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Some times I think he can be so childish and stupid. You know he pouts all the time if he doesn't get his way, sometimes I think worse then the kids and he stays mad over the stupidest things. I am not sad or mad, just don't understand why he is such a big baby sometimes. This is what happened, last night at dinner A3 licked her fork and that drives him to insanity, why it does I don't know, anyway, he finally had enough and told her to go get a plastic fork and that is what she will use until Monday. I think it was stupid, I think he over reacts alot and then when he does he wants me to back him up over somethings that can be so stupid. Anyway he went on a tangent for 5 minutes and then wanted me to join in and I didn't by stateing this, he asks me in front of her "why, Why do you think she does it?" Now of course he wants me to join in on his tangent and I guess he was in for a shock because my answer was, Well, I think she does it because she really likes the dinner we have and wants to clean her fork. Boy did that piss him off, I was suppose to join in on his rediculous rampage and I didn't, I was truthfull. So his answer to that was "If I wanted a C---L (moms name) answer I would have asked. You see, if he doesn't get an answer he likes he tells me I am being just like mom. You asked I told you how I felt I said. He sat theree dumb founded. After they left the table he pats my leg and says thanks for backing me up and you always do (sarcastic response). He then left the table and sat on the couch, after that I didn't get one civil word the rest of the night, in fact, after I did the dog run, he gets up and goes to take a shower and A2 came over asked where daddy was, I said I think taking a shower, she said ok, I will sit here until he gets back, which was next to me, I said ok. Well 5 mintues later he comes out and I told her it was time to get up and he starts in about no, no you stay right there, I told him, she was only sitting here until you got back, he goes on about how they can take it over in no time. Just stupid I thought, all they want to do is sit next to me, big fucking deal. Get over it. Anyway, I let him return to the bedroom pisst and waited till I knew he was alseep and then went to bed. Just stupid. Even this morning he tells me how out of control they are going to be when they get older and he won't be around to help, it will be me who will have to deal with it. At this point that is fine, becuase I have good kids and to be honest, I know tey won't be as screwed up as I was I know that, I am more involved in there life, I actually give a shit about them, unlike our mother (sad to say).
You know A1 brought home straight A's on her report card, what more can you ask, she plays sports, and is responsible, yes she may lie, but we can get past that and work on that. Today Dr. Phils episode is about living with a Liar, you know I am recording that and will have A1 watch it later with me.
A2 and A3 are doing really well in school, they have fun which brings me to another negative thing about the hubby, he keeps telling them that he is going to have them repeat the 5th grade because they are not mature enough yet and he speaks for me about that also, he will say, even without asking me first "your mom and I think you are not ready for the 6th grade and therefore we are going to hold you back" He does it all the time, I don't say anything, the girls know I won't let it happen, I have already told them they were going to 6th and I would not hold them back, and I wont. I hate when he speaks for me, I have to wonder if he is normal or not, I have to wonder if this is how I want to live the rest of my life. He's got such crazy rules and there is no doubt that we have different parenting skills. You know I guess the next time he puts my parenting skills down, like I don't know what the fuck I'm doing, I need to say something to him about that. I am a good parent and most importantly, I love my kids with a passion and would do anything for them, even back them up when my husband is wrong, he is a right fighter you know, has to always be right, even when he isn't. Me, I am a peace keeper, anything to keep the peace.
So whats been going on with you, school work, the kids. let me know. I love and miss you sis and I will talk to you soon. |