| 10:05a |
A few to many
Can you say 6 drinks and that was it, I wasn't totally plastered but close, IT has been at least 3 years since I have even had that many in one day. Normally if I were to drink 6 it would take six months. I guess what bothers me the most about it is the hubby. So last night we go to J&D's house for a party, they have a ton of friends from out of town come in every year and last night I drank a few. The girls were there all day swimming and we went over about 5:30pm. He drinks some and for the first time in a long time I have a few and let me tell you that will be the last time I do. The reason I don't drink anymore is because he drinks every day and sometimes enough for the both of us.
IT was about 11 last night and the girls were tired, so was he, and I was dancing with the girls having a good time, and then he starts in about the girls being tired and I should just stay there for the night, I thought that was wrong of him, never have I left him when he was drunk, I have always taken care of him and the kids and dogs all the fucking time and this time once in a long time he's going to bitch to me about drinking and staying out late. I can remember 2 sundays ago when he was drinking with J&D, we were at there house and it was 11 o'clock and we finally leave when he has had enough, keep in mind the twins have school the next day and one had fallen asleep on the couch already the other was getting ready to fall alseep on the bed and that time it was ok to let the children be. Last night it was not for some odd reason, I guess it was because I was drunk and he was not. Fuck me I am pisst right now.
We left the party and came home, not a word on the way home, we get home the girls go off to bed and he starts in on me about how they were tired, he was tired and then I tell him that the first time in years I have a few to many and am condemed for it. I told him that will be the last time I have a few too many. The one night, what a mistake i made. The thing that makes me angry was I always take care of him when he is drunk, I make sure he gets into bed and I do the dog run, take care of the kids and so on and so on.
Last night after I said what I did, I started crying, walked off and went to bed, I made him take care of the kids and dogs for the first time in a long time.
This morning I woke up after having a dream that he wanted to divorce me, how nice was that. In my dream he tricked me and left me.
Then there is tonight, we have a birthday party at his brothers house |
| 10:40a |
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Since I last updated a few minutes ago, I knew this would happen, He comes in from outside and tells me he isn't going to his brothers party tonight and that was that, you see we have a party tonight and I was upset because his parents have dropped these girls like shit since S moved out and I was liable to go off on them for treating the girls that way anyway, he now tells me he isn't going and and walked out of the house and left in the truck, so now I get to call him and ask where he is, this day is going to be hell. Well I have to go now I love you and will talk to you soon. |