| 7:50a |
silent night
So yesterday afternoon we started talking about going back to the other state we just came from, I told him how terrified I was of the storms and he kept asking me why, it got to the point where I was crying thinking about moving back there. Also it is the fact that I am not as happy there as I am here or would be with you. So it was upsetting. Then we started on the topic that we started a couple weeks ago, which was our marriage, we didn't get far into it when his mother showed up to drop off the girls. After she left, we didn't talk again. We sat in silence until he fell asleep on the loveseat, then I finished up dinner, woke him up then sat again in silence for hours, until we finally went to bed at 10pm. Then he started in about the dogs making to much noise and he kept yelling at them and kept me awake, then finally at 11pm, he took his pillow and blanket and went and slept on the couch, first time since we have been married. I hope he got the sleep he so longed for, I know I slept just fine, either way. We have yet to talk about our marriage, I guess I will have to tell him sooner or later, how the wall are going up and how I feel. I guess we will see.
HE will be at home today, the wind is blowing and they won't be able to work, so we will see what happens today. I love you and will talk to you soon. |