| you're a god and i am not |
[19 Jun 2006|06:54pm] |
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"You're A God" vertical horizon |
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I've never seen all of Bruce Almighty. I keep seeing the part at the end where he's in the news station and they announce that the Sabres have won the Stanley Cup and on after that. It's the cutest thing in the world that they play "You're A God" by Vertical Horizon for most of the ending. That song is adore and I happen to have bought the CD back in good ol' 1999.
I no longer have the energy to dick around. I can't get over it - I woke up early. It took me three tries to get my hair right. I decided to wear my new shirt instead of saving it for Kennywood. I don't even want to go to Kennywood anymore. I was all buppy and perky when I left the house, right on time, and then it pours on me and I get soaked. My hair looks ridiculous by the time I get to school. I wanted to say to everyone, "No, this isn't it. It can look better." I wanted to come to school with a GOOD haircut instead of a LAME one. I wanted to do that ONE LAST THING before school ended. I wanted to look cute, or at least feel confident that I looked alright, something I tried to achieve by getting my hair cut. Impossible. Imposible! That is now obvies.
I half-assed that game for Wilds - we shouldn't have to MAKE a GAME, for fuck's sake, we just wrote a 5-page paper for her stupid ass - so it's going to bring my grade down. Then! By sitting in Zinga's room because I was in a 'crying zone' and I knew I couldn't take Wilds being a cunt and shooting off her mouth for TEN MORE SECONDS OF MY LIFE, I missed something else that will bring my grade down even MORE! YEEEAAHHH! YEEEEAAHHHH YOU GO YOU FUCKING CUNT, YOU RULE MY FUCKING WORLD!
I don't have the energy to do "this" anymore. I want to go to sleep forever. And I did sleep, for a long time, after I got home, and even though I woke up tired as ever it felt good. I watched the X-Files episode about William again and cried even harder - Scully at the end is too much for me - then finished the series off. Closure! I don't know what the hell Mulder was talking about at the end. Well yeah, I do, but it didn't seem right. I'm gonna miss that show. I'm gonna Netflix it.
"You're a god and I am not." What's it gonna take to sit through the next four days? Can I please HAVE IT? For fuck's sake. Why am I so jumpy right at the end? Why can't I suck it up? I need to find a way to take a deep breath and clear my head, because there's so much negativity crushing me right now that it's hurting me bad. My head is going in circles.
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