| 1:39p |
Dieting Sucks
So when I began this I knew I was bigger then I thought I was, I guess I was in denial, about how big I really was. I have some work cut out for me. I have done some type of exercise these past 3 days and have watched what I've eaten and stopped drinking soda, now that was big, I think on the weekends I will allow myself one. In all, I would like to get down to 130 but for right now, I would settle for 135, then work on those last 5, I wouldn't even mind getting down to my high school graduation weight of 127. In that case I would have to lose 20 and that will be alot of work.
I think I blame my husband for my weight, he kept telling me that we wanted me bigger and kept giving me shit cause I kept telling him I wanted to lose weight and he fought me on it. When I met him I was average 118 to 120 and happy, so if you look at where I am now I have gained 25 plus, and it sucks. I have a belly and big butt and feel sooooo fat I don't even want to look at myself anymore.
So I told him I was on a diet and watching what I was eating and the funny thing about it he didn't say anything to me, I guess either he agrees or gave up trying to tell me to gain weight.
I will talk to my doc this friday about taking an appetite suppressant like hydroxycut I heard it burns more calories and tones you up and you eat less, it may take a few days but I would like to be beautiful by the time I see my family again. I am going to do my best.
Hey sis, we have the perfect horse for the girls and you to ride when you come to visit. so bring the camera. Love ya, talk to you all soon |