| 8:19a |
A Little pissed
Well I get home last night and was out with the horses and one of the twins comes out and tells us (husband) that Rip (the dog) has just tore up the cushion on the loveseat. You know I am so pissed about that, he already tore up both cushions on the couch, now one cushion on the loveseat is gone, all the stuffing to the seat is all over the living room floor and you know what, I am not going to pick it up, I don't care if it sits there till you come out sis. I am tired of the dog destroying all our shit. And the hubby doesn't even care, his answer buy another one, well if he hadn't noticed money doesn't grow on trees. I refuse to buy anymore couches because when we get those, he will do the same thing and I will be even more pissed. So I won't be buying any new ones, if he decideds to fine, then he can waste the money because I refuse too, knowing they will be destroyed down the line. I remember when he use to bitch about the kids destroying everything and look at the stupid dog, he has done more damage then all 3 kids put together. :(
Then, about this car we are buying, so his days changed, last night he decided he would fly up then drive it back, so I check into flights there goes another $300.00 to the credit card, needless to say I'm not happy about spending this extra money we don't have. He doesn't think I could tow it back and I just don't know why I can't handle it, he doesn't have confindence in me to do something like that I guess.
I have to go for now, I will write more soon... |
| 2:19p |
hard day
I had wrote about this car thing, well I sometimes wonder if my husband thinks I can't handle certain situation. I guess why I'm so mad is because he can't let it go. Why would you fly in to drive home the next day, I just don't understand why he would want to waste that money.
Why does he have to have control, why can't I have some control. You know the kids and I will leave on Friday morning and have that whole day and a good part of Saturday to ourselves, with my family, then I will have to go pick up my husband at the airport around 10pm saturday, then we will do the "oh I missed you so much (which I'm not so sure I will)" and have to stay up for a coupe hours talking. That trip home will be a long one, We will have to stay together and stop when he wants too, its one more thing I won't have control over.
You know today it has been a hard day, I have been very moody and I know it is because I am pissy about this trip not going as I was planning it would. It's not that I don't want my husband to go, I just want him to spend the money for the plane ticket up there. I think it is a waste and he thinks it's a great savings. If he would actually look at the bills and see how many we have and how I stress over paying them and how I see all the ATM withdraws that he does and get mad then think about how he can spend and I watch. I watch him for months do it when he was bringing in nothing but dreams and now he finally is bringing some and I all want to do is save.
I don't know why I bother to care... |