Below are the most recent 4 friends' journal entries.

Tuesday, July 8th, 2008
orangetree	7:04a	Happy again I was thinking about the talk we had yesterday. I wanted to let you know that no matter where you live or who you are with, I just want you to be happy. I know it is hard making a drastic move. I get that. It was really hard to leave the ex because I was afraid to be all alone. To not have a place to call my own, to not know if I could make it on my own. But, as time went on I not only had a place all my own, I found the man I married and have children with. All things are possible. You should know that. I am not disapointed in you. I never have been. But, I know that you can have a happy life if you just take that chance. I want you to live life and do what makes you want to live. I don't want you to just be in his life and that you hand in there for the sake of the girls. They would come to a realization, maybe not now, but in the future that it was the best thing to get out when you did. Will everything be perfect. Not in the beginning, but can it be close to perfect in the future. All things are possible if you try. I have to go to work now. This is my early morning, but I wanted to let you know that I really want you to think about coming here by the start of the school year. We have enough to get you all started. We can make this work. I trust you with my life, I would trust my girls life with you and I only wish that you would think about that. There are not many people that I would hand my kids over too. You would be good for them. Please really think about it. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 6th, 2008
orangetree	8:17a	He got a little hurt So, I got your text yesterday afternoon and wanted to read it all day. But, I couldn't get to a computer until last night. Plus I wanted to ask you about A1 when I heard about her car. So, last night I was reading your journal and in the process of responding when the husband came over. I started to cover the computer screen. He asked what I was doing. I mentioned that I was responding to your journal. He was a little hurt because I told him that it is something that we do together and that we don't want anyone else to read. Then he said "do you write about me?" I said sometimes. But, I also told him that it is nice to get things off my chest and just say things. That gives me time to rethink or reconsider what I want to say. He said "why don't you talk to me?" I told him, I do. But, I said that I also want to have this communication between the two of us and that was it. I think that sometimes it is important for him to know that he will always be apart of my life (the rest of my lfe) but that I need to write in this journal. So, after that he went and made ice cream and I finished writing what I needed last night. We were talking about A1 getting a mustang and that brought up her age. We had a debate about how old she was. But, why didn't you tell me about her car. I am still in shock that I didn't find out from you. I think that Dad and Kyong were even more shocked that I didn't know. But, I wish I would have known. Did you guys talk about this or was it something that he did without asking. Just curious. Well, this weekend was a little busy. We went to his parents house on the 4th. He got a little drunk and then I got a little upset because I don't like driving home from his parents house and I don't like driving long distance at night. So, he did stop drinking. But, as we were leaving I did notice that his eyes were a little droopy and he pulled over and I drove home about 2/3's of the way. I was ok with it. I just don't like driving at night. I guess I am spolied. Yesterday we played outside a while. Then after the husband got home we went to a friends house (from my work). She is the other supervisor that I work with. She has a couple of kids (7 and 11) but she has been talking about her coming over and have the girls go swimming. She has a 4 foot deep pool in her backyard. At first I wasn't going to have the girls go swimming, but they asked and so they went. K1 could touch the ground, so she was ok by herself. However, K2 wouldn't leave the ladder. She was to freaked out. So, maybe next time she will go in if I go in. Then after being at Jennifers house for about an hour and half we headed to Grandpa's house for our sisters b-day party. I can't believe that she is 20. The girls had a very busy and fun day. We left their house about 9pm and they came home and passed out pretty fast. But, I know that I am happy that our other sister J was there, but I think that she kept wanting it to be about me. She kept bringing up my school and when was I going to be done. She was asking about me walking (ceramony) for school and I told her I wasn't. But, I think that she was doing what she could to remind dad that I was going to have a degree real soon. I think he knows, I just don't think that he cares since it is not a 4 year degree. But, dad did mention that our younger sister will have her 4 year degree in about one year. I have relooked at schooling. I need to see what will truly make me happy. I don't think that I really want to deal with the politics of the business world. Plus, I am pretty happy not going any further. I don't want to go up because there is even more bullshit to deal with. I have tried in the past but people want certain people in positions and they will not give new people a try. They just pick people who suck. So, I have decided that I don't want to go where people don't want me. Then, I keep thinking about Paypal. They are right down the street from our house and I hear they start out at really good pay. I heard as an operator you can make $13-15 to start and that as management it is $40 grand. That would be nice. I could deal with that. So, yesterday we went to home depot to get a giftcard and I asked K2 if she wanted to paint her room. She does. We are going to do it purple with flowers and rainbows. I think that we might start working on this Thursday. I won't have class (teacher is going out of town) and I am thinking about taking a vacation day. So, as long as I have coverage at work I will probably start with getting the paint and doing her room. I think that it is time to get rid of that light green color she has had since we moved into this house. Well, I sure do miss you. I really hope that we will be able to see each other real soon. If there is ever a time you want to come up here, please just call. We can pick you up and have you stay here. I know that gas is making it hard to travel, but the girls would really love to see you too. I have to go make the girls breakfast. They both are up now. I love you and miss you. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 3rd, 2008
orangetree	6:54a	quick update I am about to head off to work. I got home last night at 11:30pm and we decided to watch "So you think you can dance" and that took us up to 1:00am. So, since today is my morning shift I was up at 6:30am to get ready for work. The nice thing is even though I have school tonight it will be nice getting off at 5pm. Then I know my weekend starts. Tonight I do have class. I haven't had time to do homework, so I hope he doesn't ask for us to turn in any assignments. Next Tuesday we are getting a take-home test. I like those, but don't like those. They are harder then you want them to be. The first test that I got in Statistics was a 93%. I was happy with that. I know that if I keep up on homework and actually read the book, then I should do ok. I checked the Metro website and I noticed my name on the Deans list again. I like seeing it. The reason is because I work so hard and really do try to do well, I like earning that achievement. So, poop if that if vain. I don't care. Too bad I can't take more English classes, I could use those. I have been thinking about what I will do with my FREE time once I am out of school. I think that I will learn EXCEL more. I would like to be able to use those spreadsheets a little better. I will also get caught up on my reading. I have (no kidding) about 15-20 books that I have picked up over the years and have not had time to read them. I am excited about that. I also have the Oprah magazine that I need to get caught up on. So, lots of reading. Yesterday was a really nice day. I sat down with the girls and we read 6 books right in a row. It was nice because it gave me time alone with them. I normally would have allowed them to play while I got caught up on other shit, but I said screw it. I needed time with them. I hope that things are going ok for you. I hope that you have a good 4th of July. Please write and tell me what is going on. Also, UPLOAD pictures on Walgreens. I want to see you and the girls. I love you and miss you very much. Gotta go to work. Talk to you later. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 30th, 2008
orangetree	9:18a	Reading Lately I have been able to catch up on some reading. I only have one class right now which gives me more time than I have had in a long while. I am excited to know that I have about 6 weeks left of school. It will go faster than I know. Once this is done I will decide if I will go back and if I want to continue to do business. I really don't know. But, the more I deal with work the less I want to deal with business bullshit. I have about one more month before I get to go to days. I will work 7am-4pm with Sunday/Mondays off. It will be a change from having my Friday/Saturdays off, but it will be worth it. I can't wait. A couple of things that will change will be my pay. I will lose about $300 a month in a shift differencial. That will suck. But, I don't care. If I didn't take this chance now it would have been another 10 years before I could be on days. The husband will also have to change his schedule. He is getting (I believe) a better schedule than I will have. He will work 7-330pm on Sunday/Monday, Wednesday and Friday from 530pm-11pm. He will now have off Tuesday/Thursday and Saturday. But, he will be going to school so I hope he sticks to it. I have already said that if he doesn't then I will ask him to get a full-time job. The storms have been bad lately. I can't believe what God is trying to tell us. We have been lucky and have not had any damage yet. I do not want it to happen, but the girls keep asking about the storms. I tell them as long as they are safe, that is all that matters. But, the husband and I both took some pictures of the storms and some are really pretty. This morning is going to be crazy. I am heading out in 10 minutes to go to storytime for K2. Once that is done in a hour I have to run to WallyWorld. My glasses (frames) had to be replaced and they are lop-sided. Then after that I have to run to get catfood. I will then come home and then leave for work. Then I will be at work until 11pm and have to be back at 8am. Sometimes I have no idea if I am coming or going. I will have the husband check online and see about his transcripts from his school. Once we know what he has already taken we can sign him up for classes. I will also have him check about our Economy Stimulus check. We have not gotten that yet either. He asked what we were going to do with it and I told him Save it. I am not sure he liked that idea. But, it is the best thing to do right now. Well, I have to go. Gotta go to Storytime. Hope to hear from you in your journal. Take care and know that I miss and love you guys very much. (1 Comment |Comment on this)