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Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
5:43 pm - how soon is never?
everything after december 19th has become friends only.
i guess life is getting too personal and complicated for public viewing...
not that anyone really reads this that much.

current mood: contemplative
current music: don't panic, coldplay

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Sunday, December 19th, 2004
10:42 pm - bit of a change
so, ive moved this whole journal(minus comments) to livejournal
so anyone with a journal there be sure to add me :)
i was up until 6 this morning swapping the whole damn thing(yep, i felt like a nerd)
well, i'm about to go home from work
have a great night

current mood: thirsty
current music: candy, morphine

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Saturday, December 18th, 2004
3:17 pm - a case of the "bleh's"
so, i'm feeling really sick to my stomach today(again). i called in to work yesterday because i woke up feeling gross like this. it's this awful nauseous feeling in my stomach...not fun at all. so i will probably end up curling up on the couch here at work and watching television while my stomach does these weird flip flops.
i did get a little christmas shopping done yesterday. i got my mom and billi something(yay!) and i couldn't resist the urge to by myself this cute outfit from the Gap(because it was ridiculously on sale--like 19.99 per piece).
anyway, that's all for the moment. i'm feeling icky.

Megan's Daily Taurus Forecast
Quickie: Time for a radical change. Be as different as you need to be.
Overview: Promises made will be promises kept. Keep that in mind while you're listening to someone give you their word. No matter what happened last time, they might actually surprise you.

current mood: nauseated
current music: all of me, evanescence (i think that's the name)

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Thursday, December 16th, 2004
6:22 pm
i hate my job. i want to quit.
i mean i really, really, really fucking hate it. man i just want to SCREAM right now!!
i hate this fucking job.

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3:38 pm - ah, the frustration
so, i called D today to confirm that he's still coming down next week and we're still doing the whole dinner thing(and to remind him to bring my friggin' eels cd...b/c i love that one). and guess what? he has a restaurant request, which is fine....except he wants to go to Michael's(a new place on 280 in greystone). and this would be fine, except that the guy i am currently dating works there! yep, so of all the places he could possibly want to go, he picks that one...sometimes he's a real pain in my ass(D that is).
i'm thinking the best course of action here would be just to take him somewhere else. i think that would cause the least amount of awkwardness and/or friction. plus, if i go to Micheal's to eat, i'm going to want the guy im dating to wait on me. so yeah, definitely a bit of a predicament there.
maybe D would be interested in somewhere like 5 points grill(the old Mill) or something. hell, i dont know.
i talked to andrea today. :) we were discussing plans for new year's and just things to do in general. it's always good to hear from her...damn i haven't seen her since the end of august i don't think. gee, time passes quickly.
hopefully we'll hang out sometime soon(cos i think i get paid tomorrow).
speaking of getting paid..i have got to do my christmas shopping. and i want to get a new outfit and get my nails, hopefully i can afford all this stuff i want to do. i think so.
damn i need to get paid.
alright, that's my rant for today.

current mood: bored
current music: the idiocy of the folks in the waffle house meeting here

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Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
5:01 pm
bored junkk )

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Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
6:10 pm - 32 christmas cards with envelopes
i am having a really weird day. i think it's because i slept way too long. i didn't mean to sleep until 2, i actually had my alarm set for 10, but i was having the most fascinating dreams that i really didn't want to wake up...
see, i said i was having a weird day.
more about this funk i'm in )
i started reading the Bible last night. I've decided since this is my religion of choice, that i should probably begin reading the materials that go along with it, rather than just blind faith(which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but i'm pretty sure it's better to understand what it is that you believe). and i know the basics, because i did go to church as a child, and some in my teen years. and i've studied other religions during the years when i was more skeptical and trying to find myself. so, i've always come back to Christianity...but not the narrow-minded, scary kind...i guess my take on it is a bit modified, but i find it justifiable.
anyway, religion is definitely an interesting subject that could take days to finish writing about.
and so on that note, i think i'm going to go read some more. I'm only on Genesis(which i have an interesting theory about if anyone ever wants to hear it, and reading it affirms that theory), and i'm to the long part where so-and-so begat so-and-so begat...and so forth. wish me luck.

current mood: detached
current music: for the good times, al green

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Monday, December 13th, 2004
1:38 pm - horoscopes can be so vague/dumb
Dear Megan,
Here is your horoscope
for Monday, December 13:
For the next couple of days, you'll be blessed with the astrological stuff that gifts, invitations and tokens of affection are made of. Expect a phone call, a wonderful invitation and an entirely new experience -- soon, too.

current mood: amused
current music: girl on lsd, tom petty

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Saturday, December 11th, 2004
8:43 pm - grr
i know i've said it before, but i will say it again. i HATE teenagers. seriously. especially the teenagers around here. damn punks. trying to rent a room and fill it full of people...granted that is a totally normal teenage thing to do, however, when you can't afford to pay the rate for the room and then proceed to sit in the parking lot with all your pals and rev your engines or whatever...ugh, completely lame.
stupid kids.
anyway, just wanted to vent that. i get out of here in 2 hours!! hallelujah

current mood: aggravated
current music: watching america's next top model on vh1

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2:56 pm - it really is christmas time...
and i'm just not in the mood for it. i'm really trying to get into the "holiday spirit," but i'm just really not feeling it this year. there just seems to be something lacking this christmas, as there has been the past 3 christmases, and i think that thing is family. sure, i have my little family(me,mom,morgan and sometimes chelsea), but it's just not the same. i miss christmas at our house with my stepdad. i even miss the christmas get-togethers with his big family. something about all that just made it feel like a special christmas is supposed to feel. but it's just not like that anymore. my mom is now so anti-christmas that it's strange...and we don't even really do much with the whole thing. she's paying a bill for me for christmas, which is great, but i don't's just all really strange. i guess i just really miss having a complete family this time of year(but what can you expect when you're mom has now twice traded in your father figures---but that's another issue in itself).
i can't wait for work to hurry and be over today. i have things to do afterwards(that i'm looking very forward to) and i just want to hurry and get away from here. sigh. i have the next two days off, so that should be swell.
alright, it's time to go smoke a cigarette and try not to freeze to death.

current mood: mellow
current music: for the good times, al green

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Friday, December 10th, 2004
3:56 pm
Taurus Daily Horoscope
Fasten your seat belt and prepare to be amazed by someone you not only love, but outright adore. What they'll do is hard to say -- but your reaction is easy. Delight would be an understatement.

the weather is getting chilly once more. damn! i suppose it's appropriate for this time of year, however i was getting quite fond of the balminess we've been experiencing. the cold will be alright, as long as there's no snow involved at any point in time. i hate snow.
last night i visited morgan's new apartment. it's very...hmm...antique. haha.quick apartment tour )
well, i'm going to go watch Oprah(because i've started watching that now, and because there's not a thing else to do)

current mood: bored
current music: dear claudia, south fm

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Thursday, December 9th, 2004
8:52 pm - i wanna bop around
i have too much energy at the moment, and sitting here at work is really not helping. i want to go out and dance...alright, so i can't dance, but i can kind of bop around.haha. im just in the mood to get out and do something. damn being broke.
bop bop bop
i guess all i'll be doing this evening is working out when i get home. fun fun.
morgan got an apartment/duplex today. it's a 2 bedroom for $260 a, yes, but it has no refrigerator, it's a little run down, and in a skanky part of town. oh well, a place of her own will be good for her i guess. im proud. i had my first apartment when i was her age, so she'll learn some things from this experience. though i'm sure it won't be half as strange as mine was.......
bop bop bop
nothing else to talk about really.

current mood: bouncy
current music: take me out, franz ferdinand

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Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
4:12 pm - i'm learning to balance..
i've never really been one to watch "Oprah," but today's episode definitely caught my eye. It's feature is the guy who wrote the new book "He's Just Not that into You." and you know what? he has a point. i'm definitely learning some things from this show. it's pretty interesting. definitely liberating in a sense, and just, well, insightful.
and the things i'm learning are quite positive, because.............hehe....well, because i think i'm falling for someone. there, i admitted it.falling is like this )
that's what's on my mind today. i'm having a good day. i turned in my application for the nursing program, and have started planning out all the things i'm going to have to do before next fall(assuming i get accepted). it's definitely going to be difficult, and at times i'm sure i will get frustrated, but in the end it will pay off. i'm looking forward to pushing myself to complete my goals. it's something i've slacked on throughout the past few years...though i've definitely accomplished a lot in the past year, as far as school, my mental well-being, and such. so maybe i'm working towards making myself proud. which is good for once. i'm doing these things for me, and they're going to mean so much more because of that.
well, enough of my rambling. later

current mood: good
current music: stupid girl, cold(last thing i heard today)

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Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
3:31 pm
Hard work yields pleasing results and proves that momentum is the key to your success. Once you get going, you may find yourself exceeding expectations long before you're ready to quit. This is a great time to start a new health program or an art project. Once you start, people around you are bound to take notice. Share your new plans with friends or family; they will provide you with useful help and suggestions. Take the time to rest up and build your enthusiasm, then don't let anything stop you!

today is such a beautiful day. it's sunny outside, the air is warm(gotta love that), and i am just in a great mood.
i paid for my psychology 210 class yesterday morning and in about 3 weeks im going to register for speech, so that will be great. i'll be glad to be taking some classes. i'm turning in my application for the nursing program tomorrow *crosses fingers*
right now i just feel excellent. i'm really happy, and i'm getting all these things done, and things are just going well right now. well, except for the fact that i cannot find a caramel apple scented candle. i know this seems trivial, but i really want to get it for Billi for christmas, and i can't find one anywhere!!! i mean what the hell???
but anyway...i'm kind of sick to my stomach so that's it for today.

current mood: happy
current music: when i see you, third eye blind

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Sunday, December 5th, 2004
11:49 pm - bedtime
i'm going to register for my class tomorrow. werd. i'll be glad to hurry and get that done, b/c the sooner it's done, the sooner i can stop thinking about all the money i'm giving them.
it has been a very slow day today. the weather sucks, i was off work, and had nothing but a few minor errands to do all day. i did watch a few movies though...the best one was "the five people you meet in heaven" which is based on this book i read back in was really good, but the movie didn't make me cry anywhere near as much as the book.
i'm buying billi's xmas gift tomorrow, so hopefully she will remember to send me her address. i hope i get something that she'll really like....
anyway, i'm off to bed b/c i've got a pretty busy morning tomorrow(registration, applications, driving to bham) so yeah, goodnite

current mood: satisfied
current music: smile, onelinedrawing

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Saturday, December 4th, 2004
9:13 pm - wonderful sense of accomplishment...
i have finished ayn rand's "the fountainhead." it was brilliant.

current mood: accomplished
current music: needle in the hay, elliott smith

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11:29 am - things change, my dear...
Dear Megan,
Here is your horoscope
for Saturday, December 4:

There's magic in the air, and not a moment too soon for your tastes. You've had all the reality you can stand in the past few days, and you're ready for a magical, mystical break in the action.

hm, lots going on, and yet nothing going on. interesting, eh? i got my check cashed earlier, so now i have a couple of dollars to go buy some random shit that i need. and then im going to register for that damn class on monday. and that will be most of my check, right out the window. :(
and now, because i feel like it
liz phair, flower...cos i like it )

current mood: happy
current music: liz phair, flower

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Friday, December 3rd, 2004
12:18 pm - my horoscope is retarded....and i had a weird dream
Daily extended (by
The chickens are coming home to roost, so get out there and make sure that chicken coop is ready for guests. The sooner you deal with the past, the sooner you can get started on finding an opportunity in this situation. Avoid power struggles with someone in a position of importance later in the day. Your interests are best served when you keep smiling and make it look easy

so i had the strangest dream last night/this morning. it's too random to even talk about. i started typing it hear and realized there was no coherent plot to the whole thing. dead babies missing hands, a chubby long haired dustin talking a/b the girl he was humping, and me getting my head shaved by some crazy person....and that's not even the half of it. so yeah, very strange.
im in between workouts right now..about to do arms/abs, so i thought i'd stop in here really quick. i have to work tonite(cos that's what i do on fridays apparently) and i didn't get to get my check cashed after all. sigh, i'll do it tomorrow.
anyway, later

current mood: energetic
current music: mad world, gary jules

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Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
6:27 pm - brilliant, sorrowful, beautiful...i just really love this
Gary Jules - Mad World )
despite appearances, i'm actually pretty happy as of late. i just find sad things to be the most beautiful. and they make me happy.

current mood: content

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3:45 pm - brought to you by the letters a thru z and the number 26.
Daily extended (by
It's just a flesh wound, but it still may sting just a bit. Apply a few bandages and hope for the best. Certain circumstances may be out of your control, but at least you know that things will heal quickly and won't leave a scar. Count on your inner resources to get through the day. Spend a little time and money on pampering yourself, but be sure to keep one foot in reality. Call up an old friend tonight and share your thoughts

nothing much to say today. i started a new diet, and i registered for the psychology class i need(b/c i got paid today). i'm going to go pay for it tomorrow and also to get my nursing program application. yess!!
"the fountainhead" is turning out to be one of the best books ever...and it only took me 3 years to figure it out. heh. but it's awesome, and definitely something i would recommend.
that's about the extent of my day.
i wish my hair would grow back.....

current mood: gloomy
current music: bottle up and explode, elliott smith

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