| 7:28a |
Pisst would be an under statement
You have no idea how pisst I am right now, it is sad to say that it has come down to these damn dogs. after yesterdays ordeal with that emotional stress and everything else that is going on all I want to do is wake up and drink coffe and watch the damn news. I really don't ask for much just a semi peaceful morning and one of the stupid dogs has to f--k that up for me. we are sitting in the kitchen and the damn dog has to go and chew on the cable and poof no tv, as soon as I realized what was happening I go outside and he had chewed on it. I wanted to beat the stupid dog. The hubby fixes it and the dog run continues. the second round after the hubby leaves, I let him out and it doesn't take 4 minutes and he did it again, this time I can't fix it. Pisst would be an under statement on how mad I am right now. It has come to the point where I hate these fu--ing dogs. What you have to understand, is they already did this to the cable in our room, we have had no tv in there for almost 2 weeks, the hubby said he was going to fix it this past weekend and he didn't and now he says that he will fix this one this weekend. A couple months ago, the stupid dogs did this to our internet cable, so this is a repaet thing and there is nothing I can do about this and so, here I am ready to cry over this, yesterday's ordeal and the fact that the mortgage is due today. Can you see why I want to cry. I have to take a break I will write more in a bit, I have to calm down. be back. |
| 8:15a |
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Ok, to continue with this, I am a little less pisst right now. A2 spends alot of time with the hubby's parents since they are on track break, thankfully they go back to school in about a week on the 25 and boy do I need it, but anyway, this is how it all come about. From the time she went to school, her 1st teacher in kinder. said that she has a tendenacy to zone out and you have to grab her attention, this has been going on for years and all her teachers has said that she does do this. that is when it was said that she goes into her own little world and it became A--world, I am sure I have mentioned it before to you. Well the grandparents said that she might have hypoglucmia becuase it is like she will crash and then you feed her and 20 minutes later she is fine. So I set her up a doctors appt. for yesterday and explained how long and what we thought it was, which was a daydreamer, and it can happen at anytime and explained that now that she has spent more time with grand parents they are the one who had mentioned to have her checked out for low blood sugar. My thought, it couldn't hurt, if it is the case then we can help her out. So he asks her while we are there if she realizes when this happens and she said no, only when someone is trying to get her attention when we notice it. THen he says it, " I think she might be having petit mal seizures" and he kinda explains it to me, but by this time i am lost for words, i was dumb founded, never in my life would I have thought this. He says that he would like to recoomend her to a neurologist (spelling), the only thing I can think to say is OK. I guess after hearing that I was lost in my thoughts and speechless, how could this be, I take her in to have her blood sugar checked and he says it could be seizures, from one extreme to another!! With in few day he will call back with the approval from our insurance and refer us then and in the mean time we are to keep track of these episodes. We then leave. I didn't know what to say, so we get in the car, I call the hubby and tell him what I was told and he starts drilling me, did I ask about doing a blood panel, why didn't I ask all these questions, I told him that I didn't know what to say or ask once I heard that. He was pisst. I am to the point of crying, because once again I feel as though I had done something wrong. This time though I had told he, that I didn't know what to say and that I was sorry I was not on my feet at that time and we hang up. I was so upset, here I just got this news and he's being an ass. so I call his mother and talk to her and tell her what he had done and we talked through it and I even talked to his dad. Then something happened, it was about 25 mintues later the hubby called and did something he has never done in the past he said he was sorry for how he reacted and he didn't mean what he said, he was just as confused as I was and so we talked about it for a few minutes and I explained to him when that was told to me I was more or less in shock from what I had heard, and he said the same. after hanging up I called his mother back and told her that he had apoligized to me and she said what a change. As for my little girl, I now want everything checked out to make sure she is all right. When we go to this other doctor, we will have tons of questions and also make him check her blood sugar level, I want everything ruled out. we may find out that she is nothing but a day dreamer. whatever it is I want to know.
Needless to say yesterday was a very draining day emotionally for me. If this is the case, here we are for years now talking about how A2 is in she own world and they would joke over it with her, how shitty is that. I feel bad that we didn't take her in sooner, I never would have thought.
Well I am going to go now, I need to take an advance on paycheck and get into the bank so I can pay the mortgage today, I love you sis and will text you now. Talk to you soon. |