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| 03:54pm 06/12/2004 |
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mood:  anxious music: Itz My B-Day...yAaAay!
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well uh...it was my b-day and i got a cell phone. my friends came over and we uhhh..did stuff. watch the movie grind and eat alot. thatz it. short, plain and simple. |
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| 02:47pm 06/10/2004 |
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mood:  depressed music: The OffSpring *The Kids Arent Alright*
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rite before i fell asleep i wrote a poem and posted it on my away message somthing like this...the original was lost when the power went out. i re-wrote it and made changes to it. i felt another sharp hint of tears when i thought about the future and while i was writin this poem...this time i let them run thier course.
i wish this day would never end but sadly it did Not all my answers were answered and only some mysteries unfolded
all the laugher we shared and fights we went through just to think that they will just fade away
remeber that times we chilled togther? we talked of the days past Sharin Cokes with the wind blowing through our hair
Now there all nothing but blury images and memories that'll eventaly fade you will forget me and so will i of you
there's a whole life ahead of me and for that i must forget of the past so just kno that all the times we shared really did mean alot to me.
im gonna miss everything so much and i dont kno why im still trying to hold on to something that will somehow slip out of my hands. i guess itz cause this year really did mean something to me and was the end of my child hood. Now comes a new world of high school and im not ready to face it. im still want to hold someone's hand and hide behind them, let them fight away my fears and wipe my tears away. i tug their hand as they start to let go, my hand grasps thin air but i balance. I walk my first few stepz alone and step into this whole new world..they watch as i stunble....
into this world i go. starting everything new and rebuilding from the bottom. good bye old me, hello stranger. |
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| School is out, life goes on |
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| 07:15pm 09/06/2004 |
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mood:  ecstatic music: Vitamin C *Graduation Song*
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well, i didnt write since that monday afternoon but what i didnt say was after the bell rang. by mistake i pulled down J.C's pants.. a moment i will never forget all cause everyone was brought closer together by his penis. lol, it was funny seeing every1'z reactions thou. anywayas, yesterday nothing happened but today freakin rocked. i came late cause my brother in law (which is 28 something years old) was buying me shavin cream and tips on where to hide it. i had lunch with my drama crew...one last good bye before our departure. Damn, out of all the people, im gonna miss them the most. They alwayz made me laugh. i did a last uncore of "Kindie likes the Candy" and they all gave me a group hug. then fennell and Alicia walked me to my class and i gave their final good byes. that really triggered something in me that wanted to cry but i chocked baq the tears. i also saw Adam and J.C. and i gave them the biggest hugs ever. im leavin my 2 munchkins alone next year in that school. the i walked in class were we were celebrating by blowing bubbles. we were countin down the clock till 2:30 when we were let out. i was watchin every single one of my friends from the inside of the class room just look at me and blow me kisses and come up to the window and just say that they love me and then they'll leave. i felt another sharp hint of tears. i chocked them baq as it was my turn to leave the class. i walked over to the shelter where i was ambushed by Javiher and his baby powder. i then whipped out my two lil friends..called colgate and gillete shavin cream. i got every1 i wanted to get. it got in my eyes, in my mouth, in my ear...even some down my shirt! i saw my drama buddies for the very last time and hugged them.i cant stress this enough on how much im gonna miss them. well, i stuffed shavin cream down Alicia's mouth and Fennell aimed silly string at my hair. Hanny had nothing so she just smaked me with her shirt across my ass. i saw Ivan and totaly got him with shavin cream. they were makin us all get out so on my way to the front i would get people with shavin cream that i knew. i saw esther and was the biggest hug i ever recived and gave baq. it was for like 3 minutes alomst vcrying and me lifting her up in the air. just laughing and lettin go of the tears. I love that girl so much, im never gonna forget her. i walked some more and met up with Vicky and Andrea which were gonna take me with them after i was done. so i was walkin to Amber house when i saw Adam and Alicia across the street so i ran in front of cars to give them both hugs. i looked like Adam's mom...he's so tiny and im so tall and i was tellin him to be good. he was like " you can hug me but dont get that much shavin cream on me, your covered head to toe. and i promise to be good and do well in school only if you promise to visit". of course i said yea and gave him a kiss on the cheeck. then i crossed the street again to meet up with Alicia and i gave her my shavin cream bottle so she could remeber me. lol. i hugged her some more then i left. i went o abmer's house where i changed and cleaned up. i looked really weird cause i had so much dark make up and my hair all loose sorta wild and curly. to top it off, i had tight pants on and a big shirt with a beanie. i borrowed Vicky's spikey braclet thing and i looked like i was ready to rob a bank. anyways, went to Jorge's house chilled there then to Andrea's were Jorge came over and i saw Ivan. my mom came picked me up and took me to 711. i got my slurpie and left. now im home writin about this day for you. man, itz been great in my 3 years at Palm Springs Middle and im not gonna forget all the intresting people i met and all the cool people i met. cya in high school nect year suckas!
Class of 2004 fuckin rocked! |
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| 02:41pm 07/06/2004 |
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well uMmMm... the bell is gonna ring in like 20 minutes and i just had to add something else to this. well, they obligated me to do this.... yessy hugged me and it was akward, he's a really cOol kid and itz a shame itz the last day i get to see him. g2g, the teach has to use the computer. choa! |
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| 1 day down...2 more to go |
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| 02:09pm 07/06/2004 |
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mood:  hyper music: New found Glory *All Down Here From Here*
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well, im here in Mr. san miguels class. Im done with my 1st and 2nd period finals and i hope that i pass sOo badly. i dont wanna stay in this fuckin crappy ass school another day longer. i cried, i admit, i cried in 1st period. but well, what can i say, im emo. i havent writtin in this thing since like thursday or friday. Ive been extremly busy and i slept over at andrea's. it was a freakin awsome weekend. It was me, Vicky and Andrea of course. we started a fire cause well, Andrea loves fire...but we roasted some marshmellows and ate smores. yum. so yea..baq on track, i went home and most likely i have a cell phone by the end of the week cause my mom was callin me from a number that i didnt kno and it had her voice mail. i remeber a while baq that she said that she was gettin cell phones for the both of us. so yea...i have one already. yepie! so yea...me here bored and theres a line for the computer and im takin for ever cause well, im a hoager...tehe. im such a bitch guy, a freakin bitch. well, yea im gonna have to type something but later for this who read this, i just cant type it here in class cause there's people that cant see. and im gettin annoyed by some1 in particular. and oh yea..Nick calls now and he makes my day everyt ime. he's like the cherry on my pie... i love him sOo much! okay..there's really gettin on my nerves and im like FUCKIN SHIT BRO!!! FuUuUuCK!! Me and Esther have like really gottin together today in lunch. We hung out but the bad thing is that it's durin the last 3 days when we're boundin together.this always happenes to me. but for sure im so gonna hang out with every1 this summer expect for some1 that im really gettin annoyed by ( still not gonna say 'till after class.). well, i gu8ess i gotta go and most likely gonna chill with Andrea after school and of course, the anual shavin cream fight.. BiIiIiIiTCH!!! L8ER SUCKAS!! |
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| 10:10pm 02/06/2004 |
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mood:  bored music: Alien Ant Farm *SmOoth Criminal*
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so yea. today i woke up and didnt want to go to school but i somehow managed to get out of bed. i did the usal routine but i was starin at this HUGE pimple i got on my fuckin forehead just a lil tOo much and i triped over a cord that was lying around my room. Nice. so yea... i put on my white shirt and some blue pants with my usall make up but only that my usall driver wasnt driving..instead it was my brother in law. good enough. on the way there we talked about college and road trips. i said a couple of places that were on my mind (cali, new york, PA, and Gainsville,FL) he said he mite take me...rite. so yea, he drops me off in the front and of course all heads turned when every1 saw me hop off the lexus cause every1 knoz im tOO freakin cheap to afford a good car....unusall. so yera...classes were boring...blah blah blah blah. finlas were easy and i made fun of 6th graders in the yearbook in 6th period cause well....we were bored and that what cubans do best...critsize. Amber popped my pimple in class tOo. lunch was alrite, chilled with J.C. and kevin and got J.C's number..as if i wanted it. in the hallwayz i got hit by Ivan so i turned and grabbed his shirt...like alwayz. Mr.Garcia came out blabbering on how me and him look like a couple...rite. i finish my math finals and i eat shit and got all bitchy...damn PMS! Bell rang and i went under the shelter liek always. chilled there with Andrea and then left to her house as planned. i chill at her house, my mom picks me up and i leave to the hospital to see my grandma. drank tOO much coffee at the lobby tho..it was calmin me down cause hospitals give me the creeps. my grandma is doin way better then yesterday. i felt bad so we left and i got home and ivan was online so i asked him for a favor. he did it for me...lalalala, gotta love that kid. hey Ivan, if ya readin this.... spank ya ;) . okay...Meo IMed me and so did many other people so im gonna go now and have somewhat of a conversation. and that was the end of my boring day. |
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| me and Ivan convo |
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| 07:53pm 01/06/2004 |
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check it...me and ivan's convo and yea...thatz his s/n just another convo with me and him i thought was nice...but evry1 of our convos; are like that...oh well, read damnit!
HATEDSK8ERPNK: IM OnlyMonkey01: good..callin is too late OnlyMonkey01: ok... you see this and tell me who was rite or wrong in this OnlyMonkey01 wants to directly connect. HATEDSK8ERPNK is not accepting Direct IM requests or does not support the Direct IM feature.. OnlyMonkey01: fuck....try to get on aim or something guy HATEDSK8ERPNK: why? OnlyMonkey01: cause.. i need you to see something andf tell me who waas rite or wrong OnlyMonkey01 wants to directly connect. HATEDSK8ERPNK is not accepting Direct IM requests or does not support the Direct IM feature.. HATEDSK8ERPNK: alrighty then HATEDSK8ERPNK: mate OnlyMonkey01: lol OnlyMonkey01: you freakin astraullion dude...you remind me of the crocidile hunter OnlyMonkey01: g'day mate HATEDSK8ERPNK: lol OnlyMonkey01: CRICKEY! thatz a beaut! HATEDSK8ERPNK: lol OnlyMonkey01: get on aim plz OnlyMonkey01: pretty pretty plz HATEDSK8ERPNK: alright im on HATEDSK8ERPNK: hatedsk8erboi788 OnlyMonkey01: ok..hold up OnlyMonkey01 wants to send file C:\Documents and Settings\Owner\Desktop\asswole.htm. OnlyMonkey01: well, im gonna send it piece by peice..hold up OnlyMonkey01: Blind1017: were r u at
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Blind1017: hello
OnlyMonkey01: Blind1017: i wan to talk to u Blind1017: wtf Blind1017: fine i dont wan t to talk to u any how
OnlyMonkey01: Blind1017:
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Blind1017 is away at 11:32:26 PM.
OnlyMonkey01: Blind1017 returned at 11:39:39 PM. Blind1017: damn wtf
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OnlyMonkey01: Blind1017: i am geting fucking mad Blind1017: wow Blind1017: u know what OnlyMonkey01: Blind1017: nvm OnlyMonkey01: wtf.. i went out to eat with andrea cause her mom wanted to take me out...your gettin mad cause of that bullshit? Blind1017: all fucking day
OnlyMonkey01: OnlyMonkey01: io was out damnit OnlyMonkey01: all fuckin day Blind1017: wtfe OnlyMonkey01: OnlyMonkey01: OnlyMonkey01: ok...my mom picked up andrea...me and her chilled tyhern her mom picked me and her up and tok us out to eat and wut not Blind1017: i am not even going to wast my time OnlyMonkey01: wow..your gettin all hissy pissy just cause i wasnt here
OnlyMonkey01: OnlyMonkey01: wow..your gettin all hissy pissy just cause i wasnt here Blind1017: fu OnlyMonkey01: rite baq to u Blind1017: o good one OnlyMonkey01: Blind1017: what did u have to think about it all day OnlyMonkey01: im not up for this bullshit OnlyMonkey01: bye Blind1017: then go OnlyMonkey01: i signed off then..read now HATEDSK8ERPNK: ok HATEDSK8ERPNK: i think ur rite and hes wrong OnlyMonkey01: and he also called me a bitch earlier OnlyMonkey01: i kno] HATEDSK8ERPNK: that messed up
OnlyMonkey01: i wasnt home OnlyMonkey01: a nd you kn othat OnlyMonkey01: and he got mad cause of that OnlyMonkey01: guy, if i were to get mad everytime he wasnt there...i would have breakin up with him already OnlyMonkey01: he's fucked up and he got mad at me for no reason HATEDSK8ERPNK: ooo0-k HATEDSK8ERPNK: lol HATEDSK8ERPNK: w.e HATEDSK8ERPNK: fuk him HATEDSK8ERPNK: then OnlyMonkey01: itz liek wow guy, i cant go out with my friend and have fun..i cant have siomewhat of a life HATEDSK8ERPNK: nope HATEDSK8ERPNK: u cabt OnlyMonkey01: oh really OnlyMonkey01: lol OnlyMonkey01: he's full of shit.. i think you really should curse him out the nect tim e he's on HATEDSK8ERPNK: alrighty then OnlyMonkey01: i give you presmision to do so uintil i say not to HATEDSK8ERPNK: ok HATEDSK8ERPNK: lol HATEDSK8ERPNK: thankies! OnlyMonkey01: lol...nah guy, thank you! HATEDSK8ERPNK: ur welcome OnlyMonkey01: whOop whoOp! HATEDSK8ERPNK: OnlyMonkey01: sOoOo yea...wutcha gonna do tommorow...day off from school HATEDSK8ERPNK: beach or sk8 HATEDSK8ERPNK: or something HATEDSK8ERPNK: or movies OnlyMonkey01: same..expect for the sk8in part HATEDSK8ERPNK: lol HATEDSK8ERPNK: yup OnlyMonkey01: or i mite go to a bbq HATEDSK8ERPNK: lol OnlyMonkey01: rite now..itz most likely bbaq OnlyMonkey01: bOoOored...entertain me plz HATEDSK8ERPNK: im bored HATEDSK8ERPNK: too HATEDSK8ERPNK: AOL Music: Hoobastank: 'The Reason' HATEDSK8ERPNK: im listening to them HATEDSK8ERPNK: lol OnlyMonkey01: egh...nick delicated that song to me OnlyMonkey01: HATEDSK8ERPNK: i lyk that song OnlyMonkey01: me too OnlyMonkey01: nor cause of him tho HATEDSK8ERPNK: dont wrry i dedicate it too u tooo! HATEDSK8ERPNK: HATEDSK8ERPNK: OnlyMonkey01: whOop whOOp! OnlyMonkey01: spank ya! HATEDSK8ERPNK: OnlyMonkey01: HATEDSK8ERPNK: OnlyMonkey01: HATEDSK8ERPNK: BBL HATEDSK8ERPNK: ALRIGHTY HATEDSK8ERPNK: then OnlyMonkey01: ookie dookie HATEDSK8ERPNK: when i come bak we'll go play wit dem boomerangs nad kangaroos! HATEDSK8ERPNK is away at 1:28:03 AM. OnlyMonkey01: wait..my computer is bein gay..hold up
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OnlyMonkey01: alritey mate..im baq OnlyMonkey01: those kangroos atre wild i tell ya! HATEDSK8ERPNK: aye mate HATEDSK8ERPNK: dem croc's bit wold they is OnlyMonkey01: CRIKEY!! look behind ya mate! HATEDSK8ERPNK: oye! OnlyMonkey01: therez a croc as big as a schol bus! HATEDSK8ERPNK: that croc almost took off me head OnlyMonkey01: if it wasnt for me...you would have chow for dem crcoz HATEDSK8ERPNK: aye OnlyMonkey01: but did ya take a look at their teeth?! OnlyMonkey01: crikey they were huge! OnlyMonkey01: egh..enough of the crocidile hunter...letz act ghetto now OnlyMonkey01: yOooo dawg HATEDSK8ERPNK: yo man HATEDSK8ERPNK: wutup wit thy OnlyMonkey01: thy? HATEDSK8ERPNK: OnlyMonkey01: lol..you dorkest OnlyMonkey01: hey homie..wudda foo HATEDSK8ERPNK: nada HATEDSK8ERPNK: just feelin kinda high and drunk OnlyMonkey01: word..im hea chillin up in da crib, you kno how i do HATEDSK8ERPNK: yea holmes, we be a chillin chillin wit da crew and cracker's OnlyMonkey01: lol..word son HATEDSK8ERPNK: cuz ya see im black and ur not OnlyMonkey01: aye yo, i heard dem krackerz been givin u a hard time OnlyMonkey01: lol HATEDSK8ERPNK: and they white, but they aiight OnlyMonkey01: blaack ma ass HATEDSK8ERPNK: i black berry, HOE! HATEDSK8ERPNK: im OnlyMonkey01: bitch HATEDSK8ERPNK: black as night! OnlyMonkey01: HATEDSK8ERPNK: im as white asa cracker, you might as well call me a hick HATEDSK8ERPNK: hick?! HATEDSK8ERPNK: hick! OnlyMonkey01: yea...then ur blaq...make up ur mind whitey HATEDSK8ERPNK: HICK!? OnlyMonkey01: yea..you heard me nigga! HATEDSK8ERPNK: ehll'z nah OnlyMonkey01: hellz yea OnlyMonkey01: got nuthin on this rite hea son OnlyMonkey01: you cant touch this HATEDSK8ERPNK: yo yo yo yo OnlyMonkey01: wu HATEDSK8ERPNK: u white, u crack! u make me wanna chill wit white boy'z under da sun....get asun tan, wit i aint got no suntan HATEDSK8ERPNK: ! HATEDSK8ERPNK: mustang*! HATEDSK8ERPNK: lol HATEDSK8ERPNK: im GhE HATEDSK8ERPNK: tttttttttoooooooooo OnlyMonkey01: yes you are] OnlyMonkey01: way too freakin ghetto OnlyMonkey01: ssh HATEDSK8ERPNK: lol OnlyMonkey01: if you could figure that out OnlyMonkey01: ssh! HATEDSK8ERPNK: immma stauy queit now OnlyMonkey01: muahahaha OnlyMonkey01: ! OnlyMonkey01: dude..your typin all wierd and crap HATEDSK8ERPNK: idk HATEDSK8ERPNK: w h HATEDSK8ERPNK: why* OnlyMonkey01: itz shitty typin....worse then usal OnlyMonkey01: egh..well the point is i still get it OnlyMonkey01: so it dont matter HATEDSK8ERPNK: well brb HATEDSK8ERPNK: nvm OnlyMonkey01: alriety HATEDSK8ERPNK: gtg HATEDSK8ERPNK: bye OnlyMonkey01: ok OnlyMonkey01: l8er |
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| 06:20pm 01/06/2004 |
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mood:  flirty music: Coheed and Cambria * a favor house atlantic*
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well, here's a re cap of this week. HRS came to my school on monday questioning about some reported child abuse going on in my house. total bullshit, that shit dont go on at my house ever since my faggot father left me and my mom 3 years ago. well, if you didnt kno already, my sister and her 2 kidz live with us now, not to mention my brother in law and his little 2 year old kid from his previous marriage. so yea... as soon as that guy left from my school, i ran baq to Mr. San Miguel's room and called my sister. i was fuckin terrified, i was crying and screaming at every person in class that came near me. total drama.but hey, you would be too if they said that cause of this false report, they could split up out family (me and my 2 nephews James and Johnathen.) finaly, my sister picked up the house phone and i told her everything in a big rush but she didnt understand a word i said so i had to say everything all over again slowly with a stuffy nose cause ive been crying. my sister offered to pick me up early from school and suggested i should calm down before every1 would think i was a totasl nut case which was way tOo late for that shit.
so yea...the day went on and that all happened on monday. Now itz tuesday and im calm but yet worried. But what was there to worry about. i didnt go to school that day cause my nephew really wanted me to be there with him cause he had this show thing ast his school. I really wanted to tell Nick ( which by the way, me and him are baq together...AGAIN!) about the day before but her wouldnt call or write me an email so there was no way to contact him. he finaly signed on and well, letz just say it didnt go that pretty. all he did was argue with me. Nice way to treat a manic depresive eh?! so yea..fast forward to that afternoon say around 6. i was ready to go to my nephews show thingy with my best skating outfit on (which my mom hates cause she sayz i look like a guy). It'z my new greyish monkey shirt with these dark blue jeans, my jeanish all*stars with a black,grey, and white hat to top it off. Of course i had my polka dot braclet and for once in my life, i wasnt wearing my long earings! instead i was wearing my metal ball earings and a really cool neclace thing. well, enough of what i was wearing. the show was awsome and some of the little kidz got shy and totaly forgot the dance moves. but it made it super funny. then my nephew came out and i went wild. i called out his name like 20 million times and was the loudest one there. i love him sOo much! he saw me givin him the lil wave me and him made up. after it was over, we went out for pizza and went home tired to go str8 to bed. still no sign from Nick.
Wensday. i wake up and everything is normal. i go to Westland mall after school with Andrea and Amber. we were origanly gonna go to Dolphin mall to look for Andrea's bikini (so unlike her, i kno) and meet up with Ernie (amber's Ex) which i hate with all my might...you just dont know how much i hate him! and the nerve of amber not to tell me a single thing, Andrea had to inform me. so when she lease expected it, i threw it all at her when she was trien to make me look bad. dont mess with me, i will get you baq one way or the other. she was stunned. so yea... i went to Andrea's afterwardz and her sister cha chi bought us pizza which we ate most of it in the car. so i was there waitin for cha chi to getready when my mom callls Andrea's cell phone. Me being the asswhole i am said i wasnt there but my mom was serious and sounded like she had been crying, so i stop being a bitch and ask whatz wrong. to my worse surprise, they had takin both my nephews from my house and werent gonna give them baq. they also wanted me but thank god i wasnt there. but damn, my nephews which are my life were gone. i go home and it'z all, werll, there isnt any other words to put it other then horriable. my sister was crying and i love her so much, i hate seeing her crying like that. Andrea caled to see how evertyhing was and i just broke out in tears and i couldnt talk at all. she picked me up and i slept over her house. no sign from Nick either.
Thursday, a whole new day. so a slept on a spare matress Andrea has for sleep overs and woke up feelin like shit. nice start egh? i call my sister to let her know im okay and well, she sounded liek shit and most likely had been crying. i dont blame her, i cried myself to sleep too. so yea, i go to school and the nite b4, i had talked to ivan and told him everything. he came up to me in the mourning and just hugged me and said dont worry. damn, that made me worse, i hate pitty. but ya kno, i gotta thank him so much. i dunno why that many people hate him, they alwayz talk shit about him and i get pissed off. Best Friends stick together and i consider him a best friend. so yea, i went to taco bell that day with Johana, Andrea, and Amber. we ate liek pigz and of course, i hoagged all the hot sauce..damn i love spicy foods. well, afterwardz, we left to 711 were i got kicked out but still managed to steal a couple of posters and magazines. so as alwayz, i went to Andrea's house and waited to be picked up by my mom. Got home hoping Nick would have called but when i checked the caller ID....nothing, just sarah. i didnt feel like talking on the phone anyways. i sign online and check if he could be logged on. nope, only Ivan trien to cheer me up reasuring me that if they take me away, he will go after me treing to find me. damn, that boy is like the best. one and a million and im fortanate to be his friend. no scratch that...his BEST FRIEND! i love that kid (in a friendly way you prevs!) so once again, i go to sleep wishing Nick would somehow kno im thinking of him and that i miss him.
Friday. the end of the week. it was shorts day so i went to school with my red monkey shirt. surely i had missed a memo or something...EVERYONME WAS WEARING RED! WTF?! well, i still had my twist to my outfit which made it different. i hate being the same. well, it was boring until lunch block..the longest block ever! 11:35-1:55! it was Mr. Somellians B-day so he wasnt there. muahaha sub! ha, thatz what i thought along with 31 other kids. Boy, were we so wrong. Lucas was our sub. LUCAS! C.S.I teacher, every kidz worse nite mare! and was i wearin the wrong clothes! red and blaq flip flops which is a big school no-no but i usaly get away with it with any other teacher. and uHhHh...did i ever say that my red monkey shirt was also a big no-no tOo?! it was a red monkey SEX shirt! and guess what, he sat rite in baq of me and most likely read my shirt. thank god he said nothing. and the flip flops, well, i carried an extra pair of slip on shoes just in case something like that would happen and it did. so rite when i saw him come in the class, i oipened my book bag to look for those damn shoes. i pulled themn out and switched so fast, no1 noticed! whew..close one! so yea, fast forward to 6th period which was last block where we saw the ending of the ousiders and for once, i did all my work. egh...but when i got baq my FCAT readn score, i got mad yet sad... i got a 3.5 in readi. i had gone down. i wanted a 5 or a 4.5 but no, i got a damn 3 oint fuckin 5. i ko to some people that score is liek holy shit, but just remeber, im in adv. classes amd honors. i may slack off here and there but i do work hard. that shit was just a slap in the face. so w.e i went to Andrea's house where i stayed till like 2 in the mourning and called my mom so i could get picked up. i got home and checked my mail but nope, nothing from Nick once again. just ivan. egh..w/e. so i stayed talkin to Ivan till like late and then went off to sleep. i threatend him that he must go to mainstreet tommorrow with me or i would kill him before i left. i didnt think it would work.
saturday- woke up around 11 cause i had promised Vicky the nite b4 that we would do something..anything! so i checked the caller ID to see who the hell had been callin and it was her. so i called her baq and she said that we mite go to Mc.Donalds water park. i turn on the computer screen and tyhere i see Nick wrote to me while i was away sleeping. but it wasnt nothing nice, he called me a bitch. whatever. so yea, i got ready in my best bikini and wut not (of course, with a long shirt over, i hate my body) i had to keep it from my mom or she would not let me go cause well, she dont liek Vicky. so i went to Andrea's where we got a ride to Amber's. we weaited threre for Vicky to pick us up btu it was takin long and it was around 5:30 and the water park closed at 6. so we changed our planz to mainstreet. there was a shit load of people there. Amber bein the lil trator she is, decided to leave mainstreet when she promised Vicky she would chill with her just to run off to Anthony's house which lived around the corner. she's fucked up in the head. well, we saw "the day after tommorrow" or some shit like that and we were fuckin loud. there was no more seat so we sat in the front row. it was a big group of us tho. it was me, amber, andrea, vicky, J.C., jenny, yenny and some lil chubby dude there. the movie was long as fuck and we ran out the theature. J.C. and J.C hooked up in there. they even made out...juicy aint it?! so we were outside walkin towards the fountain when i hear my name. that voice sounded very familair and to my surprise it was Ivan. Alez was rite behind him with his skateboard in 5 pieces. i stayed baq talkin to Ivam and we took a pic under a lamp pole. we were hungry so we went to Jonny Rockets but it was too expensive and we only had $19 and some change. we went to th eother side of mainstreet to Pizza Nova where me and Amber fought for seats. and right when i was gonna sit down, ivan comes and putz his feet there...that bastard! so whatever, me and him were sittin together when the pizza comes and sprite when Alex jumps out of nowhere and Ivan standz up and they both run with the soda. everyone ran after them and i was too but i was too hungry so i just sat and dug into the pizza. i was enjoyin the pizza up till when Ivan came. he say next to me again starin at me so i offered him a bite of my pizza. i should have known! he took the biggest bite ever and then messed up my hair by givin me a noogie! damn him!we whatever. and to think i would have learned...nope. he did it again when i wanted to give him another bite. everyoner sayz we look like brothers and sisters, me and him are alwayz playin around like that. so i hit him on the head and then hugged him but then pushed him...tehe, im so evil! well, we were out in the lobby waitin for Vicky's mom and Ivan's uncle to comer and pick us up when i decided to give him a lil pay baq from the last tinme he was at my house.i got a whole bunch of leaves andf threw it at him. muahaha! me and him started a game of war until he left and i was left with Vicky waitin for her mom. i got home and hoped you ko who would have called. nothing.
sunday- nothin really happened. Andrea came to my house and we chilled. her mom came to pick her up and took me and her out to Flanigans to eat. awsome. i got home and when i looked online at my away message. Nick had finally IMed me. only, it wasnt good. he was mad all cause i wasnt there when he needed to talk to me. i had my away message on damnit! and wtf, he wasnt on when i fuckin needed him! asswhole. i IMed Ivan all pissed off and he told me to calm down. i explained to him what happened with me and Nick and he said that i had a poitn, he;s mad cause of bullshit. we werte listenin to zeta when hoobastank "the reason" started playin. i got all emo and wanted to change the station and i told him it was cause Nick delicated it to me. Ivan said so...dont worry, i delicate it to you too. i felt loved...and it wasnt by Nick so go figure. Ivan offered to curse himout online... i refused.
monday- what a day! it was memorial day and there was a bbq party at Andrea's. J.C., Anthony, Vicky, Amber, and me showed up. we were chillin outside when we see Ivan and Alex runnin after the ice cream truck. i called out for Ivan and he came runnin up to me. but then Andrea stole his fruit roll up and he ran after her. he came baq and he gave me a piece and we played around a lil pushin each other and what not. we went to the baq yard where there was a fuckin pot plant growing. i swear guy, this shit only happens at Andre'as. she ate it and so did her dog. then came Rob (white boy) and Andrea's brother who is also called Anthony and some mexican kid. we played bullshit, poker, and slut. i suck. we went by the canal where i took a pic with J.C humpin the tree. awsome pic. well, we walked baq to Andre'a, jumped off her roof and thyen one by one, every1 left. it was me, vicky and Andrea left. Andrea had a Heniken beer hidden in the baq of the fridge that she had takin form her brother. she drank a lil liek 3 sips and then handed me the bottle. i drank it happily. we got bored and we danced to the spice girls cause there was nothin better to do. Vicky's mom came and dropped me off home. Nick wasnt on and not one email from him. i talked to ivan like alwayz and went to sleep.
monday- i didnt go to school and my grandma is in the hospital. lovely aint it. Nick signed on but i was on ghost... i didnt feel like talkin to him. so now im here updatin my damn blurty and if you excuse me, im gonna go chat with Vicky, she IMed me but i was busy. l8er homie g pimp slice!
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| 03:50pm 22/05/2004 |
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 You are Alcohol!A little sloppy, a little hungry, and a whole lot horny. So what if you've had a drunken fling or two with puke still in your hair? You're the life of the party - well, if you can get invited... What Drug Are You?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva |
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| 03:08pm 16/05/2004 |
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mood:  tired music: Beastie boys * you gotta fight for your right to party*
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well, i didnt go to the laua..instead i slept all day and woke up only cause Andrea was callin my house every hour or so, so i could wake my happy ass up. Origanily, i wasnt gonna go to Alexis's and Chey's after party but then i changed my mind cause i was bored and Andrea was goin. if she was goin, then i was goin. and man, im glad i did go. that party was the shit.Andrea, Amber, Anthony, estaban, robert, mario R and mario from U.S history class,April, Javi, Lyle, Pedro, Abel, and of course, Alexis and Chey the party throwers. it was a "pool party"...but the pool was a kiddie pool that never got filled up. so yea... we all settled down and decided to start a fire in the fire pit. Of course, Abel the fire freak started it and was the fire keeper throught out the nite. we ate pizza...well some of us did. there wasnt enough for all of us even tho Amber sneaked off a box for our group, every1 ate faster then me. good thing i like the crust, i was eatin my groups crust...mauahahaha! javi threw me and Amber a bread stick to see who would catch it first but it fell on the grass and got lost for a minute...until i found it and gobbled it up before Amber saw me. some of us wamted to see a movie which i dont remeber the name of it cause i was too busy being loud but then i have no clue wtf happened. i think it went wrong when me, gabby, andrea, estaban, pedro and Robert decided to jump in the pool in the middle of the nite...not to mention it was windy and cold. smart move egh..? and since every1 else was dry, we had to stay in the pool for a good 10 minutes before one of us smartasses decided to wrestle in the pool which got us all extremly cold and wet from head to toe. we all jumped out and went to the nearest candle thing. i was thirsty so i went over to the food table and started to drinl cherry coke rite out of the bottle cause there was no more cupz until some1 challenged me to a chug down. andf of course, me being me never turnz down a good challenge. i ghugged that shit down and beat gabby! whOop whOop! but then i lost to robert which i still have no clue how that happened cause he's way smaller then me. so now the bottle of cherry coke was empty and amber annouces that she wzntz to play spin the bottle. i said hell yea and grabbed a chair to sit near her. well, so no1 would get in deep shit, i will not say who kissed who..all'z i got to say is that me and andrea are P.I.M.P.S!!! well so yea...the nite went on and anthony and estaban walked andrea, amber, and me to Amber's house where i got picked up and went str8 to sleep once i hit the bed....it was about 2 in the mourning when i got home. |
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| 08:00am 30/04/2004 |
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Well okay.. i havent been writing in this piece oif shit lately so im just gonna give you a quick summary. me and Nick broke up AGAIN and well, im sad and depressed again. the other nite he made me cry badly cause he told me some pretty harsh thingz when he was drunk. even tho he was drunk, when ppl are drunk, they tend to tellt he truth str8 out.... so yea, thanx Nick for thinkin im annoying and wishes i could just go away. thanx for bringing down every hope and dream that i had. then you ask why i was acting like that (dont get me wrong... i still love you even tho you do me wrong everytime). well, next subject. Sarah (an old friend/enemy) came baq from where ever it was she came from. I dont kon how i feel about this yet,itz like mixed emotionz. In a way i want to get as far away from her, but the other side of me wantz to be nice espeacily since she sitz next to me in Civics.
The schOol play is over and i had a blast. Both showz were great and hilarous. Even tho Diego messed up, that added a lil more humor to his skit....and thank God it was during the parent show...cause if it was for the student body show...OhHhH SHIZA!!! it was fun, and nOw pppl around the schOol come up to me and tell me i did a great job and i rocked playing my retarded hOoked on phonics charater, Kindie. Itz pretty cOol, itz like im a mini movie start. Well, enough about the play, thatz what i have to write about for an A and im not gonna give out any ideas to n e 1 in my drama class. MUAHAHAHAHA!!! so yea..... Vicky. letz switch on to her. I love her. she came to my show (sorry to mention uit again) and that proves that she is a tru and a best friend to me cause she dont even go to my schOol n e more and she livs like 45 minutes away from the schOol. who else would do that for me?! VICKY!! and who else would take my shit at midnite cryin over the phone just cuz Nick did this or Nick did that (and by the way, Vicky HATES Nick for every thing that hez done to me)?! dude, plain and simple, I love you. and Andrea. guy, you understand me completely and you alwyz help me out when im in deep shit or wut not. I kno where your comin from and you dont need to explain or apologize for anything. and wow guy, im surprised you still havent gottin rid of me yet... you alwayz change ur friendz every year. awsome, just like vicky... I love you tOo!!
OKay..wut else has happen? oh yea.. im movin saturday to my new house in hialeah gardenz. I dont liek it... i dont wanna move over there. if i cant move to PA ( every1 that knoz why will get it) or stay here in THIS house, then i just dont wanna move away. im gonna be visitin NY anytime now and itz gonna be awsome cause i'll get to see some1 that ive been dying to see already!!! It would be great if their there waitin...but i doubt it. most likely by that time, they would forget about me and all. but who knoz...mayB they will be waitin...only God knoz. well, thatz it for now cause this hsit is gettin tOo fuckin full and i kno if it were me readin it.. i wouldnt be readin this that im writin cause i would have givin up in like te 5th sentece. so yea...l8er homie and dont foret to visit my web page www.freewebs.com/punkiimonkey (im not done with it.. i still need some more pics) l8er homie G'z!!! |
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| 11:54pm 20/03/2004 |
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mood:  artistic music: Sugar Cult * BOuncin' Off the wallz *
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hellOoOo der. wow, itz been a while since ive writin here. well uMmMm . . . .there isnt much tO say. if i havent said it already befOre, me and amber arent best friendz anymOre. i have had enOuqh of her bull shit already. and uMmMm, im pOstin up my pOemz on this site there called www.darkpoetry.com. my member name is UnlOvedLOzerChic. pretty sOon ima be mOvin my blurty to that name. i like that name better then this dumb Old "OnlyMonkey". even i dOnt qet it! sO yea, n2m has happened but i will keep u pOsted. and well, i quess ima start writin On the weekendz nOw. thatz when i have the mOst time. sO i quess i will qive a weekly update instead Of date tO date. well, qOtta qo, nickz On the phOne waitin for me tO qet dOne. l8er. ( wOw, i feel like writin sO many pOemz! sOmethinq just mOtOvated me all Of a sudden!) |
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| 10:20pm 15/03/2004 |
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im sO freakin bOred! damnit, there nOthin much tO dO but tO talk tO my secret gay lOver vicky! and if i havent pOsted it yet, me and nick are baq tOqether! wOohOo! since saturday nite! im sO happy, my week just turned arOund a 360! wOw, itz a relief i dOnt have to feel sOrry fOr myslef anymOre. i was qettin tOo depressed. it was sOrta qettin scary. i was qettin intO tOo many fiqhtz Over stupid lil thinqz and i wasnt fOcusinq On schOol wOrk. IM FAILING fOr heavenz sake! but nOw im all beter! =) yaaaay fOr me! so umMmmm yea, i tricked my close friend ivan today, it was great fun! look,ima copy paste wut we said. im UnlOvedLOzerChic and hez Sk8punk0106-
(if u dont wanna read it, just scroll down, i wrote more!=)
UnlOvedLOzerChic: i kno where u live UnlOvedLOzerChic: 113 terrence UnlOvedLOzerChic: u have 2 dogz named bobo and kenji UnlOvedLOzerChic: u live with ur hadnicaped unlce carlos and ur cousin\ UnlOvedLOzerChic: u have a sister that goes to hml named kenya and 2 lil brotherz named ryan and ian UnlOvedLOzerChic: ur momz name is miarinm and ur dadz name is iavn UnlOvedLOzerChic: ivan* UnlOvedLOzerChic: ur middle named geovni UnlOvedLOzerChic: u live in a pink house UnlOvedLOzerChic: u go to palm springs middle UnlOvedLOzerChic: u are in 8 grade but u have two 7th grade classes UnlOvedLOzerChic: they are ms.connel and mr. san miguel UnlOvedLOzerChic: u live in a pink house UnlOvedLOzerChic: your mother drives a white car and she takes you every mourning to school UnlOvedLOzerChic: u also live with ur grandmother UnlOvedLOzerChic: ur EXes are jenny an april UnlOvedLOzerChic: i am ur new stalker UnlOvedLOzerChic: =)
Auto response from Sk8punk0106: its not that im away, its just that i don't wanna talk to u......
Sk8punk0106 returned at 9:40:04 PM. UnlOvedLOzerChic: i will stalk u until i die UnlOvedLOzerChic: i heart u ivan geovni sanchez! UnlOvedLOzerChic: marry me Sk8punk0106: who's this? UnlOvedLOzerChic: ur stalker Sk8punk0106: w.e Sk8punk0106: u got half of that information wrong UnlOvedLOzerChic: marry me Sk8punk0106: lol Sk8punk0106: no Sk8punk0106: bye Sk8punk0106 is away at 9:42:08 PM. UnlOvedLOzerChic: do eben kno who this is
Auto response from Sk8punk0106: its not that im away, its just that i don't wanna talk to u......
Sk8punk0106 returned at 9:42:13 PM. Sk8punk0106: no Sk8punk0106: bye UnlOvedLOzerChic: i just got bored and wrote that Sk8punk0106 is away at 9:42:29 PM. UnlOvedLOzerChic: i heart you
Auto response from Sk8punk0106: its not that im away, its just that i don't wanna talk to u......
UnlOvedLOzerChic: and i got it all rite, they told me, but they dont kon me, and i heart u ivan geovni sanchez UnlOvedLOzerChic: pretty plz marry me UnlOvedLOzerChic: i kno ur in ur unclez room on the computer UnlOvedLOzerChic: the computer is in hi room UnlOvedLOzerChic: his* Sk8punk0106 returned at 9:58:09 PM. Sk8punk0106: U FREAK!
Auto response from UnlOvedLOzerChic: im talkin to my secret gay lover but sHhHhHh1 dont tell no1! every1 else could just go away and kill urslef very slowly and make a video so i can watch it and laugh! and o yea, i <3 u nick, plz call me! =)
UnlOvedLOzerChic: =) UnlOvedLOzerChic: do u kno who this is already? Sk8punk0106: NO I FUKING DON'T! UnlOvedLOzerChic: im gettin very bored here UnlOvedLOzerChic: wow, thatz so gay Sk8punk0106: cindy! Sk8punk0106: lol! u freak! UnlOvedLOzerChic: tehe UnlOvedLOzerChic: =) UnlOvedLOzerChic: yea,it me Sk8punk0106: fuking loser! UnlOvedLOzerChic: itz about time UnlOvedLOzerChic: i kno, i had nothin better to do Sk8punk0106: u dick! UnlOvedLOzerChic: no UnlOvedLOzerChic: ur gay UnlOvedLOzerChic: scrtom licker UnlOvedLOzerChic: wut gave it away tho? Sk8punk0106: jello ball Sk8punk0106: shutup UnlOvedLOzerChic: ? ? ? Sk8punk0106: lol UnlOvedLOzerChic: cam bucket UnlOvedLOzerChic: cum* UnlOvedLOzerChic: lol UnlOvedLOzerChic: dude, wut gave it away tho? Sk8punk0106: easy ur way message Sk8punk0106: NICK! Sk8punk0106: lol UnlOvedLOzerChic: o yea UnlOvedLOzerChic: damnit Sk8punk0106: lol UnlOvedLOzerChic: i thought i didnt remebr tho Sk8punk0106: loser UnlOvedLOzerChic: yea i ko, j look at the sn Sk8punk0106: i remember alot of things UnlOvedLOzerChic: wow Sk8punk0106: lol UnlOvedLOzerChic: and all this time i thought u were dumb UnlOvedLOzerChic: lol Sk8punk0106: lol Sk8punk0106: mayb UnlOvedLOzerChic: lawn nomb! UnlOvedLOzerChic: chicken mc nugget UnlOvedLOzerChic: haha Sk8punk0106: wut shit?! UnlOvedLOzerChic: fruit Sk8punk0106: chicken mc nugget? Sk8punk0106: wtf!? UnlOvedLOzerChic: i dunno,im just sayin radomthingz now Sk8punk0106: go fecth a dognut UnlOvedLOzerChic: no, go eat a fich nut! UnlOvedLOzerChic: fish* Sk8punk0106: lol UnlOvedLOzerChic: wow, that was a good joke tho UnlOvedLOzerChic: haha Sk8punk0106: lol UnlOvedLOzerChic: =) UnlOvedLOzerChic: did i scare u tho? UnlOvedLOzerChic: ? ?? ? Sk8punk0106: yea UnlOvedLOzerChic: haha UnlOvedLOzerChic: andrea told me on the fone wut to say UnlOvedLOzerChic: i was gonna say more but w.e Sk8punk0106: lol Sk8punk0106: wut a stalker UnlOvedLOzerChic: hey,andrea told me wut ot say UnlOvedLOzerChic: im not a stalker UnlOvedLOzerChic: im just a lozer with no life Sk8punk0106: ur a dumbass UnlOvedLOzerChic: hey, brb, i have to go read my freindz blurty Sk8punk0106: b-otch UnlOvedLOzerChic: no,m u r UnlOvedLOzerChic: im just a dork UnlOvedLOzerChic: brb Sk8punk0106: ok
Auto response from UnlOvedLOzerChic: im talkin to my secret gay lover but sHhHhHh1 dont tell no1! every1 else could just go away and kill urslef very slowly and make a video so i can watch it and laugh! and o yea, i <3 u nick, plz call me! =)
Sk8punk0106 signed off at 10:11:50 PM.
well, im here waitin fOr nick tO call me. yup . . . still waitin . .yup. wOw i have nO freakin life! o well, im just talkin to vicky abOut stupid shit here. nOw itz just silence but the clicker clatter Of Our keybOardz. . . . . click click clak click click click clack clak click click click clack . . . . Okay dOne. itz sO hard tO keep fOcuse On vickyz vOice, mind just slippin, shez talkin tO fast, wOw, cant keep track. wOw, dOne. sO yea, well im bOred and any1 whO knOz my #, call me sO we can just wat shit and talk about hOw crappy life is. O wait, me and vicky are already dOin that. O well, therez alwayz phOne sex. lOl , jp. well, i just qOt Off the phOne and im waitin for anythinq tO happen nOw. im sO bOred still. i have nO life, im bOred. i hOpe a maqical dOlphine will fall Out of the sky and take me away to cuba while im drikin my multi- milliOn dOllar invetiOn chOcOlate cOke. O shit, said it tOo lOud. u best nOt steal my idea! ima be rich i tell ya, rich! and i will buy vicky a pOny and nick a ducky! yes, yes! thatz wut i will dO. and i will buy esther a hOuse with stripperz! yea . . stripperz! whO dOesnt like stripperz! Okay wOw, im very crazy. yaaaaaay! nick IMed me, well im Off tO chit chat. l8er kiddOz! |
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| 03:33pm 10/03/2004 |
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wOw, i never thOqht i wOuld see the day. me and nick brOke up, itz Over. i cant believe he brOke up with me sO easliy knOin hOw much i lOved him. didnt he lOve me? if he did, then why wOuld he dO that for? i dunnO wut tO dO. and well, at least me and him are freindz. it hurtz tO be friendz cause i still lOve him and im nOt qOnna be able tO dO the thinqz i used tO be able tO dO with him. and well, it breakz my herat. well, at least friendz is better than nOthinq. we cOuld have ended up enemyz but we didnt sO, i guess thatz pretty gOod. and me and him are still qOnna behave like we used tO and still talk at nite but the feelin is qOnna be qOne. itz nOt qOnna be like it used tO be. i dunnO, i just dOnt knO. i just qOtta qive this time. all wOundz heal Over time. im just nOt sure this One will. |
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| 01:52pm 08/03/2004 |
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 As if you were born into a world of tears, you always tend to look at the darker things in life. Inside you crave attention yet push away society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn to things like the occult and mysteries, you spend your time daydreaming.
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| 12:54pm 08/03/2004 |
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i dunnO wutz takin Over me. I feel sO lost and hopless. is this feelin ever gonna fade? And if it dOes, will it be sOon? befOre i make a mistake? i wish i cOuld hOld all the answerz but i dOnt. i just have tO wait. but i cant wait lOnq enOuqh. This cOuld be the last day Of my life. Wut if it is? Wut abOut all the thinqz i wanted tO dO and never qOt tO it? Life is a mystery that can nOt be sOlved, but Only if there was a way tO lOok intO the future and see wut it hOldz. tO see the tru meanin Of life. Y we are all here? nO One knoz. Only GOd hOldz all the answerz tO oOur questiOnz. But i have my dOubtz. Will i feel like this fOrever? it feelz that way. im trapt in a wOrld i never asked to live in. it is sO cOld and bitter, i dOnt knO hOw ppl cOuld live in it. Is wut i feel lust Or lOve? mite this persOn be the One i live with all my lyf? if sO, why dOes he treat me so bitterly. dOnt i mean a thinq tO him? All i ask is lOve in return. i knO i cOuld dO way better then him but i lOve him tOo much tO let him qO. i dOnt knO wut tO dO with myself. i feel sO hOpeless. will i ever find the answerz tO all of my questiOnz? Will my gaurdin angle ever cOme dOwn and help me? |
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| 10:18pm 06/03/2004 |
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mood:  tired music: Sugarcult *Memory*
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egh... woke up once again. i was hoping that i would never open eyes again. i got out of bed extra early cause my sister was whining the nite before that she needed to meet our lawyer well, i was up and ready but sorta sleepy and there was absolute no sign of life from her room..she over slept. i woke her happy ass up, drank some orange juice and off we went. once again, my driver was my brother in law and we had another school conversation. and i was late to school, try 45 minutes late. at least i didnt have to be in the damn sun in the mourning sweating my make up like other days. any ways, i got to school, andi got my FCAT scores baq...pretty awsome. and to think i took the make-up on some parts of the FCAT. i got above average but i went down...i kno i could do better but the main thing is that i past. skip most of the day, finals for 5th period was easy, blah, blah, blah, unto 1st period adv Drama class. i wasnt prepared for my finals but im getin another chance. i got an award and made a speech about everything in drama. damn, im gonna miss that class. i got a trophy...tehe =) !!! egh..went to 3rd peroid and did a lab. oh shit that remindz me! i have to do some makeup work! shit!! whatever. well, the bell rang and i went under the shelter where i teased Ivan about me havin a trophy and he didnt. he took revenge and stole my trophy. i kicked his ass afterwardz tho..i also slapped him silly. well, went to Andrea's house with Amber and Joanna and ate a taco. chai chi came and walked Amber home... i saw Ivan without his shirt on...seXay, lol. j/p. he was playing cards with his grandma...aWwWwWw, cuters! sike! such a gOod lil mama's boy..so adorable, so sicking. haha, you kno i have mad love for ya Ivan..mad love son. lol.so yea... my mom picked me up and i showed her my FCAt scores and trophy. can you believe she's gonna give me money for that...tehe! awsome. so yea, i got in the car and my mom bought me burger king..with half my damn money! egh..i'll ask Ivan for money tommorrow..he'll give it to me..OR ELSE! okay well, itz sleepy time and im tired so so long suckas!
oh yea..Nick called last nite but i dont think he is tonite. now, l8er h8ers! |
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| 12:32pm 18/02/2004 |
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mood:  sleepy music: lullabyz
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WTF!! Im supposed to be at school and Im at me house sleeping!!! WOW, something went terraibly wrong here!!! Well, im ago back to sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep!!!
*Sleeping is the shiz nit, itz very good!!* |
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| 08:08pm 17/02/2004 |
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mood:  loved music: Sixpence None The Richer *kiss me*
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I feel so good!! Im so in love!! I love Nick so much!! that lil incendent the other day passed, and now we're happy with each other. I cant wait til the day we hold each other. Im never gonna let go. And oh. . . when we kiss.... it will be like the moviez, exactly like the moviez!! Oh, i cant wait!!! I love you Nick!! |
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| 12:04pm 16/02/2004 |
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mood:  gloomy music: Story Of The Year *Swallow the knife*
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How on earth could i have messed up so soon?? On the very first day we're going out!! I love him so much and i break his heart. Im such a horrible person. I shouldnt have the right to live. I was gonna tell him. I swear i really was, just not on that nite. I made two freakin mistakes in one day. How can i even have done that?? I dunno why i even did that to begin with. I cant even question what i did casue i dont even know why. Im an asshole like that i guess. No i dont guess, i am. I have so many mixed emotionz about last nite. I feel so pissed off at myslef for doing this. I feel depressed, gloomy, sad, disgusted at myself for making him go through this. I was the only person that he loved and trusted and i blow that away like nothing. I dont ever think im going to regain his trust ever again. I hurt him so badly last nite. But it hurt me to hide behind a lie and hear him last nite all angry and confussed. I couldnt bare it all. It was just too much to hear him like that. I thank God we didnt break up. i would have not known what to do. We're gonna try to put this all behind us but itz just too big. The spark is not gonna be there like it was before. i broke his trust and i wanna kill myself for doing that. I really hate myself, so much that i just wanna end my life. i dont desreve the right to live. I just dont know what to say. i f**ked up. I really f**ked up. |
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