you ever..
danced in the rain:	yeah
kissed someone:	no :-( ....I'm pathetic and I need a girl friend
done drugs:	no
drank alcohol:	yeah
slept around:	no
partied 'til the sun came up:	yeah....the Three Inbred Sisters...what a party...and you can't forget the fishy macarena
had a movie marathon:	yeah...Emily's going away party
gone too far on a dare:	no
spun until you were immensely dizzy:	yeah
taken a survey quite like this before:	I don't remember

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basics
Name::	Kayla
Nickname::	Pyro
Location::	Surrey
Gender::	....it depends who you ask. lol. ....I'm a chick....and somehow that word does not seem to suit me at all
Birthplace::	Grace Hospital in Vancouver
Birthstone::	Emerald
Birthday::	May 27th
Sign::	Gemini
Righty or Lefty::	Righty
Screenname::	Pyro, MeMeMe (I don't like that one though)
your looks
Height::	about 5'4" I think
Weight::	around 145
Shoe size::	9
Hair Color::	black with red streaks, but they're fading to brown
Hair Length::	long....half way down my back
Eye Color::	brown
Size::	size of what?
Glasses::	yeah
Braces::	not any more, thank god
Piercings::	none
Tattoos::	none
fashion
Where do you shop::	thrift stores, and winners
What do you usually wear::	it depends on my mood....bagy guy-ish clothes, a suit, tank tops, dress shirts, my rubbie clothes
What kind of shoes do you wear::	runners, the black army boot-ish ones or my black ones
Do you wear a watch::	always
Color you never wear::	I would normally say pink, but I bought a shirt that has pink in it yesterday...
Color you wear at least once a week::	black
Something you wear everyday::	my ankh necklace and a few of my rings
Do you wear make up everyday::	almost never
Make up essential::	none
Most cherished piece of clothing::	I don't know....but I do have a couple shirts that I've had since about 4th grade that I still wear
You wouldn't be caught dead wearing::	honestly my fashion sense changes...or broadens or whatever, but at the moment, a bikini
Do you wear belts::	yeah
Do you wear hats::	almost never
How many pairs of shoes do you have::	three that I actually wear
music
Favorite kind of music::	I don't have a favorite
Least Favorite::	techno
How many CD's do you have::	barely any
Last CD you bought::	I don't know....I don't even remember the last time I bought a CD
Whats in your CD player right now::	Tubular Bells
Do you download music::	yeah
Favorites
Color::	black, blood red and dark blue
Number::	7
Season::	summer
Ice cream::	I don't know
Website::	http://www.iyarilimon.com ...I'm addicted to this site
Quote::	"Make him get a sex change!" best reaction ever ....I love Christie
Store::	thrift stores, Winners
Band::	I don't have one
Singer::	I don't know
Rapper::	dunno
Group::	Concordiae....does that count?
Song::	I could never chose just one
Movie::	Blad I and II, Monty Python and the Holy Grail
Actor::	I don't know...but I like watching Kirstin watch Orlando Bloom
Actress::	how 'bout a hot actress list: Eliza Dushku drool Iyari Limon, Allyson Hannigan....noticing the Buffy trend?...and there's that chick that was in Antitrust
Kind of movies::	action, thinkers, funny, supernatural or even better, a combination
Place to be::	at Horsefly, by the fire by myself, or on the dock looking a the stars or fishing
Time of day::	night
Clothing Brand::	I could care less about brands
Animal::	dunno
Food::	all the weird Chinese things that everyone thinks are gross
Holiday::	I don't like holidays
Shape::	dunno...squigles
Restaraunt::	I don't know...Kim Chee Palace maybe
Fast food place::	Wendy's or Subway...places that sell food that isn't all greasy and gross
Boy's name::	I don't know, but I really like the name Chayse...but it makes me think of Chayse....
Girl's name::	for some reason I really like guy-ish girl names, like Chris and stuff
Word::	dunno (and no, that's not it)
Month::	dunno...probably July or August
Candy::	those aniseed things
love and relationships
Sexual Preference::	I like the chicks
Boyfriend or Girlfriend::	I want a girlfriend...damn the me being all shy and pathetic
Crush::	there's a few of them....Autumn, Hil, Christie...
Do you believe in love at first sight::	kind of
What do you look for in a guy/girl::	someone that can talk to that has a good personality
Best physical feature::	backs, arms and hands
Best hair color::	it doesn't matter
Best eye color::	it doens't matter
randoms
Do you paint your nails::	almost never
What color is your tooth brush::	right now I think it's blue and fuscia
What's on your desktop::	computer: a stupid pig thing that Carlene put up...the actual desktop in my room is just covered in random shit
Do you like roller coasters::	yeah
Do you do drugs::	no
Are you a virgin::	umm...yeah....I need a girlfriend.....
Do you have any pets::	yeah....two dogs and a guinea pig
What time do you go to sleep::	it depends....usually between 10 and 10:30 on week days...on week ends it depends how tired I am, but usually not before midnight

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Subject:	Today was SO much fun!
Time:	4:42 pm.
Mood:	good.
Music:	"Carmena Burana" by Carl Orff.

We went to see Who on sunday. It was fun. We went and watched the parade, which was freakishly long and really repetitive, but there was the Carnival Band, which was pretty cool. After the parade we walked around China Town and Who went back to her house to cook. We watched the dragon dace where they go and take the lettuce from all the stores and that was really neat. Then we went back to Who's for dinner. It was really good, but she kept making us eat more, just like last year. She kept pilling more and more food into Max's bowl, it was funny because he eats less than I do.

According to mom Who was saying something to her about when Max and I get married. Arg. Like that's going to happen. My mom was warning us that she'd think we were dating on the way in and she said something about how it would be interesting to see what would happen if someone was gay and took their date in. Max and I both almost cracked up after that one. I'm thinking an interesting experiment next year if we go see her again would be to either a) take two guys, I'm thinking Max and Tyler or b) take in a chick...and if she was actually my girl friend that would just make it better. lol.

Monday I got to stay home and sleep in. YaY. I wasted pretty much the whole day on the computer, but I think I studied a little bit.

Yesterday I had my English and French provincials. I think I did relatively well on both of them. Max, Autumn, Bean and maybe a couple other people and I were playing cards before the exam and Mrs. Peterson was going around the commons area giving people smarties "to make you smart--er" and she was going around handing them out again in the gym just before we started and when she got to my desk she said she expectes me to ace the exam. I was trying to figure out if that was supposed to be pressure or reassurance, and I think it was supposed to be a bit of both. At lunch we just hung out with the normal people, plus Veronica. After lunch I hung out with Megan and Theresa until the French exam. It was really funny because Megan was all pissed off because she couldn't get pot anywhere and then she kept asking people for Tylonol and saying "and by Tylonol, I mean pot." It was special.

I actually studied for Math for about two hours last night. I was proud of me. I didn't think I'd actually get around to it.

This morning when Autumn got to school she asked if I wanted to do something because we were both going to be there all day, so she went uptown with Max and I. Max didn't show up until after 8:30 because he was up late last night because his basement flooded. Autumn was getting so impatient it was hillarious.

Max went to see Mr. Harmond about the putting an add in the program and Autumn and I were waiting in the little hallway thing that goes into the theater and she pointed at Richard in the Les Miserables picture and goes "would you ever sleep with a guy like that?" and I said "I wouldn't sleep with a guy" and she just said "well that answers that question."

Then we finally went uptown and we walked through the mall but almost everything was closed so we wound up walking around Zellars. Then we went over to the strip mall accross the road and we went into a craft store and asked if they had any duck things and the lady gave us a bag of little duck cut-outs that she'd colored so we decided to go around to all the stores and see what they would give us for Kirstin's present. It was SO much fun. We got Halloween nail polish from Shoppers, depends and an elbow brace from another store, a wine glass that the paint had bubbled on from an art store, name tags and labels from a sign store, dog food from a pet store, a hideous toque and a hat from Knitopia, a tile from a flooring store and a bee keychain that only had one wing from Vida and a mask someone painted. Then we went to the Sally Ann and I tried on snake skin pants. Max tried them on first, but they didn't fit and Autumn tried on a dress that was really short and tight and I liked it. lol. I got a really bright shirt. It's great.

We also went to Tapestry and Max bought sheet music for a Josh Groban song that I can't remember the name of at the moment.

We went for lunch at the chinese place that Max calls Betty's Place. It was really good and cheap too. Autumn said something about Max being gay, and she said she was kidding and Max told her. It was kind of funny because she was kind of freaking out because she wouldn't believe him. She was like "You're kidding. With Kayla I kinda figured." lol. Then she's like "This is so great, I can go check out guys with Max (yes, she has actually started calling him Max) and I can check out girls with Kayla." .....and she said something about threesomes. lol. But it was funny because you've got me, then Max and then Autumn, the "happy medium."

We met Keith (I finally know his name!) as we were leaving the resteraunt so he started walking back to school with us. He seems like a pretty cool kid. When we were near the water resevoir thing we realized that we'd left our tile at the resteraunt and Keith ran all the way back for it. We were walking back to meet him and when we met he started appoligizing about being so slow. I didn't know this until today, but he has teretz. It's not really that noticable. He's a really neat person though and he's hillarious. He acts a little like Max with the odd comments and such, but not really that unusual.

We got back to school about twenty to one, so we still got to the exam on time. I was talking to Autumn when we were waiting for everyone to get ready and it turns out that she REALLY likes Max. lol. She kept on going on about how much it sucks because she can get just about any guy she likes except for all the gay ones. I think the fact that I found it really funny kind of annoyed her, although it had a lot to do with the fact that just about everyone seems to have a thing for him. Then we started talking about how much the liking gay guys (for her, obviously) and straight chicks, sucks and I wound up talking about Hil, suprise, suprise. Then Autumn decided to point out all the attractive girls in our grade to me, she never got any farther than Christie. Apparently the first time Autumn talked to her she scared the crap out of her because it was her second day at school, she didn't know anyone and Autumn went up to her and says "So, do you want to go out some time?" It was pretty funny. We were talking about how gorgeous Christie was - well, actually, Autumn was doing most of the talking, but I agree completely - and Autumn called to Christie accross the room asking if she remembered the first time they met. It was amusing. Christie came over and Autumn started telling her that we were talking about how gorgeous she is and Christie did a headstand and Autumn started talking about how she was so tempted to grab Christie's ass. lol.

The test was a BITCH. I took about two and a quarter hours, I never took that long on any of the mocks, and I didn't even get an answer for two of the written ones. ARG. I'm hoping they scale the marks, because Mom even said that a math teacher at her school said that that's the hardest final he's ever seen.

I missed the bus finishing (kind-of) the test and then I had to wait until 4:10 for Dad to get there to pick me up. Not fun. I wouldn't have minded if there was someone there to talk to, but Andrew and Tony had left and so had Mme. Brown and Ms. Pollock so I pretty much stood there for fifteen minutes or so. Ooo, but I got a question right - at least I'm pretty sure I got it right - that Sun got wrong. Go me!

Anyways, dinner is ready so I'm going to go now.

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Subject:	I had the best day yesterday
Time:	8:40 pm.
Mood:	content.
Music:	"Carmena Burana" by Carl Orff.

So, choir was pretty good on Wednesday. We got the song "Away From the Roll of the Sea," which is a really good song. I think I've done it before, but I'm not sure about that. I've definitely heard it though.

Hil brought her grafitti jacket that Spot gave her for Christmas and I got to draw on it. YaY! It made me happy, but the stupid singing kept interfering with my drawing.

Thursday when Autumn got to school we went into Mrs. Rodger's room and she kept asking me questions from the "Book of Questions" that Mrs. Rodgers has. It was interesting. This kid that always comes and talks to Autumn came in and wrote "Jesus is a terrorist" on the board and I said "If you don't believe in gosh you'll be darned to heck" and Autumn had to tell him what it meant and then he freaked out because he thought I was religious and was going to freak at him. It was funny. We finished watching 1984 in English. Good book, awful movie, but Autumn and I talked, so it was interesting. It felt like she was psychoanalyzing me though, it was kind of odd. I told her about the dream I had where my dad was going to shoot me, minus the parts with her in them, and she kept asking me about my relationship with him and stuff. But hey, if she does go into psychology she'll probably be good at it.

I had a double block of French and Ochnio gave us a test on verbs and stuff that she used to give as a final, except she let us do it open book. She said it would be worth quite a bit and she'd only count it if it brought our mark up, but I got 90% on it, so YaY! Then after lunch we did more work sheets and she said we didn't have to go to class on Friday unless we wanted help with something, which was awsome.

Friday morning I helped Theresa with her math. Then I went to chem, studied for a while, got bored and started drawing a celtic knot. Then I went to English and did our 1984 unit test. Autumn got annoyed because I was taking to long to finish and then I worked on my knot instead of talking to her, but in my defense she moved up and sat at the front corner when there was a free seat closer to me. Then in the first block of Math I finished drawing the knot, which is really cool by the way.

At lunch Carlene came and draged me down to get sibling photos taken for the year book, so we'll probably be in that. Max, Scott, Russle and I think someone else got their pictures taken together but they can't really put them on the siblings page because they're not siblings.

After lunch I went back to Math, finished going over my celtic knot and got bored and went to see Bean. She wasn't in PAPA so I went down to the commons area and she was there with Chelsea, so I went and got my stuff and stayed down there. I started drawing on my book and then I said I needed someone to draw on or something and Guido said I could draw on her, so I drew on her, and Bean asked me to draw on her after I finished Guido. Her exact words were "Do me! Do me in blue!" and Guido was like "You want her to do you in a blue thong?" lol. Then Megan came and wanted me to draw on her but I had to have her wait until I finished Bean. It was great.

Guido made a comment about how her hand was in my cleavage. I have cleavage?!?! Who knew? ...Guido apparently. I pretty much said "Deal with it." Then when I was drawing on Megan she's like "My hand's on your boob." "yes, yes it is." I also got gropped by Megan, which I was kind of expecting, but whatever. Apparently she hasn't dated in four whole months because she decided she was going to stop portraying herself as a slut and guys just stopped liking her. Special. Then I made some comment about how I kind of miss grab tag and I got grabbed again. lol. Megan said she liked her drawing the way it was and about ten seconds later the bell rang. Talk about good timing. I probably would have just kept going until she had to leave or the bus was going to be there. Megan also mentioned getting me to do a real tatoo on her. I think she might actually be serious, which is really cool, but kind of odd. I don't think it would ever actually happen though, with the whole me not knowing how to actually give someone a tattoo and the not owning a tatoo needle and all. It's the coolest compliment though.

After school I got upstairs and Bean comes over to me and was like "Josh kissed me!" He is one odd kid. She barely even knows him and he just came and gave her a peck on the cheek out of nowhere, which is odd even for him. Especially with the Hilary-ness lately.

I was in the weirdest mood after school. I had way too much energy and I was in a really good mood and it was strange. I kept on saying the weirdest things and I kept on making this weird croaky noise in my throat and acting like a screwed up bird, and I was having way too much fun with it.

Max and I went to youth group. Megan had something planned for Chinese New Year's which I was expecting to be really stupid, but she forgot the sheet at her mom's house, so I don't even know what she had planned. We ended up painting the walls. Actually, everyone else painted. I roughed out a drawing on a wall in pencil which Max and I were going to paint in a rainbow gradient, but it goes to skinny in some parts so I think we're going to do it in black and do the background in rainbow colors. The rainbow-ness should really get the wheels turning in Megan's head, but MEH. Good for her. It's not like she'd be wrong or anything. We had fortune cookies too. I love fortune cookies, they're fun.

I want to keep working on the wall next time. I think Max wants to paint it, but I want to fill up the rest of the wall first. It could take a while though. Probably another half hour or so at least.

After youth group we went over to Lindsay's because she'd invited everyone over for a games night. It was only Max, Lindsay, Kirstin, Step and I, and we didn't end up playing any games, but MEH. We watched the Choral Stage video and sat around and talked. Lindsay and Hil are planning on going to Vancouver so Hil can get her tregis pierced and Lindsay wants to get a tattoo of a celtic knot that's four hearts. It's pretty cool. The thing is, Hil isn't old enough to get any piercings without parental consent, and Lindsay isn't old enough to get a tattoo for another month and I think they're planning on going on not this Monday coming up, but the next Monday. I'm pretty sure they wouldn't take a signature unless the parents were actually there and Lindsay isn't going to tell her parents about the tattoo.

Anyways, it was an awsome day. I probably drew for over six hours and I think it screwed up my back a bit, but MEH!

This morning we had fencing. It was fun and it's actually quite a workout if you get into it. I was fencing with some chick called Stacy, I think, and it was a lot of fun. I think we were pretty evenly matched. Chris showed up for her class after ours and she said most of the people she knew from the last one didn't take it again. Most of the class was little kids. Chris may have been the oldest person there.

After fencing we went and dropped off a cd I burned Tyler for a project - they have to change the words of a song for Social Studies - and picked up a recording of Carmena Burana so I could burn it. I made copies for Max, Step and I.

After lunch I went to Theresa's and tutored her in Math. I got $10 for it and we sat around and talked for a while, so that was cool. She has a really nice house, but they might have to move in June or something because her dad is paying for it right now.

I actually studied today. It was so weird. I probably worked for like two hours and managed to listen to all of Carmena Burana and then some. There are some pretty odd parts. I think I'm on my third time through at the moment and I listened to around half of it before that.

Anyways, I'm going to Max's now, so I'm gonna go.

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Subject:	Happy Chinese New Year's Eve
Time:	3:54 pm.
Mood:	blank.
Music:	"I Stand Alone" by Godsmack.

Sunday we had a rehearsal at Spot's for the Mount Olive concert because Tyler, Danica, AJ and Kristen couldn't come to the concert. We decided to sing "Bye Bye Blackbird" as well as "Blackbird" and Sh-boom" and we ran "Sh-boom" and "Bye Bye Blackbird" together because we had only told them about the two songs we were origionally doing. Everyone other than me, because I was playing the piano, and Step because she was turning pages for me, made choreography for "Bye Bye Blackbird."

Spot and Lindsay bought us some new music and I think we're getting AJ to photocopy it for the next rehearsal. We're going to be so swamped with new music, but MEH. It'll be interesting.

After the rehearsal Max and I stayed at Spot's until the concert. I told Spot when Max went to the bathroom, so that made me happy. She didn't seem to care, which was good.

Max didn't have black pants to Spot's dad gave him a pair. Gave, not lent. It was odd. He's like "do they fit? You can keep them."

The concert went really well, at least from what I noticed it did. Max said he really messed up "Sh-boom" but I couldn't really hear. Apparently we got tons of compliments from people at Elgin on Monday. Spot always complained about Mr. Coon, but I thought she was exaggerating. The idiot kept stopping the bands during the concert. It was really annoying. There was one girl that was in the Senior Jazz Combo and the grade 11 band and the grade 12 band and she played a song from Shrek on the piano and sang, it was kind of ridiculous. She was an awsome drummer though and she played trumpet in one of the bands too, and she was pretty cute.

Lucy was there. It's odd that it never occurred to me that she'd be there. Kyle was there too, go figure. It turns out that Josh goes to Mount Olive, so he was there too, and apparently he's got the hots for Hil. Arg. Max and Kirstin want to try to set them up so that Danica can have Ian. I refuse to have anything to do with it. Max asked me if I'd help and I was like "you want me to help you set Hil up with JOSH?" and he started going on about how I was so cute. BLAH.

Monday I had a Chem mock. I did worse on it than the last one, which sucks.

We didn't really get much done at rehearsal because people kept talking the whole time. We're not sure whether we're going to be able to do the Kiwanis festival because it's around the time that "Anything Goes" and "Grease" are running.

Tuesday when Autumn got to school we decided to play "Zoo Baby Rummy." I don't think she won once, it was pretty funny. Then she deserted me for the double block of English and we played again at lunch. Christie actually came for part of the second block of the double and stayed even though we weren't doing anything. It was odd.

I pretty much spent my whole night doing the stupid extension project for 1984, but MEH. I got it done, so it's all good. Mom was asking me if there was anything wrong at school that I wasn't telling her about because I left the project until the last minute. WTF. I almost always leave all my projects until the last minute, and if there was something wrong at school, which there isn't appart from the mind-numbingly boring classes, I would probably be a reason that I wasn't telling her so I wouldn't have said what it was anyways.

Today Theresa was going on about the school she wants to apply to for next year again. She's so set on it that she said she'll be crushed if she doesn't get in and she has no idea what she'll do. I think she has a chance to get in because of all the stuff that she does but seriously, they take 100 people a year from all over the world. NO ONE has a good chance of getting in and she's going to be really upset if she bases everything on getting in and doesn't make it. It's one thing to hope for something and to give it your all, but she's going overboard on this.

We played Zoo Baby Rummy again before school and I won three for three. Go me! I had another Math mock. Blah. I'm not sure how I did. I think most of it was okay, but there was one question in the written that was worth five points that I know I have the wrong answer to, and there's another one that I wasn't sure of. Oh well.

My French mark went up. I was so suprised. I bombed the mock final and it counted for 7.3% of our mark and my mark still went up. Apparently our two lowest marks got deleted though, so I guess that helped a lot.

Anyways, it's Chinese New Year's Eve tonight. Normally we'd be having a big dinner, but we can't because I have choir and we'd never have everything ready on time. Mom's not even home yet. We're going to have KFC. Festive. NOT. We're doing the big dinner thing tomorrow. I still don't know if we're going to Vancouver on the weekend. I think we are, but I never got an actual date or time. Mom also said I could take Max and I think he was around when she mentioned it. Anyhow, he's been invited by Mom, but Mom hasn't talked to Who yet, so she has no idea that he's coming and I don't know if it will be okay with her, I think it will be, but you never know. Plus I'd asked her a couple times what day we were going on because there was a possibility that we'd be able to go down with youth group, but Mom didn't know what day we were going in and instead of phoning to ask, she looked in the newspaper and saw that the dragon dance is on both Saturday and Sunday so she still had no idea when we were going. Smart.

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