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resume
So I told him last night, we had a short conversation about money and lack there of, so I told him that I polished up my resume because of money and he said give it time, I told him, we don't have much time. I told him that I had been looking through the classifieds for a job. There are alot out there, I just have to figure out which one I will want to do. See now this has to be kept on the down low, but he applied for a position (same thing he did in the previous place) and he has a written exam on the 22nd. His training wouldn't start until the spring and I told him that if that were to happen, we would need more income before then. I told him that I have thought about managing again to make good money. I look at it for insurance also, we pay over 800 a month for that alone and if he were to get on or I got a good job, then we wouldn't have to pay for that. So we will see.
So last night, he had a few too many again wanted to have sex and I had a headache from earlier and so we didn't, this morning he got up at 2am to go hunting with his buddies and doesn't plan on being home till late tonight and so that gives me all day to make a defense plan that way I will be prepared for when he does get home. I know he is mad because he won't take my call. if his phone rings 2 or three times then goes to voice mail, then he turned my call away, if it rings 4 or 5 times then he normally can't get to it in time or is on the other line, as silly as it sounds, I have tried 2 times this morning to call him and the first time it rang 2 times and the second 3 times, so I know he knows I am calling, but won't answer. So I told myself that I am not going to call him again. and when he calls I may not take it also, I may make him call 2 or 3 times before I answer, to see how he likes it.
The hubby talked to one of his co-workers from the other state and his co-workers father is a judge from where I worked and his father told him that my office isn't the same anymore, he told his son that I made that office run and I got things done and now its falling apart. I guess it felt good to have someone see and know how hard I worked that didn't even work in my office only worked with our office.
Yesterday when I thought of doing bills I got chest pains and told the hubby about it last night, I told him it is driving me insane to have to figure out what I will pay and what I won't, so, I told him sunday we will do it together that way he will know where we stand. The reason for this is because yesterday he told me he took out 100 from the bank and I felt my chest tighten and knew if he didn't do it with me he would never stop taking money at will and so hopefully he will understand, where I am coming from. Well I am sorry to keep talking and talking, I just don't know what to do.
You will find this funny, but thursday night he actually talked about bringing a puppy into this house, I said no way. He wanted it because it is a grand daughter of ours that we breed. No, No, No it is not happening. we still have 11 and i am not sure if one isn't coming back because she is having a hard time with her new owner, the new onwer thinks she is missing us too much and is trying to work it out with the dog to keep her, but I don't know what will happen. I will let you know.
I am going to go now, I miss you and love you very much. |