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wow. havnt updated this thing inna LONG ASS time. been mad busy basically. life's been going real fast - thats prolly why. last thursday and friday i didnt have schoo. so wed i got real drunk and high. got high thursday. friday, well - that was i filled day. i went with angel to pick up rita from school. ok update: angel likes ritas and im trying to hook them 2 up. ok, so we picked her and maria up from school then he (angel) had to go take a drug test bc hes getting a job at Applebees on 63rd. so he went there to take it and it was funny cuz they bought this herbal drink for $50 that cleans ur system and it only works for 5hrs. and u hafta drink MAD water. so when i was wit angel b4 we went to pick rita up he hadda piss like 7 times lol. but ok, him and charlie meet up for the test and me, maria, and rita go down on Austin St. to sum store LuLu's bc rita needs a prom dress. so she did her thing, tried on ish. and then later we ( me, rita, angel, and maria) went to Portifions bc it was lookin like it was going to POUR ( and it did ). so after the rain we went to the park and me and angel wanted to blaze to celebrate him passing his drug test and his job. so we roll up on the park and jasmine's there wit huego smokin an L. and shes twisted by this time so she gives me the rest of it and me and angel got twisted too. then we all just chilled at the park and fucked around as usual. then this girl nikki who ive gotten real tight wit wanted me to go with her to angel's. update: charlie is messing around wit nikki. mk. so she wanted me to go with her bc " the room is so comfortable with you bc u say whats real" and im like haaaaaaaa no doubt. so me, angel, charlie, and nikki walk allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the way down to 63rd. which is like 15 effin blocks. but i was high so it didnt really even matter to me. so we all pitch in and buy beer at the corner delli there. so thats cool. and we all drink and its just all of us around his dinning room table and were all just real chill. i got charlie and nikki on my right flirting with each other and angel on my left rapping to his 50 cent. and then sum more ppl rolled up to his crib. one of the girls was his ex ( angel's ex ). shes cool ppl tho. i got her # so we can chill sumtime. but we all got pretty drunk and w/e and like i could tell angel was gettin mad drunk and pretty horny too. but not like distgusting and rude. so like, i see him and jennifer ( his ex ) in his parents bedroom together. and im like ooooooooooh shit bc like, im supposed to be tryin to hook angel and rita up and im ritas homegirl and he knows that, but he knows i wouldnt rat on him. and he was in there for like 2 mins with the door looked and he storms out and was like " uh uh, im FOCUSED " and im like awww shoot, go angel baby. so ppl had to go and then its just me and angel at his crib and were on his parents bed talking bout rita and shit. and like im nicely fucked up off my 40. and i get this pad of paper and i keep counting to 15 for sum retarded drunk reason. and my eyes were closed and i feel sum hot breath on my face and a tongue ring against my teeth and i was like whoooa. i dont think i really knew what was going on. and he kept asking me to take off my jeans and undo my belt bc it " looked complicated" hmm ... it just hadda latch? lol. so i unlatched my belt and was like " see? " and he undid my zipper and after a good struggle and me finally giving up after he was fingerin me and rubbin on me *( smfh )* and he went out to getta condom and it was on. blaaaaaaaaaah. and as we were fucking he was like " this is so bad" and im like " shit i know, we dont tell NONE bout this" and hes like " yea, one night stand right here" and im biting my lip and im just like " no doubt". which is just mad grimey on my part. i fucked around on rita and im real real real fucked up bout it. and mad ppl are saying shit now cuz they knew we were in the crib alone cuz i was planning on spending the night and just not coming home. which was a mistake ne wayz, bc later on after we were just laying in bed together we getta call from the cops. bc earlier i called my dad and told him where i was and wondered if he could pick me up and he said " yea" and i said i would call him later on to tell him exactly where i would be at and what time. so i didnt call and it was like 4pmish when we got the call. so we were like shiiiiiiiiit. cuz my dad called the cops as a missing person for me. so me and angel get outta the apartment and he walks me to the bus stop cuz i was just gonna go home and say that i totally fell asleep at daniellas and brandons. and so on friday nights ( 4:30ish am ) BUSES DONT RUN FOR SHIT. so were waiting there for bout 30mins and angel fall asleep against the bus stop and i felt real badand i tried to ake him up and he was dead asleep and i was just like awwww. but i finally got up and i was like " u know what. i feel real bad so im just gonna suck it up so u can get sum sleep and im gonna call my pops to come and pick me up here " and hes like o kw/e. but he waited with me for a lil whilel longer but slipt later on cuz he didnt wanna be with me when my dad came ( no duh ). being seen with a 20 y/o at 4:45am = not good. so iono. but mad ppl are talking bout me and angel with the empty crib and im getting pissed off that ppl would even talk shit when they dont even no and wouldnt have a clue bout me and him. bc for 1: angel would NEVER tell bc if rita found out, that would be over and he really lieks her and 2: i would kill him bc of me being like ritas freaking best girl and im supposed to be HELPING the cause. bah. and like, vinny and nagel wanna jump each other bc vinny liked rita b4 and rita doesnt like him and vinny and nagel were on edge with each other and vinny lied to nagel bout sum shit and fucked things up a lil bit and then angel found out the truth and blah blah blah. now vinny's like real hard now. iono, i saw him today and hes now rocking the Blood bandana. which is weird bc he usually rocks yellow for Latin Kings. but he usually never actually wears it. and vinny bought a fucking 9mm last night. and im juts like vinny, u need to chill on all this shit. im dead ass. he gotta hair cut and so his head has a shaved cut and hes growin a goatee ( sp ?). and i heard the other day from aida that he was talking shit bout me. aida said that he was sayin how im so violent and i drink and smoke too much and im always on HIS dick. when i hear that - oh lawd. i was LAUGHING. oooo lawd. C-O-M-E-D-Y!!!!@#@!$# ME on HIS dick" naw naw naw. but we seemed pretty cool 2day talking and what not. and i said i needed to talk to him about sum of that shit and he was like yea i need to talk to u too cuz he said that ppl have just been running their mouth. and its true tho, mad ppl run their mouth. so tomorrow im gonna have a talk with him. vinny's beginning to worry me. hes done a lotta dumb shit in his life, but copping the heat ( the 9mm ) was dumb and its scarin me bc hes changin a lot more hardcore. esp when he has beef with angel. ESPECIALLY that. ehhhhhhhhhhhh, its like erryone is envolved and im in the middle tryin to settle mad ppl down but im apart of sum secrets so i just wanna basically sit down next to my best ppl, smoke an L, drink a 40, smoke a newport, and resolve this shit. but thats never gonna happen bc ppl have too much of a porb with each other. and when i find out who started sayin shit bout me and angel ... there will be problems. and i told everyone at the park that. there will be problems and there will be body parts missing - dead ass. i can deal wit drama at the park but not when ppl start pullin shit outta a hat and sayin it. and its like, it did happen - but no one knows and they just jumped to a conclusion, yanno? and i wouldnt have a prob wit ppl takin shit if rita wasnt involved in this. rita likes angel and angel likes rita. and angels a REALLY sweet and smooth guy. he really is. and like the only reason why they arnt together is bc of the age. rita's 15 and hes 20. i dont think angel knows how old i am bc all of the girls always call me their big sister and im always like " daaaamn straight ". and now with my nose ring it really makes e look mad older. so w/e. thats my drama update. im getting stressed out so imma bout to go and buy the hair gel i need, get a metrocard, and smoke a newport. mk? soooo, now that u all have heard frm me ... IM NOT IN JAIL!!
peace <3
-plz comment so i know ppl are effin reading this. im grounded from aol for 2 more weeks and im grounded from AIM till next friday/saturday. so blah! COMMUNICATION PEOPLE. PLEEEEEEEEEEEASE, shit. ;]
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