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[28 May 2005|07:43pm] |
I
FUCKING
LOVE
YOU
TYLER
♥
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[27 May 2005|12:06am] |
so i've graduated. and now i sit. i wait.
this is so lame. i mean i am SO excited i am out of high school.
that i can now start college & do my own thing.
but since i got out.. i feel like i have less time with tyler.
because my days literally consists of sleeping til 2pm.
watching tv; eating; then talking to tyler whenever he gets on.
then he leaves & i am just left to sit. and i wait.
i'm just starting to feel a bit lonely.
and having nothing to do...
and with that said.. i feel like im getting FAT.
ugh- it's gross &&&&&&&&&& i need to start swimming & running again.
if the pool warmed up id swim a lot more.
but nope..it's still chilly. bleh..
so..with loneliness & my hate for repetition.
i think i may lay out tomorrow..try to get a tan or something.
i am getting darker..YAY :]
i'd go to bed but.. last night it took me two hours to fall asleep.
man.. this is just insane.. & i hate it.
i just can't wait until i fucking leave for vegas.
then i'll have shit to do.
( ew at feeling like my emotions are screwed with )
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[25 May 2005|11:47pm] |
It's amazing how hard I fell for him.
I am in complete love.
Tyler is amazing.
Then; I found this in Ty's journal:
_______Your Life_______
[x] they call me: kirah; ky; kiki
[x] sex: chick
[x] my first breath of air: august 11th
[x] status: taken
[x] best friends: sarina
_______Rewind_______
[x] most memorable memory: tyler.
[x] worst?: sophmore year.
[x] first word uttered?: bubba
[x] first best friend ever!?: michelle & april.
_______Love?_______
[x] love is: my motivation
[x] first love: tyler
[x] love or lust?: love
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person at the same time: fuck no
[x] when love hurts, you: cry
[x] true or false: all you need is love: false
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: well i'm already in love with ty but when i see him i know i'll fall all over again
[x] are you in love right now?: yeah
[x] how many times have you been in love?: 1
_______Opposite Sex_______
[x] turn ons: everything about tyler
[x] do your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: no
[x] what kinda hair style?: i like ty's hair longer as opposed to short.
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: oh man..i don't know...
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: the break or parties.
[x] are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers?: if i'm trashed.
_______Picky Picky_______
[x] dog or cat: dog
[x] short or long hair: depends
[x] sunshine or rain: sunshine
[x] moon or sun: moon
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1best friend
[x] summer or winter: summer
[x] written letters or e-mails: written letters
[x] play station or nintendo: nintendo
[x] car or motorcycle: truck
[x] house party or club: house party
[x] sing or dance: dance
_______Lately_______
[x] how are you today? good
[x] what pants are you wearing right now? jeans
[x] what shirt are you wearing right now? element tank & gray jacket
[x] what does your hair look like at the moment? pigtails, pulled back & messy
[x] what song are u listening to right now? nothing
[x] how is the weather right now? nice
[x] last person you talked to on the phone? um justin?
[x] last dream you can remember? having sex with tyler;hahhahaa
[x] who are you talking to right now? ty
[x] what time is it? 12:21 am
_______More About YOU!_______
[x] what are the last four digits of your phone number? 3887
[x] if u were a crayon, what color would you be? red
[x] have you ever almost died? yeah
[x] have u ever won any special award? i've won three this year.
[x] what's the stupidest thing u have ever done? ahahahaha alot
[x] how many kids do you want to have? 5
[x] son's name? kiernan, aiden
[x] daughter's name? alexiana, theo
[x] shampoo? treseme
[x] what are you most scared of? losing tyler
[x] how many TV's do you have in your house? 3
[x] do you have your own TV? sorta
[x] have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? yup
[x] who do you dream about? things
[x] who do you tell your dreams to? no one. i hardly remember em
[x] is cheerleading a sport? sure why not. no? idk. stfu.
[x] how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop? who cares.
_______You And Love_______
[x] do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? yes
[x] where would you like to go on your honeymoon? italy
[x] what do you like most of the opposite sex? personality & looks
[x] do you find yourself attractive? eh i'd flirt with me but i wouldn't do/date me.
[x] do others find you attractive? yeah
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[23 May 2005|01:08am] |
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so; wow... i miss blurty.
i miss my old house :[
awww..so sad. all the memories..awwwwwww
so im updating to put super happy memories in:
like the fact that i am leaving in two weeks to see tyler :]
& that our ONE YEAR IS SOON
i am so excited!
im also going to vegas to see my mommy :]
she lives there now. so that should be fun.
i may even move out to vegas.
or move in with tyler.
go to community college or hopefully get accepted somewhere.
who knows with me!
anyways, so much has happened
& no one reads this except me & tyler
hahaha- baby i love you...
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[16 Jan 2005|05:17pm] |
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HOLY fuck.
hi blurty world.
O.O
god, what a blast from the past.
ew.
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[19 May 2004|03:41pm] |
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okay guys. blurty sucks. you suck. check me out up in livejournal + when i grow up..i wanna be a MILF
later days
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[18 May 2004|09:14pm] |
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made this icon + a crap load more today
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[17 May 2004|12:47am] |
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holy crap..
am i friggin horny ;x
lol yeah..wow..this sucks...AHH..man.. -gets a towel
haha..but no really..awww look what tyler said :
yay i farted: i mean i'll date every chick in the world until i find sumone juss like u
Thrashed beauty: lol..
Thrashed beauty: how could u possibly find someone like me
yay i farted: thats juss it..
yay i farted: ur one of a fukn kind
grr..i hate how i cant ever get over that kid.
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[16 May 2004|06:11pm] |
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like my new icon?
i just made that and about 5-6 more
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[16 May 2004|04:58pm] |
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lol man im talkin to ty..his insecurities and unknowingness is way too friggin... ;x ahh... so cute -pouts-
im always gonna love that kid -cough.. AHEM..hehe..anyways yeah.. last night i went to the drive in with sean, jack, matt, brandon + jessica. we saw troy and starsky + hutch. hehe omg troy just rocked cuz the story is great in itself..and starsky + hutch is so funny i love it <3
but yeah i didnt get home til 2 cuz the movies go from 9 -2am.. and i didnt wake up til like 4:30 ;x bwhaha
eh but just comment me cuz..i love comments..mmm comments comments comments
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woo. so today was fun i guess. school was gay as usual..um came home..slept..wrote a page of my term paper..left with sean- went to craigs house cuz it was his birthday. i want his puppy max..hehe its a yorkie and ahhhhh hes the cutest!!!!! hehe..anywho so yeah we left and we went to butchs tattoo + piercing place craig got both his nips pierced and his friend danny got his tongue pierced.
so we went to the break to play pool + it was fun. hehe hmm -daydreams..hehe anywho yeah so after that sean + i take matt home then we all went up to IHOP and drank coffee..left around 12am and i came home to do my paper! and yayyyyy im done with it. anywho..yeah currently im hella pissed at tyler. so yayyyy for me. i fucking hate people so much sometimes.
but for the majority of the day i was really happy :)
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[12 May 2004|12:27pm] |
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eh not sure what to really update about. hm but ill start with last night:
so around 4 sean picked me up then we went + got george and we drove out to orrick,mo + we had no clue where we were going. but george wanted to go to this car auction..so we went..fun! lol nooo.. the whole time i was there i had nasty old guys + mexicans eye rape me.. it was creepy..
so yeah then around 8 we get home [ orrick is a long ways of a drive ] and sean + i take george home then we stop by jacks house + we all went to the park + just messsed around. it was fun..er..and then around 9:30 we went to see if matt was home + he wasnt so we just took jack home around 10 + then sean n me had to go out to blue springs to see brad + so sean could get the key to open the skate shop this morning
after that he took me home + called me when he got home..i felt so sick last night i thought i was gonna throw up left + right..thank god i didnt.. i hate throwing up!!!! haha so yeah...i woke up today not giving a fxck about how i look cuz i feel like shit + im hella tired..but in english today i rubbed lotion on trevor and he got all sahdflk about it so he rubbed shit loads of aloe vera lotion on my face + neck
yup..pretty sure im allergic to that lotion shit + i broke out so my neck is mainly all red n blochy + people say it looks like a hickey..haha..grrr trevor + that damn lotion! hehe so yeah..now im in my college class being bored as hell cuz im done with all of my work + i have nothing more to update about ;]
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this piece of my work i wrote a little recently. its about..things. idk more like futuristic hope. things i do are for the better; but im allowed to have my hope for the future arent i?:
best friend bracelets kirah ballard
the taste of cotton soaks in my mouth
it chokes me whole until im immoblized; im watching you go
with warm tears that taste worse then ever;
that wash away the dirt and sin on my flustered cheeks.
and i stay immobilized; dealthy torn; as i watch you go
will you remember me? remember how we met?
will you miss me? miss everything about me?
and will you cherish the blue stars as i wear the black ones?
what about the future?
will you be struck by a faint memory of me?
will you, will you?
the taste of blood enters my senses
the taste of red wine and rusty nails which choke me whole
until im immobilized; im watching out for you
with a faced cleaned by so many nights covered in empty tears
that seems to drown out the night lights and stars.
and i stay immobilized; deathly torn; as i wait around for you
will you remember me? remember our first kiss?
will you miss me? miss everything i had to give?
and will you cherish the blue stars as i wear the black ones?
what about the future?
will you have flash back just like i do?
will you, will you?
the cotton soaks the blood;
the stars seek the night sky;
the sun waits for the moon to rise
while the black stars wait for the blue
-will you? and will you wait up for me too, just like the stars do?
will you? will you...?
any who you guys need to check out reeve oliver and their awesome ass song " young and dumb" im so in love with that song. as soon as i can find lyrics for it ill be sure to post, lata guys
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[10 May 2004|03:16pm] |
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so yeah today was super boring. i really need to finish my friggin english paper..its due friday and i havent done shit on it man. poor matt has a paper due wed. n hasnt done shit on it + hes so stressed out about it. poor kid. but yeah after school i flipped matt off [ i flip everyone off + say i hate them..only kidding tho! ] and matts like" DUDE u gotta stop doin that to sean..hes freakin out about it cuz he thinks u really do hate him"
i couldnt help but laugh cuz..if i hated him..i wouldnt be with the kid. lol seans so..lol his insecurities are the cutest hes so innocent + shy + insecure..its adorable i just wanna hug him + laugh and tell him to relax. i mean the kids had a bad past w/ chicks and i totally understand why hes like this..hehe but i hope he can learn to relax with me.
cuz ive never cheated or anything. and im totally loyal to the guy. hopefully he'll realize it soon enough tho. -sigh- so..mindy dyed her hair dark brown + i wanna do something with mine..im just not sure what. i wanna cut it but everyone loves me with long hair..so i might dye it and add red or pink streaks in it. idk aw well..imma go take a nice long bath. ive had a hard day..
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alright so last night around 6:30ish sean + matt picked me up and we went to the skate park out in liberty. it was alright. i mean liberty is a beautiful place but i was kinda bored at the park. but i met this trevor dude whos a hardcore kid + he seems awesome. eh im kinda scared to move to liberty tho..imma know NO ONE ;|
butttt- after the park we drove around in the country it was sucha pretty night last night ;] and then we went to see george for a few minutes..so yeah around 10pm we take matt home + me + sean went back to the country side and just chilled at this public "park" thing. lol they have benches and a porta-potty right beside the little blue river. so idk what it is ;P
but we stayed there for an hour just kinda talkin + being goofy. so sean takes me home afterwards and then called me when he got home and we talked on the phone for like 85 minutes. we talked about alot tho and the kid is so friggin great, the shyest, sweetest kid i've ever met [ well besides ty ].
seans a great guy tho, he has great morals and i totally respect the kid for em. i love how he thinks, even better for the fact that he's not rushing me into n e thing which is a massive plus. i love that feeling. but anyways.. i g2g to school inna few minutes. lata
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last night was nuts! alrighty so- brandon + mindy went to prom 2gether, matt went with some chick, and summer + mark went 2gether. so i was home all day bored as fuck. so around 4ish my gramma takes me shopping and i got some nice clothes for my cousins graduation on the 23rd of this month and im taking sean with me. i also got some shorts and a tank too. um.. after shopping i came home and watched movies, callled sean; then sean + nick picked me up around 10 we all went to the park n just jacked around and me + nick talked about sean and nick's g/f.
after that we all went to IHOP and just sat n drank coffee til about 2am. i love doin things like that; just sitting drinking coffee havin fun. i love it! so yeah we left around 2am and went back to seans house and sat outside til 5am cuz it was so nice outside. then nick took me home and we sat n talked til 6am. hes sucha cool guy, hes 22 + graduated w/ my bro + they used to hang out alot in high school so we were all like" woaaah" about that haha. so yeah i had a really fun time last night. best fun ive had inna while.
but u know...im never gonna get over that kid [[ loser hero ]]-- i dont think i can, not even if i tried..and it hurts to try n pull the hook out of ur heart..it hurts so badly..
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so i've had a shit load of blurties. and heres another one to be added on the list.
so alil about me:
name: ask me
age:16
b-day: aug. 11
gender: chick
hair: auburn
eyes: dark green
height: 5'6
weight: 118
and yeah. idk what else to say. im manic-depressive, sarcastic, funny, loyal, caring, motherly, a bitch when provoked, spontaneous, angry and yeah... no one ever reads this bullshit. but eh oh well. thats it for this update. comment if you want.
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