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[19 Jun 2003|10:06pm] |
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Oh, how could I stay mad at you blurty?
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| To Everyone: |
[06 Mar 2003|07:22pm] |
I've decided to stop writing in here for my own personal reasons. . . well, it's more like I just don't like Blurty anymore. It's becoming a fad, like LJ, and I'm just no comfortable here anymore.
I will check my friends list every once in awhile, but I'm not sure how long that will last. . . I will miss all of you. But this may not be good-bye. . . I have 2 other journals that I update a lot.
Livejournal
And. . .
About My Life
Unfortunetly, both are friends only, so if any of you have either of those then you can add me to your friends list (if you haven't already. . .)
I do have other journals, but I usually don't write in them too often.
So, it was enjoyable for me to read about all of your lifes. I'll miss all of you. . .
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[06 Mar 2003|06:59pm] |
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Snow, snow go away. . . never ever come back any day. . .
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[04 Mar 2003|05:37pm] |
I changed some things around since Rachel Weisz's birthday is Friday (she'll be 32!!)
So that's her birthday present from me. . .
Yeah, like you care. . .
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[03 Mar 2003|03:25pm] |
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I'm tired of this journal. . .
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[01 Mar 2003|11:34am] |
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I went to bed at 5:30 pm last night. I woke up around 8 am this morning.
I feel so lazy, but at least I had plenty of sleep.
Off I go to my father's. . .
And try to enjoy your weekend.
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[27 Feb 2003|09:16pm] |
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So much shit is going on that I just don't feel like typing. I don't feel like telling anyone about it. I don't even want to tell myself about it. This sickness isn't helping. This Saturday will mark a week since I've had it. My sore throat is almost gone, but congestion in my nose hasn't gone away.
Why doesn't anything make any sense?
I've been so uncomfortable around people lately. The things they do. . . they say. . .
-Sigh-
I still smile and dance around the room because I'm tired of being sad. I really don't have much to be happy about. . . Once I get my job back, which will be in a few weeks, I'll have less free time and less time to think about my problems.
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[25 Feb 2003|07:00pm] |
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Nevermind. . .
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[24 Feb 2003|08:17pm] |
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It is quite funny that when I hear a certain song I immediately think of someone. . . or a group of people.
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[23 Feb 2003|08:35pm] |
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I felt so useless this weekend. I just slept and hung out around the house. I went to Wal-Mart to get somethings and I said Danielle there. I didn't notice her until she said my name. She's cool. I didn't recognize her because she had a hat on.
"Are you alone?"
"Yes, I have a car!"
"That's so weird. I'm taking my road test this Saturday."
Well, good luck to her.
My date with Seth went well. (I think. . .) Except I forgot to bring my CD case and all I had was BNL in my CD player. Eh, oh well. I got a lot of driving in. I'm not scared as much anymore. . . I'm getting my confidence back.
I'm feeling a little bit better. For awhile I had trouble breathing. I mean, real trouble breathing. But I took some medicine and I feel better.
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[22 Feb 2003|10:27pm] |
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I definetly have something.
It's pretty bad when I'm walking into walls and such. My back is achy, my throat is sore, and this hacking cough keeps me from breathing. Plus, I'm starting to hack up phlem. (Quite descriptive on my condition, no?)
I would go lie down, but I can't keep still. I can't sleep. The cough syrup I took only lasts for 4 hours. That means I'll be up most of the night coughing away. Strangly enough, I am very talkative. When my father called I just kept talking and talking. Which isn't really like me.
I'm not exactly a social butterfly.
Hmm, maybe I can concentrate enough to do my French homework (it's the only homework I had over vacation.)
Damn, I hope I don't feel like this Monday morning, because I'm going to school. . .
Well, I'll be up most of the night so if you feel like talking call my cell phone. I know I won't be able to sleep. (I took a 'nap' today for about an hour. . . but I couldn't lay in bed anymore.)
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| Good Morrow to Ye Neighbors |
[22 Feb 2003|11:01am] |
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I think I'm coming down with a cold. Coughing and a sore throat. Great. Fantastic. Exciting. -Insert more 'buzz' words here-
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[20 Feb 2003|10:43pm] |
Tears are streaming down my face and I haven’t the slightest idea why. All of a sudden I feel so sad. So. . . out of it.
I wrote this a little over a month ago in my personal journal. . .
I want to bash my head against a wall. Excrete my emotions and feelings from my nose, eyes, ears, and wounds. I want to eliminate all love, anger, depression, happiness, etc that I can have for another human being.
That’s exactly how I feel at the moment.
Certain things happen and I think I am happy or will be, but I am always sad. Maybe I’m not meant to be happy. Maybe I don’t deserve happiness. Maybe I don’t deserve friends, family, my car, my cat, everything and anything.
I must have done something. I just wish I knew what it was. Or maybe this is how my life is supposed to be.
Lily Fact: When you see me open my mouth and shift my jaw from side to side, I am trying not to cry. It works for only a short time.
I feel so alone. I’m so lonely.
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| Yesterday. . . |
[20 Feb 2003|06:27pm] |
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MOS was exciting. The ancient Egyptian exhibit was beautiful. The beauty took my breath away. . . :) And not many things can do that, you know.
I asked my father if he liked it (he went with me), "Yes, I learned a lot."
I wish I could convince all of my friends to go and see it. . .but. . .
The museum was so hot though. Too many people. And little screaming kids. They were running all about. . . and their parents weren't even paying attention to what they were doing. . . I wanted to smack some of them across the face.
Later in the day, my father and I met up with my brother at his college. (My father and I had to take the subway to get there. . . standing and balancing was fun. . .)
Everywhere you looked, some college student had a cell phone. . . Some were having a snow ball fight, that was humorous. When my brother finally met us outside, we decided to go into the college and, since I hadn't seen his dorm yet, we went there.
His room is small. It's a room made for two people, but he lives with 2 other people, so there were 3 computers. . . and it was just too small. . . I couldn't stand to live in there. None of his roommates were there.
(It's funny too because before you could go to any dorm you had to show some ID. Even my father and I had to. My question was, "What if you weren't old enough to have a license?"
My father's response, "I guess that they think terrorists have to be old enough to drive."
After that all of us went out to eat. We just grabbed some pizza. . . I wasn't that hungry, but my brother ate my share. . . heh. We talked for about an hour, but then we had to go to inorder to catch our 7:30 pm train.
It was about 10 minutes of seven. My brother waited outside for us. When the subway finally came it was packed, and we didn't hurry fast enough because by the time we were going to get into it, there wasn't any room. . . They could barely close the door. The next subway might not be back for another 10 minutes or 15 or even 20. We couldn't risk it, "I guess we have to take a taxi."
And we did. Traffic was horrible, but we got there in time. The train ride back was relaxing. There were some girls on there with some spinny things that was pissing me off, but I just drowned it out after awhile.
And that was my exciting day. (:
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[20 Feb 2003|02:15pm] |
Black:
PEOPLE SUCK THE WORLD SUCKS EVERYBODY SHOULD BE
KILLED AND BLEED TO DEATH TILL THE COLD EARTH
SOAKS IN BLOOD. Well, you're angry at the
world. For reasons who knows, but you
definately hate life.
What color do you see the world in?
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| The Next Few Days. . . |
[18 Feb 2003|11:17pm] |
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I am going to MOS tomorrow. And then my father and I will meet up with my brother and we're going to have a nice dinner together. :)
So, that means. . . I probably won't be home until 9 pm. . . if I'm lucky.
Thursday will be a busy day. I want to go visit Colby. . . she needs to trim my hair a little bit. . . plus I haven't been over her house in ages.
I also need to clean my 50 gallon fish tank, but I need to go to the fish store. . . for supplies and I may pick up a few more fish if I have the money. That will take a few more hours.
Friday I may go to Barnes and Noble/Best Buy/Old Navy. I'm not quite too sure about that though. That's a if-I-really-want-to-spend-money-that-I-should-save-for-gas. But I still have gift certificates to Best Buy and Old Navy and I always end up spending $50 at B&N.
And then Seth and I are going to do something. . . a movie probably. :)
I'm not sure what is in store for this weekend. :/
Right. . . almost forgot. . . I have to get an inspection sticker for my car (I have a week to do that) and I also have to go to this place, for the insurance company, where they take pictures of the car and such. . . And I have to do that by March 1st.
Good-Night, Darlings.
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[18 Feb 2003|04:43pm] |
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( Entertaining Survey )
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[16 Feb 2003|09:58pm] |
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I think I write in here too much. . .
Hmm, where is everyone? No one is online (and if they are their away message is on) :/
I just finished talking with this guy that I haven't talked to in years (since 7th or 8th grade possibly. . .) And he randomly IM'ed me and we just started talking. . . He was a guy I met in a chat room when my mother first got a computer and when we first got the internet. It's a little strange because we used to send letters to each other through the mail. . . and then we just stopped talking. I'm not sure why, but eh. . .
No, no, no more snow!!!!! -Repeats in a chant dancing around the room- Go away!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I left my book at my dad's!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
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[16 Feb 2003|11:34am] |
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Yesterday went from being good to bad to ok. . .
My father and I spent a few hours looking for cars. . . without much luck. None of the dealerships wanted a 16 1/2 year old to sign a contract. . . they wanted my father to do it. Which is ridiculous because I still have plates and registration from my 1st car. The last dealership that we went to was local and had a few nice cars in my price range. I ended up looking at this nice 2 door, Chevy Chavalier a '98. The people there were helpful. . .
I'm almost positive I'm going to buy it. I would rather have bought a honda or toyota, but they are so expensive for what I want. . .
Anyway, I can't stay online long because I'm over my father's this weekend and I'm using their one phone line for the internet.
Toodles. :)(:
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