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Sunday
Well alot has happened this week. Monday and Tuesday were rough at work, the begining of JT is the highest stressed for the attorneys in the office most of them are down right bitch-e and want to be left alone unless of course they want something. But the good thing is I got alot accomplished at work, unlike the attorneys after the first day it is hectic but the remaining days are a good time to catch up on a lot of things, which I did. I'm now able to do a little less this week since we are still going to be in JT's again, it will be nice in away.
Wednesday rolled around and we got up at 5 as we do every morning and the hubby went out to feed all the dogs and one of the females decided to start whelping and had already given birth to 7 pups, which 2 were already dead, one froze and the other, we don't know if it was still born and she ate 1/2 of it or she was trying to get it out. Well, by then it was so cold out and we both were due to go to work and if we didn't move these pps and mother dog into the house by the time we would have gotten home they would have died. I call my boss, must say he is a great boss, I start telling him what happened and he said I could stay home, so I kept my oldest daughter home from school and we worked the rest of the day to whelp the other 6, she had a total of 11 for her first litter and 2 died before they even had a chance. Needless to say by the end of the day we were exhausted.
Later that day I called to see if we had been aproved for that loan we had appled for and got denied. I told the hubby later that day and now the table has to turn, I most likely be appyling for another job, I can work from 5:30 to 10:30-11:00 that way I can get home get a few hours sleep and go to work in the mornig. Everytime I mention that I will have to get a job the hubby says that will not solve the problem we have, I agree to that but at least it will pay the bill, that way I don't have to start choosing which bills I going to pay and which ones I'm not, I have never been in this situation and I don't want to be in it for long, something has got to change and fast.
Friday, I finally was at the end of the work week and glad that it was. Stressfull week it was too many dogs in the house and everything seemed too crazy. My oldest daughter calls me at work says that one of the pups isn't eating, I tell her to try and get her stimulated enough to eat. By the time I had gotten home it was 5:20 so then I take over trying to get this pup to eat, I worked for and hour and a half and finally it looked like it was starting to eat again, I was holding her in my hand while she was on her momma and she started to kick her leg as if to move away from her momma, so I picked her up held her in my and then she had a seizure, her whole body stiffened up and she died. I started to cry. with in 5 minutes the hubby came in the house and I told him what has happened and by this time I'm hyperventalating because I'm crying so hard and my heart was hurting, it was the sadest thing I have had to handle in a long time. I explained to the hubby that the girls didn't know yet, they had gone down to feed there goats and sheep and they would have to be told this and I wouldn't be able to in the condition I was. It broke there hearts, all they knew when they went down to feed she was alive and when they got back to the house she wasn't. I still cry even writing and thinking about it so I try my best not too.
This morning I was downloading picture of the pups and there she was a beauiful little girl. The girls had given her the name bridgette prior to her dying, it was because her mothers name is gidget. Looking at all the pictures I download, that was the most beautiful one there was. One day I will show you her. My oldest girl has already asked for a copy of it.
Tomorrow I go back to work and I am almost looking forward to it. It will get me out of the hose since we have not left the puppies side since they were born. Even the hubby has slept in a recyliner in the kitchen everynight to help her out, only because she is not the best of mothers yet, she is getting better, but by wednesday, we all will be out of the house because the kids have school and we both will have to go back to work. So lets hope that they all make it through that day and are strong enough by then.
I am kinda of tired of all these dogs, not the momma and pups the other ones I have in the house. they are a pain in my ass. They have been locked in ther e kennels through this and not allowed in the kitchen and they are pissed about it. All they seem to do is bark and that is driving me crazy.
Well I have ot go the puppies are calling on me, and I need to go shower. I love you and will talk to you soon. |