Omega19x

6:40am: I'd like to feel normal again, that's all.
Warning, the following post describes biological processes that happen below the waist. And I don't mean sex. Don't want to know? Then you'd better keep scrolling.

I'll be very interested in seeing the results of the latest sample I took. Because it will confirm the order of last night's events a little better...

Poop.
Examine poop.
See no blood.
Take sample.
Sit back down.
Pee.
Wipe near the front.
See blood. Not just a little blood, but bright red blood, mixed with something. The kind of blood you see in the middle of your period.
Wipe the back.
See poop. The kind of poop that says you've had about three meals containing lots of spinach since we've seen each other last. But no blood.
Wipe really hard in back again. Surely, if there was that much blood on the toilet paper, there would be more blood if I pressed really hard, and pushed it up inside a little.
See some poop, but no blood.
Wipe really hard in the front. Surely, if there was that much blood on the toilet paper, there would be more blood if I pressed really hard and pushed it up inside a little.
There's blood. Not a lot, but it's visible.

So there's a 96%-97% chance that this blood was completely vaginal.

But it's the dead middle of my cycle, we're talking ovulation, and I shouldn't be seeing any at all. But if that's true, and it is vaginal... are the cramps I was having this week gas or menstrual in nature? Could some of the times I saw blood in the past be related to screwed up periods instead? How can you even tell the difference? And I just wasn't selective enough about where the toilet paper happened to be at the time of wiping?

Or am I wrong now? Is the mucous I've had the past few days evident of a flare up, or is it evidence that the probiotics I received in that little baggy last week were a dead strain. I've had far less symptoms since I opened the new bottle I bought and began using it...

Dammit all. What the fucking hell is wrong with me?!

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9:01pm: Will you shut up, I'm trying to be a good citizen here.
I'm a good American citizen. I want what's best for not only myself, but for future generations that will come after me. I'm concerned about what's happening around me, and I want to understand the core issues a little better. I want to hear the opinions of both sides, and make my own decision (which will probably fall somewhere in the middle of the two). And I want to use that knowledge to live a better, more responsible life.

That's why I went to a town hall meeting tonight, that was being held by one of our local representatives.

It was an interesting meeting. And after I've listened, I think I agree more with the Republican opinion on health care than I do the democrats.

I certainly believe that reform is necessary, but begin with a model that has economic sustainability, such as the Health Savings Account model. Personally, I think this would encourage competition in the private sector, allow individuals to choose how they spend their health care dollars, and encourage personal responsibility.

However, the current HSA model has many limitations. We should be truly free to select doctors, but we're still punished for stepping out of network. We pay everything out of pocket, but the insurance company decides what can and will apply to a deductible, preventing the consumer from ever reaching it, and thus preventing the actual insurance co-pays from ever kicking in. A real reform would tackle those issues, as well as better educate the public on what options currently exist.

The only problem with the town hall meeting (and it was better than the ones I've heard about on TV) was that there were plenty of idiots who felt the need to jab, jeer and make sarcastic comebacks after every other word. And some of them just happened to be directly behind me. It made it difficult to hear everything, and made it even more difficult to think critically about it.

That sort of behavior belongs at a pep-rally. Not a political forum.

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